#so y’all might get a post about some of my experiences with goyim that i will never forget :)

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thinkin a lot about generational trauma tonight. it is such a present part of life?? i dunno if people realise that sometimes. not even the emotional parts, but just the actions that come from it. every time jews or nazis are brought up i completely freeze so i can listen because there is always a chance that someone is going to say something and then i have to accept that they and possibly that whole space could be a danger to me. and that’s just the bare minimum of habits i have to be able to keep myself safe if needed. i was brought up with the family passed down truth of “some people hate you. your ancestors had to flee because of that. you might have to flee one day”, so i began hiding my spare change and dollars in case of emergencies, not even realising why i felt the need to do that. the thing is, i recently discovered my dad did the exact same thing, despite neither knowing the other did it. generational trauma is so present and yet so misunderstood by people who don’t experience it.

#ThinkingTM tonight #also the fact that the people who don’t understand will sometimes make fun of us for it #the thing about the change is 100% true. i have mine hidden in a bowl #and i was going through my dads office drawers and i came across a large container full of spare change and dollar notes #im thinking my grandfather and/or grandmother might have had that habit as well #i had no idea why i started to do that either until i found my dad’s container and connected the dots later that night #also if y’all wanna add to this Please Do because i don’t think generational trauma is talked about enough #this is just specific to my circumstances but if your experience is different feel free to share #hell feel free to share even if your experience is the same #i have a lot of emotions right now and anger from grief can very easily become Jewish Anger #so y’all might get a post about some of my experiences with goyim that i will never forget :) #they’re not fun and they’re not even violent but i think some of y’all will get why they’re so Fucked #jumblr #generational trauma #holocaust #shoah #nazis