the darkest of nights, in truth, still dazzles.
a halsin fanmix [listen]
01. Heart of Spring - david arkenstone | 02. Cé Hé Mise Le Ulaingt? / The Two Trees - loreena mckennit | 03. Pussywillows, Cat-tails - gordon lightfoot | 04. Maybe Tomorrow - f&m | 05. Don't Stop Me Now - queen | 06. I Was Born Under a Wand'rin' Star - bryn terfel | 07. A Tenuous Bond - derek duke | 08. Closer - nine inch nails | 09. Into the Darkness - jeremy soule | 10. Colorblind - counting crows | 11. Natural Light - ludovico einaudi | 12. Under the Greenwood Tree - royal shakespeare company | 13. The Grove - bear mccreary | 14. Blood Upon the Snow - hozier & bear mccreary | 15. A Quiet Darkness - houses | 16. Spellplague - alderfall | 17. Empty Chairs at Empty Tables - jonathan antoine | 18. Only Everyone Can Judge Me - crywank | 19. Blue Skies - kathryn calder | 20. The Buzzard - old blind dogs | 21. Constant Craving - k.d. lang | 22. The Cave - mumford and sons | 23. Jim Cain - bill callahan | 24. I Won't Back Down - johnny cash | 25. The Ash Grove - laura wright | 26. The Wind - yusuf/cat stevens | 27. To Someone From A Warm Climate (Uiscefhuarithe) - hozier | 28. The Logical Song - supertramp | 29. Tapestry - don mclean | 30. Big Yellow Taxi - joni mitchell | 31. Eat Your Young (Bekon's Choral Version) - hozier | 32. The Flock - david maxxim micic | 33. Changes - david bowie | 34. Ri Na Cruinne - clanaad | 35. The Moments of Happiness - ken page | 36. My Back Pages - the byrds | 37. If This Journey - tom hanford
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actually I am going to talk about jamie not being able to shoot the zombie in the age of ambition like. he's holding a gun. he's faced with something which is human-shaped but no longer a human, which is actively posing a threat to him and his friends. and he just freezes. he can't do anything.
and we never see jamie shying away from combat with non-human/non-humanoid enemies. he's happy enough to destroy the quarks, for instance. and he'll get into fights with humans/humanoid beings if it's non-lethal. but he actively turns down weapons when he gets into a fight with one of the gonds. the most we ever see him do is swordfight with trask at the end of the highlanders. and even there, he doesn't actively /kill/ - he pushes trask overboard. clearly that's not a death sentence, seeing as ben had already survived the same swim back to shore. and if trask does end up dying? jamie won't necessarily know about it. he's not directly responsible.
so I just think. jamie, who never killed anyone in the war. jamie, who's a piper, who's a musician rather than a soldier. he's not unable to fight, because he duels trask, and he's not afraid to threaten people, because he holds two and ben and polly at knifepoint. he's not naive, because he stands at the window and watches alexander die. but he's never killed anyone himself. jamie, who's consumed with survivor's guilt, always wondering if he should have done more, if his cowardice ever condemned someone else to death - but also always knowing that he could never have done it, being sickened by the part of him that feels guilty for having no blood on his hands.
jamie, who looks into the eyes of something that's not even human anymore, and can't look away, and can't pull the trigger.
and what does that do to him, then? months, maybe a year after he's left his war behind? he stands there with a weapon in his hands and he can't bring himself to defend two of the people he loves most in the world. victoria has to grab the gun out of his hands and do it for him. this young girl who he's fiercely protective of has to shoot someone, all because he can't. there's blood on her hands, now, and none on his. he wishes he could have been the one to take that shot, to carry that burden for her, and even then he can't help but hate himself for wishing. he's trapped there forever. the feeling goes round and round in circles and it never ever goes away.
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if any of y'all could do me a solid and report this griefer that's been hanging out by the limsa aetheryte on malboro that would be lovely.
I don't need to name names you'll know exactly who i'm talking about if you go there
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im done w moving and out of the shitty apt w the shittier roommate (who did not let move out happen without adding as Much drama as possible) and have just. been feeling so much better. living w my two friends who actually communicate well and all work together on our needs and gah. so less stressed and anxious now!!! and also in a week kitty introductions have gotten farther than they ever did w shitty roommates kitties (they were kinda bullies, so we had to move glacial speed even w oregano cat expert) and just. thank u the universe things are so much better now
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can we talk about dr. brenner’s extremely creepy possessiveness over henry?
kidnapping him as a child and branding him with the 001 tattoo (note that him being the first kid meant it was with him that brenner decided to start doing that to them in the first place, and what the actual hell goes through someone’s mind to justify that??); preforming unethical experiments on him and downright torturing him; suppressing his powers but imprisoning him in the lab and forcing him to essentially babysit the rest of the experiment kids; and not even being willing to give up his little prodigy after watching him literally get banished to an alternate dimension. even after henry kills almost all of his kids and a good portion of the lab staff he only cares about how powerful el demonstrated herself to be, and the fact that henry is out of his grasp. so he spends the next several years using el to seek him out in the void, traumatizing the ever loving fuck out of her (and losing his only surviving kid in the process lmao. idiot). but vecna explains to el that it took her opening the gate for him to even be able to access their dimension, so brenner was never seeking out henry to try and stop him from destroying the world.
personally i think brenner just wanted his “prized possession” back. he couldn’t stand the thought of the most powerful individual being off on his own, with his own personal autonomy. brenner wanted him all to himself, wanted to be able to control him and access his powers when it’s convenient for him. he probably thought he could get henry back and eventually discipline him enough to where he wouldn’t act out, to where he would let brenner be in control. except henry wasn’t some object or pet, he was a grown ass man; he knew that he deserved to be in control of his own life, and him being evil doesn’t change that, it’s just what he did with his freedom that demonstrates how he’s an evil person.
but yeah i didn’t think they could make brenner any more awful but they did (but i’m not mad about that… i’m just so glad they didn’t try to redeem his character)
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@ everyone that left a super sweet message in their tags on the newest Shadow and Jolt update, thank you so much. Your words are so encouraging. 🥺
I'll be taking a break for the holidays but will get to work on the next pages early next year! I'm expecting there'll be about 40 more new pages left to tie the beginning arc together thus completing issue one of the series.
Issue two will mean a new cover and will start where we left off with the duo heading to Space Colony Ark!
Thank you all again for your kind words of encouragement. Doing this project is a joy in of itself but to see any enthusiasm for it really makes it all the more meaningful. Bless you all and I hope you have an electrified day!
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it’s so funny bc it’s like. the duality of my mind….i am like on the one hand i can’t wait to start school again in a month and to have new experiences in law school and see some of my friends again and not be living w my dad anymore :) and then the mental illness side of my brain is like screaming crying throwing up at the thought of having to do anything ever so in general i am just like whatever abt it. bc they cancel each other out idk….i feel nothing at all abt going to school next month lmao…….
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