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#so my grandmother went to the hospital on my birthday and hasnt been home since
nightmmares
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2 years
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#i feel like my life is constant punishment but i really don't know what i did
#i am not the friend you wait up till midnight to say happy birthday to
#i am not the friend that gets an instagram post dedicated to them
#i am not the friend you invite out
#i have spent so much of my life just wanting what i feel for other people to be reciprocated
#by family by friends by anyone
#anyways this year some people actually did go out of their way for me
#they planned an elaborate surprise
#they wanted me to be happy
#and i can't express how much it meant to me to be on the other side of it for once
#to not have to spell out something i want bc the other person cant be bothered to know me
#because i am not worth knowing
#so i got to have a treasured memory
#and the universe said whoops thats wrong
#so my grandmother went to the hospital on my birthday and hasnt been home since
#she had to have open heart surgery
#so i got covid somehow after almost 3 fucking years
#so i couldnt see my family for my birthday or easter
#i am extremely terrified of being forgotten
#like thats one of my deepest fears
#and i think
#its bc its inevitable
#my own parents cant even be bothered to know me
#cant come up with a gift or a sentiment or something that i would like even if pressed
#if i dont have a favorite color or a hobby or an interest or SOMETHING to other people that makes them think of me
#do i even exist?
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