#so its always kinda disheartening when i manage to spend a good 3-4 hours on a drawing for it to only get like. less than 20 notes?

[captainshadowshifter]

Hhahaaahahahaha depression go brrrrr

#yikes man #tag venting ahead ig so like #just keep scrolling if you dont wanna deal with my screaming into the tumblr void #bc screaming into the void is fun :) #anyway- #im really just a burden huh. #like. i feel like everyone gets annoyed at me because so many customer complaints go through me #like i know its just because im diligent and im full time and im always on floor bc im shit at behing behind the bar rn #but its very taxing that im the one who hears prolly about 85% of them #and like today it was just complaint after complaint after complaint and one set of customers were really aggressive with it #to the point that it started to feel kinda personal #anyway so i had a breakdown at work and ended up crying in front of everyone which was very not fun #not in front of the mean people though thank fuck #but like thats just the tip of the iceberg #like i know this is only a small thing but like. i dont have much motivation for art these days #so its always kinda disheartening when i manage to spend a good 3-4 hours on a drawing for it to only get like. less than 20 notes? #like idk im used to it but then theres some of my shitposts that have like 50-60 notes and its like. why? #kinda makes me want to just. not try anymore. #doesnt help that im really paranoid about sharing my au stuff #like ive been pushing past that a lot recently and it just gets kinda. ignored. #along with everything else i do #idk it feels petty but i feel like people dont want me in the server anymore and i should just.. leave. again. #anyway im probably running out of tags and i could be here for hours typing shit in here #but i should just try to get some sleep. maybe itll help. #or at least itll cut at least a couple of hours out of all this. #so um. sorry ig. if you got this far then maybe im not as alone as i feel rn (even despite not being alone at all...)