#so ig really im worried about her and im guilty about that and im panicking bc idek if im remembering things right in the first place

[strawberry-possum]

Man y'all ever just *becomes irrationally worried about someone you're barely acquaintances with and haven't spoken to in over two years*

#like ig we werent even really friends in the first place #it was more like 'i dont have any friends here and neither do you so lets pair up for group projects but nothing beyond that' #yknow #but #idk #last year before quarantine she started kinda. acting differently? #not that i knew her well enough in the first place to really know how she normally acted #but what little i heard about her felt /off/ and /not like her/ #and shes in a few of my classes rn and whenever shes called on by the teacher she never unmutes or types in the chat or anything #and every time i get just a little bit more worried bc when i knew her she seemed to care a lot about school? #it just feels off #but i feel like i dont have a right to worry bc really i can barely even call us acquaintances yk #and it really doesnt help that i cant even fucking remember anything in the first place #like just in general i cant remember things but its especially bad for stuff from middle school which is when we paired up n such #and i only know that bc. idk i just /know/ it but i cant /remember/ it #so idek if im actually right about /any/ of this - how she acted what she cared about etc #like what if this entire time she /was/ like this and im - idk projecting?? #so ig really im worried about her and im guilty about that and im panicking bc idek if im remembering things right in the first place #which the memory thing is a WHOLE other suitcase but we dont have time to unpack all THAT *represses that for a year again* #haha dont need to repress when you can just forget /hj #vent #tw vent #personal #dont rb thx #lemme know if theres anything else i should tag here!! :) /gen #also jeez this is funny #me: i have better more stable mental health than ive had gor years!! nothings wrong with me :))) #also me: *starts doubting my entire life the second i start trying to remember /anything/ even if its just as minor as what i had for lunch*