#so inherently rotten at your core

[anonyma13]

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#not being able to trust my own feelings and perspective is a special kind of hell #I hate that relationships are a source of intense anxiety for me #no matter how positive the core is I am still sick with it #do we have massively different values and I’ve just been pretending otherwise to myself? #or am I following in my mothers footsteps and blowing it all up for nothing? #or is it somewhere in between? #I can never be honest about how I feel because the bad days make it feel like everything is rotten #don’t give me that you just need other people in your life bullshit #when I struggle so hard with isolating myself #I guess my upbringing has told me that people are inherently unsafe and they will hurt you and that’s just life #maaaaybe I knocked some shit loose journaling about my childhood today #sigh #highly personal #I’m feeling so stressed and I know I’m getting so little sleep #th bright side is that a coworker slash maybe friend cares enough about me to want to get a drink #I think I kinda alarmed her with the whole all of the things I’ve built my life on have dry rotted #and I’m just trying to rebuild on my own with no support #but are you getting the care you need she asked me #and I about had a breakdown later because the answer is no #I wish I wish I wish I had just been able to slow down when we started dating #I wish I had been more self possessed and intentional #I’m #probably not getting any sleep tonight

[drefear]

Righteous and Romance

Summary: Miguel is the God of chaos, and you are the goddess of peace and beauty. an idea originally by @hrhmimieucliffe

TW: light smut, p in v.

He was inherently chaos, broad backed and straight shouldered. He was the voice dripped in red and encouraged man’s wildest desires: murder, sex, gambling, money, and more. A drowning flame, he was a mystery cloaked in anger and resentment, mirroring unease at every fine point. He was insanity and she was clever. She was butterfly kisses of the sea salt air on the beach, an afternoon sun shower with a rainbow across the bluest sky. She smelled of lavender and truth, and she sounded like honey covered dew drops on the tongue of a river. Her laughter made men fall to their knees, and so did his sword. His words made widows weep, and her words made them pray for thanks. 

She was all that was good and beautiful, and he was the fire that burned beauty to the ground in a pile of rotten ashes. 

They did not see eye to eye. 

“A martyr, creating such victims with your gifts.” Miguel roared, his nature as God of Terror taking hold of his mind as he stormed into your garden while you tanned in the grass. One of your eyes opened to see his hulking, angered form marching towards you and you let out a deep sigh in retaliation. 

“At least I am one to give gifts, as I recall you only give grief.” You sat up, fastening your silk robes around your waist as you covered your shoulders and leaned on one hand. He blocked the sun as he stood in front of you, frown cutting the corners of his mouth sharply. 

“Grief builds countries, grief gives men purpose and woman motivation. What do your frilly gifts do for anyone?” 

“My beauty and kindness gives all who they grace a sense of purity and happiness, of which can also build countries and give purpose and motivation. Have you ever been kind in your life?” 

“No one has given me a reason to do so.” As you stood to speak to him, you felt dwarfed by his stature and fixed your posture. 

“You should not need a reason to be kind to another.” You spoke back and he stayed quiet, no other words being spoken. 

This was a battle of beliefs, an unspoken exchange of ideas. You stared at one another silently before he turned on his heels and stomped away. 

But the truth was, at night, he worshiped your body like a loyal disciple. HIs lips ghosted over your skin as you mounted his lap, being held but one of his arms around your waist as your head fell backwards. Miguel pushed your hair off of your shoulder as he kisses and licked the top of your soft breasts, pacing himself and going slow to savor you like his last meal. 

“Your body is like a peaceful night under the stars.” He whispered as your hands wound their way into his brown hair, shivering at his sweet words. “Thank you for this, for giving yourself to me, my sweet Goddess.” He thanked you, appreciated you as your bodies rocked together in harmony, a melody only the two of you would ever witness. 

“My bold MIguel, let me give you everything when it is just us, let yourself fall deep into love.” You spoke against his forehead as he rolled your hips against his, buried deep inside of you as you shook with overwhelming pleasure. 

“I have fallen in love, and you are my only saving grace, you are my all and nothing could compare to our intimacy. I only pray to you, I only make love to you.” His admission of true love and devotion sends waves of ecstasy to your core and makes you clench around him as you both finish. Sweat covered your features as he laid down your bare body, staying close to you and refusing to detach himself. “I will never be with another like I am with you, to the Gods I swear it.” He announced and you cupped his cheek, bruising your thumb against the stubble. 

“To you, my precious Miguel, I am only my true self, and you are my purest desire, my indulgence. You are mine.” You concluded as your eyes pulled you into a black abyss and you both fell asleep, knowing that tomorrow the bickering would continue and the night would create a paradoxical love once more, between Chaos and Beauty. 

#miguel spiderverse #miguel x reader #miguel o’hara #miguel o’hara smut #miguel o’hara x reader #miguel spiderman #miguel smut #miguel o'hara #atsv miguel

[lakesbian]

ok i lied about blakeposting i'm still thinking about amy and victoria. the [grits teeth] really unfortunate thing. is that they are interesting. amy is about the horror of the dissonance between what her family believes her to be (& subsequently what She believes herself to be) and what she's pressured into attempting to be instead. her adoptive mother believes her to be some form of immutably rotten, an intrusion on the family whose ontological being is inextricable from the "wrongness" of her heritage--and subsequently amy believes herself to be immutably wrong. she's not really seen as a member of their ideal White American Golden Nuclear Family by her mother, but she's expected to pretend like she is. she fears the day that her immutable wrongness spills out, revealing her for what she truly is, causing those around her to inevitably hate & abandon her.

her feelings towards victoria are the ultimate tragic highlight of this: the dissonance between what she's supposed to be (an ideal sister, the heroic state-licensed cure-all companion to her golden girl counterpart who metes out justice thru state-authorized violence) and between the core she's terrified of having revealed (someone who doesn't internally view victoria as a real sister because she's treated as an intruder upon the family vs. a real member of it, someone who loves victoria very much but not in the way she's supposed to).

which is where her power comes in--it's about the painful irony of feeling that there's smth just Immutably Inherently Wrong With her that those around her will inevitably hate/leave her for, but instead of her power allowing her to change Herself to prevent that from happening, it lets her change Other People so they'll unconditionally accept her--but in the process of changing them, she meets the self-fulfilling prophecy of exactly what she believes 2 be wrong with her (being inherently predatory/an intrusion upon decent nuclear family/society). the one thing she can't fix or change no matter how desperately she wants to is herself.

and of course the whole "change/fix" thing her power does is impacted by her coremost emotions in the first place--part of the horror of it is how awful it would be if your worst split-second impulses & desperate thoughts could be made manifest directly against your own will. which ties very nicely into the underlying fears involved: you're wrong and dangerous and it will spill out everywhere no matter how hard you try to contain it. which it eventually does, because she's been raised with the expectation to fully contain herself within boundaries of a role actively hostile to her, and it's not a role anyone could act at perfectly forever. even the first moment she snaps/spills over is a direct result of an attempt to impose that role on her--victoria refusing to allow her to determine that she needs time away from family to cope w/ her emotional distress and forcing familial affection onto her under the assumption that, if the expected Sisterly Interaction is had, amy will do what victoria thinks is best for her & return to the family.

and of course there's the entire tragedy over there happening for victoria that she genuinely believes in her family, she genuinely thinks playing cop w/ mom and dad well enough will result in fulfillment & success for both her & amy, and she couldn't even fathom the underlying causes of the eventual snap of someone she regards as the purest form of sister. and i imagine she's very prone to retreating into the ideology instilled in her by her parents as emotional reassurance/protection from that betrayal rather than recognizing the ways in which it's hurting her too. girls when their lives suck. their lives Wouldn't suck if they simply were not put in those psychological torture pits. but unfortunately they were.

#parahumans #ilove being fashionably late to the worm fandom. writing posts on things established in worm dialectical canon literal years ago #theres probably edits i could make to this but its blakey time

[carpedzem]

Your last post on mcyt speaks to me so deeply, and I have the same experience: After all this I decided twitch was too toxic for me and I wanted no parasocial relationships period, so I unfollowed everyone (even outside mcyt) except for TwitchPlaysPokemon and deleted the app. I also unsubbed from a lot of mcyt except for my absolute favorites, because the the built up scars over the years cut too deep, and I'm looking for other kinds of content like books or dungeons and dragons for background noise instead. I'm not returning to other parts of a community that treated me like garbage for years and will subject me to further condescension and ridicule. Watching all this happen, I'm in a place where I think I'm supporting something inherently toxic by watching twitch. The effects that streaming culture has on both the creator and the fan are insanely unhealthy, and I don't want to be here anymore.

that is also interesting thing to say like if people in mcyt care sooo much about being good people what do we even do here. this space gets insanely toxic so in a way its rotten to the core. and somehow people still support it. kinda hypocritical isnt it? 🤨🤨

#nonny #discourse

[beevean]

Tbh I have a few major issues with HH. From the creators actions, to the character designs all looking nearly identical. But what irks me is the idea that the sinners can be redeemed, which misses the point that sinners are, rapists pedophiles, murderers. And ignores the point that many people are just evil and don’t change. To the point I agree with the exterminators because it’s hell, with evil people in it. IDK what are your thoughts?

I don't know what to think of the character design. Undoubtably, Vivziepop likes one kind of demon :P noodly, with shark teeth, with tons of red in their design, clad in a tuxedo, preferably with a top hat. But despite this, all demons look very distinct from one another, their silhouettes are recognizable, and their animal motifs are incorporated in fun ways. The Seraphs also look super cool to me, with their wings and the multiple eyes that open when they're mad. I can't be mad. I'm biased, I guess :P

(Adam sucks tho, even in design form. I hate him. there is nothing appealing about him.)

As for the morality, well, I think they're just starting to touch it properly.

The show doesn't ignore the most heinous sinners: Valentino in particular is shown in all of his abusive rapist glory. Obviously, he's not going to be redeemed.

Charlie may be overzealous in her project to redeem as many people as she can (and she is shown to be too sheltered for her own good), but it's pretty much spelled out that it has to be a personal choice. Mimzy, a buddy of Alastor, uses the hotel as a place of hiding from the loan sharks she stole from, and Alastor has to tell her to leave unless she plans to actually become a guest... but in his words, "it's not really her style". Cherri Bomb, a bomb obsessed rebel who so far has acted like a corrupting force for Angel, is also offered a place in the Hotel by Angel, and her reaction is more or less "nah, I'm good, thanks for the thought tho". Cherri Bomb in particular is not a monster, she could become a better person, but as for now she's not interested and that's it.

Heaven himself seems to have some issues regarding morality. One, no one knows the rules to get into Heaven, not even the High Seraph. Two, it's pointed out the unfairness of treatment: Angel was shown to have been on his best behavior and yet he's still stuck in Hell, while a complete piece of shit like Adam who admits that he loves exterminating for shit and giggles can enjoy his place in Heaven without so much as a slap on the wrist. Oh, but Lucifer and Vaggie "fell" because they dared to question the rules.

So far, the tone seems to be both cynical and hopeful as it needs to be: Charlie is fighting an uphill battle both against Hell and Heaven, and she needs to accept the reality of sin, that believing in the inherent good of people is not enough. However, some people are capable of change, because not everyone sins for the same reasons: some are rotten to the core and thrive in Hell, but others are desperate and can benefit from some genuine support.

So, again, I'm intrigued to see where this is going.

#hazbin hotel

[thejojolands]

Hey, I need to step in and say this, but Warriors Fans you have got to be more critical of what y'all say and reblog. WC has a big, glaring misogyny problem that needs to be discussed. I'm beyond pleased that we are talking about it at this point honestly, we need to have these conversations and condemn some of the messages these books are sending to kids. However, a lot of y'all aren't critiquing misogyny, y'all are spreading radfem talking points and I doubt it's on purpose. This isn't an attack, I am simply asking y'all to be mindful.

I often see posts that want to address misogyny, typically by juxtaposing characters to show how women tend to be antagonized or men may be unfairly praised. What happens though, is instead of simply condemning hypocrisy by showing that those actions are all good, bad, or grey, what people instead do is say that "all women are inherently good/all men are inherently bad." Obviously, replacing human terms with cat ones. That isn't combating misogyny, that is perpetuating radfem rhetoric.

I'll give an example of what I mean using a hypothetical. Molly and Male Cat are both bad, they do the same bad things to other cats and are in very similar circumstances. (IE, they are both ableists.) Molly gets hated an appropriate amount for being bad, but Male Cat tends to not get enough flack.

A post critiquing misogyny would say something along the lines of "Molly and Male Cat are both very similar and need to be treated the same. They both do awful things and need to be equally criticized."

A post that would be spreading radfem rhetoric would be something like "Male Cat did something bad, you excuse a tom for doing this but not Molly. Molly should be excused, she's a woman she didn't do anything that bad. Especially when you compare it to the constant suffering men like Male Cat put women through!"

The first is asking for women to be treated equally. The second is stating that men are inherently cruel while women are inherently kind. It doesn't help that while the idea of sex/gender determining morality is rotten to the core, it is also in fact misogynistic. The idea that men are inherently stronger, crueler, and more prone to violence while women are gentle, kind, and victims is rooted in misogyny. It is just while your male misogynist may frame it as good that men are "inherently violent" and bad that women are "inherently weak", radfems instead frame it as good that women are "inherently good-natured" and bad men are "inherently cruel."

So please, for the love of god read a bit deeper before you post. I know it may feel like you are fighting against misogyny but you are not, you are only changing the brand. I know a lot of people want to do their part and share what people are exposing or talking about, maybe even throw their two cents in. However, you aren't being helpful if the expose on misogyny or uplifting of women is seasoned with harmful ideas like that. I love y'all, but be mindful.

#feel free to rb #warriors #warrior cats #wc #radfem tw #rainflower

[michelleelizabethtanner]

It is always such a pleasure reading your analysis on episodes! It is probably hard to come up with non-Brio Beth and Rio moments in the show because they are so intertwined even when they are not in a scene together (enter dubby, enter Beth allowing Dean to hit it at the kitchen sink, yuck), but I wanted to know what your favorite moment was of Beth and Rio outside of Brio and why.

Aw, thank you, anon. I’m doing more observations on canon these days than actual analysis. Getting my heart and mind steeped in Brio. 🥰 They’re such interesting characters, I could go on for days.

I agree, a lot of who they are shown to be is very interconnected. Especially since we get more insight into Beth who essentially changes everything about who she fundamentally is after she meets Rio and realizes she can be something special. But the reason they’re so enthralling together is because of who they are as individuals. The way their inherent natures are so complementary and so polarizing all at once.

Beth

My favorite Beth moment is in 1.06 A View From the Top. I think this is many people’s favorite. It has nothing to do with Rio and everything to do with Beth as a person. It’s her first really big taste of success and of Rio’s open and unabashed pride at her achievements. The way this woman suddenly realized who she was in this episode was incredible.

Beth doesn’t admit reality out loud very often. But here she made a whole speech about it, bewildering Dean in the process. And yeah, her strength here was a direct result of her impressing Rio, making money for her family, and being really good at something. It was a moment of unbridled honesty. She told him who she was as plainly and clearly as she could. He for some reason just didn’t believe her. He continued to try and get old Bethie back. I guess Beth isn’t the only one in that household who denies and compartmentalizes.

But I have no idea how much clearer she could have made it for him in this moment. No amount of backtracking and denial should have made him forget about this moment, when his wife felt like she was something special.

Rio

I don’t think I have any one favorite Rio moment. We aren’t given enough of him as an individual outside of Beth. If I had to choose I would say this moment where she threw his keys in his face.

And ok, hear me out! I KNOW this is a Brio moment and not just a Rio moment. But I think this whole scene is so reflective of who Rio is as a human being. Again, all the complaints that he wasn’t given humanity. He was. It was just subtle. He was letting her go. He was feeling the heat from Turner, he had to “take care” of Eddy… I think that killing Eddy really shook him. He didn’t take it lightly. He values life and he understands the weight of his actions. Handling a rotten egg isn’t something he does flippantly. He FEELS it to his core. So given all that, and given all the thought he must have given to everything that had transpired and all the risks – he made the decision to just let Beth go.

How much more empathetic and human can this man get? What an act of kindness! He acknowledged and took responsibility for this game he was playing with this woman he was kinda attracted to, kinda liked flirting with, kinda was amused by. He understood the risk she unknowingly was putting herself at. He knew that she wasn’t equipped to handle things like a boss, because she wasn’t a boss. She was smart and she had potential, but ultimately she was a suburban housewife with kids and zero street knowledge. He was doing her a favor. He tested her loyalties with the truck and then just released her. That is not his norm. It was a special favor he did for just her because he had sympathy for her situation and wanted to protect someone he didn’t view as capable of protecting herself. Because at his heart Rio is a kind and conscionable person who truly wants to and takes pride in taking care of others. So I guess my favorite Rio moment is actually the unseen moments of Rio as he contemplates the circumstances leading to Eddy’s death and makes the decisions that led us to this keys in face scene. I know those are headcanon moments, but I swear they happened! They had to have!

Of the Rio moments actually portrayed on screen, I guess the little glimpses we got into who he is as a father are my favorite. The pure joy this boy brings him is so telling of what a tender and deeply feeling person Rio is.

I would imagine that there is a lot of conflict for Rio in reconciling who he is in his profession and what kind of father he is to Marcus. It’s gotta be incredibly painful watching your baby grow and learn more about the world. Such a feeling of futility until he figures it out and finds out who Rio really is. It must keep Rio up at night. The way he loves that baby, he must feel impending loss of that loving dynamic as his son gets older.

This was such a bittersweet scene for me because of the very obvious conflicting emotions Rio experienced just before he went and knocked on Rhea’s door. He sat in his car and stared at his own reflection, probably contemplating all the things I said earlier. “How much longer do I have before he doesn’t welcome me back? What if today is that day? What if this trinket airplane I brought him to atone for the weeks I abandoned him for isn’t enough? What if he blames me? What it he rejects me?” The relief and joy Rio must feel in this moment when Marcus is overjoyed to see him. But also sadness and fear, because he’s living on borrowed time. Marcus won’t welcome him back forever. Someday Rio will pay a big price for being who he is, and that price will unfortunately be his son. Maybe that’s why Rio doesn’t sleep and just skulks outside in the dark at night or sits alone in his bar and ponders all his life’s failures.

#favorite moments #they’re all my favorite so idk #headcanon Wednesday #headcanon #brio #beth x rio #good girls nbc #rio & marcus #beth & dean

[moonlitdiane]

Queen Mother of the Dead The Abyssal — Xiwangmu 西王母.

Tales of a goddess of Death who wore a flowing white hanfu and a mask of bones once filled every corner of Hylaria. Once, she was the Queen Mother of the Dead and now; she is only The Abyssal. Once, people believed death was a chance to start anew, now death is an inescapable nightmare. Death used to smell of chrysanthemums and calming petrichor. Now it is rotten but deceptively sickeningly sweet.

"Xiwangmu once wore a terrifying mask to cover half of her ethereal beauty, the same face that had the mighty Sol falling from his throne. Doashis used to tell me that this was to symbolize the complicated nature of death, that on the surface it might seem terrifying, but if you just bothered to look past its icy surface, you will stumble upon its melancholic beauty—the beauty of the temporary.

Although we know her as Xiwangmu, there are whispers of a name only one pair of lips can utter. Xiao, is what Sol called her. Xiao. His little dawn. My job is not to sit here and dreamily sigh of my deity's matrimony, it is to preserve her in the way her followers remember but I cannot deny the inherently romantic about the goddess of Death being the god of Life's very own dawn. The light that breaks through the darkness of his nights.

Unfortunately, that was once upon a time long gone. We had been forced into hiding after the gods turned their back on her, after the entirety of Hylaria turned their back on us.

Did you know that the reason we play guzheng at funerals is because Xiwangmu herself was an exceptional guzheng player? There is also one tale, of a war forgotten, mostly unimportant. Xiwangmu joined none of the spats the rest of the pantheon got themselves into, but the one time she did—it was said that the sound of her fingers as it roughly, loudly, and terrifyingly plucked the strings of her ivory guzheng had paralyzed the entire world. She had finished a war even before it started. Her fingers bled for days, they said, that the blood that fell to our earth grew what we now know as red spider lilies.

Why do I tell you this? I know none of her followers will ever say it out loud, in fear of being more prosecuted than we already are but we are all desperate to hear the sound of strings playing loud enough to shake the core of Hylaria and strike fear into the hearts of the betrayers.

You know, dear reader? Sometimes I feel my own heart race reading about the things Sol himself had done for Xiwangmu but most times, I feel nothing, knowing that no matter how much they love you, they are still capable of destroying your heart, life, and being."

— excerpt from "Memoir of Shadows" written by Sun Fuchun, a follower of Death.

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So...I might have impulsively made my Death in Sims 4????? The "excerpt" is also a preview of an edit I've been putting off for a while, I've had this idea of making a fake scan of a book about my Death in a while now, I just need to finish writing a few pages. Just wanted to post this one real quick because The Abyssal is still my favorite IF and I really wanted to post something new. And of course, as usual, The Abyssal is written by @theabyssal and their wonderful gorjus gorjus big brain!

#the abyssal: xiwangmu #the abyssal #interactive fiction #meet my mc #if

[saint-nevermore]

i honestly can't fathom living with the mindsets that some more radical vegans have. to be so disconnected from food that animal products are evil and you should feel bad for using them, to shun mutualistic relationships humans have had since humans started being humans. to try and distance ourselves from nature. it seems so stressful! obviously it's one thing to spout propaganda and continously police how other people live, but it absolutely cannot be healthy to constantly talk about it, think about it, make it your identity. food is food, and material is material. be kinder to yourselves. assume kinder of other people.

it's a noble cause to feel the need to reduce your own impact in the damage to the world, absolutely. there is 0 denying that food industries as a whole are rotten to the core and need severe reform, granted these are a consequence of capitalism, not the products themselves. i understand it usually comes from a place of great anxiety and upset. we're built to feel compassion for not only eachother but things around us. but i still can't imagine the hurt that comes from so deeply believing the mere act of using wool, honey, fur, meat is an affront to nature and inherently fowl, these things that humans would have died out thousands of years ago if our ancestors didn't risk their lives to tame aurochs or rams. things die for other things to live.

you can do whatever you want with your own body forever. however it isnt more inherently cruel to eat beef than it is to eat quorn. both products run a good chance of being harvested, packaged, and imported from far away by people being paid slave wages.

shop local, look into vegetables and fruits grown in your country/state by season and buy by season, grow your own veg and herbs, consider owning your own rabbits or chickens if you have ample space, time, and the physical means. look into local meat, wear wool, wear fur, look into the local hunting scene and consider working with more game. learn how to dress a duck, make art and tools from the bones and feathers you didnt cook. obviously sourcing is still an issue for some things - hence the emphasis on buying local. avoid imported fur, look into coyote that was trapped in your state as an example, or hides from rabbits that were raised for meat, or buy eggs from the small farm down the road.

most importantly make peace with what you eat, what you can get. i live in a country where pheasant is a popular game meat but the industry around pheasant hunting here is a fucking travesty. but it is one of my favourite foods, and as a poor consumer i can't change it, so i try and support good businesses or harvest my own when possible. i can't afford to and dont care for most meats otherwise, and mostly eat fish, even knowing fishing industry is wholly unsustainable. i still need to eat, and to enjoy what i eat. it isnt your fault Cornish X chicken is the most widespread and affordable, and you shouldnt feel bad for settling for it. be aware, be vocal, but dont be guilty.

never feel bad for what you eat, or use. your ancestors worked hard for that. love yourself, love whats around you, and learn how to use every single part of a deer, or learn the joys of growing your own tomatoes. i cannot stress how much more i appreciate what i cook after butchering birds myself, from cull to roast, and im sure most of us are familiar with the simple joys of eating wild berries. im sorry capitalism and colonialism ruined something so innately human for so many people.

#raven.txt #coming from a place of genuine care like its. all fun and games laughing at people saying dairy cattle are impregnated every 21 days but #the way these people are absolutely made so distressed by things that arent true #i cant imagine the guilt and worry and its a catastrophic shame the way we get food now just encourages more of this behaviour #even my housemates who are mostly chill will off handedly mention things that arr just. entirely untrue or at best #misunderstandings of husbandry practices done for the benefit of the animal not the farmer #make peace with food. Make peace with food! food is good and holy. #dairy and beef husbundry is not as bad as you think. eggs arent as bad as you think. pork and chicken is often worse than you think. #again be vocal and aware but dont feel guilty just eat shit that makes you happy lol and most importantly do not get on other peoples #case because they eat a shit ton of supermarket chicken OK everyone is in poverty nowadays capitalism is doing its job #peace and love forever eat a bird. OK? i love you

[princess-of-the-corner]

Forged au: If there was a repeat of that nightmare akuma

Marinette reading a note that appeared in her hand: Absolute Power Currupts Absolutely.

???: Incorrect.

Marinette: *turning around in a panic*

Nightmare Chloe: Absolute powere REVEALS absolutely. *walks around marinette* it merely amplififes us, making us more of who we already are. *steps back and smirks at her* Not that you'd know anything about that if course.

Marinette tenses up: And what's that supposed to mean?

Nightmare Chloe: I just find it fascinating that those without power are so quick to criticise it.

Marinette: I dont think power is inherently bad, i just think it's poorly distributed.

Nightmare Chloe: *Mockingly* Of course, You're a far better person than those corrupt polliticians and evil billionaires who you criticise so freely. *Mockingly puts her hands in a prayer and looks up at the sky* Blessed the meek.

Marinette: *turns away in annoyance* I'm not religious.

Nightmare Chloe: Are you sure? You make such a virtue out of lacking, and evidently you think that greed is a sin.

Marinette: I think it's pretty obvious to anyone that they could do better things with their wealth aand influence.

Nightmare Chloe: But would you really be any different? if you had their power, wouldn't you start to sonvince yourself that you were somehow inherently better by virtue of your position? Because it seems to me you're doing that rather well already.

Marinette: *stubbornly* I would be different, because I care about being a good person.

Nightmare Chloe: A good person wouldn't accuse a victim...

Marinette: What?

Nightmare Chloe: Do you? or do you simply fear being considered a bad person?

Marinette: *sarcastically* I hate to break it to you, but we're not all fundementally rotten to our core.

Nightmare Chloe: Oh I dont think any of you are. However all humans are fundamentally human at their core. Deep down you all want the same things, whtether you admit it to yourselves or not.

Marinette: And what is that exactly?

Nightmare Chloe: You want power. And everything that comes along with it. You want adoration. You want excess. You want adventure. Conquest, conflict, pleasure and pain. You long to fell alive.

Marinette: But it's not all about me-

Nightmare Chloe: *Appears infront of Marinette* Admit it.

Marinette: *looks away from her* It's about other. It's about community, connection. It's about doing the right thing.

Nightmare Chloe: *In a mad tone* "The right thing". A fiction you have swallowed in order to cope with the fact that you lack what you trully want.

Marinette: *Getting defensive* Morality isnt a fiction. You would know that if you had some. And besides the motivations behind my statements dont affect whether they're true or not.

Nightmare Chloe: But is it true to you? To your internal laws and values? Or are you destined to be a moral chameleon,

Marinette: You don't believe in any right or wrong, do you?

Nightmare Chloe: *Checking her nails* Not particularly.

Marinette: Then we have nothing to discuss.

Nightmare Chloe: *getting annoyed with her constant avoidance* You want to know why you think "the good guys always win"? It's becausse history is written by the victors. Whoever comes out on top gets to be the "good guy". However nirtous you are today, on the next page of historyyou will surely be cast as a villian. My advice? Let it all go. *melts into the shadows*

Marinette: And what if deep down i actually do care about the things I claim to.

Nightmare Chloe from the shadows: Then i suggest you seek power and make it happen. And i suppose we'll find out which one of us is correct. *melts away*

Marinette: *falls to her knees and curls up into herself*

OOF

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[venusoppositesaturn]

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I’m starting to feel like I’m getting close to the end. This seemingly endless quest to find ‘God’ 

Whatever ‘God’ could possibly be to me. 

I think ‘God’ was just feeling safe. I think that’s all I have ever sought out. Beyond the sick obsession with needing to be beautiful, rich, happy, or in love. I think under all of those layers I just so badly wanted to feel safe. Knowing that I could wake up in a home that wouldn’t be ripped away from me. That I could go through my day and if anything went wrong, my life wouldn’t change drastically. That I wouldn’t have to spend my nights in fear. Instead of counting all of the ways my life could go wrong, I could finally count fucking sheep. 

And I fucking tried. 

I feel like I have been standing outside a locked house for my entire life. From the window, I can see everything I have ever wanted. The walls are covered in so many items and memories I had to throw away because I never had the space for them or the funds. Furnished with pieces that I could only imagine owning in my dreams, knowing that I could never bother investing in such things because I would have to suffer the pain of losing them - the next time things fell apart. The house is sturdy. Unmoving. Always constant. Unaffected by the screaming chaos right outside the door. 

My fingers are raw and bloody, my bones ache, and my voice is gone. Every attempt to get inside the house ends in failure. No amount of therapy, yoga, hard work, or effort has ever brought me a key. With every attempt, a new spectator at the window - celebrating new wounds. “You always land on your feet,” they say. As if this inherent compulsion for survival is something to be celebrated, instead of seen as a life gone terribly wrong. Rotten at the core. They have already found a way inside the house. They have found their own room. Their ‘God.’ 

I wish I could say that having an acute sense of survival is something to celebrate. But it has not brought me any closer to ‘God.’ It has only dragged me closer to hell. I have made the mistake of trying to find ‘God’ in others - only to be ripped apart piece by piece until there is nothing left of me. I deliberately exploit myself with the hope that it will earn me a key inside the house. It never does. I am always told that I ask for too much. That the key, ‘God’, the house - it’s all too much. Finding comfort in verbal reassurance - too much. A loving gesture in the form of $5 flowers - too much. The simple intimacy of holding hands in public - too much. Hell is being taught that you are worth nothing but your body parts - knowing that soon even that will be worthless. 

I think something has shifted. Too many hands have passed over my body. Too many cycles have repeated the same lesson over and over: you will never earn entry to the house. You will never find ‘God.’ 

My life had been propelled forward by my fear of dying. I never stopped to consider that dying was the kindest thing I could have ever done for myself. 

I wonder if this is how my dad felt when he found out his cancer was terminal. Suddenly all the prayers, Sunday masses, and healthy lifestyle changes must have felt so fucking futile. So fucking pointless. Knowing you cannot control anything. The disease will spread and take you soon. 

What is the point of fighting when you know how it’s going to end? What’s the point of constant suffering and pain when you have tried everything you could to change things? 

For the people inside the house? The ones who have found their ‘God’? 

They will shuffle the state of the house for a bit. The paint might change, and the furniture might be replaced, but they will always be inside the house. Safe. 

The dull ache that comes with the passage of time from grief is so much kinder than the fucking oozing wound of living a life you don’t want to live. 

[kege97]

Why does Biden hate the flag, family, grace, God and America?

It was a good day for the insurrectionists.

Senate Republicans voted in lockstep on Tuesday to block the landmark voting rights bill, in effect embracing the disenfranchisement of non-White voters under the “big lie” justification that widespread voter fraud denied Donald Trump reelection.

Sign up for a weekly roundup of thought-provoking ideas and debates Even as they did so, Senate Republicans also embraced the latest Fox-News-generated conspiracy theory: that a shadowy network of America haters — suspiciously similar to antifa, BLM and the deep state — had taken over the Biden administration with a nefarious ideology known as critical race theory, or “critical theory.”

“Critical theory is, in fact, very real,” Sen. Josh Hawley (R-Mo.), the man who pumped his fist in solidarity with the people who attacked the Capitol on Jan. 6, declared on the Senate floor on Tuesday. “It is very influential. And it appears to have become the animating ideology of this administration.”In short, Hawley explained, the Biden administration hates America. “President Biden is nominating for federal office individuals who do not share a view of America as a good and decent place,” Hawley announced. His nominees instead “believe that this is a country founded in racism and shot through with corruption.”So what is this “animating ideology” of the Biden administration, pray tell?

It holds that “the United States is rotten to its core,” Hawley alleged. “In our American flag, they see propaganda, and in our family businesses, they see white supremacy.” Those adhering to this animating ideology of the Biden administration, he elaborated, “allow no room for merit, for experience, or for grace in our life together. They pit Whiteness and Blackness against each other in a manner that reduces every American, no matter their character or creed, to their racial identity alone.”And that’s not all! The Biden administration’s animating ideology holds “that subjects like mathematics are inherently racist, that the Christian faith is oppressive” and “that the nuclear family perpetuates racism.” Looking straight into the TV camera above the Senate floor, Hawley said that Biden’s animating ideology tells children that “your dreams” are “unjust” and that “your family” are “oppressors.”

Hawley offered zero evidence for his claims, beyond Biden reinstating racial sensitivity training and his nomination of an Indian American woman, Kiran Ahuja, to run the Office of Personnel Management. Hawley alleged that critical race theory “appears to be her fundamental ideology.” This wild claim is based on a Boston University professor’s lecture on “antiracism” at the charity she ran, and her linking to an article of his claiming Trump’s election was an example of white supremacy.

But Republicans rallied behind Hawley’s demagoguery anyway. They voted unanimously Tuesday against her confirmation, requiring Vice President Harris to break the Senate’s tie. Ahuja was the latest of several non-White Biden nominees to run into Republican opposition.Critical race theory (at its core, the belief that racism in America is systemic) had been around for decades in academic circles without attracting much attention — until Fox News took it up last summer. As The Post’s Laura Meckler and Josh Dawsey report, a Fox News guest, Christopher Rufo, declared that critical race theory had “pervaded every institution in the federal government” — and Trump and his allies took it from there. They’ve redefined the obscure theory to include, as Rufo put it, “all of the various cultural insanities” and they’ve made it their latest front in the culture wars.

The irony, of course, is that Republicans are now proving that systemic racism exists — and they, along with Fox News, are the primary offenders. With their united stand against the voting-rights bill and their united votes against Ahuja on the bogus justification of critical race theory, they’re the ones reducing Americans “to their racial identity alone,” as Hawley put it. The Proud Boys who attacked the Capitol must be filled with pride anew.

The Republican leadership’s opposition to the voting-rights bill was so rote that they didn’t bother dividing up their talking points.“It would let Washington bureaucrats direct federal dollars into politicians’ campaign accounts, government money for yard signs and attack ads,” GOP leader Mitch McConnell (Ky.) announced.

“Government dollars, money that belongs to the American taxpayer, would go to funding yard signs and attack ads,” GOP whip John Thune (S.D.) said a few minutes later.

Now that the Republican filibuster has blocked the voting-rights bill, Sen. Joe Manchin III (D-W.Va.) will try to sell Republicans on a scaled-back version that addresses key GOP complaints. But McConnell made clear Tuesday that he isn’t interested in any voting-rights legislation. Asked why he wouldn’t even allow a debate on the bill, he told reporters: “This is not a federal issue.”

Republicans will instead focus on the real federal issue: accusing the Biden administration of opposing the flag, family businesses, merit, grace, Christianity, your dreams, your family and America.

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[nibeul]

Stop throwing the race card just because you got called out for copying when the evidence is right there. You had nothing else to defend yourself so you threw that in the ring as a shield.

It has nothing to do with race, it has everything to do with the fact that you’re lying out your ass and your community is a mirror image of your personality. Rotten to the core and inherently vile. Learn to be better and learn from this and your community will too rather than attacking others.

literally the only thing I said about race was "hey, you posting that publicly lead to me receiving obscenities in my inbox." I'm not "throwing around a race card", and this is literally the reason why I barely brought it up. You also are not allowed to group an entire community together and call us vile. That makes you racist. I had no reason to copy the artwork, especially with all the art I've been doing and have posted. Kindly shut the fuck up.

#ugh y'all are so annoying