#so this was like a late january thing

[badly-drawn-bbu]

BDBBU Holiday Spectacular 2023 FINALE

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#bdbbu holiday spectacular 2023 #admin maah #SORRY THAT THIS IS LIKE HALFWAY THROUGH JANUARY!! BUT SHES FINALLY HERE #hopefully next year we’ll be a bit more On Time with this stuff haha <:’)) THINGS HAPPENED!!! AAA #but thank you all for being so lovely with this year’s holiday special; we had SO MUCH FUN!!! #and we’ll be back to our regularly-scheduled NON festive bdbbu soon :-)) happy late holidays all!!! #billie bust up #badly drawn bbu #billie bbu #aristotle bbu #dutch bbu #hayes bbu #elaine bbu #barnaby bbu #fantoccio bbu #calico jack bbu #michael bublé bbu #basile bbu #oscar bbu

[persephoneflouwers]

Hey! I’m wondering if you have any more favourite Larry fanfics? I read every single one you��ve recommended and they’re amazing! Also highly suggest you read My Saddle’s Waiting by RealityBetterThanFiction on AO3 if you haven’t already. It’s one of a kind! Another thing I made a tumblr so I can reach you lol. Thank you for posting the fanfiction, you’re doing gods work!

Read recently(in no specific order):

Wings to break your fall (102K) by karamelised: classic, iconic, the blueprint of a genre. I read it like 10 times lmao this author is probably my favourite ever. I read everything from them. They wrote another all time favourite for me <3 anyway. This is THE stripper AU. THE Angel Harry with wings. I love love love love it’s such a cute fic omfg

It’s you or no one else (20K) by softfonds ( @softfonds , actually one of my favourite authors here): a cute little ABO fic that revolves around a qui pro quo. Omega Harry and Alpha Louis meet on a cruise while they’re pretending to be respectively Mrs Zayn Payne and a stranger, definitely not a private detective hired by Mr Liam Payne to follow his husband on a unrealistic secret love affair. Very light, very fun! TAGS: Historical fic - 1940s, Fluff, detective Louis, club singer Harry, mentions of pregnancy, false identity

Rise up like the sun (41K) by Star_Henderson ( @tommosgun ) : Louis is a doctor on his way to UCLA for an interview. Harry is an actor who Louis vaguely recognises. He attempts to take a sneaky photo, to send to his friend to help identify him but leaves the flash on. They bond over stupid mistakes, french toast and motorbike rides to the ocean.

Eyes on the horizon (12K) by yeah_alright ( @uhoh-but-yeah-alright ): This was such a fun read. This author never disappoints. I want to quote a line of the fic that got me hooked: «This frankly devastating man with a scruff-dusted face that had Harry’s thoughts drifting to impure places faster than they ever had and a bright, raspy voice that could convince the angel on his shoulder to fall in line with the devil on his other in less than a sentence.» TAGS: age difference, older Harry (he’s forty), younger Louis (he’s in his 20s), bisexual Harry, so much humor in the writing I had so much fun!

All I want for Christmas is (not) you! By unbrxokenhabits (12K): Harry and Louis kind of hate each other. Harry is definitely not happy when Louis barges in on his holiday trip with his family. TAGS: no smut, childhood friends, friends to enemies to lovers, oh there’s only one bed

Everybody wants a taste (2K) by shiptattou : this was soooo cool. TAGS: girl direction, established relationship, public sex

Let me add my two fics here, just because I can <3

Tuca Tuca (IlikeyouIlikeyouIlikeyou) by persephoneflouwers (4.9K): the San Francisco getaway AU where Harry is needy and Louis has a flight in a few hours. TAGS: canon compliant, established relationship, smut and fluff, harry dances in the kitchen and louis plays a guitar

De amore ex tempore (101K) by persephoneflouwers: the middle ages AU / Time travel AU with Philosopher Harry and Painter Louis. Feature Zayn as Maestro Verrocchio, Liam as Lorenzo de’ Medici and Niall… well Niall as a Father. TAGS: historical fiction, period related homophobia, Florence - Italy, louis has long hair at some point, horseback riding, murder attempts, philosophical talks, some sex in front of the fireplace, with almond oil as lube, under a sky full of stars in a brook.

#larry fic recs #felt like sharing this because today I would be on FIRE with opinions om how poorly certain things have been handled lately #but I don’t want any drama on myself #so let’s enjoy fics and let’s soread some love to the authors shall we? #angie’s reader’ corner #january readings

[why-the-heck-not]

26.01.24, friday

duolingo french streak day 21

4h of writing an essay abt my thesis topic aka I’m elbow deep in articles about brains even tho I study computer science (I love it tho: finally get read abt neuroscience and actually have it not be ”just for fun” (my 16-year-old self who was 100% set on becoming a neurosurgeon/scientist is thrilled currently))

grocery store

#i’m afraid I’m gonna lean too much into the neuroscience of things instead of the cybersecurity & computer aspect #tho I’m sure someone’s gonna go ’’hey u know u’re studying computer science right?’’ if I do so might be worrying for nothing #and like obv I’m gonna have to explain how BCI functions if I’m gonna talk abt its cybersecurity issues #and for that I’ll have to touch on neurons & brain waves & signals etc. #feeling very good abt this topic tho #like I’m having difficulty going to sleep now bc would want to keep reading abt it #(or bc I’ve been drinking coffee too late in the evening) #I just started doing things way too late today hence not much time spent on this today #but hoping tmrw’ll be more productive #bc today was supposed to be like hella productive but alas #today’s productive(ish) things #january 2024 #2024

[leafuxxtea]

I THOUGHT WE WERE STILL IN JANUARY??? WDYM ITS ALMOST THE END OF FEBRUARY

#leaf yapping #was reblogging things and checking dates #like “oh this was posted in late january” #“so like a week ago or smth right?” #WRONG. #i cant believe time is fake #we are NOT beginning march in a week #why is my phone lying to me

[divinekangaroo]

a home painted bright with blood and thorns - pettiot - Peaky Blinders (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Ch 1 | Ch 2 | Ch 3 | Ch 4 | Ch 5 | (COMPLETE)

After the S4-S6 election/marriage, pre-S5. Some months into Tommy and Lizzie's marriage.

This frequently absent father and husband considers that he often does his best work in extreme circumstances: time pressure, resource constraints, situational uncertainty, high stakes, and gross emotional wounding. He knows what to do, doesn't he?

No matter what sort of internal spiralling disaster cascade he's busily ignoring inside. No matter what badly considered spur of the moment decisions he makes to get through the moment that he might pay for later. No matter what—

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Tommy Shelby/Lizzie Stark, Charles Shelby, Ruby Shelby, Arthur Shelby, Frances, Various Shelby Household Maids, Charles Strong, Cyril the Dog, | Domesticity, Intimacy, Menstruation, Bodily Fluids, Bodily Solids, Bodily Functions, Babies, Lactation, Mental Health Issues, Repression, Abusive Families (Past), Attempts at Communicating, Trying Hard, Family Trauma, Family Feels, Nail-Biting, Household Dynamics, Absent Father, Avoidance, Deflection, Trying Sooooooooooo Hard, Distress, Comfort Sex, Dysfunctional Family, Contraception, Spiralling, Intrusive Thoughs, Mild Paranoia, Grief, The Lasting Legacy of Catholicism, Fear of Mental Illness

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#peaky blinders #my writing #peaky blinders fanfic #tommy x lizzie #charles shelby #ruby shelby #arthur shelby #Guest Starring the Ghosts Of (Mrs Shelby)(Alfie Solomons)(Grace Shelby)(all them other hauntings on the January) #the many times i weave sabini's assault into things; of all the horrible matters inflicted on tommy it's *that* one which burns me #i think it's because S2 is where the things done to him and that he is forced to do collapse the possibility of his recovery #so it's almost as if childhood was being forced to line up for war; wwi was being forced to climb the cliff; #s2 is where he's kicked off the cliff despite him clinging on all season; then it's all hitting the rocks on the way down from then #this was a fascinating writing experience because i handwrote it all first in one week late Feb then did a type-up and detailed edit #still contemplating what this experience has taught me about writing mediums/forms #certainly i could not do it with longer chapters but i *could* do it with a longer story #seems 2500 words makes a decent scene/chapter size of managable editability on a progressive basis #i know lots of fellow writers do the 'why do you talk so much about wordcount just write' but when time is limited the size/format- #-significantly impacts my ability to be productive. like the difference between doing a full scale wall mural versus a handsketch i need to #-match the form to the available window to produce the form #(remembering that one time i did a full wall mural: duration measured by all 6 seasons of X-Files running in the background whilst doing it

[laurmaus]

another one +uncolored ver (can u tell i skipped school today

#i feel like it kind of looks better uncolored idk i think it's the eyes #laurmau #aphmau #mcd #minecraft diaries #i b on that danny gonzalez grind im CONSTANTLY rewatching his stuff im so serioud #i had this phase back in like december january i forgot where i literally binge watched like at least 12 of his vids a day Idk what i was d #ing like girl STUDY FOR YOUR SATS #hashtag Laurmau forever Idgaf (i've been avoiding continuing my mcd rewatchbc the next episode has aaron in the thumbnail(im really scared😭 #I WILL FINISH YOU #Garroth soon contrary to popular belief i am a big Garroth fan too hes just kind of been irrelevant in mcd lately like come back...... #I LIKE HIM KN THE SIDE STORIES THOUGH idk how i feel about my street but i Just started so we will see #o dont likr what jess is doing to him and laurance why are they crazy creeps☹️my daughters.... #ummm what else omg i want to animate the nicole audio video thing that post is SO FUNNY literally live changing imma do that tmrw maybe umm #big emphasis on the Maybe😅😅😅i am a junior in high school #Hopefully ugghhhhh GET ME OUT!!!! #laurance zvahl #aphmau mcd #laurance mcd #awesome #also omg #thank u all for being nice tome on that laurance design it made me so happy like samn people rlly still care abt mcd😭😭(Positive

[ardate]

sniffs. man. i really want this job :(

#misc #TLDR: #a recruiter calls me coupla weeks ago; says she wants me on their production - and in that same exact call ends up saying #“oh actually i'm not sure you fit. this might not happen” cuz she actually read my resume this time.... while on call with me? #how about you take a proper gander at my resume before calling me to offer me a job and then change your mind.... #ended the call saying “contact me again on January 8th if you're still interested and i'll see if i can squeeze you in as a junior” #(which. okay. first off why would you have to “squeeze me in” when you actively called me for the job. #Also i'm not a junior. but sure we'll see what the pay is like) #so i contacted her on the 8th and she was like haha actually i doubt we'll have any spots left for you! smiling emoji #and just earlier rn she sent me a new DM asking if i have an updated portfolio since the one they have is from 3yrs ago #so she revived a little bit of hope i know i shouldnt have cuz i HIGHLY doubt they'll hire me for this prod given how things have been goin #its late now i doubt ill get any news one way or another before sometime next week (hopefully) #ugh...... i really want this job man. #i've had too many feature film opportunities slide from my grasp. please let me have this #having this one experience will make it easier to get hired for more. i'm fucking begging on my knees

[scorchedcandy]

Erm is there a TES and/or BG3 Secret Santa / gift exchange sort of thing and if not, would people be interested if I set up one 👁️

#art and fic and so on so anyone can contribute #maybe a fantasy gift exchange and u can select what ur interested in creating/receiving like tes bg3 dnd etc #I’ll make a real post for guidelines and the thing where I’d collect what ur interested in creating/receiving later if people show interest #id probably gather interested people until like late november and then distribute people on december 1 #rolling deadline december 25 - january 1 #bg3 #tes #dnd

[meme-loving-stuck]

flipped a coin and decided im not leaving the house today. unrelated but I've been waking up with splitting headaches regardless of how well i slept and food&water&caffeine intake, every single day for the past week

#BLOGGING LOUDLY #i certainly NEED to there are things i NEED to do #but i got a rude awakening re: my body falling apart from stress so #im forcing myself to rest and reduce my immediate stress!!! im RESTING damnit!! #i will still clean whatever i can. and shower if i can manage #lately my ears have been ringing really really bad and i realized its because im ignoring like 7-8 level pain in other places #and i kinda stopped digesting food properly the other day #sooooooo.... i am in fact listening to my body. im trying. im not doing the stressful things. I'm reducing thoughts about work. taking meds #etc #man i really only went about about 10 days before the 'headaches so bad they WAKE ME UP in the morning' came back #those started in january

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

i've not really looked at this discourse very much but i found out the take "being early diagnosed with autism is a privilege" is something people, like, actually genuinely believe, and. uh.

what

#early diagnosis means it's not your choice #you know all those things that are like ''before you get diagnosed consider: it might impair your legal right to adopt #get a house be taken seriously in medical settings etc etc etc''? yeah uh. early diagnosed people don't get to choose. #it just happens. #idk if i count as early or not (diagnosed january this year am a teen not saying exactly how old but was therefore diagnosed pe-adulthood) #(*pre-adulthood) #but my [redacted family member] was diagnosed at like. 6. and it was not his choice #his guardian is the one who chooses whether or not to tell people too (which is fucked. he's 11 now he can decide that on his own) #and early diagnosis means things like more likely to be put through ABA more likely to have parents trying to find a ''cure'' #more likely to have your entire class know without your permission etc etc etc #late diagnosis isn't good either. it can be very very painful to go so long not understanding what's up in your brain. #but oh my god early diagnosis is not a PRIVILEGE.

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

is anyone else stuck in this awful weird jittery nagging limbo or

#is it just january #idk. anyone who can relate feel free to hop in my inbox #i feel so wired lately like i'm always on the edge of doing everything wrong despite things going right #and it's especially strong with friends. i feel like i'm annoying or offending ppl all the time it's so confusing #i always feel like this a little bit but now it's so full-blown i'm paralysed #S CREAM and i'm gonna hate having posted this but i wanna get it out without annoying any chat i'm in lol #that's also a result of the Feeling ig #ab me #UGH #grunt

[silenthillbunni]

🚬🧸🧃🎀

#anyway so yeah im so sick of hating myself. of missing out on things and being too scared to go after things i want when i have the chance #so sick of almost being 25 and having spent almost 6 years alone in my room missing out on life #and my mom and sister might be moving in the not too distant future #so i have to try to get my life together for real now!!! or homelessness will be awaiting me :D #what i will try to do.. is start going to the gym (w my mom so i dont have to deal w the anxiety of an unknown place by myself sksk) #i'll workout 3-5 times a week. every week. i like going to the gym so if i just get started i dont have a doubt i'll not be able to do it #i'll focus on finishing my english class. hopefully in december even if i have the possibility to get it extended a few months #then i'll start my other 4 classes in january #i'll be patient and wait for my ultrasound and get the gallstone situation fixed (latest in january if i need surgery) #(and i have to try to make sure i eat properly so i dont wind up with b12 deficiency... i cant eat anything without pain but i have to..) #also i have an appt at the psychiatric in mid october. and im still waiting on what my healthcare center says. hopefully i can get cbt #if possible i will really really try to apply for jobs as a personal assistant sometime between january-may #if i have a job instead of being on wellfare i will 1) have way more money 2) not feel constabtly anxious abt being rejected and homeless #i'll stop caring abt me being 'old' and a late bloomer. the planet is dying. who cares if im 28 and start university???? #i'll take my time to finish high school. and the thing is i really should get a job before starting higher vocational education #bc the program i want to start i HAVE to have a laptop. and theres no way i can afford that now. cant even save up to it #also need to find and put myself up on waiting lists for student housing/apartments so i can actually move #i hate this city and i need to get the fuck out of here!!!! #but the world is crazy rn and it's super hard to find places to live and find jobs but it's not impossible so i need to try #i cant live like this & i have no idea how tf i'll manage to be a normal person and have a life but i need to try bc what else am i gnna do?

[didntaskforfrozenyoghurt]

remembered my b12 for the first time in over a fortnight and oh that's where my brain went lol

#my brain is being weird about them and i need to go back to therapy i think :) #because i'm not getting the same response from them i used to? not in a 'different effectiveness' way but a 'more side effects' and idk why #so off to the professionals i go! #hoping i don't make a health tag #late january update: methylcobalamin does Not do all of the important things cyano- or hydroxycobalamin do. #and i was taking methyl- for two whole years. and my meninges were not improving #it occured to me after reading wikipedia again that i did not give cyano- a fair trial. so i chanced it since i already had some with me #and i have had an improvement like night and day!!!!

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

as my first act of 2023 im gonna expose myself: yes i did snap and wrote a vocaloid fic a while back, here it is

#my art lol #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #oliver vocaloid #vocaloid oliver #halloween #candy #stars #pumpkin #THIS DOESNT COUNT AS THE FIRST DRAWING OF 2023 B/C I STARTED IT IN 2022. WAY BEFORE DEC 31ST #i just decided to finish it up on new years eve b/c why not. so the actual first drawing of 2023 remains to be seen #ugh i wouldve done better drawings like little scenes from the fic itself. that wouldve been fun #but at the same time its like... lowkey spoiler? idk. so this is an abstractish thing. looks like phone wallpaper material bruh #idk why anyone would have my art as phone wallpaper but. im just joking around #IF YOU CANT TELL IM VERY COMMITTED TO THE HALLOWEEN THEME JOKE. YES I KNOW ITS JANUARY. BUT LOOK AT MY BLOG BRUH #can you believe it guys? halloween! just a week away. halloween is in a week! woohoo! i am so happy about this information #listen its the horror holiday so its instantly the best. fck da xmas bullshit halloween where it at 😩 #as you can see i get more insane in the ungodly morning hours so. yeah. my sleep schedule's been fcked so there's been more of this lately

[thecherrygod]

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#my posts #you know how this usually goes #i make an amount of tags so that if you read this its bc you've clicked and its not bc i am just posting it like whatever lmao #... unsure if i should even post it tho but what else do i do just leave it in my brain? idk maybe its the same maybe its better #maybe its worse? .... why have i been feeling kind of like this and at this kind of intensity for like about 2 weeks or more #2 weeks is how long ive been properly aware so i think its more but like. man. #like maybe its been like a month and i just havent been keeping track of time bc january is way too long to even try lmao #. but. idk. i just wish i could be kinda.. stable. like i cant feel good lmao #like it truly doesn't matter nothing is good enough in general #what i do isnt good enough #what goes on around me doesnt help trying to ignore the constant.. dread? #and like all things considered i should be doing good currently #or at least not this bad #but here i am constantly trying to not let myself feel too bad until im alone bc man. #so... yeah it just doesnt feel like anything is truly worth it not me as a person nor the things i do nor the things i experience lmao #also lately ive been just feeling more..... disconnected to others... like i dont understand them and they dont understand me #but like.. more than usual #and i guess its me? that it's kind of a me problem #idk I'm just tired. i need to sleep. i want to let face down on some sort of big water body or do something that will make my life worse #or they i will regret lmao #i. wont do any of those #also when i mean face down in some sort of bldy of water or whatever i dont necessarily mean like die #not against it but its not the only option #just lay there and float..... also not against it #i just want something that i cant have i guess bc im not sure what it is #like i just know what i want is to not constantly feel like this but idk how lmao #... u would sleep if i can bc man also I'm so tired #.... adding tags its a bit worse than I assumed lmao im also thinking about wether i deserve stuff or not lmao #like it got windy and cooler and i was like 'a blanket by my legs would be nice' only to be like 'no you don't deserve that ' like ah yeah #its kinda worse than i thought lmao

[arklay]

WIP DAY.

tagged by @girlbosselrond @morvaris @aartyom @risingsh0t @phillipsgraves @leviiackrman @indorilnerevarine & @denerims over the past month! sorry it's taken me so long to get to anything at all, i'm sure you guys have heard me address it enough, but thank you all so much for continuing to tag me in things while i've been inactive ♡

tagging @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @florbelles @jendoe @lightwardens @liurnia @nokstella @nuclearstorms @shadowsofrose @shellibisshe @steelport @swordcoasts @wrymbloods @voerman & all of those who tagged me again cause i'm so behind + anyone else who'd like to share anything they're working on, not just writing! ♡

i haven't written anything since the last wip game i did, but i started trying to put diana's timeline together at the start of january, so i mean... i'll show that instead. as you can see, fatigue hasn't let me do much with it even though i've got all of her timeline already done and strewn about all over the place.

started with 1995 onwards cause it was originally going to be an ewskers timeline situation, but then wanted to include all of her backstory so i went back to the start and still have the late 80s and early 90s to get through before then, but yeah :]

it's going to include like all little moments i've thought of between the ewskers just for me and placing them on the timeline, so you can imagine how long this is going to get if i have to go to 2021 for village... like just 1996-1998 is going to be so much... she's very special to me if you couldn't tell already lmaoo

never sharing this though, it's just for me, and like will help for when i do her timeline page (more in-depth version of what's on her oc page) to just run through canon events and brief descriptions and whatnot. you understand.

everything is blurred out besides 1995 ewskers momence and the years, just cause like idk her i feel weird sharing her in-depth backstory unless it's in dms or something, just cause there's lots going on there and yeah. things. idk

i also made a carrd for twt if you wanna have a look at that :] there's some cheeky subtle things with the two resi items i used as pics hehe

actually, you know what, i'll give a lil bit from where i left of with that rewrite anyways, even though it's been months since i wrote it. but why not

Wesker left a fleeting kiss behind her ear then reached around her and hooked his fingers beneath her coat, prompting Diana to glance back at him. But all he did was gently pull it from her shoulders. She watched him from out of the corner of her eye as he hung it up on the rack by the door, his movements careful and almost calculated, until he turned back towards her, and the warmth of his body returned once more. He pressed up against her side this time, as opposed to her back, and one of his hands found a home on her waist. The way the arm it belonged to was resting firmly against her as he began leading her towards the kitchen was comforting, secure, yet unmistakably possessive. And she revelled in it. He had quite the knack for handling her just the way she wanted.

#tag games. #keep going to do picrews and just zoning out 😭 i'm so behind on literally everything but it's fine it's okay (lying) #i'm having a day and a half even though i woke up feeling okay but oh well. my last month has just been like watching videos during the day #or playing games when i have a bit more energy but like i can't do anything that requires me to actually read or write things like words #are just not computing in my brain at the moment but it's okay like i'm just exhausted and hoping soon i can get back to writing because i #still have over 30 wips going lmao but yeah it's been a time a half with lots of appointments and seeing specialists again and trying to #sort things out. i've been more active on twitter which i've mentioned before but it's just because like it's easier for me to sort of just #like and rt things and not having to do my organisation tags and things like i know that sounds so just small and simple but that's how #i've been lately like to my brain rn that seems like a really big task. so i just keep coming on here randomly for a few minutes then #disappearing so i'm sorry that i've definitely missed so much and i haven't been around to just show my appreciation and love to your #creations!! also just everything that happened in december and then a bit at the start of january too like i'm just a lil paranoid about #being on here honestly so i'm trying to get back to it and be okay with posting again and i'm going to make a promise to myself to actually #filter more tags i think? just to help me with like not exposing myself to things that do make me feel uncomfortable in any way!! i'm #rambling now but sorry sometimes i just need to lmaooo idk but yes so cute lil subtle things from my carrd i wanna talk about cause why not #i didn't have to change the blue herb from re0 besides making it brighter because it's already teal toned which is so sexy but i shifted #the hue on the spade key like SLIGHTLY like it was so little. but anyways. i use this emoji ✨ on my twitter name and yes cause sparkles but #also. three stars. the s.t.a.r.s. badge and logo :] then blue herb because i will have no poison in my safe space!!!! take a blue herb or #leave please!! only good vibes and safe space here!! spade key because i'm ace <3 i was going to include the diamond one in there as well #because am demiro and like those are the symbols in the community. ace of spades for ace. diamond for demis (both orientations) #but wasn't sure how to weave the pink through the rest of the carrd even though cyan and pink together is so pretty omg