The most beautiful, kind, selfless, genuine people exist and hold so much more power than anyone else and when I need to be reminded of this I think of my friends and my father and sister and the children in Gaza and Hussam and Mona and all of the people risking their life to help families in Gaza
today's daily dose of joey richter is this performance of im just a sidekick from leakycon 2017 AKA my favourite version of im just a sidekick that there is <3
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(original video uploaded to youtube by the channel Leah Wood)
Abigail Thorn on transition & loss, Ophelia (1851-2) by Sir John Everett Millais, L. A. H., draft of THE ONE AND ONLY UNIVERSE OF KAY RAINIER by yves., Tragic Accident by yves., All is Vanity (1892) by Charles Allan Gilbert, The Missing Person by Jennifer Finney Boylan, Symphony in White, No. 1 (1861-2) by James McNeill Whistler, We Only Come Out At Night (2014) by Stephen Mackey, Tragic Accident by yves., The Missing Person by Jennifer Finney Boylan.
TRAGIC ACCIDENT by yves.
flash fiction. slipstream. 650 words.
After I read the Abigail Thorn @realphilosophytube quote at the top of this post, I had the strangest dream. Everything I'd ever thought about transness, suicide, agency, family, and duty was in it, and, predictably, it was in fiction form. That dream is now out, in the form of the piece Tragic Accident. Women in the walls! Transition as suicide! Ambiguously historical setting! Tragic Accident has it all, in less than a thousand words.
Obviously, this piece is very close to my heart. It's one of my favorites I've written so far. I'm very happy to be able to share it (and another weird flash piece, The Scar) with a community of people whom I hope will very much enjoy it—first with $5+ Patreons, and now with everyone. Thank you so much for supporting strange transsexual writing.
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i don’t know what it is with me and video games but no matter how fun or interesting a game sounds, i almost never boot it up and even when i do i play like thirty minutes and then give up.
like i guess it’s because i’m a internet-addicted little gremlin and the second i open an browser i have a System to get me five different kinds of doomscrolling on hand at once, so unlike irl hobbies that i can do away from the computer or in tandem with my doomscrolling of choice today, i need to have my cozy usual setup just a tiiiny bit out of reach but avoid using it to focus on my game.
i don’t usually have that problem with games on my phone or handheld consoles back when i had one of those, but also i’m careful to pick games that aren’t disturbed by me watching a video at the same time, like wordless brain puzzles or pokemon hunting yknow, if the game starts a story segment or ambiance is important i play that on its own, away from distractions.
even when i play flash games on the computer while watching a video, i feel like i switch back and forth still pretty often. and even when i play a “proper” game with friends and focus on it for a couple hours, i can tell it wears me down and at the end all i can think about it the skin-crawling need to go listen to music really loud and scroll social media for two hours, even though that’s also because of the socialization aspect.
but switching back and forth between a solo game and my usual setup isn’t really an option cuz my computer struggles with it depending on the game, and also even if i did find something on my phone that could fill that role, most computer games are still more involved than mobile games that i can play while doing something else. i wouldn’t want to take away from the experience of a game bc my stupid brain needs to also be doing sudoku and listening to 2000′s pop at the same time. because honestly i kinda already do that when i watch movies and series. which i feel somewhat conflicted about. but that might mean there’s just yknow, no way to get over it, at least in my current circumstances.
Footage from Micky Dolenz Celebrates The Monkees (edited together from the full live concert video available via YouTube). No copyright infringement intended.
“I don’t really have a lot to compare it with, since I didn’t have a normal life going on at the time to which I could refer, but at the time when the Monkees hit, the fame thing was very difficult for me. I thought that kids liked our records and that they came to the shows to hear us play the music. That’s why I go to shows. I couldn’t believe it.
I had pathological self value. I really didn’t have a sense of it at all. I didn’t get why. I thought I had been picked almost at random. I didn’t have any sense of myself bringing anything except that character to the Monkees. What I thought they hired me for was that character, and I think to this day that that had a lot to do with it. I didn’t recognize how that sprung forth from whom who I really am. I thought I was faking them out. I thought I was handing them a lie and they were buying the lie — and so how could I value myself? Any time you compliment somebody and they can’t take the compliment, what they’re saying to you is, ‘You don’t know what you’re talking about.’ That’s the message that anybody with low self-esteem gives back when somebody compliments them. Which is where I was. All that played into this fame thing.
And it plays backwards, too. The reason that I got into the fame game was because I didn’t have any sense of value. I thought, ‘Jeez, if I can get the millions to love me then I’ll be all right.’ I got the millions to love me — and it still wasn’t all right. What a surprise. Ha, ha, ha.” - Peter Tork, Toxic Fame: Celebrities Speak on Stardom (1996) (x) [screenshots from this footage have been posted on this blog in the past]
Why am I getting fucking Chris-chan videos in my recs again. I don't care, the people who are like, obsessed with documenting every little she's done and every detail about her life are weird and gross. Sorry