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#so yeah... all motivation and goals and any itty bit of hope i had for the future is completely gone
sherlock-is-ace
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4 years
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#6 weeks
#i managed to be happy and excited for 6 weeks
#i had motivation and hopes for the future
#all gone now...
#i just want to crawl into a hole and die
#it would be so much easier for me and for my family...
#i wouldn't be a leach and everyone would be so much better without me...
#like sure emotionally maybe my mom would be sad
#but they would get used to it and survive...
#this is a crap country and nothing you do is ever enough
#so yeah... all motivation and goals and any itty bit of hope i had for the future is completely gone
#i'm back at square one with no idea how to be an adult or even pretend to be one
#and this isn't just about dissappointing myself anymore
#this is about being a big ass burden to my family...
#i can't even be ok about the therapy i started cause i don't think i can afford it anymore so yeah... i'm literally back to how i started
#but with more guilt
#and even less motivation cause i see now that nothing i can do helps
#this is great! (:
#had to write it in the tags cause there's some of you out there who can't see when something is personal
#even when i explicitly ask not to reblog it...
#anyways pls don't worry about me i just gotta be a depressing drama queen for a bit it'll pass
#i'm not writing this for pitty i know people have it worse i'm just venting...
#and now i'm off to sleep forever
#or at least for a while
#seeing that i can't do anything that would bring me any joy rn
#the only thing that would bring me a tiny bit of joy is if i could get a job right this second...
#so pray some of the illustration agencies say yes
#ok i'm done
#angel talks
#personal
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