#sometimes i think abt samruby

[pechebeche]

sometimes i think about how the only thing that changed between sam post-dean’s death in mystery spot and sam post-dean’s death at the start of s4 was ruby. sometimes i think about how having a connection, any connection, outside of the complicated mess of hangups in the winchester family history, about having someone he could relate to, about knowing that he was not alone in feeling damned and wanting more, was the sole barrier between sam going into an obsessive spiral

 sometimes i think about how angry dean and bobby got about sam trying to do good with his powers, not knowing that re-using his powers for good was the only reason sam was functioning at all. sometimes i think about ruby taking care of sam, in her own way, in ways that others maybe didn’t approve of but that worked, of sam who can’t leave his past behind in a normal life but can’t become the kind of vengeance-obsessed hunter that john was and that he could so easily slip into without someone there to remind him who he is, and of finding a middle ground by taking his past and what people have done to him and using it for good.

sometimes i think about how castiel identified sam as ‘the boy with the demon blood’ and how maybe it was not supposed to be a cruel thing, because cas does not understand what is cruel and what is kind at the best of times and the angels watched and knew. maybe this was a kindness. maybe this was sam winchester, boy with the demon blood, who used it to help and save and protect. sometimes i think about ruby whose job would be infinitely easier if sam were emotionless and manipulable and instead loving him, giving him the opportunity to love himself, to learn that he is not broken, that he is not damned, that he is more than whatever demons did to him. sometimes i think about sam winchester.

#spn #spnliveblog #sam winchester #meta #i GUESS #what im saying is. i love my nb queer angel of a hunter who struggles with who he is. and we dont talk abt him enough #supernatural #sometimes i think about solidarity and support systems and how even well meaning people can hurt you by trying to help #and forging connections with people you barely know because you have been through the same and you See each other in a way no one else does #sometimes i think abt samruby #sometimes i think about between s3 & s4 ruby being to sam what dean was in s1 #winchesters and their vengeance quests and sam winchester clinging to someone that reminds him he is human #and breaking cycles and learning to move on. i love him

[sodomitecastiel]

not me gearing up to post my samruby playlist at the same time as my deanbenny one. something is happening in my brain today

#they’re good tho -_- #it’s so funny i don’t even LIKE samruby #but there’s a vibe that i do enjoy thinking abt in my brain sometimes #nathaniel.txt #don’t look at me. im processing my own dating history -_-

[toxicsamruby]

sam stan ask game, ty @azazelapologist and @jcthro for tagging me

Sibling status (younger, middle, older, only child…) - oldest! w terminal eldest daughter syndrome

How long have you been stanning for - i started watching supernatural like. a couple months ago? october i think? idk def after the school year started

Favorite Sam era -  his hotgirl summer while dean was dead <3

Favorite spn season, but if the only criteria was Sam’s hair -  s1. also my fav by any other standard LMAO

Favorite Sam-centric episode -  nightmare slapped

Any ships you may like to mention - SAMRUBY SUPREMACY

Favorite song you would/have put in a Sam playlist -  cigar by tamino...yeah

If you could steal one thing from Sam’s wardrobe, it would be -  idk. i dress better than sam. maybe one of his big jackets

Complete the sentence: If Sam cishet, then WHY  flirting w jake in all hell breaks loose. i dont take criticism

Favorite unhinged Sam moment -  idk if this is unhinged but in i know what you did last summer he was hustling pool but he got distracted halfway thru bc he saw ruby in the corner of the room and just left all him and dean’s money on the pool table and went to go talk to her. he was so completely addicted to demon pussy he gave away SEVEN HUNDRED dollars for NO reason. girl HELLO?

You must have some intense headcanons you need to talk about, tell me one Sam hc that drives you insane -  he is half palestinian <3

Tell me something about the hbo Sam that lives in your brain -  is hbo sam just Dark Edgy sam? i dont have any of that but i do think that he’s chronically (on purpose) sleep deprived. he hates having visions in his sleep and he tends to take a lot of shitty energy drinks and sometimes adderall to avoid sleeping more than a few hours a night

Oh no, the writers forgot to give Jess a personality! Now it’s up to you. Tell me, what was Jess like -  big misogyny moment but i dont really care abt jess she’s narratively a representative of the american dream that sam loses and im ok w that i care more abt the female characters who were fleshed out and then killed off

Biggest injustice Supernatural commited against Sam (be as brief or as ranty as you desire) -  continuing to run past s3 lol

And finally, just say something about him that makes you smile ♥  when he’s being an annoying shitty little brother

@powerssam n anybody else who wants to play

#this was fun ty