#so. much. pain.

[automaticllamacycle]

Hot girls have stomach problems

#my ramblings #this is a cry for help #so much pain #so. much. pain.

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

I managed to rest for a little bit before we were thrown back into cleaning. And we're done now. But I am in so much pain. My collarbone popped out at some point as did my shoulders. The muscles in my neck and upper back are so painfully tight and the tension is fucking with my neck and setting off TN pain. I took meds so the pain isn't terrible but ughhh.

I know other parts needed to do this to feel safe but they pushed so far past our physical limits.

Oh. I just realized we have our first appointment with the new therapist tomorrow. It seems someone inside used other parts need to "decontaminate" as a way to keep us too busy to think about it. We could have just played video games y'all...

#so. much. pain. #my bad ankle is extra bad tonight #and the TN pain and shoulder/neck situation is making it hard to think #and even after all that i can sense some parts inside who still feel it wasn't enough #thr house isn't clean enough #but we can't do any more guys #we need to just rest #galactic gab #vent tw #parts stuff #bone fuckery

[tiny-crecher]

okay. so i was finishing good omens. and as i’m sitting there watching the saddest scene to ever exist a car drives by fucking BLASTING space song by beach house. and then has to stop at the intersection next to my house. so i am not in the slightest bit exaggerating when i say this is the torture i was subjected to.

#i am in pain. #so. much. pain. #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers

[cherryrehab]

when your native tongue is a language that has less that 10 million native speakers you know a pain no others do. the gaping hole of content missing because not enough people speak the language for such diversity in perspective and genre and output...

#I'm a little buzzed so this might not make sense tbh #so. much. pain.

[takamikeiigos]

heyyo dovies

ya girl just got her wisdom teeth removed, so i'll probably take a break from writing for a few days while i focus on healing. granted it's pretty normal that I frequently go through quiet phases

i do have quite a few asks and requests pending and i don't want you to think i'm ignoring you, i just want to give my writing 110% because y'all are so, so sweet and deserve the absolute best.

my request for you guys is that y'all send me good vibes. message me about things that make you happy and things you like about hawks and all that good stuff. y'all know the assignment.

much love. i'll still be active here 'n there, just a little late to get these requests done. ♡

#i am in... #SO. MUCH. PAIN. #so PLEASE just baby me for a few days cause i need it #ky rambles #i swear once my head stops feeling like its gonna explode #ill answer all those asks and requests ♡

[sunshinebunnie]

The upshot of virtual meetings?

I no longer have to worry about my lack of poker face when people are saying things that make me question my very existence. I can just be off camera…

🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️

#the struggle #I just COULDN’T today #so. much. pain.

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Remember that this is not the proof that they love each other

That was a last-ditch attempt from Crowley to get Aziraphale to stay

This is the proof that they love each other

Their love wasn't just made real because they kissed

It always existed

#i will argue this point til my dying breath #they always loved each other #if you think the kiss was the only proof #then i adviae you to reexamine the relationship #the kiss wasn't romantic anyway #it was desperate and painful #it was a last ditch effort from crowley because he loves aziraphale so much #but it was not the confession #he'd already confessed his feelings #the kiss was never necessary to do that #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers

[wtfcl0ud]

you may think your only options are

but in fact you can

#being so brave about it #bitching and moaning #sorry for the lack of ids #im in so much pain rn #ahahhahahahahah #cloud nonsense

[butchfalin]

#sorry. weird mood. chronic illness moment. im in so much pain and my response to that is to envision violence and mutilation #in like. a chill and normal way though i prommy 😇🫀🦴🔪 #yeehaw #1k #5k #10k

[qiinamii]

we'll do fine.

#fionna and cake spoilers #what hits me a little is how similar fionna and simon's stories are in the case of finding nuance in their lives #when both have gone through their separate but still valid pain no matter the extent it had been #and its that they met each other they get to see how it compares and they're no less worth of the peace and fun they dreamed of #even in the form of simplicity and just being normal #“i wouldn't have met THE fionna and cake” “we wouldn't have met THE simon petrikov” #it hits me harder that after the dandelion scene would've been their last time seeing each other physically #and how assuring simon sounded when fionna didn't know what to do with the literal world in her hands #tho im sure prismo isnt that much of a rule jerk lol i still drew out the revelation anyway with this tiniest addition #also the fact fionna's world is influenced by simon's thought processes and conditions so now things are a little better for both of them #fionna the human #fionna campbell #simon petrikov #qiiarts #the lil flashback of #betty grof #fionna and cake #adventure time

[peacevine]

You Are Not Immune To fanart of characters who die in canon that has them alive and well, with scars from the wound that originally killed them

#I Am Sobbing So Much. #anyways shoutout to my fellow kny fans who are in so much pain #every time i see [spoilers] with a big vertical scar #i cry so much!!!! so much

[o0kawaii0o]

no mercy 😭

#one piece won the poll and I wanted to draw smth nice and wholesome #but I hated the perspective process and the multiple characters were a pain so where did that bring me? #that's right; perspective and multiple characters in shtpost format #don't you just love it when you put too much pressure on yourself and the way to fix that is to draw smth silly #vibrant colours go brrrr #pls trust me when I say I like sanji #I mean look at him #one piece #strawhat crew #sanji #luffy #zoro #chopper #usopp #nami #nico robin #cyborg franky #o0kawaii0o

[colourmeastonished]

Body swap movie where one of them has invisible disabilities and when the other one lands in their body they immediately collapse catatonic on the floor from the pain and fatigue and the first one is like 'oh damn guess I don't have to worry that I'm faking it anymore'

#i have this fantasy of one my able bodied friends and or coworkers occupying my body for like an hour #just to get a real sense of how much i am truly weathering hellfire every day of my life #sometimes i take stock and im like holy crap ive gotten so used to so much #im a frog in a pot and ive convinced myself the bubbling is just fun ambience #my thoughts #invisible disability #chronic illness #chronic pain

[little-blurry-stars5]

Being sick and on ur period is the fucking worst

#i threw up in the shower #i was down on my knees absolutely reeching #i have a fever and a cough #plus my thighs are in #so. much. pain. #AND i have finals tomorrow #everything sucks :3

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[ressaart]

streets of gotham

#screams #its done #this one gave me so much wrist pain lol #tim drake #red robin #jason todd #red hood #dick grayson #nightwing #damian wayne #robin #bruce wayne #batman #also cass and steph are there they're just at the very top of the tallest building i ran out of places to put ppl #so i wont tag them sadly :( #my art #gotham