#so we GOT THIS

[hold-him-down]

It's not 4 minutes later but maybe close enough: BTHB "Stitches"

“What happened here?” Rob asks, ushering Leo into an empty exam room. They’re all empty right now, well past business hours.

“I f…” Leo pauses as the kitchen towel is unwrapped from his hand, revealing a deep red gash. He follows Rob’s unspoken direction to sit on the exam table as Rob holds his arm at the wrist, inspecting his palm. “I fell.” The words come as naturally as anything else, and he wonders, if just for a moment, why.

He feels Rob’s hand tense around his and knows instantly that he isn’t convinced.

“Mm,” is all Rob says in response. 

Leo watches an accusatory glance pass between brothers. Luke, from the doorway, puts his hands up. Some of the panic has subsided, Leo thinks, and faint traces of humor line his eyes. It helps. He closes his eyes, ignoring the throbbing pain and the spinning room and the medical supplies and the bandages and cotton swabs and the needles that he knows are hiding in the cabinets, and he forces himself to breathe.

“You push him?” he hears from somewhere far away. It’s followed by laughter. The laughter is Luke’s, but it’s hesitant. He swallows, and he feels a hand squeeze at his forearm. 

“Leo?”

He forces himself to breathe, and he hears Rob asking him if he’s okay and he makes himself nod and he hears Rob asking him if he’s in pain and he shakes his head even though he’s not sure if it’s true or not. 

He’s been in this room just once before, and every time he’s come to the office since, he’s avoided it with unwavering resolve. 

He hears his name again, and he feels hands at his fingers, straightening them out. “I need you to open your eyes.”

He does, and as he does, he holds his breath. The room’s still spinning, but if he keeps his eyes on Luke, it’s less, so he does that, too.

“I’m sorry,” he whispers, and even he isn’t sure why.

Rob’s expression tightens but he smiles, gesturing toward his hand. “I’ll get it cleaned up, and then–” he pauses, taking a breath “–you’ll need at least a few stitches.” 

Luke has moved from the door to the table in the time it takes Leo to refocus, and he can feel his hand on his back, and he can feel his eyes on his face, and he nods. He won’t cry. It’s not worth it.

Rob rummages through the cabinets for whatever medical supplies he’s going to use on Leo and Leo listens to Luke’s voice, telling him that it’ll be okay, that it’ll be quick, and eventually, asking if he will do it. If he’ll agree to let Rob do this.

They stare at each other. He doesn't know how long it lasts, only that it’s interrupted when Rob drags a cart full of needles and gauze and drugs over, pulls along a stool, and sits down in front of him. Reluctantly, Leo’s eyes leave Luke’s.

Rob looks serious, even as he spins with the room.

-

“What if I don’t do it?” Leo asks. His voice is smaller than normal, and Rob spares a glance at his brother, before nodding earnestly. 

“It’ll still heal,” he says. “It’ll heal over the course of a few weeks. You risk a serious infection, and if it gets infected, it’ll probably hurt, but we’ll manage it. It’ll probably scar, you may risk increased nerve damage, but it’s an option.” He means it, and he tries to convey that. He’s not entirely sure how much Leo is even hearing. 

“What,” Leo mouths, not completely audible. “Will you numb it? If I do it?” 

Again, Rob and Luke’s eyes meet, this time, there’s fire behind them both.

Rob takes a breath.

“Of course, Leo,” is all he can make himself say.

Leo nods, and Rob can feel the unmatched tension lingering in the room. His instinct is to make a joke, to cut through it, but he can’t make the words form.

“If it’s the drugs you’re afraid of,” he finds himself saying instead, “it’s not the kind of medicine that should impact you in any real way. It’ll numb the area, but it won’t do anything to your head, or to your stomach, or to anything outside of the immediate area of the wound.” 

Leo’s eyes fill with tears, but they don’t spill. “If it’s pain that you’re worried about, all I can ask you is to trust me. I get that that’s a big ask, but you won’t feel the stitches, and you’ll barely feel the needle. You’ve got Luke right here, you can stop me any time, okay?”

Rob hands Leo a small cup of water, and Leo drinks it without hesitation. He tries not to, as a general rule, let himself imagine what Leo’s truly been through. But in these fleeting moments, where these small details unravel themselves, he can’t completely stop himself. “It was just water,” he finds himself saying, and Leo nods automatically.

“Can I close my eyes again?” Leo asks; there’s no mockery in his voice– just raw uncertainty at the very real possibility that the answer might be ‘no.’

Rob can’t look at Luke when he says, “Of course.” He can’t look at Luke when he accepts Leo’s ‘okay,’ as consent, knowing Leo absolutely would not refuse this procedure, if he thought Luke wanted it for him. He can’t look at Luke as he reconciles the need to provide medical care with the knowledge that Leo is suffering. 

He takes a breath, on the edge of calling it off, of waiting until Leo is in a better mindset to handle this, when Leo whispers, “Please– Please do it fast.”

He nods as he makes the decision, even though Leo can’t see him. That it may be more cruel to prolong the anxiety, that Leo has made this request in earnest, and while maybe he wouldn’t have consented under other circumstances, there are no circumstances in which he can truly consent.

Leo holds completely still as he cleans the wound; as he numbs his hand, as each stitch is placed. He doesn’t open his eyes, and he doesn’t speak. 

“All set,” Rob eventually says, quickly clearing the area of anything that might be remotely upsetting. 

Leo only nods and issues a soft ‘thank you,’ before standing, unsteady on his feet. Luke shadows him but keeps his distance, and Rob watches with tears in his eyes as they walk back toward the car. 

They pause at the passenger door. He knows it’s a moment he isn’t meant to see, and he knows how deep in his brother is, but watching the tension leave Luke’s shoulders as he wraps his arms around Leo, watching Leo start to come back to himself, he knows, for better or for worse, that it’s as right as it can be, and that has to be worth something.

#the fighter #stitches #bthb #im counting it as stiches idc it counts im a bingo champion #kind of med whump #ftr i was gonna do training stitches the painful kind #but i felt like it's been so long since leo and luke moment #so we got this #but hey i think i have an old request for stitches that i failed to do #so maybe one of these days

[manda-kat]

New OC, Lottie. She is a mermaid. She's like if Hatsune Miku was an anxious overachieving student who desperately wants to hang out with friends and daydream about boys, but she's too busy stopping the world from ending.

#only comparing her to hatsune miku bc of the hair #i wanted pink but she looked too much like LDShadowlady #then I tried blue with obvious results #so we got this #LDMikulady #now that I mention it she's wearing Lizzy's clothes here isnt she #it feels like ive seen art of her character in that outfit #its also a common outfit style for any pastel girl though

[eyes-like-the-night]

Taco night house Beneviento

#I’m makeup testing Angie #so we got this #resident evil 8 #resident evil village #my cosplay

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :) #trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+ #lgbta+ #lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

[panstarry]

heads up: this games charity bundle was finally approved on itch.io! it opens this friday, april 12th, and will run for a week. all proceeds will go to the Palestinian Children's Relief Fund.

you can check out the bundle on itch.io and follow @vgforpalestine on twitter for more updates!

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EDIT: as of april 20th, 2024 this bundle is now live!!

#free palestine #itch.io #charity bundle #video games for palestine #palestinian relief bundle #pan talks #just got the email that the project is finally live after a couple tehcnical hiccups and itchio road bumps here and there #they said we could share so i figured i'd post abt it here on tumblr since it appears that they're not on here o7 please boost! #i have a zine in this one but please be sure to check out all of the work

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

zany to me how these um actually nihilists like to pretend that "um actually love/friendship/cooperation/kindness isn't real bc we evolved that way to benefit ourselves as a species..." um YES? that's also where tool use comes from? that's where cooking comes from? am i supposed to think social bonds & tool use & cooking aren't "real" because they evolved over time instead of appearing fully formed from the ether?

sorry u can't enjoy things. im a superior being twirling a fork in my bowl of delicious noodles whilst staring in adoration at the world

#'love isn't real it's a chemical reaction' #hon i got news for u about chemical reactions and the nature of existence #'we evolved social bonds to benefit ourselves' so you agree? #you agree that social bonds are helpful and important enough that they literally shaped the history of human evolution? #i do not think u are saying. what u think u are saying.

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #not based on a specific thing #but I used to know this annoying couple that were ‘family friends’ #who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field? #like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq #and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first #would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate #and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for #and it wasn’t a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance #the adults who raised us knew them really well and we’d been to their house a ton of times #they were just dicks #and yeah. they’d occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it. #it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible #you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier #but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks. #that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on #and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post #but anyways we’d hardly ever get to have nice snacks #and this couple would just take them all??? even after we’d tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks weren’t gonna be #replaced #hated that couple #if you’re wondering why they were ‘family friends’ it’s because the couple who raised us #(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesn’t fit since they never finished petitioning 💀) #liked having them around because it made them look like ‘such great Christian’s’ being nice to the people #that no one else wanted to be friends with #I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone #this got long sorry 😭

[keymintt]

a comic/zine about coyotes

#art #comic #coyotes #comics #my art #digital #zine #idk what else to tag this if anything #i just think coyotes are so fucking cool and excellent queer symbolism. if you think about it #< he has thought about it so fucking much #shoutout to the handful of ppl who kept me company on stream last night too hehe #sorry if you get a version with typos they should all be corrected by now. i unfortunately have adhd and made this in two days #busted out all the illustrations for this in...one night for phx zine fest lmaO #our group found out two days before we were tabling that we got taken off the waitlist. had fun today tho #greatest hits

[alaraxia]

needless to say the vibes were in shambles

#felt like I got whiplash #yeah yeah it’s on me for shuffling a multi-hundred song playlist we literally call The Soup #the weird songs add the tecks ture to the soup #never know what you’ll get #anyway I don’t normally post this much so if y’all are expecting this forever then lol lmao even #mini me #digital art

[yesokayiknow]

i know we won't but GOD i hope he never tells her he's an alien i hope we have a whole series of ruby thinking he's just a time travelling human until he gets hurt and is like ohhhhhh ruby love can you check my pulses and she's like check your fucking what now

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #aaaaa!!!! #the doctor #fifteen #ruby sunday #normally they work out the alien bit first and the time travel 2nd i'm so glad we got a reversal!!!! #also if 13 can go a whole fucking year without saying the word time lord to her companions then so can 15 i believe in him!!!!!!

[hinamie]

surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

#my art #yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #yoi #fanart #katsuki yuuri #victor nikiforov #victuuri #yoi fanart #this was the secret 4th thing that lost the poll jdsfgsdfjj #id been thinking about doing a tribute since getting that one ask but i didn't anticipate how Into it i would get once i started #the way i flew through this piece .. just over 1 day??? insane #yuri is /that/ ingrained in my muscle memory #I was looking at refs and ?? id forgotten how wild this show was #we just got all of that?? a pole dance a proposal a kiss a pair skate....and it was ALL canon? incredible #AND YEAH UNPROMPTED HISTORY MAKER PLAYS IN MY YT MIX #dean fujioka jumpscare #also looking back at my old yoi pieces was so wild. that ws really 8 years ago huh. #little bit of an ego boost looking at how far ive come #but also im just grateful idk sry 2 b sappy on main #i hope 16 year old me is happy that i did this bc im happy i did this #edit bc i forgot a bunch of white outline i am a fraud

[akanemnon]

So many questions... so little answers

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

#deltarune #undertale #crossover #udtr #crossover comic #deltarune fanart #undertale fanart #twin runes #twin runes comic #my art #kris dreemurr #susie deltarune #frisk #don't panic #the worlds are just merging #wait... THAT IS REASON TO PANIC #the games are breaking apart at the seams and these dumb kids aren't even noticing it #So like... #who is this dark world's knight now? #we got too many suspects #also nevermind #susie's jumping to conclusions again #and kris seems to believe it

[sadmages]

In my mind palace my tav and Astarion are playing the exact same game of 5D chess and they don't realize it yet

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #bg3 tav #my art #gabby plays bg3 #shadowheart #and #lae'zel #are also here #anyway tag ramble time just got the romance scene where you can hug him and on my knees.....this guy..... #astarion: hey i was kinda sleeping with you to save my ass but turns out im feeling real emotions now #matt marja: wtf. me too. this is so embarrassing for both of us we're idiots [tenderly hold hands] #i thought up matt for a campaign we may or may not play last year and deciding to play him in bg3 because i thought it would be funny #to put him against this guy who seemingly has many of his same issues. Best idea i've ever had. the emotional catharsis im experiencing #matt marja

[shima-draws]

Also the implication that megas are FINALLY coming back. Will he finally get the justice he deserves......

#HE'S BEEN WAITING SO PATIENTLY. #Shima speaks #MEGA EVOLUTION MY BELOVED. WE GOT YOU FOR ONE GEN AND THEN YOU WERE GONE LIKE THE WIND #Anyway manifesting a Flygon mega. WE'RE GETTING IT #Pokemon #Pokemon Legends ZA #Pokemon Legends Z-A #Pokemon Presents #Flygon

[majunju]

(1/?) messy eater

#twisted wonderland #my art #grim has become 3x taller and 10x the nuisance he previously was #he now also has two opposable thumbs ! hooray! #wanted 2 make this a series like 2 years ago but i got so lazy nd gave up... we r so back now

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael learns about FNAF Movie Sparky...

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #sparky fnaf #mike schmidt #fnaf #fnaf movie #sister location #fnaf fanart #five nights at freddy's #SPARKY THE DOG MENTIONED 🔥🔥 #the way I felt when I first watched the fnaf movie and saw sparky just there #craziest thing to have become canon #I’ve been wanting to draw sparky myself for awhile so here’s the boy #Michael would be so confused seeing sparky #I like to think sparky was just a myth for him too #so like just seeing that dog animatronic is like if we found out like Bigfoot is real #and is actually kinda chill BAHAH #Michael doesn’t spooked by many things but this got to him a lil