#someone made a huge mistake

[bhaalsdeepbat]

I think Lae'zel would really enjoy having her nails painted. she wears warrior makeup all over her face and neck, she has those lovely little braids, she took the time to bead her hair. i think she likes having a little bit of polish to her look

#bat rambles #then her casual wear is her fucking cutoffs #but even then she like #has that huge ass belt buckle #girlie likes her jewelry and accessories and she likes her battle makeup #i also SERIOUSLY DOUBT she let anyone at the creche do any of that for her #she's all about the good of the collective but keeps a distance at first as a way of protecting herself from getting murdered #by another Gith if she made the mistake of letting her guard down #which would like #IMAGINE ok #i love the idea of the companions eventually having little rituals together #like astarion and lae'zel and karlach and tav/durge getting together for hair braiding #astarion is there to gossip and got shoved someone so he could be the back of the braid train #karlach puts the WORST braid in his hair that never comes out and it's so messy #he doesn't know it's there #also like #karlach and lae'zel and tav/durge getting with wyll and all of them decorating each other's horns and hair #lae'zel would be very >:T the entire time #but girlie would enjoy it she loves bonding time even if she pretends it's a bother

[renlyslittlerose]

Working on my eldritch obikin fic and I had to write Padmé's coroner report and I'm like? I can't believe I've done this. To myself.

#me: Im gonna hurt my readers hehe #also me: ive made a huge mistake #like trying to shoot someone with an elastic band only to have it come back at you

[sameteeth]

[ image description:

3 screenshots of max and anne's conversation in the cave in black sails season 3 episode 3. all screenshots show anne, standing in the dark with only a single beam of light across the frame, and closed captions along the bottom. she moves from the dark on the left to further to the right with each screenshot, with the first screenshot being her completely consumed by darkness and the final screenshot showing her silhouette outlined by the beam of light.

the first screenshot's closed captions are of max speaking - she says "you should stay...". the second screenshot continues max's statement: "To see it be divided evenly". the third screenshot is of anne speaking - the closed captions read "I trust you." end image description ]

something something in the dark there is possibility

#this is the ONLY. TIME. anne ever says she trusts someone explicitly. THE WHOLE SHWO. THE ONLY TIME #sorry but the lighting in this episode makws me HHHHHHHH #max also speaks very frankly in this scene - its one of if not the only time she talks about her past #basically there are like a handful of themes in black sails and if u look closely u can see them in every episode #because this show is awork of fucking art #also! new to doing image descriptions - if i missed anything/made a mistake pls let me know! #canis watches black sails #black sails #also. formatting on mobile and ive never done huge imageposts before so they mighr be wonky - might try 2 fix em tomorrow #anne bonny #max black sails

[bread-of-death]

Whelp. I just emailed the Dean.

#bread hates college now I guess #if you see this without seeing the post I made the other day #basically I was wrongly dropped from an online course #I don’t know if it’s a mistake or if the professor is just a dick #but I got dropped from the course and it’s a required credit for me #the main problem has to do with financial aid I was receiving #it only applied to this semester and we have been sternly informed that it will not carry over to the next semester #so if I have to take the class or an equivalent again #that could be a minor problem #I mean money isn’t an issue- but like- if I were someone else and it *was* #what the fuck then #are they just gonna say ‘tough luck’ like ??? c’mon dude #cuz I don’t want to take this course or this professor now- and I certainly won’t be doing it this semester #it was already a compressed course- 15 weeks down to 10 #and this is setting me back by at least one week- probably more like three #so I could very easily be failing with no chance of regaining footing if I get put back into the course #and that’s if I do amazing on all the work- which I realistically know I won’t and can’t #so I’m going to take a different course that satisfies the requirement next semester instead of this semester #but the problem there is that I’m almost certain that the financial aid won’t transfer #and that’s a huge pain in the ass and also entirely *wrong* #cuz like- what if I really did need that money? #and they dropped me from a course I need to graduate- without ever contacting me personally about dropping me from the course- after I had- #-already shown participation in said course #so like.. b r u h. #at the very least. they could’ve talked to me directly about what the issue was #cuz at this point I don’t even know what the problem is #anyways #I’m frustrated and tired

[hometownangels]

i hate feelings actually

#why am i so quick to feel so intensely #i feel like i made a huge mistake LOL #if someone could love me thatd be great thank you #li talks

[tonyglowheart]

reading thru old meta posts on qian qiu and there's like, some stuff I agree with sure but there's also a lot I don't lol. w like yan wushi especially. there's a lot of. I think too much conventional-mindedness in approaching yws even from the ppl who did like him as a character. saying he's a difficult character, and is meant to be a difficult character, but then still framing him along more conventional moral frameworks. yet another apartment 'complex'? strange, I find it quite simple moments.

#qian qiu #yan wushi #sorry so many of you are still hung up over the *chapter 45* '''''betrayal''''' rip but i'm different #(though I wonder if I'd feel this way if ppl hadn't made such a big deal of it and so I was expecting The Betrayal to be like. worse lol) #like for me since I was expecting *a* betrayal when I hit it in chap 45 I was like. this is it? lmao I thought it was sth actually serious #and then ppl like I can't let it go or I can't get over him saying he doesn't regret it - like god forbid women do anything forreal #the thing about yan wushi is he is not just master-less he's also in many ways *peer*-less #and that's why to him he was so much on the 'what a shame you're like the one guy who maybe could have been my rival but you're not' #I think ppl see rival as like. could be my enemy. but it's like. someone has to be your peer to be your rival #and it's very much established that yan wushi even before his power level is like maxed up has this wild potential #there's that chap where sq reflects on what qfg said abt yws having the potential to be better than him #but also I think it's a huge mistake to see/think of yws as amoral #he HAS morals. they're just not the same as yours #he doesn't care about the greater good as a rule but he's also not completely indifferent to it #and like. I think it's also a simplification to say that 'sq breaks the rules of yws's world of human nature being inherently corrupt etc' #I think that's a belief that yws holds about human nature but I think he's also like. smarter than to believe in absolutes? #and besides. to say it that way I think frames it as if yws is in denial about sq's existence and nature #I just don't get that sense from him - imo he sees sq as more of a curiosity than a like aberration #he's testing sq's bottom line not necessarily bc he's convinced sq is secretly evil but he because he wants to see what sq's bottom line is #and he wants to know that because sq's nature is so different than his own or those he generally encounters and understands from people #he's squishing sq like a dog with a chew toy not because he wants to destroy it but because he wants to see exactly what kind of noises #he can get out of it and exactly how far he can squish it before it starts being too much #(but also I think bc he sees sq's potential to be on his level and wants to see if that can get teased out) #in a like... bonsai shaping kind of way #yes he's pruning the tree back and sometimes pruning & shaping quite hard #but as with the art of bonsai - it's an interactive dance and like only the tree can add material #and for all that you can prune & shape the tree you will never know exactly what the tree will do #SQ is also like a tree in the sense that like you have to prune to get read of dead growth & also encourage new growth #and SQ goes from that like houseplant side of the meme that's like i'm allergic to tapwater #to flourishing under the adversity and the 'i can eat thru concrete'

[xhanisai]

You know what really grates on my nerves?

When people say that Adrien deserves to get hurt or heartbroken for not ‘noticing’ Marinette and her feelings all this time and when people say that Ladybug deserves to get hurt or heartbroken for not dating Chat Noir right away or something like that.

It is such a vile thing to say or agree on- especially when Adrien and Marinette thinks of the world of each other and their alter egos. Adrien has asked a few times about Marinette’s feelings to her face and her nerves always got the best of her and she never admitted the truth; he trusts and values her word. So it isn’t his fault that he doesn’t know her true feelings for him. 

And Ladybug, despite not accepting her partner’s romantic advances, absolutely adores him! She trusts him with her life and the civilians of Paris. She loves giving him adorable nicknames and treats him with care when she can. Regardless of what she feels for him (even if us viewers know it’s romantic love), Ladybug doesn’t have to go out with him and she shouldn’t be punished by the fandom for that. 

Anyways, these two mean the world to each other on all sides of the lovesquare and they’re not aware that their feelings are reciprocated (regardless of which side). They also NEVER go out of their ways to intentionally harm or hurt the other and always push things aside and prioritise each other when needed.

Do they have a bit of a communication issue? Yes, but they are teenagers and are working on it and they will clear that obstacle. The problem is that they are both too selfless so they don’t like to burden others with their feelings. They will grow and become better people :)

Overall, what I’m trying to say is that lovesquare adore one another and if you genuinely believe that Adrien or Marinette have to be punished for not being aware or acting on the other person’s feelings, you’re a piece of shit and I feel sorry for the people around you :)))))

#ml fandom salt #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug and chat noir #lovesquare sugar #this isn't a vocal minority by the way #i have seen too many people on all platforms with the mindset that adrien and ladybug should be punished or suffer consequences for not #either realising marinette's romantic feelings or accepting chat noir's proposals #and it's genuinely so baffling #how can you seriously not see adrien's blatant love and pining for marinette and the huge respect and admiration for her? #he genuinely cares for her but often gets confused by her behaviour towards him #because he was homeschooled and he is socially awkward af #and ladybug? she fucking loves her partner IT WAS OBVIOUS FROM EPISODE ONE #yes she has unintentionally pushed chat noir away and made him feel lonely but that is because the balance between them shifted when she #became guardian and not to mention having to deal with Chat Blanc!! #in reality the people you love or loves you will end up hurting you be it intentionally or unintentionally #but that's because we are all human and we make mistakes #especially when you're young and you're still learning and growing #as i was typing the tags i just realised #it's another form of demiromantic erase if people genuinely think you should be punished for being friends with someone who's in love with #you even though you love them back (whether you know it or not) #you lads are a stupid bunch #anyways i'll be here all day and i need to fuck off lol

[leatherbookmark]

this "silencing spell" was a way for the Lan sect to discipline students. wwx himself has been on the receiving end of this shrewd little thing quite often. it wasn't particularly complicated, but only the Lan clan members knew how to undo it; if one tried to separate their lips by force, they'd either end up bleeding or with a couple days worth of a sore throat. waiting patiently until it wore off and self-reflecting in the process was the only solution.

"sect leader jiang, please calm down", lsz said. "if he doesn't try to forcibly break the spell, it will wear off on its own after half an hour."

presented without comment

#it makes me laugh whenever people suggest the future mme lan could have killed the lan elder because she was evil or for some unimportant #reason. even this 'haha funny' spell of shut the fuck up is a gross invasion on someone's physical autonomy #its already cruel when used on your own CHILD but a fucking stranger?! let alone a child of a stranger?! #not to make a huge thing out of 'nothing' but you know that it could easily be used to kill someone right #people are all Oh Gasp about the whipping/caning but it is Nothing compared to the 'small' cruelty of fusing someone's lips shut #the original text says 'students who made a mistake' or 'committed wrongs' but i didnt include it because i felt it was rather obvious that #you dont 'discipline' without a 'reason' but like. what would this reason even be? this spell has only one effect #it silences. now i have this little headcanon based on absolutely nothing but my own bitter ass that the future mme lan killed a dude #precisely because of this wee little thing. join me in pondering whether she's experienced it during her imprisonment #liveshrimping

[bdoubleowo]

it’s ur blog, I think you should go off on whoever you want! especially if they deserve it. plus you didn’t even go THAT hard… it wasn’t overdone or unnecessary or anything.

thank you! but i should not

PSA: if you're gonna make a post going off on someone. STOP! find one or more friends who are willing to discuss the topic with you. complain to them! is what you're saying a fair take? do they think its reasonable and deserving of a post? in fact, do you even still feel like posting after complaining to your friends, or have you got it out of your system? If you still want to post, what do you hope it accomplish? Will it hurt someone? these are all questions you need to ask before making your post.

it has saved me posting many a dumb post! i did not follow these steps earlier, and i think it was an unwise (though not catastrophic) decision.

If you want to be bitchy, find some friends to bitch with, but also friends who are willing to tell you to "woah rein it in buddy that's a bit far". i trust my friends to talk me outta making a bad post, and that has the benefit of really trusting them when they say something is a good idea to post.

#i will not lie making this post was cleansing. can't explain it. was feeling antsy about the situation and i feel better now #a reminder of my values. of people who support me. idk. an acknowledgement of my faults and also plans to do better? something like that #perhaps preventing someone from making similar mistakes? who knows #side note my blog is a relatively big blog. making callous posts and callouts can be really bad if i'm not careful. #i'm not huuuuge huge but in this community i understand i have a relatively substantial influence #saw a post 2day mentioning my influence on trafficshipping (though i thought it was a little overestimated. #i didn't start people shipping scarian so much as made others feel confident enough to post imo) #anyway back 2 splatoon #og post #ask #anon #anonymous

[whatthefuckisupwiththat]

apparently taylor will never sing never grow up live and that hurts me alot personally

#but as someone who cannot listen to never grow up myself because it hits my deepest nostalgia in the worst way #because it was written with hindsight and regret its i looked back in regret mixed with wanting to go back to childhood #and taylor hated her childhood experience in school so for her to want to go back.... that really speaks to the level of self hatred she #had the time for herself and as someone who made some huge mistakes myself growing up same taylor same #personal #speak now #taylor swift

[eeunwoo]

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#i spent like 3 years getting low-key harassed and bothered by someone #and just kept ignoring most of their asks or posts hoping they were gonna get the hint instead of engaging w them and they never did #and I fell out w some mutuals over a mistake I made and the person in question unfollowed me and although I regret falling out w the mutuals #im so glad that person unfollowed like a huge weight lifted 😭😭😭 #like how do u tell someone ‘stop commenting on every single thing I ever do/post’ lmao #so I’m glad they’re gone 🫣 #mrow.org

[horce-divorce]

Went to the beach shirtless with my family for the first time in my whole life and all my mom had to say about it was, "so if I get a double mastectomy, can I go shirtless, too?" And I said "yeah" but then went on to say you could anyway, I used tape before etc. and she just did this little sarcastic cheery "embrace the patriarchy!!" in this tone absolutely dripping with malice.

it wasn't worth defending myself then and there in particular but even MY GRANDMOTHER (her mom lol) caught this comment and texted my auntie to say "(mom) is being SUCH A BITCH to jimmie!!!!" and then Grammy texted me later to say how happy it made her to see me shirtless bc she could tell how complete it makes me feel. Thank goodness for her and my aunt. I know so many people who only have moms like this with no aunties and grammies to make up for it.

when your mom is such a transphobic bitch that even grandma can pick up on it 😩 lmao

#me #prsnl #my mom spent my whole childhood painting grammy as someone who willfully cant understand & who undermines all my moms choices #but the older i get the more times i find out grammy was defending me when my mom made a huge mistake #apparently the biggest fight they ever got in. where my mom cut her off for YEARS and didnt speak to her #was bc grammy vehemently defended my MH and begged my mom not to rehome my pets as a punishment for being depressed #my mom was so furious about this mere suggestion that she and grammy didnt speak for years #my mom never told me what the fight was about. had to hear it from my auntie THIS YEAR. #i was like 14 when that went down. they didnt speak the whole time i was in high school #bc my grandma rightfully pointed out that if they KEPT taking my only comforts i was GOING to kms!!! #my mom always painted it as this like. 'no one understands my Alternative Parenting Choices' issue

[minthara]

so larian is really not doing the "switch who's talking" thing in bg3 huh

#petra.txt #this is such a huge oversight and it already was bad in dos2 #it's just gonna get worse #i Hope someone makes a mod or smth bc it made me so fucking angry in dos2 already and I don't understand how they can make this mistake twic

[ultramanyaoi]

tbh its very nice and epic 100 to give suho n jukyeong actual time to hang out n reasons theyd care for each other in high school. like its a cute bonding n characterisation moment.

we get explicit confirmation that suho doesn't really care what jugyeong looks like since he tells her matter of factly that he already knows what her face looks like. but also suho is characterised as unlike his appearance as well or otherwise more clumsy and dorky than the rumours people have of him. the kind of atypical picture of teenager created by his lack of knowledge about purikuras (which shdve alr been a thing in japan where suho is from) or aracade games aligns suho further with jugyeong as someone who's unusual on the inside. ofc he also has odd but fitting mannerisms like his insistence on maintaining his pride either ways and being rather blunt about inviting jugyeong out (with it more as a demand than a real invitation) by humanising suho rather than having him be an unattainable perfect boy, it also portrays him in a more sympathetic light. more significance is lent to their relationship by having them be each others probably first real friend since high school (ofc theres no reason suho should mention ever having had friends in the past not that his behaviour would make u assume he had if u didnt alr know the plot) their relationship is portrayed as genuine n in spite of jugyeong's initial caution around suho n the threat of having her secret exposed, a source of relaxation and fun.

the juxtaposition between suho at school who is always stern faced n entirely unexpressive and the suho we see through jugyeong who while still socially awkward clearly has passions in life, reacts visibly and is embarrassed and aware of the image he tries to maintain not only draws further similarities between the two but also further emphasises that jugyeong and suho's relationship

ik suho liking cats is probably meant to just be like omg look at the cute guy hes so cute but the juxtaposition between cold to people suho and fond of animals suho does a good job of emphasising that suho rlly isnt what he seems and rlly opens u up to viewing other characters in a similar light where their appearances arent always true to them and makes u want to think when are their actions reflective of their true selves and why do these differences even exist? do they go with things willingly or are they forced?

anyways having jugyeong choose to talk to suho and be the one to offer him the drink not only lends agency to her ini choosing to be her true self around someone but also characterises her as someone who ultimately wants others to be their true self (at least when shes young) as well. it lays the foundations for who she becomes n her path. also i think it just helps to have her true personality still be boisterous under the growing influence of liek the make up life like... she still values things like horror n just having fun n ultimately shes a teenager who wants to have a good time as one!!!

smth smth people construct images to protect themselves but theres no guarantee it works in the long run. from sujin to seojun to jukyeong to suho, the images they construct of themselves allow them to create idealised images of their own life and receive protection and ability to avoid their troubled lives and pasts but in the long run does it satisfy them? similarly cruelty and rejection by others or of oneself drive people to strengthen their images whereas kindness can free them and allow them to retain control over their mask <- working thesis statements

#lab reads true beauty #im just kinda the type to go daww at kids in general but suho n jugyeong r such very silly little dorks #yaongyi pleaase dont ruin their character arcs Please #also i have to admit i think some readers r just misogynistic im sorry jugyeong i made mistakes too #they either see her just as the girl or someone to project and insert themselves into the story through which does a huge disservice to the #story n prevents them from analysing or just looking at her as she is in the story

[nilisntgreat]

fuck..

#i just wanted to look for one thing in my account #i made a huge mistake #i made my mood even worse.. #I saw it all again #WHY ARE YOU SO.. SO.. there #You didn't want me. I wasn't wanted. I just was trying to make myself smile from what happened earlier. #that's two nights in a row.. i am worried about him so much.. #I wish i was better.. as a whole.. Someone smarter.. someone who isn't me.. #I've hurt and hurt and hurt even if it isn't my intention to do so.. #I deserve to be in pain.. just like i was told.. I want to understand but I am lost on what to do.. #Imma try to find the post that might make it all worth it.. #Vent

[desertdragon]

I hate raiders, mostly the hardcore's bc they're just cunts, but whenever they are in tune with looking at the game from a gameplay perspective (not just looking at logs), everything they have to report is shit I can feel even as a casual though I can't explain it as in depth as they can; and I have to agree it feels like the devs have forgotten how to make and balance a game in the last 3 years, as much as most players themselves suck at understanding and playing the fucking game (and how poor the game's learning tools and mentors are as well) since it's seen as a vehicle for story cutscenes or mashing buttons

If the gameplay keeps going dumber across the board that would take away the last legitimate reason I have to play it and surprisingly I don't like the thought of that conversation with myself

#my attitude is like half a toe in the raider mindset and half the toe in casual i can't commit to either bc i dont like either enough #but if you have a brain and have been playing as long as i have or longer its so obv we are downhill rn #Stormblood was the last time the entire game as a game felt engaging for a majority of time #ive been kinda lucky as a DRG main bc they haven't butchered it as much as others but idk how long that will last every patch #and the healing situation the last 3 years is fucking ground zero Chernobyl elephant's foot #anyone who had / has followed me long enough knew / knows i already feel this game sucks but if you make the Game part worse #then it'll Fucking Suck in a way where i don't think i could say I Hate It But I Like It anymore #it feels weird being someone who came in when Stormblood was Brand New bc i was there for all of it when the story sucked not the gameplay #then being here since is like watching the story have a seizure and the gameplay crashes into a fucking cliff outside of a few #DRGs are workhorses so if we go down too w these rework trends idk man... we're traditionally the burst #concerning to me that other classes are also revolving around bursts now plus shittier braindead buttons #homogenization sucks #i will say though im glad the frequency of LOLDRG jokes has gone down these few years bc it was never funny #its been used way too much to target and harass every DRG or if you made even one mistake- got called a lot of slurs & things bc of it #one last thing you may say There's More Than Fighting Here Wtf Are You Bitching About- #the main function of the game IS fighting it has ALWAYS been fighting its the main interface by which you play its why DF & MSQ are tied #combat is integrated into quests into dungeons into raiding into socializing into the MSQ etc whatever isn't fighting is subordinate #so yes if the combat system gets worse then that's a huge chunk of the game now shit- its not a visual novel go play a VN if you want that #now if you say the only reason i still play is bc i wanna eat Yugiri out then- *Squidward running meme*