#so. many.

[thatwritingho]

I have so many thoughts for Olive for AOTD...

#so. many. #olive axworthy #momento mori #metalocalypse oc #mtl oc

[frenzyarts]

Predicting now that you're still gonna be getting asks about that post on your deathbed. Good luck!

🥲

#so. many. #frenzy post

[horse-shit]

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

#more. aphmau va findings #i don't wanna share #but i DO #but i DONT #AH #okay doing further research i'm unsure now #i can't find the name of the va outside of the online name i found #like their handle or whatever #but just know. if it is true. #i will lose my shit #I THINK ITS TRUE HOLY SHIT #I AM #GOING TO CREATE THE WORST CROSSOVER EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR #im gonna make. so many. #so. many. #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #CHECKING BETWEEN THE VOICES #I THINK ITS REAL #GOING TO EXPLODE #BRO #BROOO #BROOOOOOOOOOO #dies #i am. going to add to my va list i've been making #if anyones interested i will GLADLY SHARE #okay bye #its like 1:30 am this is also causing this freak out #FUCK NOW I CAN ONLY HEAR THE OTHER ONE FUCK #FUCK FUCK FUCK #imps bs

[thelovelybitten]

random stendy headcanons (12:00 am edition) (pt 1 out of ???)

hi everyone, I’ve just passed 2 months with stendy in my life and I’m just feelin’ slapping down some hcs for no reason

cw: mentions of drinking, s*x and unaliving

junior high stendy would be just so messy

like they wouldn’t date in junior high just bc they broke up so much as kids

they rekindle in high school for maybe a year and a half

then SHIT GOES DOWNNNNN

Wendy drags his ass and Stan makes sure he does the same

everyone else in the school LIVES FOR THE DRAMAAAA

never to be mentioned again until college (two years in)

stan is such a clingy boy when it comes to wendy, physical touch is a must

wendy secretly likes being pampered by stan when she’s having a bad day

in turn she does it for him too

stan and wendy have a tradition of ice skating every winter on starks pond and it is SO CUTE

they are so touchy feely (but in certain places, lol— don’t wanna make the friends cringe bc they are eskimo kissing or sumth)

kyle hates wendy so god damn much until they finally get together for good. even them being together again is a touchy subject

therefore bebe should hate stan ??? wrong. both bebe AND TWEEK hate stan. they are her defence brigade. craig has been a hater of the core 5, so since he's tweeks bf, he's automatically a wendy advocate.

i think stan and wendy would enjoy watching survivor for no reason other than stan yelling at the screen at all the betrayals and idol plays (and then saying it's a dumb show but then is screaming abt it again LMAO)

stan: I could do this easy, football drills have prepped me for this shit

also stan: can't be bothered LMAO

bebe and kyle sometimes come over to watch too !!!! mostly bc bebe and wendy are super fans, haha

wendy and stan are opposites when drinking, obvs wendy is a lightweight and stan is a heavyweight (thanks randy gdi)

wendy will try to one-up stan in a drinking contest and fails almost every single time

besides one night at their high school after grad party when they were pissed at each other... don't compete w wendy when she's pissed ok

other than that, they’re super all over each other drunk

probably would fuck in the bathroom or sumth

wendy would like moscow mules, not too sweet, but not too bitter

stan is a beer drinker until he dies, the stronger the better. during his depressive episodes, he will drink abt an ounce of everclear bc it's faster and makes him feel nothing.

wendy forbids him from drinking it but she knows stan doesn't care, esp in his dark times

kyle, kenny and wendy are the only people who are there when stan almost dies from alc. poisoning. he basically tried to unalive himself in front of his mirror with a razor blade, but was found just in time by his dad before he bled out.

all 3 kiddos are scarred by this. but they make sure stan goes to therapy and recovers well, esp. kyle, who takes stan to his appointments at the therapist's office every week.

wendy is the one who manages his prescriptions until stan recovers

and kenny makes sure his parents know everything that goes on with stan, only if it's causing him or someone else harm. he's the source of light, in all honesty (as he should be, that's my mf son)

sorry I'm ending this v dark but I didn't want to make this too lengthy

:D more soon

#otp: i cant do it alone #faves: south park #viv's hc's #stendy brainrot lives on #i just. PHYSICALLY WANT THEM INJECTED INTO MY BLOODSTREAM #SO MANY GOOD HCS IN MY HEAD #SO. MANY. #i love my bipolar kiddos they crazy and stupid but love each other so intensely that their love burns one another. #bad for each other but also good for each other #LMAO #anyways #good night i want slep #stendy #sp stendy

[likeabxrdinflight]

remembering the absolute chokehold that "here without you" by 3 doors down had on the mid 2000s amv community

#...spotify contines to attack me #so many naruto vids #so. many.

[calliopecalling]

QOTS Rewatch - 5x08 - Todo Lo Que Toco

Know something funny? I didn't even do a 5x08 debrief last year after it aired. Haha. I was both too anxious about what was next and too confused about what this episode had tried to reveal. I think it's a little easier to parse having now watched the rest of the season. I did do a live reaction post though, which at least helps me track most of what I thought about as I watched live?

There are only two things I dislike about this episode. Number one: TERESA'S HAIR IS IN THE BUN THE WHOLE TIME. I miss natural-hair Teresa. I guess it's cute that the next time we'll see her with her hair down is when she's having sex with James. Very symbolic or something. Still, she looks so tense all episode with her hair pulled back like that (I know, I know, she's tense anyway, that's the point...)! It gives me a headache just looking at her.

The only other thing I dislike about this episode: welp, I guess it's just men running the show after all. For a TV show that started off so female-focused, with not just female characters at the center but female relationships at its heart (Teresa and Camila as well as Teresa and Brenda and even Camila and Isabela), it's such a bummer that in the end we find out Teresa's just a puppet of a bunch of men. I don't know what the deal was with the actress who played Castel and why they couldn't get her but I think it would've all landed a bit better if Castel had actually been a character? (I didn't love watching Castel's inconsequential floor manager, or whoever tf he was, talk down to Teresa so horribly last episode (and this one), only to have Teresa find out this episode that all along Devon and Castel have been pulling the strings.) At least it's clear Teresa isn't their only puppet--so is Boaz, so is Kostya.

I realize that is, in fact, the point. It unfortunately though all feels a little muddled in this episode and it left my head scratching at the time, but I think after a year and a rewatch I can finally reason it all out.

What is happening here then? What's the big reveal? Teresa's apparently got multiple enemies at this point (Boaz, Devon, and Kostya) but how do they all fit together? Some of that I guess won't really become clear until next episode so I'll revisit this then. But in this episode I think there's still enough to unpack.

So, we learned in season 3 that Devon and Castel are CIA. Devon at the time was after Teresa because El Santo was a competitor to the Colombians and thus, in conflict with the CIA's interests. Once El Santo was taken out, Devon and Castel backed Teresa and James went to work with Devon in order to protect Teresa's status as the "preferred distributor" of the CIA, or something like that.

Now, this season, Teresa has her eye on the prize, which is going legit. I think James knows deep down that this can't happen, since he well knows that the CIA won't let her out of the business alive. Anyone in that deep with the CIA can't have a life after. They'd be way too much of a liability. So James is carrying this weight around all season, wanting so badly for her dreams of going legit to be possible but knowing that, in some way or another, the clock is ticking for her. Teresa of course finds out that Devon was a CIA contractor in 5x01. But knowing that he is a CIA contractor and knowing that she is essentially a puppet of the CIA are very very different things. What she finally learns in this episode is that, not only was Devon CIA (making it futile for James to try to fight back when Devon insisted he come with him at the end of season 3), but that James gone with Devon specifically so that Devon would leave Teresa alone. (This is the "you were protecting me" part of her realization.) The other part of this realization, though, is that for all of seasons 4 and 5, she has been the CIA's pawn. The CIA wasn't just turning the other way from her business; she was a part of their entire drug world ecosystem. A cog in their proverbial machine.

So the CIA is the "big bad," but where does that leave Boaz and Kostya? Well, Kostya obviously becomes her enemy because the CIA wants him dead and want her to kill him. She enlists Oksana to kill him, he finds out about it somehow and kills Oksana instead, and now Kostya is coming for her. That's all fairly straightforward.

Boaz, on the other hand, is a little more confusing. Boaz has been a part of her operation since the end of season 3 when she banished Camila and plugged him in as her supplier. He remained loyal to her through all of season 4. So what exactly happens with him in season 5? Did he just get bored with being a good employee? Did he lose respect for her when she let him live? Did he get pissed off at her for sending George to spy on him?

Or was he also Devon's pawn? When Devon shows up in her bar this episode, she says to him that Castel couldn't have cut her out to work directly with Boaz without his permission. "Permission?" he says, "They did this on my order." I find it hard to believe Boaz knew all along that Devon and Castel were CIA. He's way too much of a loose cannon for the CIA to entrust him with that much information. Likelier, to me, is that Devon enlisted Castel to cut off Teresa and work directly with Boaz. The ruse was that Castel didn't want her distributing in Europe and didn't like that she was getting too big (which, as Teresa pointed out in 5x07, doesn't even make sense, since European expansion would have only been good for Castel's business). But Castel could act as if she was cutting Teresa out for that reason, and by empowering Boaz in that way, they could assume he would start gunning for Teresa for all of his own personal reasons, knowing he had Castel's leverage behind him.

In fact, though, this was Devon's plan all along. He wanted Teresa squeezed so that she had no choice but to follow his order to kill Kostya. And he knew that the only way she would feel that squeezed is for the lives of her family to be at stake.

Whew. Okay. All of that make sense? I think so. It's a hard pill to swallow for me (and, no doubt, for her) that she's just been a pawn all along, though I realize the point is this isn't an empowering business, she wouldn't have been able to change the industry from within just be sheer force of will, it's not a life she could have possibly made work. That's the point. And yet it's so depressing.

Not depressing though is seeing how, now that she knows everything, the distance between her and James that she'd been trying to force all season immediately vanishes. The distance wasn't all her doing--it makes it clear that also, him having this outsider's view of what she's trying to accomplish and knowing all along it isn't possible is a part of what puts them at odds with each other. He can work for her and take her orders but he can't fully buy in because he knows it's futile. She can feel that distance (most acute in 5x06, for example) but neither of them can actually talk about why it's there, her because she can't go there emotionally and him because, well, I think he is so afraid of devastating her. He doesn't want her to lose hope in going legit since he knows it's the only thing that drives her at this point.

And then in this episode he sees, and realizes, that no--going legit is not the only thing driving her. Underlying everything she does is her love for the people in her inner circle. Pote and Kelly Anne and George and, now, him. So, finally, he can tell her the truth. And, finally, he recognizes that she's still the person he fell in love with back in Dallas. And she realizes that the distance between them isn't necessary anymore. That, in the end, it's okay to be vulnerable and he's safe.

So. I love this episode, at the end of the day. Despite Teresa not having her hair down in a single scene. Despite the heavy reveal that everything she's been working toward is impossible. (And despite the writers killing off the only other interesting female character of the last two seasons who they severely underutilized this season in particular. I SAID IT. Sorry Kelly Anne.)

Final thought; I was so excited about 5x09 after watching 5x08 because it really seemed like we were going to get a Teresa-centric episode (and therefore Jeresa-centric). Who could have possibly thought they'd spend HALF THE EPISODE IN THE SUBURBS???? RIP to that anticipatory hopeful feeling lol. I love 5x09 now but it's definitely not what I thought we were in for at the time. Just trying to get as much of my ranting about that out of my system now as possible so that I can move on to actually appreciating the episode for what it is when we get there next week 😂

#qots s5 #5x08 #2021 rewatch #txt post #qots meta #god as I was picking out gifs for this post I was just like THERE ARE SO MANY GREAT JERESA MOMENTS #so. many. #the phone call at the very beginning #him telling her about Castel #her telling him and Pote that she's turning herself over to Boaz #their mid-episode encounter with Devon and the plotting together after he leaves #Oksana dying #him comforting her after she sends Kote away #the phone call with Kostya #just all of it is so good #that same energy between them #of love and sadness but also leaning on each other #being in it together #maybe this is my second-favorite episode of the season after 5x02??

[there-will-be-a-way]

me:

me as soon as I start writing:

#queue #shit posts #writing tag #I touch my key board and my emotions calm down #so excuse me as I go back to escaping my problems by creating problems for my characters #byeeeee #(I haven't been doing alright lol) #Also #do you remember my army of spider plant babies? #they've grown enough roots to put them into soil #so now I have 35 new plants 🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️ #my living room is a whole ass kindergarden for spider plants #so. many.

[libraryknight]

I’m listening to the music of @reallyndacarter while writing the final essay for one of my grad school classes.

Once I finish this paper, I think I’ll add at least a few of these songs to some of my playlists.

#ma'am I love this #you even did a cover of crazy little thing called love #I played that song so many times in high school band #so. many.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I’m only a fairly recent follower of yours, but I hear there’s a birthday? Happy Birthday!!!

yeah!!!! thanks so much, glad we're in the same circle of mutuals together!!!

#asks #so many asks #SO. MANY. #aaaaaa

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

that's truly just the way to do it huh!!! i have no one to watch it with though i dont think i'd have an excuse to make my sister watch it 😔😔

:(((

i just told my sister that i wanted to watch a silly show w her and then she was like “a’ight” so we did. and then two seconds in she was like, “these are all the same names from solitaire what??” (book from tori’s perspective!!!). it was rlly funny cause i totally forgot i made her read that

#also i have a weird amount of friends who also read the comics?? #one of them literally watches it in their math class and i find that hilarious #the amount i have to ‘put up’ with three people in a gc yelling abt how much gender nick has is hilarious #there are so many pictures of kit connor #so. many. #to be fair he is rlly great #ask #loumingju #pen and ink

[soshesighs]

Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag

I honestly just don’t have anywhere to put this (though I might make a thread of my answers on twitter too, I’m still debating it), and I really wanted to answer and play along with the cool kids, so I’m tossing it up on here. All this is going to do is show off my indecisiveness, but hey ho. I like rambling about books. 

(Under a cut though because this got really long. Shocker.)

Best book you’ve read so far this year? I’m super late to the game, but Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas was definitely one of them that I finished and just wanted to kick myself for putting it off for so long. It’s such a beautiful, carefully written, inclusive story, and it deserves all the hype it’s gotten. Runners up: The Charm Offensive by Alison Cochrun, Love From Scratch by Kaitlyn Hill.

Best sequel you’ve read so far this year? Where the Drowned Girls Go by Seanan McGuire, probably! I’m the biggest fan of Wayward Children series, and every time we get a new novella, it feels like coming home. (Also, Seanan McGuire is doing some of the best work writing diverse main characters in the game right now, I swear.) Runner up: Saga #55 by Brian K. Vaughan and Fiona Staples, making a triumphant return after a nearly four year hiatus.

New release you haven’t read yet, but want to? I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuiston. Yes, I’m kicking myself that I haven’t picked it up yet. No, I don’t want to talk about it. I’ll get to it soon, I swear. Honestly. Runner up: Book of Night by Holly Black.

Most anticipated release for the second half of the year? There is no simple answer here. You get a list: Nine Liars by Maureen Johnson Greywaren by Maggie Stiefvater Husband Material by Alexis Hall Paris Daillencourt is About to Crumble by Alexis Hall Empty Smiles by Katherine Arden Stellarlune by Shannon Messenger

Biggest disappointment? Definitely The Temperature of Me and You by Brian Zepka. I got an ARC of this from NetGalley and was so excited about it (queer romance + super powers? sign me the hell up), and it just... it was so bad. It was a great premise, and probably could be a good book, but it needs so much work to get there. The plot is all tied up in a neat, incredibly unrealistic bow, and nothing is ever explained. Nothing makes any sense. Runner up: Gallant by Victoria Schwab, and that pains me to say. Look, I adore V, I really do, but this one was a bit of a let down in that not much happened. It’s very, very atmosphere-driven, very reliant on V’s lyrical prose over plot. Beautiful book to listen to (and hold a physical copy of - the illustrations are gorgeous), but a bit lacking.

Biggest surprise? Probably Bravely by Maggie Stiefvater. Brave was never my favorite Disney movie, but this was a great companion novel. Disney couldn’t have asked a better author to take on this book, given Maggie’s History degree focusing on early Scottish history, along with her knowledge-base of Celtic culture and mythology. I liked the ARC I read of it so much that I bought a physical copy as well. Runner up: The Audacity of Sara Grayson by Joani Elliott. I went into this knowing nothing about it really, no real expectations - it just happened to be the book of the month one month for my work book club - and it was a delight. A love letter to anxious writers with imposter syndrome, I swear.

Favorite new (to you or debut) author? Hmm. Can I say Rachel Smythe? I read the bind-up Volume One of Lore Olympus and loved every second of it. I wanted to dive right in to reading it all on webtoons, and I did start to after finishing the volume, but it fell to the backburner as life got hectic. But I just got Volume Two in the mail today, and I’m very, very excited.

Newest fictional crush? Benny from Love From Scratch (the pun game is so strong with this one, not to mention the sheer level of support he gives to Reese) or Mei from Under the Whispering Door (get you a girl who will jump to your defense with kitchen knives at the slightest need).

Newest favorite character? Charlie from The Charm Offensive. The mental health and diverse sexuality representation in this book meant a lot to me, but Charlie in particular... I’m not sure I’ve ever read a ‘romantic hero’ character, so to speak, that deals so openly and on-page with anxiety and depression and OCD and isn’t shunned or seen as unlovable for it, and I needed that.

Book that made you cry? Back to Under the Whispering Door by TJ Klune again. So much crying, but in a good way, if that makes sense? The book centers on the stages of grief, so there’s a lot of talk about love and loss, about how to make the most of the time we have with people, about how it’s never enough time. Ever. And it made me sob, but then glued my heart back together again, and I loved every second of it.

Book that made you happy? Network Effect by Martha Wells. The Murderbot Diaries series is my go-to comfort reread - I’ve gone through the whole series five times, I think? In two years? Anyway, this is easily one of my favorite books of all time now, and the most satisfying reunion plotline I’ve ever read in a book. Period.

Most beautiful book you received or bought so far this year? The special edition Diviners Series (by Libba Bray) bind-up from The Bookish Box. This series was done incredibly dirty by the publishing industry and never given a full set of all 4 books in the same format (as in, all hardback or all paperback) with matching covers. There are... I think 4 different variations on covers for the series - they changed it that many times - but never was the full series done to match, ever. Two book boxes did gorgeous sets of them this year, but this one... this one is truly magical.

What books do you need to read by the end of the year? Ahahaha, so many. Again, you get a list, because I can’t pick just one or two: Ariadne by Jennifer Saint (Ariadne is my all-time favorite character from Greek mythology, and she is constantly forgotten. She got a whole book written about her and I haven’t read it yet, and honestly how?) Vespertine by Margaret Rogerson Something Fabulous by Alexis Hall A Lady for a Duke by Alexis Hall The Bronzed Beasts by Roshani Chokshi Beyond the End of the World by Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner Wild is the Witch by Rachel Griffin (This is my only currently lingering ARC on NetGalley, so I need to get to it before early August, ahhhh.)

#mid year book freak out tag #so many links #so. many. #oh hey let me actually get this post out of my drafts #I forgot all about it haha

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

#executive dysfunction #shitpost #every day I get stuck in waiting mode for SO LONG and SO MANY TIMES #that one time I tried adhd meds it fixed it but then I. was like no I am going to be scared and not continue taking it <3 #and also. I simply did not like the psychologist and did not want to have to go back #so. rawdogging the world <3 #man if I could start a task right now...then you'd see...then you'd all see....

[james-p-sullivan]

the older i get and the closer i am to reaching 30, the more the people around me try to deny me my age. it’s a constant ‘oh you’re just turning 29 again teehee 🤭’ or ‘dont tell your SO that, he’ll leave you for a younger model 😉’ and i just???? hate it?????????

i spent my entire teenaged years fighting for my life. i crawled through the deepest pits of my depression to cling to the promise of a life beyond that pain. i was so convinced that i was going to die young, that i would never see the grace of my age starting with a 2, let alone 3.

so im going to turn 30, and there’s not a damn thing anyone can do to stop me from loving it.

#anyway it’s still a couple years away #but man im so fucking excited for my 30s!!!!!!!!! #i made it!!! #i survived!!! #so many people never got the opportunity to be 30 #im gonna enjoy every fucking second of it! #sulley speaks #sorry my coworker said something really rude to me lol #it struck a nerve

[bahoreal]

obsessed with this

#like. not to make everything about good omens but #crowley #there are so many versions of this with him gazing at aziraphale its so fkabdkahdbw #i did a real bad job at positioning these fjsbdhs i also know the last one is 'no one knows what..' but. whatever #.jtxt

[crabussy]

hey. don’t cry. crush four cloves of garlic into a pot with a dollop of olive oil and stir until golden then add one can of crushed tomatoes a bit of balsamic vinegar half a tablespoon of brown sugar and stir for a few minutes adding a handful of fresh spinach until wilted and mix in half a cup of grated parmesan cheese and pasta of your choice ok?

#ITS MY FAVOURITE PASTA RECIPE #tastes so so good and delicious and hearty and warm #doesn’t require many ingredients or effort and is so yummy #I have sensory issues and digestive disorders and this recipe brings me so much joy #barely anything to remember!!! rich while still easy on the stomach!!!! #listen to my gibberish boy #you can add any amount of sugar and vinegar and cheese it works regardless #I UPPED THE GARLIC BECAUSE OF FEEDBACK BTW #AND PUT THE CHEESE AT THE END TO AVOID IT STICKING TO THE POT

[sergle]

"tiktok is so toxic yall are on that evil app but I'm built different 💅" to you!! TO YOU!! YOUR TIKTOK ALGORITHYM MAY BE EVIL

Mine is FIRE

#sergle.txt #video #tiktok #i use so much self restraint every day go not post 500 TIKTOKS ON HERE #i gET SO MANY GOOD ONES