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untilyouremember · 3 months
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Yakuza Fiancé: Raise wa Tanin ga Ii
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thebunnylord · 1 month
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I kind of want to try my hand at writing a romance oneshot, only problem is that I cannot write romance to save my life, believe me I’ve tried, I just don’t get romance. I also never really read many romance novels, I did try reading the Twilight series but lost interest after a while because the romance just wasn’t sticking with me. Truth be told I think the reason why I have never had any luck with reading romance novels is because I feel nothing. I just don’t feel what the characters are feeling if that makes sense. Even with the romance oneshots I’ve written, I just don’t feel anything.
And to be fair, this is coming from a person who only had one crush in their entire life (at least they think it’s a crush) and it only lasted for 24 hours and they hated every minute of it so…. Maybe they shouldn’t be writing romance stories …. ?!????
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bimsha · 2 years
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libraryofbaxobab · 7 months
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September 24, 2023:
This cross between The Wasp Factory and American Psycho may have appealed to me more when I was a teenager, but I'm not convinced. It certainly doesn't now. I kept waiting for the point to show up. This was written for kids whose entire personality is Hello Kitty with a knife. Full Hot Topic-ass, "tee hee I'm so pretty and psycho and antisocial tee hee I like the color pink and being a Disney Pwincess and stabbing peoples' eyeballs tee hee I'm so yandere" mode. I didn't think we still did this kind of shit. I get the feeling that the author is the *~edgy~* one in their friend group because they've read Lolita twice and know how to go on the "Dark Web." There are some interesting points in here, don't get me wrong. The ideas about female characters being defined by their backstory, and that their actions--even evil ones--always have to be justified are something fun for my brain to chew on. I also really liked the bit about her egg fetish. It was the only part of the character that seemed... honest. One shining drop of vulnerability in a sea of over-the-top goth posturing masquerading as authenticity. I won't complain that the protagonist sucks as a person, because that's literally the only reason to read the book. Unlikeable doesn't begin to cover it, but you know that going in. I just didn't see a motivation for most of her actions. It just seems like a regular Hockey Player Romance splattered with a random list of serial killer shit for edgy teens to put on their blogs to look cool, behind a Junji Ito-esque cover to catch attention.
I can't even say I'm disappointed, because this is exactly what I was afraid of going in. What I feel is more along the lines of embarrassment and disdain.
2/10 #WhatsKenyaReading
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padfootastic · 11 months
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being greedy but i'm interested in your answers for 6, 16, and 18 for the ask game <3
hello sharmz 💜💜 thank u sm!! (for kickstarting this, i was so worried it’d go ignored lol 💀)
6. Do you have pets?
sadly no :(( always wanted one (i used to be obsessed w dogs earlier but covid,,,did something,,,and now i’m just tolerant of any and all creatures but not especially passionate about one) but my dad has a Thing about ‘caging’ animals in the house and never really liked it. my grandma did have a german shepherd when i was young and i grew up alongside her and have the fondest memories w her tho!!! she was the absolute best <33
16. Do you have any tattoos? If not, would like to?
this is another sad no 😔😔 for all my piercings, tattoos are still a bit of a no-go in ~desi households and i’ve been trying to convince my mom for *so long* my god. i want to get a whole sleeve on at least one hand, including an arm band on my forearm (so hot?? for no reason??) and just. idk. fill my body up with a lot of doodles and shapes hehe
18. Do you like reading? If yes what's your favourite book?
absolutely obsessed w it. i go through phases where i’m either in reading slumps or going thru 30+ books a month easy. for the past couple years, i’ve only been able to stomach super chill romcoms because escapism is the name of the game 😎 don’t really have fav books,,,,but a few of the ones i loved recently are:
- Talia Hobbert’s Brown Sisters series (esp the second one!!)
- Joely Sue Burkhart’s Their Vampire Queen Series (basically just sex and blood and vampires; it’s a polyam series of like. 7? books and i love each and every one of them <3)
Get To Know Me!!
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amazinlei · 2 years
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SO now that I officially started my Lamb oc’s file and what will be canon inspired by my game play!
-Their name is Shep Lockehorn.  Goes by They/Him.  Not very affiliated with their gender yet since they’re kinda traumatized and going through A Lot. They are a pinkish lavender sheep (my fave color :D) and inspired by my fave sheep breed, Valais blacknose! (pls look them up they are CUTE!!! ;O;) They have horns, but they’re fairly short as he’s a young teen at the start of the game and they’re garnished with jewellery passed down from his family heritage. 
-They have a currently *redacted* backstory involving why they got booted from their flock while on the run from the culling.  Which sheep ONLY do when there has been a betrayal that risks the herd.
-Shep is disabled, he’s missing his left arm from the elbow up.  The red crown take over as a prosthetic sometimes to lift heavy objects.  Same also applies when they’re fighting!  The crown shapeshift into a sword between his faded scar tissue and a weapon, usually sword, axe, hammer, etc... But shep’s favorite specifically is the claws. 
-Shep fears Heket the most out of all the bishops. 
-He studies Alchemy and all other pre-chemistry stuff.  
-Allows most NPC’s to stay around the cult, mainly Helob as the guy strikes me as a bit of nomad.
-Many of the acolytes are terrified of Helob, but honestly Shep approved of cannibalism since even before the crown, he got used to trapping squirrels and birds to survive on his own.  Plus the glorious leader and the meat-eating nomad actually have a pretty close friendship! 
-Yes, Shep almost tried to eat ratau when they first met. X’D Aside from that, Shep is SCARILY good at knucklebones.  He’s just good at reading people’s poker faces.  They still flip over tables when they lose though.  Ah, teenage anger given extra help with an eldritch horror amount of godly strength!
-Shep views TOWW’s more as stoic fatherly-role. They both questioned too much and their own family who had no choice but to boot them, becoming a danger to everyone and themselves.  Shep is constantly seeking the praise he didn’t get for his achievements like an ignored child. :(
-The cult is called Lockehorns for his family namesake, which he doesn’t know if any of them are still alive, but still wants to believe they got away. (spoilers: only 2 of some of his siblings did and more on that later when I figure it out :3c)
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firelord-frowny · 1 year
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Also??? Realizing that many of the characters were Real People??? fucking love it!! i mean there were the obvious ones like Socrates and Hippocrates (whose names are not pronounced AT ALL like i thought lmaooo) but there were also plentyyyy of people i’d never heard of who i only discovered were Real after finally finishing the game and reading stuff about them!
like, just knowing now that Alkibialdes was a real man who was actually alive at some point makes me so happy lmfao and i truly truly truly hope and pray that he was as permanently horny in real life as he is in this game lmaooo. 
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untilyouremember · 5 months
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Nina the Starry Bride
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elvesofnoldor · 7 months
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i hope that when louis became lestat's "consort" or whatever the fuck in the prince lestat trilogy, it was a strictly business zero romance relationship between the two of them. I hope by "consort" anne rice really meant CFO. I hope it was just lestat giving louis the position of CFO of his vampire company he somehow inherited so he can utilize the immense power of louis' sociopathic mind and his deceptive ulterior appearance to control these stupid ass vampires he's in charge of or something, because let's be honest if Lestat has to do this shit alone he's gonna have a mental breakdown every other business day. Plus Lestat can't do math.
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shiveringfrogspawn · 8 months
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I saw these greeting cards being sold in a shop….what does this MeAn
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hiriajuu-suffering · 1 year
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My Sociopathy
I'm probably one of the only rational people who gets the feeling their margin for error in social situations is way less than others. That treating others around you equitably and kindly applies to everyone except me. Others could slip up up multiple times and be easily forgiven, I make one small error or faux pas and that's it: ghosted, gatekept, no longer welcome. I'd like to think I have a good enough heart, decent enough intentions, but people live in an irrational fear and hatred of everything I am. Others are let in with the smallest of gestures while I have to climb mountains to earn the same level of trust. Every criticism on me damming while all else would be salvageable when it wouldn't apply to me.
They say everyone is somebody's type. I know that's wrong because people are always shocked by how little I succeed at forming connections that give me a haven. I actively play the situation as well as who I am allows me to and yet I'm always laughed off whenever I suggest I was enough to get even the smallest spark. I don't have friends, I have people I call friends because I don't have anyone in my life to lean on. I haven't had a true person to support me since before I hit puberty, so when I say I'm an emotional orphan it isn't an exaggeration.
In this way, I'm not a sociopath by choice. I am because it's the only way I knew how to survive and reconcile with the realities of the cruelty in which my environment(s) treat me. Valued for what I offer for others, never enjoyed for my presence alone. When I start to care about someone, I basically let them pick out the place in my back they get to stab me beforehand. I've gotten betrayed so many times, the returns I get on resilience are negligent. Complete trust in anyone is a far-flung myth for me, I operate on how I predict someone to behave, having faith in any mortal is the folly of someone whom is actually liked by others.
Imagine how easy life would be with an ounce of moral affinity. Imagine people feeling comfortable connecting with you when you try to make every burgeoning feeling clear instead of shrouding yourself in the illusion of control. Imagine believing someone saying they, individually, find you attractive and not just well, you're not unattractive, idk why you think you're ugly. Imagine altruistically offering kindness and getting even more than 1% of it back. Imagine being able to feel like when someone doesn't want you around it's not personal. Not a single person values me enough to stay with me when I'm needed. I always used to say in my teenage years, when it was much more likely, I doubt I would even get a single reluctant visitor if I fell into a coma.
How do I know I lost something I never had? I see how other people are treated: with fairness, with kindness, with compassion, with empathy, with attraction, with love, with caring, with humanity. I am not so lucky. I am not hated a way that's clearly explicit, but I always start from the lowest point possible in the credit I'm given for a basic existence. I've had people trust rapists, abusers, predators, and murderers before they found the capacity to trust me. I am the embodiment of what humanity seems to hate and they can't even justify why.
Three years straight of this -: apologizes for picking others over me w/o a conflict of interest me: I failed you too, dw about it -: I really value your friendship and want to get closer me: so you do feel something for me? I can never be certain -: no? that kinda makes me uncomfortable you would even think that me, to myself: idk, maybe the weeks up until all this when you were flirting with me and completely found it okay for me to care about you, especially giving every indication I voluntarily gave you privileges no one else gets me, thinking: aight, let's get this over with
People don't get what not being good enough means anymore. You don't have to have a reason the person isn't good enough. They can just be that way. The way I always am. The Suffering in my name isn't a meme, it's a prophecy that is never wrong. People are quick to defend and say 30 isn't too old when I've been feeling this way since 27. The tone changes really quick when the age gap is more than 3 years and they align my actions with my face.
I am hated, for no other reason than existing. I am loathed because I am not something desirable. If it never changes, I am supposed to be the bitter villain. Every time I try to be, I feel too miserable to carry on in conveying my vitriol. My entire life is defined by the failure of everyone besides my kin, for entirely self-invested reasons, seeing the potential in me to do good. Should humanity be worth protecting for me, when all it does it alienate me?
Merry Christmas
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darkpoisonouslove · 1 year
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She just learned today who stole her baby. Let her process, goddammit!
#erda#og post#gtfo with the romantic music#leave her a few days to deal with her emotions!!!!!#they really sped this whole reveal and shoved it into three days#i get that she's already suffered for years and there's no need to torture her more but they should've started this part of the arc earlier#that way she could have at least processed some of the emotions by now and things wouldn't be so weird#don't throw her into a romance after she spent 30 years getting over the last one and the assumed death of her daughter#i'll bet you that they were thinking “him being here to make dealing with this so much easier for her will show the depth of their bond”#but um... all you're doing is making light of her grief and trauma#it's been half a day since she learned the whole truth and he's like “you should let go of this”#bestie that's sociopathic#she's legit having an existential crisis and you're doing this#he's like “you know none of this is your fault right?” and she's like “i don't know anything”#she's going to start dissociating next#BUT and i hate myself for this but there is cuteness here and i want to focus on it#his face when she's blaming herself is pure confusion and funny af#his offer to go out isn't flirting; it's just an attempt to make sure her thoughts won't be spinning in a vicious circle all night#and despite her protests she gets up on her own from the couch; he doesn't have to tug her up#i'm not crazy about the fact that she acknowledges that they barely know each other because that pretty much doesn't change before#they start sleeping together (2 days from now) but she's definitely just making excuses because she wants to be with him even in her state#and he just wants to love her and pay her attention#(although i don't know which part of her personal tragedy makes him feel like life isn't so harsh; i guess he's talking about her presence)#and he got her to admit that he soothes her which... good; she needs a lot of that#so overall this scene is 50/50 but just like everything else could have benefited from better pacing of the plot#(i thought i'd written a novel in the tags before but it can't compare to this)
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kneelingshadowsalome · 11 months
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Just Friends (König x F!Reader)
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How to Escape the Friendzone 2/4 (Word count 5.3 k)
Summary: König is a horny, creepy killing machine obsessed with a shy, kind reader who has a raging knife kink.
Tags/warnings: 🔞 Eventual smut, eventual violence, angst, dark romance, canon divergence. Crack treated seriously. Yandere undertones, implied stalking, panty stealing, major character death, size kink, voyeurism, possessive sex, twisted, fluffy feelings. Loner boy/gentle girl dynamic. Protective!Obsessive!Top!König. Reader works as a cleaner at the base. She is described to have hair and prefers to wear dresses off work. Not safe or sane but mostly consensual.
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Massive arms go about her as she's pulled against a lean chest. It's an awkward, tense hug. He smells of open air and coppice, with a whiff of acrid sweat on top as she lays her head somewhere between the bumps of muscle of a warm chest.
Not even the body heat makes him appear more human: his heart is not pounding as fast as she thought it would after making it clear he would score some tonight.
She fears she's dealing with a sociopath. Might even be a psychopath.
"Are you still afraid?"
"I don't know." Her breaths are everything but steady as she inhales the intoxicating scent of a madman.
"Don't be scared. I will only hurt those who wish to hurt you."
His pledge renders her weak; it makes her legs shake. She gets far more than she bargained for when pulling him in to give her a little late-night comfort.
Friends with benefits is a situation bad enough, but this is not okay. The guy's fixation seems boundless, and if she tries to wriggle out of this… relationship and starts seeing someone else, it might end up in König scrubbing the potential future love interest's guts off his shoes.
And something in the idea isn't even wholly appalling.
Good God…
"I don't want you to hurt anyone," she whispers like it isn't his day-to-day job – to hurt and kill people. She is on the verge of collapsing to the floor and stays upright only because he holds her in authoritarian embrace.
"Little angel, it's what I do." He releases her only enough to bow his head and look into her eyes. His stare betrays slight distaste. Those eyes are calm mirrors of how can someone be so naive.
"You come to me if someone is mean to you," he orders in a stern voice that makes her feel faint.
"Alright," she breathes a fluent little lie. He's satisfied with her answer, however, and presses her head back against him with effortless control.
She imagines him knifing someone with a listless stare from sparing a glance her way; she fantasizes him strangling some chauvinistic moron in the darkness after they have been "mean" to her. Quickening breaths betray her sick thoughts to him because he pulls her even closer. She can feel the enormous cock pressing against her body with a promise of violence.
"Angel… I wish you would stop teasing me."
"Yeah?" Her laugh is restrained, and her heart is racing inside her chest – like it's some kind of a good idea to have a heart attack while a murderous psycho turning into a boyfriend is in the same room with her. "Where's the fun in that…?"
"Do you always tease men like this?"
"No," she swallows a mouthful of woodland and musk. "Just you."
"Hm."
"König… Can I see your face?"
The man finally seems to find his reserve again. He detaches from her, and she can hear the audible gulp inside the hood.
"Maybe later."
He shifts his weight from one foot to the other like he usually does when he's a bit nervous. Probably to ease the discomfort from still being forced into those pants with such an astoundingly large, swelling erection, too.
She can't come up with anything that might explain why the man is so uncomfortable with showing his face. From the small glimpse she saw in the showers, everything looked completely normal. There is some other reason why he wants to wear the mask, most likely some mental block, and she would simply have to wait until he's ready and willing to take it off.
"How about a kiss?"
He doesn't shake his head or escape her as she hesitantly steps toward him and raises a hand to the hem of his hood.
"If I just…"
He does nothing as she starts to raise the mask. The look in his eyes is somewhat haunted, though.
She lifts it just enough to reveal a clean-shaven chin and a pair of thin, tightly shut lips. She briefly notices that there's a scar on his jaw before his mouth opens to call her in. They're polar opposites of each other: she feels breathless and limp when their lips meet while he's a statue of rigid power. Even his mouth is tense as she catches his bottom lip between hers and tries to soften that immortal stiffness. Distant notes of hops catch her tongue just before he pulls her back into a crushing hug.
The guy is not the most perfect kisser. He's very avid, though. In fact, his eagerness is what makes it a scary experience, what makes the kiss clumsy. He smashes his lips on hers with force, then opens his mouth so wide she fears he will devour half her face.
The ungloved hands slide down her back and cup her ass. He's gentle, but she still feels like she's levitating, half an inch above the ground from his groping. He moans like they are already having sex, but before she can disconnect herself from the violent kiss, he does it for her.
"I want to fuck you," he pants across her lips, eyes half-lidded and drunk. "Can I fuck you?"
The man has no conception of how to dance these dances. He simply declares his wish to shove his junk inside her and kill those who might do her harm. She feels dizzy in his arms, like dew that will evaporate under too much heat.
"Yeah, yes," she tries to sound sane, although there's nothing sane about this.
So much for being just friends or being nothing at all…
Her heart is beating faster and faster; it wants to rend itself out of her chest. She feels ample sweat between her thighs, then realizes it's only her own wetness that has broken through the cotton of her underwear. The dress is so tight in the middle that she can't simply try and throw it over her head, and the buttons at the front seem to have suddenly become too big to slip through the holes.
He doesn't take any of his clothes off while watching her undress. The instant she opens her whimsical veil of blooms, he moves close and shoves the fabric down her shoulders so that it drops sadly on the floor. Then he flicks a knife out.
Shit… Shit what the fuck–
"No–Don't–!"
The blade is forced with a flat surface under the middle of her bra. He pulls the fabric away, turns the blade - it's a miracle she's not bleeding by the time he cuts through the center front like it's butter. Her breasts fall free, and the destroyed lingerie hangs cheaply on the side before it gets dragged away too. She looks at his work, her exposed tits and the crude, fat knife he swiftly returns to its sheath.
"That was my favorite br–ah…"
The man is terrifying, even when he sinks to his knees. He dives for her breasts, licks the undersides and sucks her nipples like he's famished. Her head rolls back, and she feels fainter still as he gropes her like she's his toy, chews a nipple until she shudders and cries in pain. Then he goes down, down, panting hot breaths on her skin as he goes, the hood grazing and tickling her skin.
His hands shake slightly as he tears down the last piece of covering fabric from between her legs. She can't even step out of the briefs before a blazing tongue is pushed to her clit, all but delicately.
Perhaps he's not a virgin, but he's not a veteran, either – still, it draws a filthy moan out of her.
She has to take support from his head to prevent herself from falling when the tongue simply forces its way between her legs. It curls to meet her folds, slick with her wet. She knows she's practically leaking at this point, and hears how he licks his lips.
"Of course the angel tastes like heaven too," he rasps in her mound, sounding rather… bitter. Almost annoyed.
She thinks it's only the beginning, but he suddenly rises like a Kraken from the sea, like a Godzilla about to destroy an entire city.
"Get on the bed. All fours."
She chokes the whimper that tries to escape her, then turns and crawls onto the bed as if they are running out of time. His urgency is hers now, and she presents herself to him, waiting for the man to thrust in without remorse, but it's his mouth she feels first.
"Uh–Oh my god…"
He licks her with a flat tongue, torturously slow while she's on display. They're long, profound sweeps, as if he wants to sample her rather than give her pleasure. Although he does give her an immense amount of it.
She falls on her elbows, face down on the bed, exposing more of herself to him in the process. Her pussy has been neglected for so long that the feel of his hot tongue on her is absolutely breathtaking, thigh-shaking. She pushes herself back a little, lets him taste his own medicine for once.
And of course it only makes him more unhinged.
"You're wet like a…" he laughs a short, dry laugh straight into her folds, and she finally whimpers at the sound. "You want it so bad?"
"Yes…?"
It's a sad little confession but more than enough for him. He freezes behind her, and something in the way the air shifts tells her he has risen and is now standing high above her as she's in this crudely vulnerable position.
"I've made you wet this whole time?"
She snivels, opens her eyes, closes them…
"Yes," she sobs in the bed, nearly topples, but he grabs her ass and keeps her in place.
"Ach du lieber Himmel…"
She pants and cries in the sheets, but the sobering silence lasts only for so long.
The sound of a belt being opened shoots her skin full of goosebumps. Only a few seconds later, the fat tip of his cock is swept across her folds: it probes for a second, then slides in.
"A-ah–"
"Scheiße… So tight…"
He hisses and goes all the way in – the journey is long and torturous as he stretches her wide. The thickness only grows at the base, his balls are already tight as they arrive to press against her.
And mercy is not at the top of his list as he realizes she has denied her need and therefore, his. He starts to sail inside her, back and forth, in and out, like it's his job, too. It's total torture. She might just pass out before this is over.
"You little tease…" He seizes control of her hips while using her as his own personal fleshlight. The noise of wet, slick fucking is deafening. The pace is upped soon, and he has to use strength to hold her in place while ramming her from standing while she tries to hold on for her dear life and hold onto the sheets.
"Not so fast, König," she whimpers into her pillow, but he won't listen. The pace is frantic, and his thrusts are deep; he fucks her with despair, with anguish-driven, starved thrusts born from greed.
Nothing has ever felt so good, nothing.
"Just friends, eh?"
She has a hard time deciphering whether he is happy or mad. His voice is pitchy, and she knows, she just knows that he sounds equally as unglued on his missions. Perhaps that's why people rarely talk to him.
"Don't–don't be angry…"
"No? Say that you want me," he commands somewhere behind her, desperation coating the air with pungent sweat and musky arousal. "Say it–say it–"
"I want you," she finally cries, and it feels like an absolution. An amnesty. Remission of sin.
There's panting and frantic sound of slaps of flesh against flesh behind her. The air all around is pure electricity. It makes her quiver and throb and squeeze: him, the sheets, anything and everything.
"I will bring you flowers every morning and fuck you every night. Ja?"
His length is the only thing she can focus on; all else dissolves into a hazy mist. The cock glides in her like he's oiling a gun part, and he could ask her to kill someone and she would only say–
"Yes, yes."
He slides in and out with less and less control, moans and grunts with every thrust now. She's already past the point of no return, even though the orgasm keeps hovering right beyond her reach. She only needs a few more minutes. Or maybe just one...
"König… Not...so–fast…"
He answers something in German, an annoyed string of words she has no clue what they mean. He's probably just swearing profoundly.
"Get...what you deserve..."
That's the only thing she can flesh out from the English that follows. He finally finds some mercy with a choked groan and tries to slow down a little. It's even worse when he does that. He pulls almost completely out, then sinks back in, agonizingly lazy, and that does it: the full length of his giant cock slipping inside her without effort makes her walls clench.
"Oh God…" Her back is arching, her toes are curling, a tight cry disappears somewhere in the pillow, and he won't stop with the – "Oh–fuck–!"
"Yeah," he cheers her on as she screams, cries in the sheets while his cock swims in her. His hands dig into her hips, and she barely has brains left to think it might leave bruises. The orgasm comes in waves, shakes, and he won't let go even when she's only a heap of throbbing, soaking flesh and rapture.
And it's not the end; quite the contrary. He continues to fuck her with abandon: balls slap against her with every jab; they must be covered in her juice at this point, making the sound of sloppy thrusts utterly obscene. She's able to stay in a face-down, ass-up position only because he's holding her there for his cock.
The grunts turn into a wide, thick groan as he approaches the edge as well. The pace slows down almost to a halt before he comes.
"Jetzt…kommt–" he groans through gritted teeth, voice all taut while he grinds through his release. It's a multitude of deep, oddly paced thrusts, a sad attempt to get everything he can, and she's still like a wet gulf sucking him in.
The last throes are sluggish, the madness starts to pass, and she feels like every bone has left her body. There is nothing solid left when the man slowly relents and settles somewhere deep inside her. She can hear how he pants with his mouth open, and it sounds painful, wet, almost drooly. Then he swallows with a breathless gulp, slips out, and lets her go.
She immediately falls forward - topples, crashes, crawls on the bed, tries to rearrange what's left.
Just friends...
Yep.
He crashes somewhere beside her, spent and out of breath. The front of his shirt is covered in sweat; the air is filled with the stale scent of musk and saline sweat and pure, mad sex. She can barely catch a glimpse of the slick, glistening length of him. It feels like a miracle that this thing has been inside her. It’s not that it’s monstrously thick: it’s simply long, curving a little to the side, lean and aggressive even when growing soft.
"You play with fire, Engel. Why did you make me wait so long?"
The masked killer beside her is panting but satisfied for now, and turns his head to look at her. She has to muster all her courage to look back.
"I'm…a bit shy."
"You're perfect," he declares while watching her in her sex daze and ruin. So, at least he's not angry. He finally looks… normal, even with that absurd hood still on, with that intoxicated, admiring stare in his eyes. The ice in his blues has turned into melting snow.
"I noticed you the minute I arrived here."
She can't prevent a hand from reaching out at that, from splaying fingers over his chest.
"I noticed you too," she whispers back before moving closer to snuggle him. His heart is finally thumping in his chest, right under her cheek – from the late exercise or their closeness, she can't tell. A heavy arm goes around her, pressing her further into the nook of his armpit.
"You remind me of one of my knives," he says while holding her close.
Oh good God…
"You are a butterfly knife girl."
"Oh?"
"Ja. Small and cute and a lot of fun. And I can't get enough of you."
So much for getting rid of the man after getting some d. God, what was wrong with her? Any other woman would have put up some boundaries, perhaps gotten a restraining order by now.
"Is it… a good knife?" Her voice comes out as an annoying squeal, and he pulls her closer, ever closer.
"I mainly use it for playing."
She wets her lips in an attempt to calm herself, to comfort herself. She’s just another plaything for a murderer whose hunger seems endless, even if he’s more civil now. Still, she fears this man is only after sex and violence. Her little dresses and petite lingerie won't stand a chance against such brutality.
"What knife are you…?"
"Classic Glock field knife. Tall and ugly."
Behind the thin veil of indifference, there's pride. It borders on arrogance. She catches a dash of bitterness, too: field knives don't pair well with butterflies, perhaps.
"König, you're not ugly," she breaks their odd cuddle to look at him. "This sounds like a trustworthy knife to me."
He looks back at her with an even warmer tinge to the glacier of his eyes.
"It is. You cannot hope for a more loyal blade."
Her gaze drops somewhere in the darkness of his shirt. He's pledging himself for the second time to her, and it causes another storm inside her head. There's warmth on her cheeks, too.
"You are cute when you blush," he observes with pleased tranquility.
Perhaps... Perhaps he doesn't want to hurt things he finds cute.
Perhaps he will take care of them, like he takes care of his knives.
It still takes some getting used to that he allows his hood to be lifted just enough to push his tongue inside her mouth or pussy but taking it off to show his face is too much. She is lying there with him in an odd post-coital dream, thoroughly naked while he's still fully dressed. But she doesn't feel cold, not when pressed against his blazing form like this.
"Did you nick my underwear?" She asks out of the blue, and the hand stroking her waist stops in the middle of an idle caress.
"I might have," he admits without a single ounce of remorse in his voice.
"König… That's not cool," she says, knowing he can hear the lack of scolding in her voice.
"You want them back?"
"I… Gosh. Yes, that would be nice."
What a pervert.
"Or... Nevermind. Keep them," she sighs, trying to brush off the fact that the underwear in question wasn't even clean. "Do you steal women's underwear often?"
"No. Just yours."
A laugh meant to convey her shock is far too laced with joy to make it clear that she finds his deeds preposterous. She simply fails at every turn in trying to express that she's a decent woman. He knows it now, probably saw it long ago; that she's the perfect cheval glass to his perversions.
The hand on her hips moves to caress her thigh, and the drowsy stare observes her with growing mischief.
"Ready to go again?"
"Whuh–Again…?"
He takes her hand and moves it right over his cock. It's lean and demanding, and pulses under her palm.
Tall and ugly, she thinks while her walls dare to throb with hunger.
"You make me hard," he says, almost as a whisper, "all the time."
Jesus… There was definitely no rulebook when it came to this guy.
She gets to watch from the bed how he gives her a show as the man finally decides it's time to take his clothes off. The shirt is the first one to go: it flies somewhere on the floor while he holds on to his hood. The sculpted muscle looks even bigger up close, and the plates are covered with thin hair. It runs thicker below the navel, and his thighs are pure power: they surround the sleek length of his cock like trunks of strength when he finally gets himself out of those pants.
The v-shape of his upper body is something she will never get over. Broad shoulders shrink and curve into narrow hips which in turn swell into powerful thighs, and while perhaps this guy wouldn't win the gold medal at a fitness competition – judged by the way he's lean and athletic but not low fat ripped – he certainly is the most beautiful man she has ever had the pleasure to lay eyes on. He's a demigod with his herculean strength, a titan who's too big for the world of mortals. A tormented Samson who will never be tamed with treachery or tricks.
The bed sags as he crawls back to her like the gentlest predator. Her legs open wide to receive him – a classic missionary feels like the most intimate choice after the faceless pounding she received earlier. He gathers her legs as he proceeds: forces them up, up, almost next to her arms until he's hovering over her exposed pussy.
She should've known that some boring missionary wouldn't satisfy this man at all.
Her eyes drop to her legs and what's between them: she's in no position to do much of anything, but as the tip of his cock – smooth, pristine velvet – slides across her wet folds once more, she rather helplessly tries to drive her hips up to meet him.
It's like she's drunk or in a dream. The scene is wild and filthy: she's plump and spread open, ready for the taking, thighs almost in her ears as he draws his hips back and finds her opening.
"Please be gentle," she begs with a whisper. He halts for a while to lock gazes with her rabbit stare.
"You are pretty when you beg, little one. But I would never hurt you."
She swallows, and her lips part – his gaze instantly falls on her mouth, then raises back to her eyes, gentle and painstakingly ardent. He's close, so terribly close – and not just physically. Her thighs quiver with anticipation as the thick velvet slides in.
Holy fuck–
She savors the spread, and he's gentle, like he promised. The groan that erupts from inside the hood above makes her walls ache. He's so merciful this time, and she wishes to lift the black veil that still keeps them apart, to see his face as he takes her, to see that scar on his jaw and how his mouth hangs open with hunger, just like hers…
His cock comes out all wet – she can hear it – before plunging right back in, and it makes her mewl.
"Oh God…" Her eyes shut tight from the sensation of being so filled. She's even more starved than she thought. It's scary, far scarier than the mass murderer above and inside her.
"You like that?"
He's breathing heavy, and she knows he's looking at her, the distorting face of pleasure, the way she's biting her lip. Tears try to force themselves out from the passionate, featherbrained proximity, from being so tightly knitted together, like a bunch of happy, overstimulated nerves.
"Look at me," he orders, and she opens her eyes like they're under his command and not hers.
"You like it like this?"
She nods with tears in her eyes, and he won't stop looking at her like she's his most prized possession.
"Gut. I will make you scream again."
The man's dreamy stare follows every twitch of a lip, every bat of an eyelash. She looks down briefly to escape that love – the sight of the long thickness disappearing in her while she is so crudely open for him makes her feel dizzy, even when she's lying down.
Some pillow princess…
"Sehr schön," he comments while watching her face which must look like that of a dumb, anesthetized doll. His cock has that effect, and now that he's hovering over her, staring into her soul while filling her, it makes everything even more painful because it's sweet. She's under lazy waves, and decent men seem the most boring thing on earth right now.
"You like my knives?"
"Ah–what…?"
"You stared when I played with my knife."
She knows he has caught her staring more than once and bites her lip again not to blurt out how she had stared when he had played with... other things as well.
"Mh, yeah… It was beautiful."
"You're beautiful."
The sudden waves of intimacy leave her fragile and weak. His stare is nothing short of a caress. She is open and helpless for him to pound to his heart's content, but he's gentle, bordering on loving...
"I can teach you how to play with them."
Jesus Christ, this dude is just crazy.
"Uh-huh," she agrees to it with her mouth hanging open from the overload of sensation. The lewd sound of his cum pushing out of her with every thrust is an obscene background music for this – or any – conversation.
"I have a collection."
Why the hell would he be talking about his knife collection in the middle of–
"I own at least fifty knives. I can show you all of them if you come to my room."
His gaze is at least as piercing as his cock, and she realizes how serious this is: knives are his life. He finds them beautiful too, he collects them and cares for them. They're a profession, but they're also the most important thing in his world.
Knives are his essence.
And he had likened her to a butterfly knife...
"S-sure."
The sound from where they are joined rises to a sluggish crescendo: drowsy, filthy claps of flesh on soaked flesh. He makes her sick and well at the same time: he drags her to hell and raises her to heaven. He's the remedy and the curse. He plays with her like he plays with his knives: ravenous, entranced, obsessed.
She tries to concentrate on too many things at once: that intoxicating voice, the memory of him playing with death, the cock plunging inside her over and over again, making warmth pool below. She imagines him killing people with his collection, picking his tool for the day. He's not the only lunatic here because even the very thought makes her tight around him.
"You are close?"
"König… Just–" she whispers on the cusp of a deeper, soul-rending orgasm.
"You like it when I talk about knives?"
She breathes laboriously and tries to hang onto the last bits of her sanity, but he knows her, knows her already. He weighs down on her until her thighs come to rest right next to her breasts. He's plowing her in a crude angle, indecent and deep. It's vulgar, and she loves it; loves the way he stares at her, all helpless under him.
"Please, I'm gonna–"
"I can show you my guns too."
Ohmygod–
"I'm gonn–ah–!"
She shatters, her walls clench; her pussy sucks him like he's hard candy.
“Sieh dir das an… You were made for me.”
"Nh– Please…"
Her head tosses on the pillow as if in a dream. She's fathomless, and going to pass out, the cock inside her makes her eyes roll back in her head until she sees white, the color of saints.
"Shy girl… Beg for it."
The voice that answers his command is not that of a shy girl; it's not hers at all. She hears it from underwater, and her reality consists solely of the man filling her, spreading her, transforming her from an angel into something deliciously wicked.
Please, just–
It's not her voice, and yet it does sound everything like her. It begs, mewls a plea after the other in a string of helpless little whimpers.
Don't stop, please pleaseplease…
"Besser als jedes Messer…" he rasps, more darkly now. "You drive me crazy, Engel."
A chant arises in her head: she has sinned and there's no turning back. He feels far better than any promise of heaven. She could never have guessed that being cast out would feel so good.
His release comes with a tight rip, he goes taut like in that shower, only ten times more desperate. The hiss under the hood turns into a pained, strained roar of a grunt. The first time was foreplay, a quick one: this is true release. She almost hopes she would faint as the whole body of the Austrian titan goes hard as a rock. She couldn't be more spent and used, and still, her pussy answers his godly essence by clenching around him, pulling him in like he's the best man there is.
The man of her dreams, the man from her worst nightmares...
His eyes are liquid, the waterline twitches. She sees behind the walls, a millisecond's worth of fragility before his head drops, and the muscles are released from the violent trance. Broad shoulders cage her in like she's suddenly deep inside a mountain pass. Spent and dead and gone, there's no hurry any longer: he is buried deep inside and throbs whatever leftovers he has to give her.
She's filled to the brim, crushed under his weight, banished: and it's only delicious, the feeling of her body disappearing somewhere in the depths of the bed he has plowed her into. She waits dutifully as the man gathers himself, even gets brave enough to touch him. The masked face is buried somewhere in her neck, and his stomach ripples with a few shivers as her hand runs down his spine.
"I want to do this every day," he declares softly while panting through the thick fabric of his self-made shield. She feels pure horror and thrill in her chest.
To do this every day… She will eventually break, like a toy that has been used too much. She's not made of steel like those butterfly knives used mainly for playing.
"König, this is crazy… We're crazy," she tries to put into words the unholy mess raging inside her. He snorts before releasing her from the absurd position. The weight of him leaves her empty as he pulls out, then drags his way beside her to gather her back into his arms.
"Don't be ashamed, little one," he coos through the mask. "You don't have to pretend with me."
Two rounds of intense sex have liberated him, the manic terror has turned into a strange compassion. The look in his eyes is magnanimous and tender, almost droopy. She feels weightless and timid, an angel once more.
"We belong together, you and I," he states with conviction that sends sweet dread inside her heart. "Don't worry. You will never be lonely again."
Her fate is sealed, and she fears a big, fat knife will cut her heartstrings too if she tries to escape his protection. Her jaw trembles at the prospect of him returning to her every day to fuck her bare after an adrenaline high on the field. She sees a future of tears and sweat and cum, a beast lulled into sleep amidst a withering sea of flowers and torn lace.
She tries to find the right words, hopes he will be swift and merciful in his execution.
König, please…
It's not the hood, it's–
"Everyone fears me," he sighs beside her. "I'm glad you don't."
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