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MITSKI AND YUTA?????? IM LIVING FOR IT PLEASE ELABORATE 🙇🏻‍♀️

🤭 sooooo this is very much confident!reader but yk...

forget what i said about it not being problematic...

yuta has been thrown into this world where he knows nothing and is told he has tremendous power. even after he defeats geto, he's sent on all these jobs where no matter how hard he tries, people always get hurt. he has all the tools he needs to succeed, and yet he still fails. if only he were as strong as maki or as fearless as toge. he's simply not good enough.

so why did you take such an interest in him? you were stronger than him in every way (barring cursed energy output) and, most obvious to yuta, confident. you knew what you were and your place in the world, and you took it as your own. why would you ever care about a waste of space like him? he didn't get it. but he really didn't need to.

whenever you talked to him, he felt important. like he was worthy of being kept in the loop of your life. when you lend him a hand off the ground after being knocked down and brush off his shirt, inspecting him for any grass or dirt, he feels a sense of belonging to you. he's now something that should be taken care of. just your presence in his everyday life makes him valuable.

when you go away on a job for a few days, he finds it harder to take care of himself. you're working, so you really don't have time to reply to his messages or call him back. the whole first day goes by, and he realizes he hasn't eaten anything all day, he feels pathetic.

it's almost 10pm, and you still haven't seen the messages he sent this morning telling you and maki to stay safe. he figures he'll take his mind off you by catching up on his show and getting a snack before bed.

eventually, one episode turns into a whole season, and a snack turns into anything salty yuta can get his hands on. It's almost 2 am when yuta feels his phone vibrate beside him on his bed. he snatches it immediately and sees you've finally responded.

thank you, yuta! me and maki are ok, just exhausted. we should be home by midday tomorrow. ik you're probably asleep by now, so sleep well! <3

you thought he'd be asleep by now. there was no way he was going to tell you that rather than going to bed at a reasonable time, he actually binged for almost 4 hours straight. it's only then that he realizes his current situation.

yuta becomes painfully aware of his full bladder, sweat-covered body, and grease-stained hands. surely it hasn't been this stuffy in his room the whole time, right? yeah, the ac must have turned off... but he's definitely needed to pee since two episodes ago. and his mouth was so... dry? he felt disgusting. what would you think if you saw him like this? you'd probably lose respect for him, he thinks.

the thought of you knowing he devolves into this pathetic mess the moment you're gone terrifies him. this fear motivates him to get his act together. he leaves you on delivered and plugs his nearly dead phone in before heading to the showers.

once he's all cleaned up, he puts on pajamas to convince himself he'll get some sleep soon... he cleans up all the crumbs and throws away all the trash in his room. but of course, once all the trash is gone, he can't help but wonder if his room would look better with his bed in the opposite corner. well... he could just try it out and move it back if he didn't like it.

he, in fact, did not like it. but maybe if he moves his other furniture around to accommodate, it wouldn't be so bad right? this redecorating went on until the morning when his bed is back to where it started, and yuta gets dressed for the day, not getting an ounce of sleep last night. yuta wanted to push through until midday so you could see he was doing just fine.

yuta and inumaki are sparing when inumaki suddenly stops and points behind yuta. when yuta turns around to see what he's pointing at, he sees you and maki walking towards them on the field.

you all say hello and tell them about the mission, saying how you just want to sleep for the rest of the day. maki goes off to find gojo to report back to him, and before you can start heading off to the dorms, yuta offers to carry your bag for you since you were so exhausted.

you accept, and he takes your bag off your shoulder. you don't miss the small groan he lets out from taking on the extra weight. you both walk back to your room as you tell him everything that happened on your trip. as you walk, you notice him panting under his breath, trying to control his breathing.

you make it to your door and take your bag off his shoulder for him. you look into his slightly bloodshot eyes and ask him, "yuta, are you ok?"

yuta feels the weight of the world crashing down on him and strains to keep his tears from peaking over his eyelids. that is, until he feels your hands on both his shoulders, rubbing small circles with your thumbs.

he squeezes his eyes shut, knowing if he looks at you now, he'll break. he feels your hands slide down his arms into his own. you hold them so tightly like he belongs to you, and it's only natural.

"yuta." you start with a stern but still empathetic tone. "what's wrong?" you wouldn't know from how you're speaking, but he knows you're demanding an answer.

he slowly tilts his body forward until his head is perched on your shoulder and his face is buried in your neck.

"just glad you're home." he says, letting out a sigh before inhaling the scent of your body wash that still lingers. "how about we get some lunch hmm?" you say, bringing your hand up to lightly pat his head.

you don't give him time to respond before you're pulling away from him to lead him to the common room. he deserved to be taken care of. he was important.

me and my husband is probably my favorite mitski song next to francis forever(ik basic)

i deal with depressive episodes a lot so this is definitely me projecting in some way lmao i'm sorry 😭

ok well this is awkward... i'm so sorry i always bombard you win ;(

#ems ideas #my loves #yuta okkotsu x reader #lmao what is this

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snowbebbie · 15 days

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10 April 2024

Food:

- A bowl of seafood ramen

- 3 pieces of salmon nigiri

Exercise:

- 3.54km jog

- 15 x 3 Dumbell Shoulder Presses (3kg)

- 10 x 3 Dumbell Side Raises (3kg)

- 20 x 3 Weighted Goblet Squats (4kg)

- 15 x 3 Weighted Forward Lunges (3kg)

1 (one) set of fucking around

- Some Dead Hangs from pull up bar

- Some Kettleball Dead Lifts (20kg)

Journal:

Woke up early, but fell asleep again until 11am. Probably only got to the gym at like 1pm. Fucked around a bit.

All this time i thought the water cooler in the gym was just really sucky cause the water flow was super slow but today this guy came up to me and told me to press down on the thingy instead of flipping it. I am the problem.

Dropped by the mall nearby to pick up some dry shampoo. Went home after that.

Had a shower and dinner.

I cried about my ex a bunch. But i think I've accepted that even though i still care about him, i couldn't be with him cause he's mad self-centered and would always say the wrong thing cause he's kinda dumb and doesnt think that much about things (if he thinks) I think he cares about me too and i probably sound delusional for believing him but i think him staying away is his way of protecting me cause he knows i can't stay away LMAOO

He admittedly to really wanting to text me but he depression sleeps himself out of it. So slay i guess.

One of my online friends was lowkey depression texting me but i think i didn't respond on time (at the gym) so he hasn't responded in a while. but ngl i don't super care cause this is the same guy who's flirting with me and if he gets the point that i don't really care too much thats good. When I pointed out i don't think he was okay based on the way he said some things he was like "am i???" so i figured it was nothing and moved the convo on but he replied to the same message and was like "am i ok????" and like buddy if you're not okay then fucking say it i don't really have time for this shit you are 6 years older than me i cannot be your emotional support. i care about you but im not out here tryna be anyone's supprt system.

Someone left the online group too so oooo drama i guess. jk we are all adults here.

my no shit attitude nowadays is straight up due to being in a relationship with my ex bf and i needed to ask for like everything so i just became really fucking straightforward.

apperantly guys are into that so eh. i just think its funny because its a stark contrast from how i was a few years ago.

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