#so sorry if this triggers anyone

[inkskinned]

am i gonna put you in the book acknowledgements am i gonna be able to say your name without flinching am i ever gonna get a word in edgewise am i ever gonna recover the time i spent with you. computer virus kid; i arrived in your life already begging to be let in. somehow insecure i could even be your friend. like you had a line outside the door and we were all shifting our weight, begging.

you're so fucking good at that - at making people feel like they need to earn you, like you're a commodity none of us can afford. no kindness or careful communication could work on you - you were so good at just going-ghost, about deciding someone just wasn't cool-enough. something about that is super ironic. even the parts of it that weren't romantic felt like a romance book. i wanted you to like me so badly i scrubbed myself clean just so you'd spare me - what. your favor? a look?

okay okay okay. it's just a friendship - if it was even true that we were friends, if you even saw me as someone you trusted. on reddit someone would tell me girl literally just cut her out of your life, it's not that difficult. even i was aware of how fucked up the whole situation was. like, why the fuck do i even care about your approval? you're like, not even that fun to be around. you are often a little bit cruel.

but for almost four years of my life, i thought i had found someone like me. somebody who liked the same things i do. someone who liked to read and who liked making jokes with esoteric references and who spent maybe too much time on the internet and who was absolutely a little bit pretentious. i don't know, something about that was powerful and addictive.

i keep thinking about our last conversation. about how i said - okay, enough is enough. you pushed me too far, you really hurt my feelings.

and how you laughed and said - you think you're the victim?

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #she physically assaulted me and then screamed in my face #but not before sh'ing first and blaming it on me #while she was locked in my bathroom. at 1 in the morning #while i begged her to please just calm down and to try taking a deep breath and to go to sleep #and then she was like - ur just like my abuser #bc she had screamed in my face which was triggering to me and i froze like a deer in the headlights #and since i had shut down at that point evidently i was the problem child #i know she is out there telling our mutual friends i abandoned her and it makes me SO pissed off #like dude you spent so much fucking time forgiving & forgetting that your decrepit asshole of a boyfriend #pushed me down in the fucking hallway #but noooo hes <3 troubled <3 at 43 and divorced #bc according to you it's important that u don't '''see anyone as a monster'' #but god forbid i not handle you SCREAMING IN MY FACE #i couldnt even get you to say sorry for crossing my original and only boundary you were like ''what did you want me to do'' #babe i said 'the bf is not allowed around here he scares me and u said ur broken up with him' #that was the thing i wanted you to do: not fucking invite him to WHERE I LIVED #godddd typing this shit out and knowing it's only 2% of what actually happened makes me feel pathetic #i can't believe i let you treat me like that. you were a TERRIBLE friend.

[derpiedoxie]

Tw: eye contact

I paint what I see

#HEEEEEEEELP I HAVE BEEN DRAGGED INTO HOME AND I CAN’T GET OUT #A NEE HYPERFIXATION HAS BEGUN #EVERYONE WHO HAS FOLLOWED ME FOR FNAF BE WARNED #I had so much fun with this drawing- #it was an extremely fun experiment! #and to anyone who doesn’t know who this is: His name is Wally and he’s from an ARG Project called Welcome home! #Hightly recommend you check it out #derpiedoxie #digital art #fanart #welcome home #welcome home wally #welcome home fanart #wally welcome home #also I actually recorded the progress for this one so I’ll be linking the speedpaint in a reblog as soon as I’ve posted it! #edit: aaaaaa I should’ve put the trigger warning there earlier I’m sorry I forgot :’)

[gobstoppr]

more harm than good

alt ver. under the cut

#art #text #digital painting #gore #cw gore #blood #cw blood #cw animal death #ask to tag #salmon #fish #fish art #sockeye salmon #eugh sorry for all the tags. trying to be safe w/ triggers and also trying to make sure. uh . anyone sees this piece #ive been working on it for a whileeee #i neglected it for like 2 weeks and i just added some finishing touches tonight #for some context: i started this piece after getting rlly mad at my mom and so i needed to vent #n i identify rlly heavily with fish n especially salmon. so. yeah

[sorceresssiren]

day #387987529837 of begging the gods to make everyone forget who i am so i dont have to stay alive for them and just go off and die peacefully like seriously i was built for running in the woods with Artemis not this capitalist bullshit

#suicide tw #not actually going to kill myself because thats not possible but i sure wish it was! #im seriously not built for this world and im so fucking tired of living #im sorry if this triggers anyone i just need to scream #personal

[whitepain]

we should talk about these (unused?) john voice lines and the implications of them more

#morston #“folks will talk👀” that is not something you say to just anyone. theres history behind those words... and why does his tone sound like he #wants them to talk... he wants those allegations!! #though maybe you longtime morston fans here already talked about them idk i just got here. but LETS TALK ABOUT THEM MORE #i say unused because i genuinely cannot find any video of john saying these ingame... #they seem to be the ones where you linger around him/follow him #i literally harass john every chance i get around camp when im playing so you would think i would hear these at least once #i even used rampage trainer to try and trigger them under his speech categorys but even i didnt get any of these #considering how much cut content rdr2 has i wouldnt be surprised if these just werent used but if someone wants to prove me wrong feel free #Johns breath probably smells like cigs and whiskey well obviously i mean hes a man in 1899 💀 #so would arthurs but with a bit of horse to it because he spends so much time with them his dna is probably 5% horse at this point #so if they kiss they can nullify it and have no more stank cowboy breath... science is beautiful #even if theyre removed theyre canon in my heart 🫶 #sorry for yapping in the tags but these lines changed my life...

[wildflowercryptid]

something that's been weighing on my mind ever since learning about the situation with ezra / toonimal is seeing how these predators will take the active hostility that is frequently directed towards minors in online spaces to their advantage and use it to prey on vulnerable children. i think that we as adults in online fandom should probably come together and maybe rethink the language / manner we go about interacting with kids bc clearly the way things are rn is causing active harm.

like obviously, if you're an adult and aren't comfortable with minors interacting with you or your content, you should be allowed to set that boundary and should be vocal about it, ( especially if the content you create isn't safe for them to consume. ) but i don't think talking to them like they're a blight on all that is good and holy is the way to go about it. maybe just saying you're an 18 plus account will suffice, you don't have to tell them to fuck off.

#i'm opening myself up for ppl to leave the stupidest takes on this post but whatever i need to get this off my mind #before anyone says anything about the kids on that website. they're grooming victims. they're literally kids being taken advantage of #show them some fucking kindness and be understanding that they're the victims in this situation #idk what it is about becoming an adult that causes so many ppl to lose their empathy towards minors it's weird #like yeah kids can be annoying and pushy on online spaces sometimes but a lot of them are old enough to know online etiquette lbr #alot of us were annoying kids on the internet at some point we should understand that you don't just. get a handbook for how to act online #that's shit you learn overtime but ppl seem to forget that #they also seem to forget that talking down to kids isn't gonna teach them shit they're not gonna listen to you if you treat them like idiots #what i'm trying to say is that we really need to talk to minors more respectfully and maybe give them a little grace #( obviously there will be situations where some of them need to be yanked up by the collar but there's ways to go about that >>> #without treating them like shit ) #these kids need to know that there's spaces for them to be online safely without having to stumble into places that'll pray on them #we all know how much it sucked to be a kid online we should want better for the ones coming in after us ya know #sorry if this comes across as preachy it just breaks my heart and boils me blood to see kids being taken advantage of like this #especially when there's ways to prevent it idk #how do i even tag this.... #mj.txt #there's trigger warning on the linked post btw #tw csa mention

[b1mbodoll]

to the rude fuckin loser that just sent me a mean ass ask 😭😭😭 are you not embarrassed? ur saying its embarrassing that im upset over hatemail but if you got that shit repeatedly im sure you’d be upset too…???

LOL and thanks for sending that in cus it just proves to me that ur nothing but a bitchless, friendless, fucking coward 😭 ur acting all tough and thinkin ur a hardass for sending alllll that bullshit on ANON!!!!! like youre a little loser, lets be so serious. i know it and so do you 😭😭 if you really bout this shit say it off fucking anonymous like a real bitch so i can block you 😭😭 talkin all big n bad just to hide behind the anonymous option 😭 yeah okay LMAO!!!!!! like why r u do scared to come off anon what am i gonna do to you ??? punch you with an EMOJI??? 👊👊👊 like lets be serious ur a cowardly fuckin loser ass freak with no life and ur taking it out on me 😭 jealousy is a fucken disease and for you im afraid its a chronic case 🫶

trying to shame me for having feelings and then proceeding to say you hope i end up in a ditch? ur fucking pathetic!!! and trying to invalidate my sexuality? 😭 bitch YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW ME!!!! god damn you are a fuckin weirdo. do not speak to me or step to me like you know me bc at the end of the day, you’re nobody!!!! you are not my friend, you are not someone that knows me, so dont act like you do. you have no fucking right to invalidate me or my sexuality i seriously cannot believe you’re really trying to speak for me and tell me MY SEXUALITY?? calling me bi and disrespectin me for WHAT?? does spewing hate like a miserable cunt give you such a rush? is that it? its so funny to me like as if id listen to a pitiful fuckin asswipe like you 😭

im so sick of you little fucking freaks trying to walk all over me just because im sensitive and kind. fuck you and ur fuckin mama bitch🖕suck my dick and kiss my fucking ass thank you very much.

#♡.gabi barks #sorry for being rude and uncouth 🤞 that shit just pissed me AWF #LIKE YOURE SOOOO FUCKING LAME 😭 SAY IT WITH YOUR CHEST OMFG #what a fucking pussy like ur a joke #sorry to my followers if this seems mean but holy fuck that ask was genuinely awful and i didnt want to trigger anyone by posting it #blocked and deleted 🤞 if you still got shit to say dm me so i csn block you 🤞 loser #i am a sweetheart but im fed up like im done being ur punching bag i need yall to get a grip and just block me of ur this fuckin tight over #smut 😭 like baby howd you find me??? were u reading x reader fanfics ??? be honest its okay!!!! fuckin hypocrite

[ongsasuns]

guys this is going to sound really heavy? insane? but. first of all going on a hiatus. i’ll put the rest in the tags because idk. it feels really weird doing this but also unfortunately it is very very necessary at this point.

#nini’s nonsense #so i don’t really want to disappear on anyone and just to be clear. i am fine there’s nothing wrong with me personally but. life got fucked #real real fast and that’s why i’m leaving but. i’m doing a bi-weekly check in because the thing is. the moment those stop. you can all #unfortunately assume i’m not on this earth anymore #HA i feel insane typing that out but it is the truth of life atm so yeah uhm #this sounds so heavy and i mean. i guess it is. but yeah i also don’t want to just randomly disappear forever so this seems like the best #thing to do? sorry idrk how to deal with this yet so yeah. #maybe if everything turns to normal once more i’ll come back but i don’t see that happening anytime soon. #but yeah maybe. for now. i love you all dearly forever and always <3 #does this need a trigger warning? idk lmk #anyways let me pin this. #also pls don’t worry too much! my life is just being. well my life i guess this had to happen at some point. #also see you sept 1st!! hopefully!!

[pessimisticprincess]

started my meds today and honestly guys i’m feeling pretty off brand….kinda optimistic 🥹

#maybe i won’t be as miserable in a few weeks and actually be something other than depressed #like could you imagine? #i will definitely be talking about this and probably like documenting my progress/changes so if med talk is triggering to anyone i’m sorry!!

[mustangs-flames]

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#took my anxiety meds and did my cbt exercises and am doing a bit better now #turns out i had forgotten to take them today #and a bunch of random stuff triggered a bit of a spiral #one of those being about horror story creation and how anyone who writes/makes horror content is- #inherently an evil person and shouldn't be making it. so yeah. uh. seeing that during an anxiety episode didn't help out at all lmao #i got scared thinking i had hurt everyone in the world by writing a horror series #despite. you know. tagging all my stories age-appropriately. tagging content. and even providing content warnings on each chapter #like. i think i do a lot more than some creators do when being responsible about horror or handling certain topics in my writing #especially because of the religious trauma #and the bad childhoods and parents. and the fear of god and how it can negatively impact one's queerness and identity #and i mean. i've always been clear that if i ever forget to tag something that all you have to do is let me know and i will fix it asap #idk. not saying i'm like a beacon if perfection but i try to rationalise to my anxiety that i am doing the most i can #if that makes sense? #anyway. sorry about my break earlier #tw: vent

[themistymountainscold]

why do people not understand that being trans isn’t a choice.

people really think i want this? that i want to go through therapy and medical procedure’s just to be comfortable in my own fucking body?

if i had a choice I wouldn’t be trans

#and thats probably just me #idk #but i fucking hate it #it’s worse for me because i dont pass #at all #i have double d even after a breast reduction #i begged my mum and the doctor to go smaller but they said #it needs to fit your body #rant #trans #i’m sorry if this triggered anyone #but i’m so tired #i just want to be comfortable

[fayeandknight]

Personal post in which I am processing old trauma.

It's weird how you can clearly recall an experience but have no emotional response/true comprehension of it until many years later.

My relationship with my ex fiance happened during my first three years of college, if you don't count the stalking and harassment that went on for several years after. I'm in my 30s now, that was a long time ago.

It took me a few years after breaking up for the last time to realize that the relationship wasn't just "really shitty" but had in fact been extremely abusive. To this day when I think of him I think of screaming and crying, breaking glass, blood, absolute terror, and the inability to breathe.

Over the years I've been processing the truth of things he'd normalized/minimized/gaslit me on and trying to give myself grace for the long term effects it's had on me. And for a while I thought I'd acknowledged all of it. But recently (last year or two) it's hit me like a sack of bricks that he tried to murder me. I don't mean going too far in a fit of anger, I mean he planned out and followed through on a deliberate plan to kill me that I survived by sheer luck.

That day has always been a cold, stop motion memory since it happened. I can recall it in a series of snapshots, each clean and neat and utterly detached from each other.

He tells me we'll have the house to ourselves.

He's drawn me a bath in the big Jacuzzi tub with rose petals in the water.

I undress and get in.

He is sitting on the side of the bathtub.

He is cupping my face for a kiss and whispers something about Ophelia.

My head is underwater.

I am flailing and grabbing at his hands, the side of the bathtub. Water is going everywhere but I can't get out from underneath his hands.

I can't breathe. My lungs are burning. I am beyond terrified. This is the inevitable end. This is how I die.

His hands are off me and I am able to get my head above water.

He is taking keys off the counter and handing them through the cracked open door.

I am soaking wet and holding my clothes against me in a bundle that mostly covers me.

I shove past the person on the other side of the door and run barefoot back to my dorm.

He gaslit me hard about this that it never happened. I didn't even get a chance to bring it up. He just showed up the next day to take me on a date (which he very rarely did) and complained about how outside of sex we never had one on one time because there were always people in the house. I was still in shock I think and don't really remember what happened in between my running out of his house and him showing up at my dorm apartment. I do remember being in the living room of his house after the date and having a very public fight that he pulled out of nowhere.

For a long time that memory has been something I shied away from even thinking about. It was a cold spot in my brain that gave me mental frost bite.

And then when I did acknowledge it, it was framed as 'I almost died' in my mind. But the more I think about it, the more clear that this was a planned murder becomes.

We were in college and he lived in a busy frat house/known party house with four other guys. He either dedicated significant time to tracking people's coming and going to find a long enough window of time to drown me and dispose of my body. Not a small feat considering the near constant foot traffic in the house. Or he engineered having that house be empty.

The tub, which wasn't normally used due to being disgustingly dirty, had been spotlessly cleaned.

He never got undressed or into the tub with me. He was wearing a short sleeved shirt with shorts and angled his legs away from the tub.

He referenced Ophelia, who dies via drowning. I was a theatre major at the time.

He very much intended to murder me by downing me in that bathtub.

The only reason I survived is because someone forgot their keys on the bathroom counter and had to come back for them. That's it.

It's so wild to me how long it's taken my brain to feel, I don't know safe??? enough, to really put the severity and full implications together. I didn't repress the memory, just avoided it. And I'm not even shocked that he tried to kill me, more that he tried to murder me - though I'm not sure how much sense that distinction would make to anyone else.

Seeing romantic gestures between couples makes me feel cold and frightened and grief stricken. And for a long time I attributed that to my most significant/serious relationship being an epic shit show and a half. But I'm starting to realize that it's also because one of the few romantic gestures I've received was actually part of the plan to murder me. So I'm trying to be gentle with myself when I experience those feelings.

I'm not some bitter shrew who hates seeing happy couples. I am experiencing the fallout feelings of an extremely traumatic and very nearly fatal event.

Anyway I'm not really expecting for anyone to have read this whole mess. But if you did, here's a picture of Forte snuggling me from this morning as thanks for sitting with me for a bit.

#personal post #trigger warning for talk of #attempted murder #long post #I'm not really expecting anything from posting this #it's more just me venting into the void #I've never talked about this so directly before to anyone #cptsd #complex ptsd #ptsd #domestic violence #abusive relationships #I've been spending a lot of time around couples this week and it's making me very sad #sorry for being depressing

[ssreeder]

I started reading this like 4 days ago, time has blurred together. I have not slept over 5 and a half hours of sleep in that time, I had to get up at 6 for something and was going 'just one more chapter' several times until it was 2am. The only thing that I can think about is LIAB, I am quickly losing my sanity to Zukka and the prison camp. I came here for a fun time, a good time and the sheer amount of angst that I had heard this had. And, I was certainly not lied to.

I am the type of person to read hard core angst. Impaling, torture , doesn't even phase me anymore (bit concerning but ignore that), I have taken to the blank word document to get that sinking, queasy feeling when the angst gets really hard core. First few chapters of this had me captivated and then Zuko came into it, *Chefs kiss*

I can't read long fics because I don't have the attention span, but for this I make an exception, also if you read it all in like 4 days the attention span doesn't have time to run out! I am on the 3 part, chapter 2 and I actively plan to binge read it tonight. Do I have school in the morning? Yes. Am I still going to stay up until 1 in the morning reading this and make up for my lack of sleep with caffeine? Also yes.

I really hope that Jet dies in this, I hope that he has a really anti-climatic death as well, like he falls off a slightly too high ledge. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE gets to separate MY GAYS LIKE THAT BECAUSE HE JUST HAD TO TELL FONG THAT ZUKO WAS AT THE BLOODY CAMP!

and the Forest Lesbians, may they live forever in the local folk lore about two witches that lived the forest and used the power of being gay to cure people.

thank you for writing this, it has really made me happy reading this even though my favourite gays are getting traumatised (more traumatised than usual for Zuko). I have only been reading this, my friends are concerned about me since I don't think I have willingly left the house in... *looks down at fingers, realises I don't have enough fingers to count this* umm... too long!

*holds your hands* how are you doing friend??

your ask had me both nervous and excited haha & the greatest thing about responding to this a few days late is that you’ve probably finished it by now haha. I feel sorry for your sleep schedule but I also don’t feel bad haha <3

I’m glad LIAB met your expectations in the angst, it’s probably one of the more angsty/ darker zukka fics & it’s probably going to get worse lol. (Not for zukka specifically, everyone gets to join this time) But you’ll see… if I can hold your attention until the end haha.

as for your Jet thoughts I’m sure you found out what happened to him by now ;) <3

thanks for this amazing ask seriously you’re great & you deserve to get yourself a treat for taking the time to send me this haha YOURE AWESOMEEEEEE

#I always get nervous when I get long asks #I think I have negative comment PTSD or something haha #I’ll get an ao3 comment or tumblr ask and I get all nervous like OH NO THEYRE GOING TO CRITICIZE MEEEEEEEE #& then it’s really nice and I feel SILLY #anyway yeahhhh I’m sure LIAB is one of the more darker zukka fics lol #I say that casually but also warn the shit out of people in the tags #I don’t want anyone to ever get triggered #Because I do think people sometimes don’t take tags seriously #But I’m glad you liked it so much you got all the way to the third book #You’re seriously amazing for reading all thay #I wrote all of it and I don’t even wanna read it all haha #I had to go searching for something the other day and I had to like suit up to dive into all that and find my fact #I’m very serious about connecting facts haha #I may have foreshadowed something in chapter 2 book 1 that I’m holding onto for chapter 20 book 3 haha #I’m crazy sorry haha #Anywayyyy I’m curious if you did catch up #I’ve got another 20k chapter almost done lol #Well anyway THANKS FOR THE ASKKKK #LIAB #RIA #ITF #ask

[bedazzlecunt]

how do you feel about intox stuff? i see it's not explicitly on your DNI list but i feel like it edges (haha) close to some of your other triggers, so i just want to be sure before i follow or interact. thank you, have a nice day!

awww, it's very sweet of you to ask, thank you :)

i don't mind intox in and of itself (though i'm not into it at all), though if it leads to my other triggers (such as fantasies where intox transitions to rape) or if you're posting intox stuff where loss of consent/violation of consent is a central part of the fantasy (ie. intox from strangers at a party, or intox used by a partner to push past the sub's limits/boundaries/etc) i'd prefer if you not interact.

also because i can't help but worry and want to add PSAs about this — intox stuff is really, really dangerous to actually try outside of fantasies; an intoxicated sub is going to be less capable of safe-wording if they need it and an intoxicated dom is going to be less in control. i knew a dom thru an IRL kink space years back who genuinely ruined his own life and badly damaged his sub's because they played drunk and he did shit he never thought he'd do sober, and he never recovered from his shame and guilt over what he'd done to her. getting off to fantasies on tumblr is whatevs but if you are actually playing in this space please be so fucking careful and plan and expect for things to go wrong

#Anonymous #wren speaking! #SORRY FOR GETTING SO SERIOUS ABOUT THIS #I JUST REALLY WORRY ABOUT PEOPLE. and so many ppl on nsft are sexually inexperienced young ppl #my personal opinion is that its never safe to play if you or ur partner are under the influence #but also i cant stop anyone so i just implore people to be as safe as they can #as for my personal triggers. intox does nothing for me (i dont do substances myself and i find drunkenness/etc. extremely #unattractive in others so theres 0 appeal) #when you're posting any kind of cnc (including stuff like somno) the stuff that brings it over from 'whatever' to 'triggering' for me #generally centers around whether the violation of consent is a central part of the fantasy

[petrichorium]

I am in lock step w my mutuals abt the vast majority of characters but I do think I am alone when it comes to my take on gojo………

#KSNDKSN he is so soft and desperate for affection To Me #a little obsessive but not toxic. just needy and loyal and desiring of someone to worship………. #the most important part abt him to me will always be that despite everything he is devastatingly human #idk I don’t talk abt him a lot for the same reason I’m afraid to talk abt jing yuan #I have a very specific idea of him in my head and the way a lot of people interpret him is genuinely a lil triggering to me so I don’t #feel comfortable making posts out of fear that pol will rb and misinterpret and make me feel bad #but he’s very near and dear to me #I don’t rlly selfship w him but if I Had to pick someone from jjk it’d be him #pattering on the roof #sorry this is venty I’m not shaming anyone rlly

[leonw4nter]

writer's block 🤣🤣 i hate this

i have so much ideas but i dont know how to start them out on my docs 😭😭 like im trying to start with something easier like a drabble but even i dont have any ideas for that 😭😭 ill try to get out of this soon since i havent posted in a while 🙏🙏

#im sorry yall but hol on yk !!! i also have tests this week so expect little to no appearances from me <33 #does anyone have advice for writer's block :33 feel free to comment :33 #im bored and listening to devil trigger in class rn #speaking of devil trigger i have an ao3 acc of the same name as my tumblr acc tho i havent posted anything yet :3