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rillils · 8 months

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RILLSSSSSSS AHHHHHHH

SCHOOL STARTS IN 2 DAYS AND IM NERVOUS HDHDHHDDJJD

HOW HAVE YOU BEEENNNNN, IVE BEEN ALRIGHT SO FAR, STILL NOT TOO BUSY

I EVEN GOT TO WATCH RWRB !! HAVE YOU SEEN IT? YOU SHOULD GO WATCH IT I FEEL LIKE YOUD LIKE IT

ALL THESE RED WHITE AND ROYAL BLUE, YOUNT ROYALS, AND HEARTSTOPPER BOYS KEEP REMINDING ME OF OUR BOYS

merthur walked so the whole trope could run istg, everyone else could argue with the wall

all these sassy brunettes walking their blonde boys like a dog (affectionately)

SWEETIEEEEEEE HELLO THERE~ 💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕

Aaaahhh best of luck, honey! Going back to school after the holidays always feels so very very UGH, I know, but please be strong 💪💞💞 You can do this! *HUGS YOU EXTRA TIGHTLY*

OMG YOU WATCHED RWRB!!!! I'm so glad you loved it, hon!! 💖💖💖 I haven't had the chance (or rather, the necessary peace of mind lol) to sit down and watch it, but I did read the book a while back and it's one of my all-time favourites to this day 💕💕💕 It's such a beautiful and heartwarming love story, and judging everybody's reaction, I'd say that they did a really good job with the movie as well 🥰🥰🥰 I'm looking forward to it ngl 💞💞💞

Oh god yeah, in times like this I find myself thinking of the Merthur boys as well and I feel both so nostalgic and fhjgsjsk I don't know how to describe it, all I know is this big twist-y emotion in my heart. Can you imagine if Arthur and Merlin could have had something like this?? If they could have kissed????? On screen?? And had the whole of Camelot witness their love and fucking cheer for them, like Henry and Alex did?? I would have expired on the spot!!! 💖🥰💖💖🥰💖🥰🤣🥰😭😭✨🌈💫

Sorry, I got a little bit carried away there xD But you know, even though we couldn't have that back in the day, I'm just so fucking HAPPY that we get to have it now, with these wonderful characters 💕💕💕 We can watch them fall in love time and again, and see their love validated and supported, and watch them have the happy endings they deserve, and that's just real fucking beautiful 🥰🥰🥰

My sweetheart, I hope you have the loveliest day 💕💕💕 Love you so much!!!

#stucky just stucky #personal #on today's episode of rils has emotions xD #ilysm darling!!! 😘😘😘

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samisinthestars · 9 months

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okay so

✨ weirdpost ✨

(and you can tell because it's in a whole other language)

(i might briefly sum up what's been going on lately in a different post but this is not it)

so i recently started re-reading (does it count as re-reading when i never finished reading it on the first place?) that “red, white and royal blue” book, because the movie is coming out in like a month and i intend to watch it as soon as possible but i want to have read the book first

so im reading the book and thinking about how im a completely different person from who i was when i first started reading it (march 2020) and at the same time im.

fundamentally the same.

like i have a whole different gender and everything but still. im highlighting the same sentences. im having similar reactions to the same things. of course i notice some things being different because, y'know, life experiences. but i feel like, deep down, im not really *that* different. in my core or whatever i haven't really changed

sure, i've had some Realizations about myself. but i see the person i was back then and i see the person i am right now and i know that we're simultaneously nothing alike and exactly the same.

what a weird thing to think about

still, i know my approach to reading the book is somewhat different. in 2020 i was cursed with Yearning for something i thought i couldn't have. i thought i was fully aromantic and i thought I'd never get to experience what Romantic Love™️ is like. and i was, like, Struggling with it, as a self-identified hopeless romantic. I'd read the book and find myself wishing i could have Those Feelings and i very much thought i was incapable of it. so needless to say, i was having a rough time with that. lmao

now, yeah, i read romantic shit and get the Need To Be Loved. i get nostalgic or stupid or whatever and im like Man, I'd Like To Be Held

or kissed

it's been almost a year since i've kissed anyone and sometimes i get Bored. or touch starved. or whatever the fuck it is. the asexual equivalent of horny, i guess

so, uh, yeah. i get that feeling while reading the book. but i feel like the approach is fundamentally different. i know i can get Those Feelings for people. it doesn't happen very often but i know it's possible. it makes the whole experience less shit (lol)

and idk i feel like im enjoying the book more this time. like seeing some lines or gay shit going on and going “haha mood” instead of the Confusion i felt before i figured out im gay in the way im gay. with the gift of hindsight it seems pretty fucking obvious why I'd read mlm stories and wish that were me. but oh well, poor clueless boy (me @ pre-2022 me)

i think i lost my original train of thought, which included mentioning that i was checking on the groupchat i had when i was first reading the book (and that's why i know what i highlighted back then, and there's a conversation where i mention struggling with accepting myself as aromantic, which i turned out not to be). anyway, i kinda miss that groupchat

that's pretty much it i guess

#weirdpost

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details-later · 2 years

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I love my IRL friends 🥲 like they all understand ive been trying to read alot of books from when we were younger and those who own the books are letting me borrow them until i can buy them for myself 😩 like my friend is bringing the first two hunger games books for me to read tomorrow!

#celestes friends are amazing #Im sorry i haven’t been active about slashers lately #I felt uncomfortable writing slashers during October mostly cause i know kinktober is happening and i felt weird seeing that #so now im reading books that are ✨nostalgic✨ for me

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colourblue · 6 years

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concept playlists 🌌 🌇

so far these are the playlists I’ve made myself or have been requested concepts from people! remember concept requests are still open so don’t hesitate to send in an idea or mood for me to make a playlist for! ✨

it’s 8pm on a warm, uncomfortable night in the summer holidays so you leave your beach house to walk to a small pier in a secluded bay area. despite it being so warm, the sky is grey and you can smell a storm approaching, so you sit down and let your feet graze the top of the silent, grey water

it’s 3pm on a thursday afternoon and you’re looking over the quiet bookstore you were lucky enough to get a job in after running away to the oregon coast. a few customers float in and out of the store, but you don’t mind as you place a record on and completely focus on a paperback in hand. the sky is a dull grey and rain lightly taps on the windows while you look forward to going back to your small apartment. working all these hours does have it’s pros

it’s the 1960s and you and your friends find themselves in trouble while exploring a foreign city. many different scents and sounds permeate the cloudy sky as your marauding group tries to evade local cops and spies before you manage to sneak into a party and cause more mayhem

these have been requested so far (they can be as simplistic or complicated as you’d like!) :

you’re just out here trying to be happy with yourself at 2:30am but it seems to continuously be an eternal struggle. but you know you’ll get there eventually as you sit in your room and stare at old photos and friends that surround and appreciate you. they help you know you’re loved

anxiety’s a bitch (feeling better takes a while)

it’s 1am and im not happy or sad but i feel alive

when you’re a writer but you’re experiencing writers block whilst staying at a big empty house and you slowly start to feel more and more uneasy as the night goes on and everything seems to bother you and you start to question your sanity as your mind can’t help but parallel your situation to the shining

your parents are throwing a christmas party and you come down to greet them all dressed up but they start fighting and mascara runs down your face as you run up to your bedroom. after a while, they send your crush to check up on you and you end up slow dancing and having your first kiss at 11:14pm

you read heaps of fantasy books as a kid and are now coming to the realisation that a large chunk of your depression is because of your disillusionment of the world around you and the fact that you’re not special and will never be. but hey, at least you have those nostalgic memories of magic…

staying up until 1am to go get calzones with your friends and you manage to get lost on the way there and the way back but it doesnt really matter because youre all together and having a good time

it's autumn in southern california and you and your friend are quickly falling in love with each other but don't realise it's mutual until one night you share a quiet midnight kiss on your friend's living room floor while you're staying the night

you’ve been heartbroken too many times and you just want move on but it’s so slow and difficult you don’t know whether you’ll make it out or not

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