#so like should i just give up on meaningful relationships bec shallow ones are looking like absolute winners

[7-oh-ta1]

Me once I get to know someone: *jokingly* yea lol I have abandonment issues 🤪 so I people please sorry if that's annoying

Ppl: awwww that's ok just b urself :)

Me: haha if ur sure I'm just playin anyway it's fine

Ppl: I'm sure, b urself 🥺

Also ppl the moment I express emotions other than adoration or acting goofy: *leave my life forever without a word and I never hear from them again*

Me: ...huh. this could have easily been avoided if I didn't express emotions, I should stop doing that

#anyway my dad if you're out there #anyway sarah my ex-best friend of four years if you're out there #anyway my sister if you're out there #anyway my entire high school friend group if you're out there #I'm starting to see the joy in shallow relationships #because you never learn enough about each other to form opinions or notice behavior patterns #so you never get frustrated with them. must be nice. i should be shallow more #it's always ppl that have spilt their hearts and trauma to me & they usually leave when my use is done or i can't take anymore #like when do ppl start staying #bec ppl only stay with me if i worship the ground they walk on & i unfortunately forget to pay my daily tithe & they leave #so like should i just give up on meaningful relationships bec shallow ones are looking like absolute winners #no wonder those ppl are always happy... #you know like maybe I'm my problem & i should never get close to ppl again for their & my own safety #lindsay speaks #// vent #this post goes out to my toxic sister who threw me on the floor & we haven't spoke since #thinking about her again as usual wondering where things went wrong