#so online journaling = tumblr

[nopeleavemealoone]

Soukoku poem and art

#I wrote this poem for the queers a while ago but never got around to doing this till now haha #God i love them so so much #Theyre besties theyre worsties they have an unspeakable bond and are deeply in love but would torture each other #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungou gay dogs #chuuya nakahara #dazai osamu #bsd fanart #bungou stray sogs #soukoku #skk #dazai x chuuya #Man i really hope no one ever like. Opens my art journal. Any of them. Or like finds my tumblr. Or look through my online drawings. #I think I’d lose all the respect my family and classmates have for me if they knew i was obsessed with my ships #But. I love them. Ahhhhhh brainrot for days #Praying to GOD i didnt mispell anything that would be so sad #Mine #my art

[thedevilprince]

Someone I care about silently unfriended me today on Discord so I had a breakdown. I sobbed and nearly threw up because I was so fucking upset.

#if you think you can disappear from my friends list without me noticing... you are fucking Wrong!!!! #i check my friends list every single day multiple times a day #even if we haven't spoken in months I Will Know #if you're going to unfriend me at least tell me Why #if you do it silently i assume it means you fucking hate me and our friendship was nothing to you #also i will split really fucking hard and see you as just an evil person who took advantage of my loneliness and only pretended to like me #so don't fucking do it silently okay #i keep track of tumblr mutuals also in the same way btw!! just so you know!! #i'm Obsessed with my online metrics (followers + friends = self worth) so don't think you can leave without me noticing #bpd #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #bpd problems #actually borderline #borderline pd #borderline personality disorder #eupd #actually eupd #original posts #dp's journal

[kryptonexorcius]

So, yesterday we had our first test and it was history (G's subject). He didn't stop looking at me while I took the test. He was a little sick and had a bad nose, so every time he blew his nose for some reason he looked at me 🫠🫠

Also, a boy went to ask G a VERY stupid question and after the boy sat down he (my TC) looked at my face for a LONG time and giggled, of course I laughed too. But seriously, he kept staring at me until I stopped looking at him (it took me a while to look at G again when I looked away, but when I looked at him HE WAS STILL LOOKING AT ME).

#teacher crush #tc community #student x teacher #teacher crush community #journal #tc confessions #digital diary #online diary #tumblr diary #teacher x student #teacher love #hot teacher #male teacher x female student #hot as fuck #so cute #professor crush

[natureaker]

i want top surgery so bad i've just been researching surgeons near me and recovery advice all morning raaahhhhhh

#personal #vent #trans #ftm #transgender #transsexual #top surgery #i think i've decided on a surgeon #it's just that there aren't a whole lot of his results online bc he only finished residency 5 yrs ago #BUT he's affiliated w the same hospital as my pcp so it might be easier than going to a different hospital or center #i've also heard wait times aren't too long but i don't wanna excite myself too much #anyways #i need to write in my journal not on tumblr

[manwithoutaspleen]

more transition rambling

as upset as i sometimes get about not passing, i still love what transitioning is doing for/to my body so much. like i never get sick of seeing how hairy i’m getting, i’m impatient for more facial hair and so excited to have stubble and one side burn (and i would love for both side burns to come in.) my chest hair has started coming in the past few weeks and THATS been a thrill.

every time i hear myself singing and actually like how i sound? every time i laugh weird and sound like my brother, who i love so much? every time i see a friend for the first time in awhile

it’s just, life has been so hard for like, a year and a half now, and while i do think i’m finally on the upswing, there’s a lot of new trauma to deal with. but one thing i’ve learned from all this is how to take care of myself so, so well. i can love and care for myself now in ways i never imagined being possible. and having a body that actually brings me joy makes that so much easier.

and like, it’s especially resonant to have a body that actually brings JOY when i’ve had chronic pain since i was 12. when this all started because i got a new disability. my body can do less and hurts more and i still love it more. its harder to care for, but i’m trying harder.

transitioning has saved my life in SO many ways i could not be more grateful that i finally did it

#separate ramble for the tags: #i deactivated my twitter for a day and realized i could just. not bring it back #and so i didnt! and while i will pop in occasionally so i dont lose it permanently and to check in w people and there and such #it is kinda nice. its also very weird #i also deleted the tumblr app #so i cant just like share every random thought i have with the internet #and i WANT to so badly i am so used to it lmao #but i think practicing being more intentional about what i share online and like breaking that habit of tweeting everything is good for me #even if its not permanent #but hell it might be! #i havent done a great job on breaking the scrolling habit bc i still have instagram for my sibling gc lmao #but reels are. way less engaging than twitter so. #reflecting on it though has made me realize like my memory is so bad and one reason i tweet so much is literally as a Record #but its like alright well maybe a Journal would be Better #and accepting that its ok to forget random thoughts i do not need to preserve every little idea i have #reflecting on internet habits on the internet is very online i admit #but i dont mind being online im just trying to find a way to do so that doesnt break my brain so bad #which is why this is on my mind rn bc like i do genuinely enjoy doing a little blog every so often lmao #might branch out and start actually blogging/writing about my interests too

[nerrissadevampyre]

Random thoughts while on the bus #1

I think the reason I truly love the concept of the backrooms, liminal spaces and liminality in general is because they are far from scary or unnerving for me; don't get me wrong I love all the creepy lore about the entities that border on the creepypasta genre as a whole or rather as "the campfire tales of the internet" as I lovingly like to call them, but there's something intrinsically sad and beautiful about liminality.

The fact that there's no destination to be reached, that there's no way out of the endless corridors of moldy yellow wallpaper and fuzzing neon lights, the endless suburbia or the poolrooms, is very similar to a lot of people's real lives in the sense that they spent years in waiting for something to happen, for a destination to be reached; that may be anything, from working at a job you don't like till the prospect of a better one arises and the kind of excitement and anxiety one feels as they change the course of their life; from dating and/or hooking up in the hopes of meeting that one true love the movie industry (falsely) taught you to wish for; from the change of your body to someone you have no memories with but with whom the best-and worst- memories might yet be created.

Liminality is present to most people's lives whether they realise it or not; and for most of them the first instinct is to get out of that twilight zone between being and not being, happening and not happening; but for some of us, liminality is all we know to be truly safe: you never know if the destination you so wish to reach is the one you really need to get to; perhaps the life you so seek lies in the waiting, in the travelling, in that zone of grey.

#random though of the day #random thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled words #diary entry #online diary #spilled journal #writing life #writing for the sake of writing #writing on tumblr #liminality #liminal spaces #the backrooms #the poolrooms #backrooms concept #what is liminality and why is it so important to you kind of questions that toruble my mind at random times #ok to reply #ok to reblog

[junepegbert]

MARCY’S JOURNAL SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

yeah no wonder sash ended up like that her parents look like dicks

#junebugging #i didn't get my journal yet but i saw this posted online already unspoiler tagged so. #gotta give my commentary on tumblr. #amphibia spoilers

[luneair]

One of my accounts was suddenly terminated as I was logged into it going through my feed! Has this happened to anyone?

@staff

#I’m so confused it’s literally an astrology blog so I have no idea what got it terminated #it’s also like an online journal I’m so scared i messaged tumblr and I hope it’ll work

[heavenknowsffs]

people will really just write their entire traumatic life events on twitter girl that's what therapy's for

#i do the same on tumblr but no one knows me irl here #they have their entire legal name and city and photos of their faces over there just like 'yeah it all started when my mom kidnapped me' #and then go a whole wild direction like 'i was targetted by a serial killer when i was 9 but he was actually my grandpa' #'and he only killed all those people just to meet me because my mom was a bitch' ???????????? i don't wanna know???? #do you live in a criminal minds episode? #the thing is here we have anonimity and if we say those things it's to vent and usually in the tags asking no one to reblog #but on twitter they write it to get clout which is so funny? but also not pls get therapy i beg you #this comes from me opening twitter to share my art and immediately being hit with 'anyway i'm gonna rate traumatic things my ex did to me' #RATE?????? WHAT? RATE? #i get that's how you're coping but write it in a journal and hide it under your bed don't put it online along with your name and face???

[lqnar]

i should write this stuff in my diary

#yeah i started a journal #i need to use my stickers for SOMETHING right #i love stationery it is my newest obsession #i'm spending so much money on it but i usually don't buy stuff so it's okay it's fine i will survive. #''i usually don't buy stuff'' ok liar but what i meant is that i generally only splurge on food. #which obviously isn't great all of the time. hence the bulimia. #so buying stickers and washi tape to feel an ounce of happiness is fine. #i used to journal/vent in a notebook in high school #i ripped out every single page and threw it out at one point #i think close to graduation? #it was really helpful to vent all my feelings in it but it was also really dark stuff about my depression and suicide plans #and also my trauma. and every single song lyric i related to at the time #so basically a lot of uncomfortable embarrassing and sad stuff that i didn't want anyone else to see or reread myself #so it's all gone #as is most of my venting from that time. i had a 50 k word document with venting at one point. that's a whole book #50 k words sounds insane it might just have been 50 pages i can't remember tbh. but still a lot of words. #it's gone now. i deleted everything about that situation and every single one of my tumblr posts when i was going to kill myself #i tend to clean out my life and my embarrassing online posts and every note i have ever written when i think i'm going to die soon. #i'm not suicidal anymore but it still is a mindset i somewhat still have. like oh better remember to delete these embarrassing posts #before i kms. #like ok king but have you considered mental health as a Choice bro just wondering

[thebeckybear]

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#and with light of my previous post #I've just realised how Tumblr is my safe place online #I feel I can post my growth on her #Look back and reflect on where I've been and where I'm going #I'm so in love with who I'm becoming #And I feel like tumblr is my place to put this journey #Whereas other social media is the place for 'damn when did she become this person?' #Once everything works out I will most likely make a soppy post on Facebook because that's who I am there #I follow my memories #I've tailored all my social medias to fit what I need to utilise them for #with Tumblr being my online journal #Facebook being my around the world catch ups #And Instagram is for inspirational quotes #Don't get me started on Pinterest #Proud

[kryptonexorcius]

there's this boy at the beach and he's cute but clearly younger than me. I feel bad for finding he cute BUT HE'S RLY HANDSOME OMG???

#journal #digital diary #online diary #tumblr diary #my diary #diary entry #so cute #cute boys #beachlover #beach babe

[lovedumbandbroke]

Surrender happily to perfect summers / Thinking of love... all-night, pink ribbons snake around our life. / Lovely and warm.

i love this piece because its soso pretty and happy. the vibe is really obvious and tbh it was very wholesome to make. i kinda imagined what i wanted my future to look like and it was very pink. these two pages mean a lot to me in that regard, because i really poured my heart out here. i hope you guys like it <3<3<3

#Tumblr is still banned and my dad recently had heart surgery so coming online and posting has been very difficult. #but!! i do have new stuff in my drafts and I'm editing and reviewing it soso hopefully it'll be out soon. #love you guys #<3 #art journal #aesthetic journal #journalling #love #pink n pretty

[oncetherenowhere]

The battle between wanting to follow people because I'm getting more active on tumblr in a non-journal way, but being scared they'll see my emo posts, but not wanting to private my emo posts, but, but, but

#journal #i miss being a teen on tumblr. i was able to make so many online buddies #i feel like i dont know how anymore. what am i doing?

[gayassdog]

wish i could say to my friends hey can i say the most vile shit that i just thought of. For peace ad love reasons of course

#this is abt saying sex shit and funny gross shit only #i wont get into it too much but im afraid that the way i talk online is like #way different than how i am irl #so i have to keep my irl self in check more and hold back a lot of the stuff i usually say #is that masking or something else. Watevar #yeah we late night posting so noone sees this #tumblr is like my freakish little journal

[rosysugarr]

Mmmm I just. Love it when unavoidable life events are also Very Triggering and upsetting to me, but I HAVE to make myself go through it anyway. God I wish I were in therapy so I could learn how to handle this shit better than just distracting myself as much as possible every waking second until I literally Cannot.

#personal post but im just having a rough fucking time #and the people i usually talk to about this stuff arent online bc it's fucking 5 AM #so tumblr is my public journal to get this out of my head for now #rosychatter