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tvgirlcore · 2 months

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how would adam in eden treat his first wife reader

Was he an asshole before eve and lilith left him?

HOOOOLY CRAP GUYS. i went down the BIGGEST rabbit hole for this (perks of being sick and having free time)… first request!!!! (AND FEEL FREE TO LEAVE MORE :)) tysm!!! and with all the background research, i cooked !!! (proofread + i tried my best to make this accurate)

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how would adam in eden treat his first wife reader?

was he an asshole before eve and lilith left him?

(no warnings, no pronouns used, but suggested you are his wife ^_^)

— in my opinion, lucifer pretty much messed with his whole love life. i think he would be much more chill than he is now. but to try and match his character, he will be a little egoistic.

you were adam’s first wife, and to him, you meant a lot.

seriously, being the first man on earth he grew to be a bit egotistical. but, you helped tone that down from him.

you knew he thought higher of himself, but you tried to remind him that humans should all be equal.

life was wonderful in eden. after spending time in eden with him, you both realized you were falling deeply in love with each other.

“hey, i think i’m in love with you.”

adam says with a grin, and you can’t help but reply,

“me too.”

and your relationship bloomed from there. he thought you were the most wonderful woman he would ever meet.

and as a few years passed, you became adam’s wife.

he could hardly believe it, considering how dumb he was. you were like a goddess to him. beautiful in every way, even if you didn’t think so. he would always tell you how important you are to him.

you spent days upon days with him, and you would plan various things to do.

one of your favorite activities was spending a day in the warm sun, prancing in meadows and playing in creeks.

adam just adored you, sometimes he got a little embarrassed to participate because of his somewhat ‘manly’ ego, but if you asked him to do anything, no questions, he’d do it right away.

“babe, there’s a bunch of flowers in your hair.”

he says, gently leaning forward to pick some of the succulents out of your hair. you two sat in the meadow, as adam hummed while doing so.

“what happens when we die?”

you say curiously, and adam looks at you wide eyed.

“oh, sweetness, don’t worry ‘bout that, ‘kay?”

you silently nodded, curling close to him. the sun was starting to set.

you two shifted on your backs to look at the stars, and he listened intently as you mumbled about the different constellations.

and soon, he knew when your speech got slower, and your hands stopped pointing up at the sky, you had fallen to slumber. and he follows quickly.

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and you remained close, in love for years to come.

when it came time for death, you both succumbed.

when you made it to heaven, you were there together.

he was so happy, happy he is able to spend the rest of eternity with you.

extra / if he left you for eve + lillith (angstyyy kinda?)

when you and adam got married, you knew this wouldn’t last forever. you love him, so so much, but you knew he didn’t love you fully.

and that’s just who he was, perhaps. he was always eyeing other women, thinking he was superior to you, and seemed to become a bit short tempered around you.

and that’s when you couldn’t take it anymore. you confronted him, tears in your eyes.

and he left.

left you for eve, left her for lillith.

you knew there was no end to it, but when you became an angel, you saw just how fucked up he was.

he was even worse now, somehow, and you knew it was all his wives fault.

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research/long blabber about adam’s backstory i looked up to understand him further even after rewatching hazbin 4 times… adam’s first wife lilith married lucifer,, lilith and adam fought (as of religious text) demons =sinners and freedom with a life in heaven =exterminations lilith = left and kinda evil? adam =first man earliest of man and kinda worst of man? (according to lol more religious text blah blah blah) uprise because lilliths singing which adam took advantage of? alastor’s master = lillith..(theory i think) OH GOD IM SO CONFUSED anyways. lilith hates subservience (willingness to obey others unquestionably) that’s why she left adam?? adam =toxic masculinity. eve left to eat the apple from lucifer ADAMS EX-wife set lillith up? or what. first human. after his wife’s? he’s EXTRENELY cocky and arrogant in charge of annual extermination of sinners (because of overpopulation) is mean because he thinks it’s hilarious, who’s gonna stop him? adam thinks no one can change, and thinks heaven and hell is a great system. basically abuses his power.. lucifer had a baby with adam’s ex-wife and is indirectly responsible for adam losing out on paradise. adam didn’t eat the fordbifden fruit which is why he acts the way he does? god complex cuz he’s firsy man. lillith was the first woman in hazbin, lilith left because adam thought higher of himself. EVE ATE THE FRUIT of knowledge! i tried to use my brain to the max to make this so I HOPE YOU ENJOYED!!!

#adam x reader #hazbin hotel adam x reader #hazbin adam x reader #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel fanfiction #adam hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel #fanfiction #tvgirlcore #hazbin hotel x you #hazbin hotel x y/n #hazbin hotel x oc

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ryuichirou · 4 months

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It’s been a while! Being productive at the end of the year is truly one of the most difficult things in the world… But here are some replies~

simplydlightfuldestiny asked:

Whenever I look at the shroud brothers or specifically Idia, I kept thinking: I wonder if he would be hooked of angelique layer?

It's an old series made by CLAMP (card captor sakura, tsubasa chronicles, etc..)

But basically it's a battle of figurines that's linked to your mind and teamwork. I think he may have gotten inspired by it when he first made ortho.

You know, I also wonder what kind of anime Idia used to like as a kid and which ones he likes now. He seems to enjoy the “cute girls doing random things” genre, but he’s also definitely a man of culture that has a lot of favourite titles of all kinds of genre. He definitely would like something from CLAMP.

I haven’t seen Angelique Layer, but BATTLE OF FIGURINES!! That’s fun.

Maybe he did get inspired by it to some degree (he absolutely got inspired by anime, let’s be honest), but I can also imagine Idia realising the similarities later, maybe when he rewatches it together with Ortho.

Anonymous asked:

What would be one example of Azul and Idia being affectionate with one another

What are you talking about, Anon? They're always affectionate.... 🥹

But I’ll answer your question properly as well!

It’s very difficult to catch these two being affectionate with one another due to their condition (“being allergic to being emotionally open and vulnerable”), these instances are quite rare, but also completely depend on Azul’s mood. Idia just prefers not to do anything; the most thing you’d get from him is that sometimes he won’t tease Azul for being affectionate. Sometimes he might even kiss him back or push his cheek against Azul’s in a surprisingly cute way. But for that to work they need to be alone and frankly to shut the fuck up. And once again, Azul needs not to feel bitchy and pissy that day.

But also, these two are the most passionate for each other when they do something together and it works. Especially Azul. If something that he and Idia have been working on works exactly how they’d planned it, he’ll get so overjoyed that he’ll hug and kiss Idia, scaring the shit out of him…

Anonymous asked:

Do you think if Jamil died then Kalim would turn out like Prince Soma in Black Butler? Go from happy to angry-despair?

I honestly believe that Kalim would overblot if something happened to Jamil. I say it every time we’re getting asked about Kalim’s possible overblot (which I find almost impossible, unless something happens to Jamil lol).

But if he is defeated and calmed down, it’d definitely affect his disposition for quite some time. A lot of it also depends on just how Jamil died in this scenario… But even if there is a culprit, I feel like Kalim would be more sad than angry.

Which doesn’t mean that he won’t brutally punish the culprit (which really goes against his morals, so it’d be extra painful), and also doesn’t mean that his mental state won’t progressively get worse and worse. Maybe he’ll become apathetic, maybe he’ll become even more self-indulgent, but deep inside he’ll mourn Jamil forever.

Anonymous asked:

Any thoughts on Ruggie x Idia?

“Oh Ruggie deserved it” was my first thought lol please give him all the S.T.Y.X. money. Azul would have to fight the hyena boy yet again!!

But in all honesty, that vignette where Ruggie saw Idia stalking Jack during the PE class and didn’t tell on him was quite nice. Even though it was for Ruggie’s own benefit, I like how he prefers to build connections instead of immediately trying to blackmail Idia for some perks.

+ I really like the fact that Ruggie seemed to be aware that Idia Shroud is _that_ Shroud, while the rest of the cast seemingly either didn’t think much about Idia at all or believed that he just happens to have the same last name as that rich and powerful family. It just shows who really pays attention lol

In general, even though they really don’t have all that much in common, at the same time both of them have this pragmatic side and “mind your own business” side, so I think they could get along or at least have interesting interactions. One thing that they definitely would have a conflict about is the fact that Idia clutters his place with merch and stuff, and Ruggie absolutely wouldn’t understand the idea of collecting useless items (we’ve seen this conflict during their Glorious Masquerade interactions)… So there is a lot of “food” for this ship if you think about it.

So yeah, we’re not deeply into them, but we definitely aren’t opposed to them as a ship.

#replies #about characters #azuide #kalijami

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linusbenjamin · 10 months

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Hi hello how are you coping after finishing lost? Please feel free to come scream at me about it

i'm trying so hard to cope lol thanks. but the real question is, there are people who watched this show years ago, how are they coping years later??? i really need to rewatch it a few times to understand better but overall i've never seen anything like this, well executed plot, the character developments, the easter eggs, such a mystery that you'll never be able to solve even after years... the first thing i did was to open lostpedia fandom and read all of trivia and facts and errors and stuff, and then i read all of your tags on my old lost gifsets 😭 i've been waiting this moment for 4 months 😭 and sometimes i open lost's soundtrack and look at my past gifsets and start crying as if i don't have enough reasons to cry 😂 the ending was a mystery like the series itself. this finale definitely needed a reunion, although it seemed to me a little bit forced, but this was the most logical ending they could come up with, so i'm not complaining. after the finale i've learned there was an extra episode which includes benjamin and hurley and it was a big relief for me! bc my fav character is benjamin linus, and i thought his ending was really sad, it's like i shouldn't pity him bc he's the worst person ever but this is why i love lost, because benjamin still makes you cry in the end even though he killed hundreds of people in cold blood :') after watching it, i thought maybe it could've been the finale instead bc it's kinda more positive... or maybe a spin-off? THAT WOULD BE SO GREAT, i'm pretty sure everyone thought about the possibility of a spinoff, that would've been really great because it has the potential *sigh*... i'm gonna keep making gifsets and explain my thoughts as i go along, there are too many characters and events, so i can't focus on every one of them at once. when i finished better call saul, i needed to distract myself so i started lost and now i started person of interest to distract myself from lost 😂 (mostly because of michael emerson my beloved <3) so i wish i could erase lost from my memory so i can experience it again...

#this is just %1 of my thoughts about lost rn #what a show #lost #lovely people #asked

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frosted-plasma · 5 days

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what’s your thoughts on the Futurama revival

Anon I'm so sorry you're going to be victim to the longest post you will ever see. I hate it I hate it I hate it

HUGE /neg rant incoming (this show is my special interest and has been for YEARS. This will all be rambling)

THEY FUCKING COMPLETELY DISREGARDED "MEANWHILE." It directly contradicts it. "I offered to reset time to the moment before time stopped!" Okay, but you didn't though. The entire tragedy of the ending was that they'd be doomed to relive their lives from the moment they met (s1 e1) on loop. "Want to go around again?" Okay so that line doesn't make sense anymore!!! I had theories upon theories before the season came out and I was beyond disappointed. This show has shown it can do deep thought-out themes, I was fully hoping for them to show them reliving the past again, maybe its their 1,000th time reliving it, maybe Fry or Leela notices for once that something is familiar about it. Hell maybe there's a 1 in a million chance that they DON'T break the button! Free will and all, maybe things aren't 100% the same each run and they get lucky once. This also could have been used to recap old seasons for people who didn't rewatch them

They don't know how much time has passed?? I understand that was an excuse to make it the year 3023, but why would you do that? What's the point??

Things such as the Scary Door reboot don't make sense, not to mention the overuse of "haha it's a reboot!! Get it?? It's a reboot!! We got cancelled!!!" jokes but I'll get to that later. Timeline things just don't make sense anymore because of the time freeze. It's an awful awful awful writing choice. They unfroze time right where it paused, canonically, they show them unfreezing exactly there, it makes zero sense. How is there new technology and new TV shows when no time has passed. I'm ignoring that it's "10 years later" because it isn't, you can't just say that without showing it, it literally isn't

Even the smaller jokes feel very dragged out? Like Bender laughing at Fry setting a goal in episode one. He laughs and Leela smacks him, his head spins around and it's funny, then his body does an extra spin for no reason other than to emphasize that it's a joke? I guess? And then not even a minute later she slaps his hand again and it dramatically flies back and hits Zoidberg. Do you get what I'm saying? It's just too much focus on every single bit

I do like the updated intro! The added details to the city in the background is super super cool!! I love the thought they put into it (Bender hanging out of the ship on the magnet is a bit much considering all of the other references they included, but I'll let it slide. Just doesn't feel necessary to me in the intro)

The animation is rigged now:/ it's bound to happen nowadays, it just feels sad to look at for me (in general, not just with this show) the characters (ESPECIALLY Fry) feel very off model sometimes:(

Fry's hardly in the first episode. Odd writing choice considering he's the main character

Oh my GOD. The Hulu/reboot references. It's EXHAUSTING to watch. The amount of 2023 references they crammed into this season is physically painful, they drag them out for SO LONG

(in the first ep) the non-binary robots joke was funny and the scenes with Calculon and the Robot Devil were the only scenes that felt like old Futurama! Their voice acting was great and it was funny! The rest of the voice acting feels very lackluster and most of the other jokes just didn't get me

Calculon and the Robot Devil were the funniest characters, that's how dumbed down they made Bender, he's not my favorite that season

The plots are just. Bad. I hate to say it I really do. Shut up with the reboot jokes, the covid19 jokes, the only decent one was the bit mining episode because it actually used the idea as a real jumping off point and that episode still wasn't revolutionary. The other half of the episodes are pure callbacks. The one with Amy and Kifs kids was cute because it had a reason to exist! It wasn't a very funny episode but it was cute!! The other ones like the worm parasites in nibblers litter box (OR GOD FORBID THE ONE WHERE THE TIME MACHINE SHOWS UP OUT OF NOWHERE AGAIN WITH NO DRIVER??) make me MAD with how lazy of an excuse they are to cram in a reference without matching the rest of the lore

I'm fully assuming the reboot came from a place of love from the writers and the VAs but personally I didn't think the new season was very funny nor did it add anything new to the series, and it felt very very bland and dumbed down and I didn't even pay attention to the last few episodes because of it (that is saying something coming from me)

I rewatched the first episode for this so this is mainly talking about that one. Tell me if you want me to talk about the others I have so many thoughts this is me summarizing like all hell I hate the plots so much and this is my all time favorite show I'm still going to watch the next season and I still have high hopes for it

#chris answers #chris posts #futurama #i want to remain excited so so so bad but i have zero hopes anymore that this could ever #do any kind of plot like the old seasons #even the finale was disappointing #but tbf i dont remember it well because it made me dissociate so bad #i understand the point they were trying to make. i guess. but it seemed. *too* literal #and it made me panic because of it #like the sci-fi fun isnt there anymore #if theyre talking about hulu then its about fulu if their talking about simulations theyre gonna make it a simulation #wheres the creativity?#do u get what I'm saying??

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onyxisnotuniqueenough · 1 year

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About Karen Page

so. i know this weird little argument should've ended long ago. but i'm in the process of rewatching the defenders saga and i'm actually in the middle of s2 of Daredevil....AND YES I WANNA WRITE A WHOLE TUMBLR POST ABOUT KAREN OK

but first, i wanted to give a little extra info or context or whatever i'm supposed to call it

here are the links to the posts relevant here

0 (me)

1 (me)

2 (me)

3 (nyxxhecate)

4 (nyxxhecate)

5 (nyxxhecate)

also the comments count too. look at whatever nyxxhecate commented on these posts

I unblocked nyxxhecate since i first blocked them, out of honest curiosity. right before i'm writing this actually.

I just wanted to see if they've commented anything else since then or if they made posts on their own about their opinions on Daredevil. Three of the links above are their posts, and idk if tumblr notifies for that but I still don't want to @ them.

I'm not interested in debating with them or starting another argument, and couldn't care less of they see this or not. I am not writing to this person like i was in my other posts, nor am i answering to their comments or whatever points they brought up in their reblogs.

there is ONE thing they said that rang with me though :

"knock your fucking self off that pedestal you're trying to put yourself in. Imagine the level of delusion one must have to think they're intelligent because, *checks notes* they typed in word salad to defend why they like two atrocious TV characters LMAO. You're on Tumblr not the fucking Congress, get a grip IJBOL"

I'm gonna be honest here - I DO enjoy typing word salad. I enjoy writing. I enjoy writing essays. I enjoy trying to use exact words to say what i want to say.

English is my second language, technically, yes, but I have been speaking it for more then ten years, and i'm doing my best to improve because i'm hoping that i'll get to work in english some day. My accent isn't perfect but I'm confident in my spelling and writing and everything.

I've been raised in french, I've done primary, middle and high school in french, and my uni is also french-speaking. I write everything in french all of the time. But since i've taught myself to think in english first sometimes, and none of my irl friends or family like Daredevil or Breaking Bad or anything i like in general - I don't get many chances to argue irl.

So yes, I use Tumblr as an outlet to type as much as I want, even if that means talking to a wall, but at least i get to talk about (IN LENGTH) things i love - and open some kind of discussion (although i'm not blind, i know that rarely anyone replies or anything, but that will hopefully come in time)

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Now that that's said - let's get to the actual main course :

Karen Page !

As I've said in the beginning i am in the middle of s2 of DD, just finished EP6 : Regrets Only to be precise. I've already got a few things to say.

but first : I'll only talk about her in S1 and S2 and Defenders - because believe it or not, as much as I love Daredevil I AM SORRY but I HAVE NOT YET WATCHED SEASON 3. i miraculously haven't been spoiled about much, all I know is that Matt wakes up in church after his "death", boxes there, there's some kind of detective that seems important and he fights with Fisk again in his black outfit. THAT'S ALL I KNOW AND LET'S KEEP IT THAT WAY.

So.

what do i, Onyx LastName, think of Karen's character.

On my first watch, I didn't like her at all.

Not because she was a "hypocrite"or whatever everyone else is spewing but because I had this huge crush on Matt and was jealous of her.

I'll admit, that's all that my judgement was based on. I thought I didn't like her chemistry with Matt, the way that it made the Nelson-Murdock-Page trio awkward, and how it left Foggy on the sidelines. I like him. I related to him. He was suffering of Sidekick syndrome, with Matt getting powers, getting to be the hero, getting all the ladies, etc etc. I spent my whole life and I'm still actually spending it feeling like I have Sidekick Syndrome myself. If you also feel like you got that you'll know what I mean.

"So Foggy has a special place in your heart. Boohoo. what does that have to do with anything?" You've read this far and you're JUST NOW running out of patience??

Since that initial watch, and after watching countless videos, reading countless fanfics, and honestly my taste just having changed - my perspective of Matt shifted, and so has my opinion on Karen.

I don't think i'm blinded by my attration to Matt anymore, even if he still holds a special place in my heart.

But unfortunately, I still have some issues with Karen's character.

I don't think I've ever really talked about it on here, except maybe with a friend or two in dms, but it's true that I don't really like her. Or how was she was written. This post is not structured or outlined, it's a stream of consciousness...so let's hope i get the answer to that by the end of it.

Now i'm nowhere near agreeing with ANY of what nyxxhecate said, but knowing I wanted to have a definitive opinion of her and make a post about it maybe, I've been looking at her closely during my rewatch - and there are some things I've missed.

So, first, to correct my previous post,

Why is Karen attracted to Matt in the first place?

I made my post about the Foggy and Karen thing before rewatching and refreshing my memory of the ACTUAL EVENTS. I just wrote that in passing after seeing a reaction of that "date" at Mrs. Cardenas.

Here is an updated take :

I think Karen fell for Matt when she first lied to him about keeping the Union Allied file.

You just lived through an intense traumatic experience. You find yourself with a bloody knife in your hand next to the lifeless body of someone you knew and found really nice. Someone tries to hang you in your prison cell at night to make it look like you killed yourself, and no one believes you.

until Nelson and Murdock come in. You're not sure about their intentions at first but they seem kind and most importantly they believe you and are willing to defend you. They're giving you a chance. Not good samaritans but literal guardian angels.

While Foggy is hesitant at first, Matt "I believe you Miss Page"s you right off the bat. (everything's a verb if you squint hard enough)

Matt invites you to his place and assures he'll protect you.

Matt opens up about his blindness and is willing to be vulnerable in front of you.

Matt gives up his silk-sheeted bed to make sure you're comfortable.

All of that when you're vulnerable and Matt is tall and handsome and has this charming smile and ugh. How not to fall for him ? I mean you're wearing his shirt and the beautiful pink lighting in his living room is making everything all romantic. Also if you've noticed the billboard outside his window is for "Xining Airways", company that uses CHERRY BLOSSOM imagery in their advertisement. COME ON.

But then you get to talking about the case again - I mean the reason you're here in the first place - and he asks you an important question.

Did you keep the file?

You lie and say you didn't, feeling your heart beating faster. You're not even sure that sounded convincing at all. And you see the cogs turning in his head, and even if he let you off the hook, you know deep down he didn't really believe it. May seem like me extrapolating here but it IS obvious that he doesn't believe her. But as long as he's not pushing further, that doesn't change much for Karen anyway.

I think that his expression reads that he's seeing right through her.

He believed her when no one else would the first time - but seemingly for no reason.

Matt just KNEW you didn't do it. He saw right through you. You almost feel like he knows what you're thinking.

And again, that kind of connection that you're feeling, in an especially emotionally vulnerable state - plants the seed for love. EASILY.

Any of their awkward flirting before they started dating i am willing to close an eye on.

AFTER THAT? that's just cruel to Foggy and unprofessional and weird in general. Why the HELL are you holding hands in front of whatever DA or cop you just talked to to walk in Frank's hospital room?

Why are you kissing in front of Foggy???

I can understand the thing at Josie's but when you're in the middle of dealing with an extremely important case and Elektra's driver shows up out of nowhere and you're abandoning your partner in a situation that you created and ugh. ew. It's all so weird.

I don't like Karen and Matt dating any more than I did on the first watch but I don't see it through jealousy-tinted glasses and more for what it actually is. misplaced.

Season 2 is the least favorite Daredevil season of anyone I've ever met or talked to and I completely agree that the structure is strange, even if I get what they wanted to do with juxtaposing

Daredevil/Elektra/Hand stuff

and

Matt/Karen/Punisher stuff.

This juxtaposition, while I kinda get the vision, just isn't working. The Hand is the worst plot I have ever seen in my life, and that applies to Defenders too, so that's one reason, but the fact that they tried to mix everything together at once just felt weird pacing wise - and they lost characterization on Matt, Foggy and Elektra's part. All three and their relationships with each other were written weird.

...

Let's get back on track.

Season 2, Karen spends her time investigating and defending Frank.

And that is what she's most criticized for : "protecting and defending frank's actions" and "condemning Matt's lying when she's lying herself."

Frank Castle is a difficult subject.

He is the subject of many debates, wether in the fandom or in the actual show. Is he a hero? Are his murders justifiable? Are Matt and Frank two sides of the same coin? What message is he sending to the audience? How should he be interpreted by his audience? Is Frank redeemable? Is he a glorification or a fetishization of everything that's wrong with the USA? and so on so forth bla bla bla

What matters HERE is what KAREN thinks of him.

Karen is a very determined and ambitious journalist, to say the least. She'd do anything to get to the truth. These qualities that seem very noble at first are also her main flaws. By putting the story first, she throws caution the wind and that very recklessness of hers is what kills Ben Urich, and what compels her to defend Frank so adamantly.

But there's a facet of her personality that I haven't seen being delved into or explained anywhere - her sometimes misplaced but very much there Savior complex, or White Knight syndrome.

She empathized and honestly liked Mrs. Cardenas (a cute old little guatemalan christian lady, who had no one). She wanted to help her. She felt that she was treated unfairly, that all the tenants were treated unfairly, and that was what prompted her to want to take down Fisk. Fisk was using, manipulating and stealing blind people who were already unfortunate. Fisk is lying to the public and hiding his true criminal activities. Savior Complex is activated, now Karen has to find a way to bring him down, even if that means putting her nose where it doesn't belong and provoking the death of Ben Urich.

Now let's look at the situation in S2.

She empathizes with Frank Castle (a man who's entire family got killed and now has no one). He has some kind of moral code that seems noble to her. She feels that he's being treated unfairly, that no one is taking his dead family into account, or what he's already done as a soldier. Frank is unapologetically admitting and sticking by his actions and his code. He doesn't want to hurt anyone that doesn't deserve, in his eyes, to die. Reyes is not upholding her side of the wit-pro deal (She used Grotto as bait, someone Karen already empathized with). Reyes was purposefully trying to get Frank the death penalty for her own gain (she had her eye on the mayor's office) and is hiding a shady past. Savior Complex is activated, now Karen has to find a way to prove that Frank's not all bad and to expose Reyes, even if that means putting her nose where it doesn't belong and overstepping boundaries when she's not a lawyer, and frankly doesn't deserve to get Ben's desk or his job.

When you finally pin down her behavioral pattern and why she acts how she acts, it's easier to understand.

So yes, I understand Karen. (In my opinion at least.)

What makes her who she is is that savior complex of hers, that MORAL code of her own. How she sees herself and what she thinks is her PURPOSE is how she justifies her mistakes, or the risks she takes, to herself. As means to an end.

She doesn't seem to doubt herself or question herself enough to see that her behavior, even if her goal is noble, is not always right.

Her believing that she acts as a savior to others is precisely what makes her a little self-centered.

And, because Matt has this problem too sometimes, she is an interesting character to compare to him.

But now, see, as i've spend a lot of time writing this, my own cogs are turning. I think I've identified what my problem is with Karen.

It's how she's framed. by the writers. by the show.

We see Matt's guilt but don't see hers.

We see his internal turmoil but not hers.

We see him doubt himself all the time and seek for answers in his faith or in people but not her.

If we got to see Karen doubt herself more, show more of her guilt over her killing Wesley, her causing the death of Urich, that would make for a much more likeable and relateable character.

When she argues with Matt or something, what she says makes it seems "hypocritical" of her not to hold herself to the same moral standards than she does others.

But I don't think seeing the flaws in others means you don't see your own. Again, if we had seen Karen questioning and doubting herself, and feeling guilty for what she's done (and not just crying or having ONE nightmare about it. Her trauma should have been more explored in general. from the beginning.) then we'd see that she is self-aware and recognizes her own mistakes and her continuing to feed into her savior complex is her way of finding closure. or trying to save herself from being completely consumed by her own guilt.

So yes. I don't like Karen, not because I don't like her, but be..cause...I wish... we'd seen more of her? or at least framed her differently?

I didn't think I'd reach that conclusion. I thought I'd actually find a real reason not to like HER.

But that's maïeutique for you i guess. or to put it differently, rubber-ducking, right? Isn't that programming lingo?

Also maybe i'm not completely over how Matt and Karen third-wheeled Foggy. or how Matt doesn't really fit with any of his on-screen love interests and how I wish they hadn't dated. but that's a story for another day.

Thank you for reading this far, if you're still here! Tell me your thoughts and opinions on Karen or my own way of explaining it :)

#daredevil #karen page #matt murdock #foggy nelson #netflix daredevil #marvel netflix

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ridingtedlassosjetskimustache · 1 year

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I've noticed on rewatch that when Roy grabs Jamie's arm to stop him running off, Jamie's grin instantly drops and he only starts up again when Roy elaborates on wanting to stop for a minute. I don't think Jamie is scared of Roy, or worried he will hurt him, but I wouldn't be surprised if in that split second, his brain forgot and was suddenly back to being in Amsterdam with his dad, who we know would absolutely have grabbed his arm to cause him pain.

You’re right, Anon! He does! I apologize for my ramblings, but I had a lot of thoughts on Jamie!!

I would say Jamie definitely has ptsd from the abuse of his father and the experiences he has put him through. As you pointed out he does have a reaction to Roy’s touch, and Roy seems to bring out a certain side of him that causes reactions. We’ve seen this since the beginning of the show. They have always butted heads (sometimes literally) but as they’ve both grown, we’ve seen more vulnerable sides of Jamie that come out around Roy, especially now in this episode. The times that Jamie has been slightly afraid of Roy and what he’d do have been played usually for laughs, and part of that comes with the ambiguity of where Roy and Jamie stand and whether Jamie actually believes Roy would harm him. I think Jamie has come to realize though that, for the most part, Roy is all bark and no bite with him and that he is not like his father.

I think it’s also interesting to note the way Jaimie responds to other people who mirror the treatment of his father. In 1x06 Two Aces, his reaction to Ted yelling at him about practice is to just shut down and take it. This scene is very reminiscent of where we see him at the end of season 1 where his dad is yelling at him for making the extra pass. We see here how he just shuts down and takes it there too and it’s heartbreaking, seeing this man who was so ready to get into a fight with Roy over stupid things, not even stand up and fight for himself to his dad. The key differences between these two interactions (Ted vs James Tarrt Sr) though is that after Ted’s interaction, it leads to him doing better and actually becoming a contributing member of the team. This is the Jamie that makes the extra pass, that works with his teammates and sings with them surrounded by the curse fire. It’s interesting to see that he doesn’t lose what Ted and the team have taught him either. For all his bravado and misplaced anger towards Ted, he still values what he’s been taught, because he can recognize it has made him better. After his interaction with James Tarrt Sr - it leads him down a self-destructive spiral where we see him taking actions that hurt himself more than anyone else to get back at his dad. Instead of hurting other people, he hurts himself and his reputation, and that’s heartbreaking.

#thanks for the ask!!#ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #jason sudeikis #jamie tartt #phil dunster #roy kent #brett goldstein

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Live(ish)-blogging my favorite parts, quotes, and questions from my rewatch of Good Omens 2.

Chapter 2 - The Clue (and miniepisode)

Random thoughts:

- Wonder how often God and Satan get together to bicker and bet like they did with Job?

- They talk a lot about Job’s goats, but at the end the archangels give him extra sheep, wonder it was supposed to be goats?

- Love Gabriel’s purple eyes

- Jim can read awfully well for someone who doesn’t know the alphabet.

- Pull it together Maggie. You’re a wreck.

- Aziraphale’s vest buttons are so worn out in this episode.

- Crowley is down with anything, I love it. Oh, mortals falling in love? I saw a film on that once. Should I do a rainstorm?

- Really underutilized Jim’s God-voice trance thing. No explanation for it and it doesn’t really lead to anything meaningful. Another thing that could have been a great plot point.

- Ennon and Keziah are soooooo arrogant. Jemimah is an absolute gem xD

- Wow the angels are so out of touch. Like, they haven’t seen a single birth since Eve? No one looks down occasionally?

- OUR car? No Aziraphale, it is NOT our car.

Best Quotes:

“So am I doing a rainstorm?” (My favorite line the in the whole season)

“No, thank you? You see, I have a permit.”

“Twice the children” “twice the ... WHAT”

“But no one would ever —! Jolly good, thank you Jim”

“So you do understand I’m threatening you?”

“You know, sometimes people call me Gabriel”

“Was Eve a baby?” “Was she?” “No, they can arrive at any size.”

Linger questions:

- Why don’t the angels recognize Crowley in the Job situation?

#good omens spoilers #good omens 2 #good omens #crowly x aziraphale #aziraphale #crowley

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gayofthefae · 1 year

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Rewatching season 3 and remembering that the fight was never about Will not liking girls. Or even not playing games or staying exactly as they were forever. It started with a mention of Dustin, after all. And it’d been two years since we even saw them play DnD (which adds significance to it in season 4 but that’s besides the point). It was never about “did you think we’d stay in my basement playing games forever and not spend less time together when we got girlfriends”. It was never about “we can’t be best friends as if we’re life partners forever”.

It was “Did you really think we would all be friends forever?” That’s what hit. That’s what I felt rewatching and remembering how that seen actually felt to watch again - especially in context. To Will, Mike wasn’t saying “I need to prioritize my girlfriend sometimes too”. He was saying “this - us; all of us - was only ever going to be temporary. I knew that. Everybody but you knew that.”

It hit extra hard because of the girls line. And in hit extra hard because it was Mike. But what it was really all about was Will feeling betrayed by the idea that everybody but him thought knew that their friend group would eventually grew apart. And it’s like they left him out of the loop. And then were surprised when it hurt.

And along with that, it was like Mike saying “This was inevitable. And now it’s here.” Even if he had worried ever before, this was some confirmation - like “this isn’t just a fight or a rough patch. This is the inevitable end of our relationship.”

They made up, but still - it’s hard to recover from that. It ALSO adds weight to Will’s line at the end of the season: “What if you wanna join another party?” “Never.” He’s clarifying with Mike. This isn’t gonna end if he has any say. And Mike smiles wide. And that tells him that Mike doesn’t want it too either - or maybe that he certainly not ready to yet.

But then - again, from Will’s perspective - Mike didn’t call. And they may have sent him back into doubt: “Maybe he did mean that he weren’t at that point yet but he still believes that it’ll come. He still believes that he wants too keep me now but that there isn’t any future for us.” And so he tried when Mike visited. He was excited to see him and prove himself wrong like last time when Mike had smiled. But Mike was weird. And didn’t talk to him. And maybe that smile had just been the courtesy of a nice goodbye - not just to Lenora but their friendship. Maybe what Mike meant all along was that he loved their friendship but he was just gonna run with it and if anything came up (between them, not like monsters), he wasn’t gonna work for it. And their fight about how he didn’t keep in touch just confirmed more of that with his avoidance and shifting of blame.

But then Mike apologized. And Will even tried to take the blame - maybe because he still thought too much work and Mike would bail. But Mike didn’t take it. He took responsibility and he explained himself. He said I felt like I lost you as in I don’t want to lose you. period. And even just in apologizing like that made it clear that he was willing to put in that work. This is also why he’s speaking so casually and not looking up until the point that Mike starts saying “hey, no, I’m putting in the work to ensure that our relationship does have a future and I’m not okay with you just stalling an end.”

So now Will is more relaxed, more trusting. Before, the painting might have been an outlet for him missing Will and maybe even an offering for their friendship again - get something talk about, remind him of the good ol’ days of D&D, just stall that inevitable end a little more. But after that conversation, it was just a gift. Before it served a purpose, but what it became was just an expression of love. Which adds even more to the speech he gave - because he didn’t mean to originally give it but now that’s all the painting was for. At it means even more - hurts even more - that he gave that up. He had that security now. That’s what he couldn’t afford to lose. But he can afford to hide his love.

Even in the van scene, he says “hey, what if we had this silly, crazy future of games and riches. And it’s an unrealistic fantasy - but the riches are the unrealistic part. Not the future, right?” And when Mike said “yeah” absentmindedly, Will still felt secure enough to know not to assume that it was about that idea and instead turn to “what’s wrong - because that’s the only reason you would have responded so apathetically”.

tldr: Will and Mike’s fight in season 3 is about Will hearing Mike say that there is an inevitable end to their friendship and this is it. Their makeup comforts Will but may feel just like stalling that inevitable end when combined with Mike not calling after the make up. Then he’s excited because he wants to prove himself wrong and he makes the painting as a conversation starter or a rekindling as well as just an expression of missing him but seeing Mike again and their fight just worsens those fears - especially because he feels like if they fight again, Mike will just dart at the first sign of having to work for the relationship if he feels like it’s “run its course”. But then Mike apologizes and takes responsibility which makes Will feel secure enough to take the painting, now just as an expression of his (nonspecific) love. He mentions their future again in the van, now with enough security to check in with Mike when he’s apathetic rather than assume it’s a reaction to what he said, and he gifts the painting is El’s name because he feels like now that he’s gained the security he wanted from it, it’s just the same as hiding his love the same way he did before.

#sorry my tldr's are always ALSO long #will byers analysis #van scene #airport scene #will byers sexuality analysis

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thank you for the tag @itsworthitallthistime ❤️ kisses to you for keeping me entertained.

8(-1)shows to get to know me through:

Breaking Bad: what can i say im a basic bitch and this show put me through the wringer in the best of ways. like my heartrate was UP my tear ducts cleansed my nervous system dowwwn bad.

Better Call Saul: vince gilligan could create a show about idkk accountants doing audit all day and i bet my ass i would binge and rewatch it on repeat. the breaking bad lore has the most nuanced and compelling characters in tv history there i said it.

Peaky Blinders - i want tommy shelby to stomp on me repeatedly. also. soundtrack?? storylines?? characters?? the ending?? chef’s kiss, not one boring episode in this series.

Bojack Horseman - a washed-up sitcom star struggling with depression!!! the animal characters adding an extra layer of depth to the exploration of the most difficult topics of human relationships and mental health!!! the voice acting!! the writing!!! the attention to detail in the animation??? god I’m forever a whore for this show, rewatching it on an annual basis.

Never Have I Ever: idk man its just so cute.

Derry Girls: idk man its just so irish.

Mad Men: gorgeous cinematography, flawless character drama, wrapped up in the overromanticized vibes of the 60s and corporate america. im forever impressed by how good the visual storytelling is. like these characters rarely talk of their feelings, you can barely rely on the dialogues themselves. it’s all in the subtle character actions. i know it gets slow sometimes but it’s worth it for the ride. esp for those who ever worked for an ad agency lol. like man i really thought i was changing the world one poster design at a time.

✨tagging @harryanthus-annuus @goldcrumble @heartshaped-lou @holdingontozouis @pop-punklouis @ladychlo @anxiouspunk @blissoftheblue @greeneyesfriedrice

#me not having watched anything new in the past 2 years lol #vikiverse

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seven-stars-in-his-palm · 5 months

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who says you're not getting an ask? because I'm giving you one right now!

anyway, I'm curious about Burn Fast, Burn Bright. not anything specific really, just surprise me ig. I love that fic of yours a whole lot as I'm sure I've stated to you before.

CAN WE GET ON WITH THIS?? TY!!! fic in question, which is OLD as HELL and I got second hand embarrassment from all the things I could’ve done better MAN. here are my thoughts before we get into it;

- this was the second fic I’d written for stanuary, and one of the longer fics I’ve written Ever actually. 15k words. I don’t know how I was able to produce so many words for these events ngl I hope I can redo that this year ANYWAY. first impressions? shallow angst. I think that’s what this is gonna be TO ME, because I’m the author and I hate myself. this was written almost a year ago… ough

- the descriptions will be Okay, but could be Better. I think I’ve gotten better at those hopefully.

- I was writing a lot of 80s angst during this time period and this was the second in that bunch. loose ties and ends, that one kid from jersey, unfortunate ends, like?? I was on a roll. what was wrong with me (still wrong with me)

- the gnomes are here? damn. I like gnomes

- oh that summary. already fucking me up

- I’m going in with the mindset that even at the time I knew that there was improvement to be had. This is my growing. I’m STILL growing. we can do this. I was still trying to find my groove. NOW LETS GOOOOOO

He’s left the damned duffel bag.

The one thing he had to take, and he’s left it behind. Stan has nothing to curse but his own self, because how is he so stupid as to not notice for a whole day? He’d spent the whole day driving through Oregon, hopping from gas station to gas station and it’s only now, the next morning, that he realizes there are no extra clothes to change into?

already onto a great start /genuine. an earlier draft had this to be a Lot more aggressive—using exclamation points and harsher language and shit, but once I realized that it would be a little odd that we start so strong, I toned it down. I think it gives a bit more of ‘resonate despondence’, which is very (sometimes) stan

Ford had always been bad at explaining things. He always expected the listener to know exactly what he’s talking about, be at his exact intelligence level, so that his ‘explaining’ could be understood with just a few words. 100% of the time, that isn’t the case.

literally me. best but of ford characterization someone could have conjured fr

okay already a detour but did you guys know I read my fics in my head in a VERY SPECIFIC tone, and that’s why most of the italicizations and em dashes exist? that’s why they’re there because if someone doesn’t read it the way I do I slowly die inside /silly I still do it today and I have to remind myself that I shouldn’t have to do everything for my reader. I should trust them.

(Yeah, Stan wants to let his anger out, but he’s not gonna kill the guy. Ford looks fragile enough as it is, and if he fights any harder he’ll probably break his leg or a rib. No point in damaging him, really.)

yes that’s so nice stan. you’re such a good brother dude oh my GOD IM—

this whole ford pleading scene here. here’s some bits;

“It…” Ford inhales deeply. “It’s not forever. I just need it away.”

“I don’t—Stan, I don’t want you to sail away to the ends of the Earth.”

“This—this, right here, I can’t do it.” Ford gestures to the portal wildly, giving it a scowl that could give Stan a run for his money. He almost thinks it’s directed at him, since he stands in front of the machine’s eye. “I can’t fix this!”

oh I’m feeling the feelings what the fuck. I can hear the last dialogue SO WELL. I remember vividly rewatching atots like four times just to listen to the fight and I’m still not desensitized. like the way ford delivers such a genuinely misguided request and seeing nothing wrong with how it might be worded which ALSO being on the verge of snapping? yeah ford I’ll give you a pass you’re going through shit. I’m so glad it still reads!!!

“I’m already too far gone, Stanley, an-and I can’t think of anyone else, anyone who would want to help.”

ohhhhhi can hear this too. it’s a Hint you know. it’s supposed to tip you off; something is REALLY wrong….

okay I’m restraining myself from pasting this entire ford exchange but it’s so GOOD. I’m flattering myself. And I didn’t even take that long on it I remember I wrote most of chapter one in a single burst. everything you see? barely edited. all put on at once. threw up on a page. I was feeling things

Ford sets the Journal aside. He, aside from the glaring obvious, does not look shaken up. “Yes, I know. Never… see me again.”

He sounds bitter. Almost too bitter for his liking. It’s almost contagious, from how it seems to roll off him and outwardly.

“You…” Stan has to phrase this kindly. “You know I don’t want that, right?”

Ford doesn’t relax. Instead, his gaze only darkens. “I know.”

i remember crying. I was tearing UP. that’s them. that’s something I would say if I were stan. make sure they know that I don’t want that. I…!!!!

Stan wonders what Stan will say.

one of the few bits I was smiling for when writing this….

So he should be here.

I forgot the name for this literary device even though I started using it religiously after this BUT YEAHHHHHHHH GET OUR FEELINGS BABE

not gonna paste it but what ford(‘s body) is hiding by. I’m gonna be honest despite watching atots so much I forgot where the portal opened. like dead ass, so I made it up. the bookshelf is supposed to be the portal. I think the fic ‘by the skin of your teeth’ was still severely affecting me and that was the portal in that fic. this is what you get when you don’t check your references. it literally happened to me yesterday! I was finishing up chapter six of do you remember hanging up the stars and it was about aziraphale and crowley on the ark back in 3000 bc right. I forgot what the ark looked like other than a Single Memory so I bullshitted it. I then remembered I had a Resource, Checked, and it was. well I completely forgot about where the humans would’ve gone. lol

I can’t paste it all bc it’s like the whole fic but Stan’s DENIAL. the way he’s sooooo deep in it that it’s a physical jarring when he’s ripped out of it. he’s literally such a denial grieved it’s SICK and I can’t believe I wrote it so easily. Ahem. that says things I think whether good or bad is up to your interpretation

some of these dialogues are weirdly cut off. I think Stan’s a lot more of a run on sentencer. hm

okay now I’m getting into the secondhand embarrassment that would probably be extreme heartbreak had into created this. I think at this point I was very emotionally worn down; not just from writing but Life too. there’s not much to say. it just Exists

oh that fucking letter. fucking letters. I love ford letters you know that they’re so delectable especially when he’s allowed to make them long. this WHOLE THING. wow. and the way he OPENS IT. classic ‘we don’t have much time’ action type beat *writes a two paged letter*. also the crossing out things. I’m a fucking genius. augh

I don’t know if you would like to stay in Gravity Falls after this, but I would like you to do two things, the two things I could not.

UHM EXCUSE ME YOU REALLY THINK SO?? LIKE GENUINELY??? woah buddy. anyways this hurts me because I know he’s being genuine about this he DOESNT know if Stan would like to stay. he doesn’t know. HE DOESNT KNOW—

Unless there is an afterlife, this is Stanford Pines, your brother, signing off.

(Thank you, Stan. For everything.)

THAT. THAT? I was kicking my little evil feet oh I WAS. I was thinking ‘what could I do in character that could REALLY fuck you up?’ and I landed there. I loved it so much I literally used the thank you ploy again for a recent whumptober entry and it STILL HIT FOR ME. like. ford and thank yous. always painful 🥹

Two: After all this?

Stan isn’t planning to last a week.

see look it’s funny because. because the summary is about stan always following through with his plans. it was a parallel. he went through with a plan and it resulted in ford fucking off the face of the earth. so now he’s got a new one. new mission, new plan, new end. I loved thatshit…..

He didn’t expect for the pawn off to be so violent.

I had a very different opening here; it was something with bill watching everything before unfold and THEN cut to ford going through with the plan? but then I decided ‘hey wait a sec we never see stan LEAVE after that little flashback. how did that leaving go?’ and now we’re here. damn I even had an alt opening

now that we know ford’s suicide is inevitable (and that we’re in his head) I start slathering that foreshadowing everywhere….

“Okay. Okay, I’ll go. But I’m comin’ back, ya hear me? I’m not leavin’ you again.”

it’s giving crowley saying ‘I’m coming back, I won’t leave you alone’. hehehe

It does untangle, after a few seconds of frantic pulling and Ford’s shouting beforehand.

Stan doesn’t have the decency to apologize. He flaps his palm as if he got burned. “Yeesh. Your hair’s a mess.”

look it’s funny because. because. well you know. hair untangling. corpse

“And get some fucking sleep! You look half-dead!”

There it is.

yeahhhhhhh I was just being mean. stan babygirl he’s already going to do it. don’t add insult to injury

It was time to enact Plan A. If Plan A didn’t work (which it had to. He didn’t even have a Plan B) then it’d be time to panic.

the original title for this fic (like the FIRST ONE. not when I turned this into a two parter) was called ‘Plan B’, because 1) plan A indeed does not work and plan b is suicide, and 2) B for Bill. :)

But knowing Stanley, he’d find a way to show just how pissed off he was at Ford even if he was in the afterlife.

:) x2. still proud of this

When Fiddleford first learned of the gnomes, he was more than disturbed. Almost spooked. Ford had insisted that as long as you had bug spray and mushrooms, they would be manageable. Sadly, Fiddleford had thought mushrooms ‘takin’ care of the problem’ would be in warding them away, that mushrooms were a repellant of some kind.

FIDDLEFORD MY BELOVED!!!! I love writing beats like this I still do. it’s just so nice to take random hcs and put them in the most tense and matter of fact situations just to distract us a little. make us look away, but not entirely. ough

He wants to shake on it.

it’s the little traumas that break our hearts.

okayyyyyy I’ll be honest ford leaving the portal for someone else to kill it is Very ooc. I’ll admit that. but I need my Scenario!!!!! I don’t regret it. just know that I acknowledge it. *cries*

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the ‘method’. oh ‘the method’. fucking kills me. he debated ont his. rationally. RATIONALLY I WAS LITERALLY THAT ONE MEME THATS SCREAMING AT MY CHARACTERS TO STOP BUT IM THE ONE WHOS PUTTING THEM THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE—

ough. the bullet points. okay I’m running out of commentary steam but let me say this. I asked for hcs on my blog right? so I could put some of those here because even I run out of hcs eventually, and people DELIVERED. I loved them. I put every single one in at least One point, and seeing these tiny memories just spring up at he’s doing this is like that thing with the fiddleford/mushrooms bit. he’s distracting himself. making th situation less scary in his eyes. OUGH

OH AND THE PILLS NOT BEING FORD’S BUT STAN’S? ONE OF MY KAST ALTERATIONS BUT SOOOOOOO WORTH IT. NO NOTES JUST ULTIMATE ANGST

Ford had considered being a doctor for some time while in elementary school. It was a given, considering his intelligence and avid nature towards sciences. His love for the supernatural always gave in however, and it has won every battle. But for a long time after, a part of him wanted to be a chemist, a manufacturer, a creator. Sure, it soon became a pipe dream, but for a while it was a genuine choice.

But Ford is an experimenter. He realized early on that he wouldn’t be able to resist pouring the components and chemicals on his skin, if only to see how they would react to human flesh.

motherfucker.that guy is literally me

btw these spaces after the em dashes are killing my soul. I remember once that I thought everyone else was wrong with no spaces and I was right. Oh, past me. No.

How could you not love someone like that?

God, he’s never going to see him again.

*SNIFF*

4.5 million humans in the world. 230 million humans in America. 7 million in New Jersey. 2 million in Oregon. Around sixty or seventy species of anomalies in Gravity Falls alone. And that doesn’t even account past Earth, if Crash Site Omega was accounted for.

I had to look all that shit up I don’t even know if it’s right. at first it’d been modern day stats but THEN I remembered that we’re in the fucking 1980s so ofc it’s different. ALSO LOOOK I FUCKED UP IT SAYS MILLION NOT BILLIONS. IM GONNA DIE. FUCK. either way we stay silly we stay silly!!! just know that little paragraph has caused me so much grief.

Ford always hated funerals.

this was the beginning of the ‘we hate funerals’ saga. still do hate them. I hate them, ford hates them, crowley hates them, ALL OF THE HOMIES HATE THEM 🫵🫵 /j

Mania is a feeling he knows well, and this is not that.

lmao name drop *i was on the verge of tears*

It’s Ford, the snow, and his candle, which has no more wax to burn.

THE TITLE THE TITLE THE TITLE—

the spacing. the html gave me sooooo much trouble but it was worth it!!!! every space was deliberated and checked and shit. ough. OUGH

okayyyy im capping it here because I’m so so tired. but!!! here it is. I just. wow. Less yet more corny than I thought this would be. I hope you enjoyed that little roller coaster, and I’m off on Life Adventures. Which means Errands. fuck…..

#ask game #the guys (with a z!)#so so so sorry my dude. but it’s here!!! ahH

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February 7: The Expanse 1x04

Why would you introduce my beautiful wife Captain Yao just to kill her one episode later??? I will riot in the streets.

Seriously, I really was like immediately attached to her, in a way I haven’t been to any other character in this show yet, and I was all ready for her to be a fave and now she’s gone. Truly a disappointment. Also it makes me kind of annoyed that Cop 2 is still alive because while I had no particular issues with him, having him be surprise alive in the same ep as another, worse, more definitive death… so sad for me specifically.

Second thought: my favorite parts of this show are the world building sections and my least favorite are the action sequences. All the tense life-or-death-situation scenes are really boring to me still. I mean admittedly action is not my genre in general but something about the action scenes in this show just seem particularly… flat, for some reason? I just feel no intensity and no urgency about them at all and I honestly kind of zoned out through them. In this ep, I’m talking specifically about the crew stopping up the wholes in the prison cell, and the run to the escape ship during gunfire.

But the world building is exquisite. I’m really into all the information we’re getting on Mars and how they see Earth—and themselves. Every new bit of information is simultaneously exciting and surprising and unpredictable, and also fits in perfectly with all of the other information, providing an overall picture of the society that feels coherent and real. And this even though we’ve seen very few Martian characters and not yet seen their home world at all.

I was also really excited about all the tech in the dead guy that the detectives were examining (as a side note, probably shouldn’t get attached to her, and I still don’t entirely get what she does, but Octavia is growing on me a lot). It sort of reminded me of Dollhouse in its future episodes except the tech was spread throughout the body instead of being mind-focused. Like, body mods, even data storage as part of the body mods, isn’t a NEW idea but it’s an idea I LIKE and I appreciated how they were developing it here. Also the term ‘gear head.’

I did not really get what was happening with the shootout in the corridor of the Donninger, which ended with that guy getting his arm blown off and then it just healed itself. Part of this is that as soon as the shoot out started I zoned out entirely because as I said, I just cannot care. So I probably missed important information. I think…he was one of the people who boarded the ship? One of the mystery antagonists? His space suit was different than the red-faced Martian ones. But they also called him a mole? Maybe? And something about a weapon that wouldn’t be able to fire. I probably should have rewatched the scene but I wanted to keep going. I also don’t know what it meant that his arm healed itself right away but based on the expression on Holden’s face, I think that’s supposed to be a mystery.

As far as I can tell, the mystery antagonists are OPA-aligned (based on the scene where the guy kicked all the Mormons off the ship he was building, and also the stuff with the guy being tortured in the first couple episodes) but there’s something Extra about them. The arm-healing thing, for one. Maybe it’s Mormon tech? LMAO.

Oh, just remembered. Another thing I like about the world building on this show is how normal Earth looks. Like clearly this is far in the future and there’s a lot of new tech and so on and so forth, and Earth from a distance looks quite different as well, with the degree to which it’s been built up at least in major cities—but it’s not all sleek futuristic houses or minimalism or just sweeping amounts of shiny new advanced entertainment etc. The houses are just houses, the clothes are just clothes, the people still read books and talk about dinosaurs. It makes everything feel more real and believable, and sort of helps ground the (sometimes very far out) worlds of this possible future with the actual world.

I was surprised by the insta-jump to found family among Holden and the crew. His insistence he needed to get back to ‘his people’ was a little meh for me, which I KNOW is completely unfair. The show has objectively earned the right to have him be protective of them, after their recent adventures and given that they’re the last survivors of their ship. But most of what we’ve seen from them has just been infighting… it’s hard for me to feel yet like they actually like each other and would be so deeply loyal. Meh. I don’t know. At least the most annoying of them has bitten the dust. I am not sad about it.

Also WHY are there so many Mormons? Are they like really important or is this just an extensive riff off a sort of joke (even in the future and even in space, white men in suits will try to evangelize you)?

#the year 2024 #2024: fandom thoughts #2024: the expanse

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lserver362reviews · 4 months

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This was the saddest fucking movie I've ever seen.

This review is going to be all over the place, but as per usual I'm going to start with a deeply personal overshare of where I'm at for this viewing. I'm seeing this as the first watch of the New Year after coming off of 2 months of deeply missing my sister, who lives in another state. This movie understands what it is to go through your little everyday needs while having a giant sibling sized hole in your heart. I sobbed at this movie, especially during the dream sequence of the afterlife, but throughout the whole film I was getting chills. I sobbed last week at Christmas Mass because the priest started his homily with a comment on how all of his Christmas memories are of him and his two older sisters, in the house that they grew up in, which has been sold so that place truly only exists in his memory now. The first thing I thought of when I woke up on Christmas morning was how my sister and I would always get up extra early, before our parents, and just sit together in front of the tree and look at the lights. That's what Christmas means to me. My childhood house is also now sold. I was so affected by Kevin's statement that he doesn't even need to be doing anything in particular with his brothers-it's just the being together. I will be going to my sister's for Christmas next year. It cannot be overstated how masterful Zac Efron is in this film. When David is announced as having the match against the heavy weight champ you just see Kevin embody every emotion. The betrayal, the holding himself together, the wanting to cry, the disappointment, the growing cold. Then again when Kerry gives his father the gun and Kevin bores his eyes into Pam as if to say, maybe if we just pretend we aren't here it'll be okay. I cried very hard at the sight of absolutely swelling Zac Efron cradle his little baby. So beautiful and you just know that this man will try his hardest to not be his father (whether that means running away to protect them from the curse or by remaining and being triggered by his own grief). There was such a delicate balance of conveying his limited worldview, wanting to live up to his dad's expectations (manipulations), and support his brothers above everything else. Just masterful from Efron, and I didn't think I'd see that to this level. I came to this movie because A24, I love Richard Reed Perry, and I'm a huge fan of the talent that is Harris Dickinson. I think the final straw was that A24 mailed me my zine which had the pinup of my baby, Harris Dickinson. I hope to continue to watch everything he does (plug here for FX's mini series, Trust). Every time Harris was on screen I had the dopiest grin on my face because he just makes me happy and especially so as David. And then the unexpected happened. I didn't know anything about the Von Erich's and I certainly don't know anything about wrestling (I did love the Netflix series, GLOW), so this was almost completely foreign territory to me. Wrestling is just heterosexual drag, right? I knew this movie would be sad, and I knew that I'm super susceptible to anything that showcases siblingship, but this was a new level. The tragedy of it all. Sometimes the movie felt clunky but that kind of fit with the body shapes thematically. Some lines, especially from the father didn't feel natural to me. I think Maura Tierney was outstanding for what little screentime she had. The music, the costuming, as well as the camera work was all superb. I also did like seeing Michael J Harney and Lily James. Also I LOVE when a movie has a, Thank God I'm A Country Boy, needle drop (looking at you, Pauly Shore's Son-in-Law)!!! Once again, I was crushed by the ending dialogue and the way this movie just gets what it means to love your family. I loved that two background wrestlers were actual Von Erichs! Maybe I should rewatch Blue Valentine or Dead Man Walking before saying this is the saddest movie I've ever seen but man, I have not sobbed like that in a theater before. I'm glad I managed to stick with it. This movie bonzo gonzo'd my heart.

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houkagokappa · 11 months

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We finished all the anime we were watching in the anime club.

First off, Samurai Champloo, which I liked it a lot more than Cowboy Bebop. These types of episodic anime aren’t too common, which I could appreciate. I also enjoyed the setting and the fact that it had a unique vibe (the uniqueness more than the vibes, although those were cool too). I liked the trio, how they came together and sometimes had their own little adventures, but I never came to care about any of them. I don’t think that’s a huge negative, since they were still fun to follow and the episodic nature kept things interesting, but I suppose I could’ve gotten more attached to the anime if I would’ve gotten more attached to them. The final episode, which is the one we watched today, was cool and a great way to end the series. I wouldn’t go out of my way to recommend the series as a whole, but it’s worth watching.

Next up we finished Jormungand: Perfect Order. Because I decided to pay attention to the anime, I was never bored, although it’s definitely an anime I would’ve dropped before I even picked it up if I would’ve been watching it on my own. Depending on how much I value my time, watching these two seasons weren’t a complete waste. I enjoyed some characters and story lines that were introduced fairly late, and since one of the characters in the main group was Finnish, it was a fun anime to watch with a group of other Finns. HAKKAA PÄÄLLE VALMET! I liked the last 2-3 episodes with Koko revealing her master plan and Jonah finally putting his foot down. The last episode/ending was a little weird, and maybe unsatisfying for some(?), but I think it was fine.

Then we went on to Excel Saga. Ever since we started watching it, people were hyping up the last episode as something so extreme and scandalous it couldn’t be shown on TV (which is true and was a deliberate choice by the production). For some reason I interpreted this as the Japanese audience not getting a conclusion to the story, instead of the final episode being a weird extra following the conclusion that aired. It was honestly a little disappointing. I’ve pretty much forgotten what happened in episode 25 already, and episode 26 wasn’t as crazy as people made it out to be. The added nudity and sex wasn’t interesting at all? It was just there for the sake of being there, and felt out of place for most of the time. It wasn’t over the top enough for a good reaction, or then it was simply gross. I was expecting more violence too, but at least the added bleeding was funny! (What am I typing here?) Despite this, I loved the series itself. I thought it was really funny and I love following series were I have no idea what to expect next. Excel being hyper was the star of the show for me, huge props to her seiyuu Kotono Mitsuishi!

And then finally we finished Sangatsu no Lion, which was a rewatch on my part. It’s such a great series and while some people always skipped it, those who stayed seem to have appreciated it immensely! There’s this trend of anime that we watch in the club getting sequels after we watch them, no matter how old they are, and I’m hoping for 3-gatsu to follow suit, since I NEED MORE!

#my nonsense #ella watches anime #samurai champloo #jormungand #excel saga #3 gatsu no lion

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mobius-m-mobius · 4 months

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Literally sometimes I'm just doing whatever adult things that I do and "scar tissues" echoes in my brain like Owen is there personally rattling the bars. The other night I took some Nyquil and watched Darjeeling again and right at the end where Francis took his bandages off the damn "scar tissues" freaking screamed in my brain again. Truly believe I transcended into some weird terrible dimensions in that moment. I never want to hear Owen break down his thought process for Mobius because of the off chance that he mentions that scene and it will probably knock me over the head leaving me bleeding out on the floor. Still cannot believe that Tom wrapped that scene and continued to be a functioning human and not forever changed as a person!

Omg for starters anon, are you me because I did almost the exact same thing a few days ago and still haven't completely recovered so sending extra love your way to get through the new layers of poetic tragedy we definitely didn't need on top of the finale as is 😭💖

Trying to adult while Owen's acting choices are fresh on your mind instead is the biggest mood lmao, there was a moment years ago during S1 when I was driving out of town to an annual work event and ended up accidentally going like twenty minutes out of the way because I was daydreaming about him and can safely say focusing on anything else hasn't been any more successful since then 😅

There are so many parallels between Francis and Mobius both trying to push past their worries and doubts to be a rock for everyone else even if they have to keep from diving further into their own emotions to do so, and how they almost want it to be that way? Not to mention Francis visibly wearing his scars but trying to break out of a pattern throughout the movie compared to Mobius being able to hide his own hurt within to find a way to continue existing in the same loop for eternity. As much as I'd desperately love to hear Owen break down his thought process for what went into how he's developed and grown Mobius through the seasons, knowing his mind I don't doubt anything he would say out take me out at the knees instantly which I'm probably not in a place to handle right now lol

Darjeeling's just an absolute knockout on the best of days but before rewatching I really did fail to take into account how "scar tissue" has changed me to my very core, it echoes within like "let time pass" does in Loki's final scene so I too have absolutely no idea how Tom was faced with Owen giving the most heartbreakingly beautiful, resigned delivery in this life without becoming a completely different person than moments earlier because I sure did! And they filmed those scenes on DAY ONE, can you imagine!??

#thank you for doing one of my favorite things in the world which is talking about the darjeeling limited!!! francis my beloved #and for this lovely ask which honestly did speak to me on the deepest level like our eyes connecting across a crowded room haha #you get it and i hope you're having an amazing day!! 💖#ask

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almost-a-class-act · 8 months

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Hilldane anon again (hiiiii)

If you’re into this ship its because you are insane. Facts. I cant believe uve never dabbled in pre-relationship hilldane its PERFECT for “for the good of the company we can’t” pining and like you said “this is terrible but its less terrible with you” coping by just fantasising about the other in tropical hell. Andy casually snuggling with him in his hammock because that’s normal is such a him thing becoz he has no concept of personal space (on your rewatch just seriously notice how they are never more than 3inches apart, like, save some room for Jesus. If I were Jones i’d be swooning), and eddie is fucking dying inside because 8+ years in the corps kills any chance of romance and he’s so touch starved and in denial because “andys like that with Everybody” and theres no way its reciprocated. (Don’t get me wrong, I also love head over heels andy who is absolutely fucking infatuated but this man loves his company more than himself he barely has time for his own thoughts)

And YO burgie and snaf???? I take up way too much of your time screaming about hilldane (its a topic that my therapist has said she’ll section me for so I cant really speak about it to anyone else + I have a million fucking ideas) but honestly Eddie and Burgie drunk on Banika bitching about Pavuvu, the war, other officers, their tragic love lives. Please, enlighten me with the snaf/burgie agenda before i get held for 72 hours

Hilldane anon I am so sorry for the delay. I was planning on being hungover yesterday and binging the entirety of the Pacific and then screaming about hilldane into the couch for 2,800 hours, but alas I was not hungover so I felt the need to be productive instead.

But no you're so right about oblivious Andy, it's extra special delicious because like. He does love Eddie??? He just doesn't know???? He's gotta get these orders changed and keep all these kids alive and keep morale up and he loves Eddie but when the fuck would he have had the time to figure that last part out. One of my favourite parts of hilldane fic is when we get past this, like. Image of Andy as the show perceives him (which is largely as Sledge perceives him) as the heroic figure up on this wildly high pedestal. Because it is accurate! In many respects! But he's also a real person who is fucking tired and frightened and has a lot on his plate.

And sometimes he is an idiot who doesn't know he's in love.

Snaf/Burgie nation rise! Okay so like. They started out at the same time in the Marines and you can't tell me that Snafu didn't pull the same I'm a fucking weirdo, what are you gonna do about it shit with the other guys in his unit as he did with Sledge and the other boots. If you know you're not someone who is easily liked, might as well give them a reason not to - might as well give them all the hard edges right off the hop. And I just think Burgie had his number immediately? The other guys are side-eyeing Snafu and Burgie is like, well it's not up to me to tell these dipshits that he's yanking their chain. He knew he could trust Snafu to have this back and that was all he needed.

And Snafu, unaccustomed to having his bullshit seen through, actually listened when Burgie occasionally gave him hell, got used to looking for him in tough situations, knew that Burgie was on his side, too. So I picture them together as kind of like, each other's steady place while they go through some honest to god horrors, a bond forged in fire. Does it last when the war ends? Maybe not. But thirty years from now, Snafu knows he can call in the middle of the night and Burgie will pick up.

#hilldane anon

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