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mimixmunson · 2 days

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I have a habbit of messing up peoples names, ive called my mom my brothers name. Sometimes ill start with someone elses name and correct myself like sara-mily or i get it early so its just the first letter like saying ch-steve

I was just thinking about bestfriends eddie x reader where reader accidentally calls eddie daddy because theyre so similar. She goes to say a d name but catches herself and says eddie. She was talking fast and didnt even catch herself saying it until eddies like "did you just call me daddy?"

Accidentally calling Eddie ‘Daddy’. Eddie Munson x female reader. Blurb. Fluff.

I hope this is okay, I’m sick at the moment so it’s kinda self indulgent but I tried to personalise it a bit for you!

The night was like any other of yours and Eddie’s movie nights. Bags of candy spilled out on the floor, blankets swallowing you both up and a blunt being passed between you. Today was tiring, work couldn’t be more stressful and of course you were understaffed. Eddie came to pick you up at closing time, he already had your cup of tea in his cup-holder. It was the small things you appreciated the most from your best friend.

You had your head on his chest, because Eddie said “it will help your migraine I promise.” You wanted to believe him but the smirk on his face just showed he wanted to look after you. Eddie held his palm to your forehead, “you’re burning up a little, I’ll get you some medicine. Wait right here.” He ushers himself out from the blankets and into the kitchen. Rooting through the cupboards as you pause the movie, he reappears holding a bottle and a medicine spoon. Pouring the contents onto the spoon, “open up darling” he smirks as he feeds you.

You wince at the taste of the bitter medicine, swiftly taking a swig of your soda to wash away the taste. Wiping your mouth you whisper, “thank you d-daddy” “e-Eddie I meant Eddie!!” Your face flushes immediately, wanting the ground to swallow you up as you blurt out your sentence. Your brain was on auto pilot and Eddie and Daddy sounded far too similar for your mouth to comprehend whilst you’re suffering so bad with your migraine.

“What was that? Did you just call me daddy?” Eddie smirks, teasing you as he pulls your hands away from your blushing face.

“I- no! The words got scrambled in my head m’sorry I’m so embarrassed, I’m sorry.” You pull away from Eddie’s touch, bringing your knees to your chest and resting your head on them. Terrified that you’ve ruined your friendship, how could Eddie not see you differently after calling him that? A word so not-inherently bad but turned kinky and shameful, he could assume you’re into that. Not that it would be a bad thing to be kinky, you just weren’t.

“Hey hey hey.” Eddie pulls at your arms, “just look at me.” His voice is like velvet, so comforting but you’re shaking. Wishing you could be ignorant and never face this issue. “Come on princess, just want to see you smile.” You can almost hear the smirk in his voice.

You stick to your guns, refusing to move and face him. “You leave me no choice then, I didn’t want to do this sweetheart. But you asked for this..” Eddie coos into your ear before teasing his fingers over your neck, ghosting over your skin and down to your sides. He pokes and prods your ribs, flailing back into Eddie’s chest, trying to swat at his hands to put an end to his ticklish assault.

“Okay! Okay!” You plead, holding on to Eddie’s wrists and looking deep into his eyes. He stills his hands, holding yours and dropping them into his lap. “I didn’t mean to say it Eddie, honestly.” Your voice stuttering as you whimpered. “It’s not a big deal. Seriously, I understand. You do that a lot with words, I’ve seen it. You’re okay. It’s okay. We’re okay.” A mischievous smile spreads over his face when he sees you let go of the breath you’ve been holding for the entire moment. Sighing, you let yourself smile, feeling safe knowing that Eddie doesn’t judge you.

“There’s that smile. Gotta hear that laugh too, you know, for daddy?” He teases before jumping on top of you and tickling you again.

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aka-indulgence · 2 hours

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Do you have any thoughts/headcanons for buckshot roulette themed au for skeletons or just in general just headcanon for the dealer?

OH MAN DO I (these are gonna be about og dealer because i gotta fixation rn sjhf)

Strong, stable hands. Calloused hands. Dextrous hands. But can crush a can of bear. Good for hand holding… they’re warm

Teeth fall out and regrow like a shark’s would (might give them to you because he’s not all caught up on romance customs kdjfg)

Outside of his face and hands, he has a nebulous, vague body, but he can choose to have a humanoid body (He’d like using his humanoid body around you,,,)

Big chest. Big broad chest you can sleep on. He wants you to sleep on him like he’s your personal bed,

Mobster-themed outfits, naturally… (personally I love suspenders the most)

He really ‘dies’ when he loses the third round, but he always comes back. Just takes a while after he’s been shot 9+ times…

Smells like a casino

Has 0 tolerance for cheaters (because who doesn’t love a fair dealer who can turn into an angry monster?)

Pretty good at disguising his anger whenever he gets shot. But you can tell from the way his finger and mouth twitches, how eager he is when grabbing the shotgun. Especially on the third round, he seems all too happy to point that muzzle on the player with gleeful hatred on his face

I assume in canon the two red dots in the end are some sort of mechanic… robo… thing…(???) but I really like the idea of a red glow when he loses/feels a strong emotion, in short bursts. Sometimes, looking at you…

(I like imagining that you either work for him or work at the club he’s lingers in)

He doesn’t need anyone to nurse him to life after he dies. But he likes having you do it, wiping his blood and patching him up… likes seeing a pretty face while he recovers. Holds onto you while you fix him up. Stares… a lot.

He likes smelling you. Nose is used for sniffing cute humans

Gentle with his ‘kissing’. Because of his teeth it’s more like a very careful nuzzle… don’t want to nick you with his knife-teeth.

He wouldn’t want you to play the game. He’d actively dissuade you, but won’t stop you if you’re persistent.

When he’s pointing at you and it’s a live, it always misses, somehow. He acts like it’s a mistake- but everyone knows the Dealer doesn’t miss.

He likes it when you squeak every time a live misses you. He also likes that you look hesitant every time you point it at him… but always reminds you its the game.

Usually the more he’s shot the angrier and moodier he gets, the more he wants to make sure the player stays dead.

But when he’s playing with you, it’s more like… he’s shows off that even though he’s bleeding. Smiles at you after he gets back up

If you saw him play against anyone else… it’s obvious he wasn’t playing normally with you. You’re not his usual player…

Picks you up like a potato sack

100000% purrs because I’m indulgent that way. Sounds more like a truck engine

Also in terms of Sans AUs? HMF!Sans fits the role the most, and if it was an au, everything I wrote above applies to him heheheh

#buckshot roulett #dealer buckshot roulette #look i gotta get the thoughts out #or else im gonna be eaten by my fixation dkjfgh #i like the idea of hmf as dealer in an au #i also like dealer as dealer #ask #also man is there like a #dealer buckshot roulette x dealer #tag?????

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bratzforchris · 1 hour

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hi!! I was watching the new video and it reminded me so much of myself, so i was thinking, could you write something about Chris and autistic!reader going to a toy store and reader wants to buy so many of the toys because they never had that while growing up due to money reasons? maybe chris and reader end up buying some toys for little kids and once they're home they play with them together?? (it doesn't have to be age regression, mainly just inner child healing and lots autistic joy)

thank you if you do!! also i just recently followed you and really love the way you write, so i thank you for your service🫡

Barbies

Summary: Above! Thank you so much for the detailed request, butterfly <33

Pairing: Chris x romantic!reader (gender neutral)

Warnings: Mentions of financial troubles during childhood (?)

Word Count: 1k

A/N: This was actually such a heartwarming (and self indulgent) request to write, so thank you 🧸🎀💗 I hope you enjoy!!

If there was one thing that you had loved your whole life, it was Barbies. Ever since you were a small child you had been captivated by the beautiful dolls with their outfits and long hair that you could brush and braid. Growing up as one of four kids and as a neurodivergent child that had required extra therapies and medications, there wasn’t always a lot of extra money to go around, so the few Barbies that you did have were hand-me-downs from the girls that were your neighbors. You had promised yourself that one day you would have an entire collection of dolls to call your own. After all, the special interest had started when you were around four, and had continued to this very day, which just so happened to be your twentieth birthday.

You woke up to Chris peppering kisses across your face with a little ‘good morning, honey’, proudly holding a small plate of pancakes with a whipped cream smiley face on them. Your boyfriend eagerly handed you your plate, singing Happy Birthday cheesily. It was clear he was more excited about this than you were.

“It’s just another day, babe.” You chuckled with a soft shake of your head as you started to cut up your breakfast.

“It’s your day,” Chris insisted, poking your shoulder teasingly. “There’s gotta be something you wanna do.”

“Other than go skydiving, which we’ve addressed you’re not gonna do, there’s nothing.” You hummed, avoiding the thought in your brain to just ask him.

Chris visibly paled at the mention of jumping out of a plane. “Yeah, that one’s a no. There’s nothing you want to do? Nowhere you want to go? Nothing you want to eat?”

“Well…” You trailed off, munching thoughtfully on a piece of pancake. “There is one place, but…”

“Which is?”

“Nevermind,” You shook your head, blushing. “It’s stupid.”

“It can’t be that bad, baby,” Chris said softly. “It’s your birthday. We can do whatever you want.”

“Promise you won’t laugh?”

Chris kissed your cheek gently, knowing that his stubble sometimes bothered your sensory issues. “I won’t laugh, honey. I promise.”

You looked away shyly, blushing as you picked at a loose thread on your comforter. “You know I’ve always liked like, the Barbie movies and stuff, right? And it’s kind of a special interest?” You paused, waiting to see your boyfriend’s reaction, to which he nodded for you to keep talking. “Well, there’s this new store downtown that sells all kinds of Barbies and I was wondering if we could…go? I’ve always wanted Barbies.” You rushed out quickly, face and ears red.

Chris smiled, rubbing your hand. “I think that sounds like a perfect idea.”

“You do?”

“If it makes you happy, it’s always a good idea,” Chris kissed you gently and then stood up. “Get ready!”

For the entirety of the time it took you two to get ready, plus the car ride to the store, you were happy stimming. The mere thought of engaging with your special interest was enough to have you shaking out your wrists happily and playing with the small pop-it pin on your lanyard. Chris chuckled once the two of you got into the store, snapping a quick photo of your awe.

Your eyes went wide as you scanned up and down the rows and rows of dolls. There were all kinds of Barbies from all different generations and you gently ran your fingers across them as you searched for some you liked. Chris followed you like an obedient puppy the entire time, offering his opinion on various dolls and enjoying the warmth that radiated from your happiness. After about thirty minutes in the store, you had narrowed your choices down to ten different dolls.

“I dunno which ones to get. I like them all but I am broke.” You chuckled softly, running your finger over the smooth plastic of one of the boxes.

“Get them all,” Chris shrugged. “It’s your birthday, honey.”

“Did you miss the ‘I’m broke’ part, Christopher?” You chuckled.

“No, but this is your treat. It’s on me.”

Even though you blushed and thanked your boyfriend profusely, you didn’t have it in you to argue with him about paying. You were so consumed by your special interest that all your mind could think about was going home and playing with the new Barbies. Chris led you to the register softly, his heart swelling at the beaming smile on your face as you hummed and let out little vocal stims happily.

By the time you two had arrived back home, you were bursting at the seams to engage with your new treasures. You pulled Chris into the living room, plopping down on the floor next to the coffee table. In a matter of minutes you had carefully opened all of the boxes, laying the dolls out in a neat line.

“Will you, um, play with me?” You asked your lover softly, rubbing Chris’ fingers gently.

“Only if I get to be Ken,” Chris scoffed playfully. “Dude’s ripped.”

You chuckled and rolled your eyes, passing the brunette the dolls. You both played for a little while, with you focusing more on brushing the Barbies’ hair while Chris acted out soap-opera level scenarios that had you practically rolling on the floor laughing. All was silent for a while, until your boyfriend spoke up again, suddenly seeming nervous.

“We should make the Barbies get married.” he blushed.

“Oh?” You cocked your head curiously, wondering what he meant.

“Because if they represent us, well…” Chris paused and dug in his pocket, pulling out a small ring box. “I wanted to wait for a time that felt right for both of us, and I think that’s right now. You’re my absolute best friend, and this just confirmed that for me. I love you more than anything in the world. Will you marry me?” he asked softly, still burning red.

You had been dreaming of a Barbie life ever since you were a small child, and this definitely counted as that. “Yes!”

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spooky-activity · 1 year

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Going insane over this Makoann fic because I’m gay with big feelings sometimes

+bonus I always forget how awful it is to be Makoto in the first bit of the game. Girl can’t catch a break. EVERYONE be bullying her

#makoann #ann takamaki #makoto niijima #persona 5 royal #p5r #fanart #mine #my art #the fic is Makoto's pov and I can't believe how well the author nailed her voice #I'd KILL for Ann's side of this fic too #but I'd rather die than ask something so presumptuous of the author #so I'll just say it in my tags because this is my space #the pic with Ann having a crisis to Maruki didn't explicitly happen in the fic. but it was implied so I drew it anyways #I don't often indulge in fics about romance but when I do i go hard #sometimes you gotta put your Blorbos in a pringles can and shake them real hard before they realize they like girls #and then talk about those feelings #also consistent style? don't know her lol #it's fine this is just for fun for me #it does bother me a little #but YOU have to deal with it because it doesn't bother me enough to actually try to draw consistently lmao

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firefly-party · 1 year

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🎵~

guys, i wonder... i kinda wanna continue this sketch... but im not sure how. so if you wanna help me out.... i need to pick between full digital color, full traditional coloring (probably watercolor) or digital watercoloring.

i already decided yesterday that i'll make this a jaskel piece at some point, heh. anyway. happy sunday.

taglist @dapandapod @hollowxo @karolincki @happydistraction

lemme know if you wanna be off or on the list ❤

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autistickirstenlarson · 1 year

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Modernized Historicals recreated via the “Dress up, Schmess up” game

Kaya’aton’my · Felicity Merriman · Caroline Abbott

Josefina Montoya · Cécile Rey · Marie-Grace Gardner

Kirsten Larson · Addy Walker · Samantha Parkington

#american girl #dress up games #kaya'aton'my #felicity merriman #caroline abbott #josefina montoya #cecile rey #marie-grace gardner #kirsten larson #addy walker #samantha parkington #sometimes i just gotta indulge my inner child you know?

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rubberbandballqueen · 9 months

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i love how absolutely normal my coworkers are. there's no fear of doing a petty internet slight against someone by mistake. they're all just chillin

#i was gonna say 'my coworkers are all so normal i feel like a diversity hire' but that sounds kinda derogatory #tho since they're all pretty sporty (bc we work in adult/youth sports) i Do sometimes joke to myself that i am the diversity hire nerd #SOMEONE'S gotta revolutionize the spreadsheets around here and it's gonna be ME with the power of XLOOKUP #yesterday at work the kids were asking us who our favorite kids are #and like every beloved teacher of mine before me i laughed n said 'children! i hate you all equally :)'#n they were like 'ok. but who's your favorite.'#ofc i have favorites but they don't need to know that. i'm not asking them if i'm their fave for basically the same reason #i just don't need to know that!! it's nice tho lol #the way i play favorites is that i tend to be stricter with them but also i like to indulge in their suggestions so i think it evens out #like yes i Will listen and legitimize your silly ideas through 'yes and' But i also need your butt in a chair first #the worm speaks #anyway camps are winding down for the summer so soon it'll be back to the ol routine

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eijiroukiriot · 2 years

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it’s like every day i flipflop back and forth between “katsuki should say ‘eijirou’ as many times as he can all the time. ‘eijirou come look at this’ ‘jesus christ eijirou it’s 7 a.m.’ ‘eijirou, steak or fish tonight’” and “i need krbk to call each other baby or else i’ll die”

#idk if it's obvious from the every piece of content i've made in the last 6 months but i've like been stuck on this one #and not to like accidentally peek a little deep into my psyche but it might be bc for the brief time i had a gf last year #we dove like REALLY hard and heavy into the pet names #i did not enjoy being in a relationship with her (largely bc it was so affectionate so fast) but. i did like the affection #and honestly thinking back on the times where we did call each other 'baby' specifically it felt like so much bigger than 'babe'#which is probably why it sounds so gross to some people but the more time goes by and the more i think abt what an actual good #relationship would look like to me. the more i feel like being able to say 'baby' and not have it be cringe would be a factor #which is why i've been so stuck on making things that make krbk say baby. as stupid as it is #i really do love bkg saying eijirou and think that's the more in character option anyway #sometimes your krbk has just gotta be a little self indulgent though you know?#and other times it can be realistic and so so good #if this fic i started last month ever does see the light of day....and it might bc i do like the premise #it'll maybe be the most realistic take on bkg as a part of krbk that i've ever written #not to keep rambling but also thinking back on the way i've written bkg over the years i really do think his character lends itself to #a lot of levels of realistic vs indulgent #weird wording but i'll explain #in canon he's so analytical and thoughtful at heart you know? but he's also 16 and brash and impulsive and plain dumb sometimes #once again thinking about how i didn't actually like him that much on my first watch until the latter half of s2 #where his characterization starts to become a little more day-to-day instead of really heavy digging into HIS psyche #so he just shows up over and over again to get mad about something stupid and it's endearing #like 'who is this guy'#so you can write a bkg who's very out of his element and hotheaded and thinks of himself differently than he actually comes off #or you could write a bkg (like the bkg as of late) who's very in control and calculating and doesn't let his guard down #neither side is technically inaccurate but it can be hard to strike a balance bc those things sound very out of sync with each other #so within krbk you can write a very 'actions speak louder than words' bkg who is kinda neutral-cold most of the time #or you can write the goofier 'i won at romance and i'm gonna rub it in your faces' easily swept off his feet fandom favorite bkg #which can be very good #and if anything the fact that he really does keep his guard so high up so often makes you WANT to write him being sappy #especially when he's grown up #have i ever mentioned that like the stock photo of krbk in my mind has aged up?

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disdaidal · 1 year

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TIL that at least some of my old DVDs are still good enough for HD gifs. :'D Things you can achieve with a DVD drive, Potlayer's continuous screenshots + deinterlacing turned off. After that, I did my usual Photoshop 'magic' with coloring and sharpening, and voilá.

#gifs #photoshop #my coloring #gifs by disdaidal #not using bootleg copies and disabling deinterlacing is key - i know it #unfortunately that isn't an option with some dvds of mine *coughherculescough*#so i can only dream of a quality like this with them *sighs*#but this is good news #because i was so frustrated wanting to make better quality gifs with some stuff that i own #some stuff that cannot exactly be found in HD (like this show)#and not feeling like spending some extra money or downloading more heavy junk onto my laptop just to make some silly gifs D:#anyway more craig stuff is on the way and i know me + maybe 4 other people actually care about it #but that's just past me with my old gifs and sometimes you gotta be self-indulgent babes #so bear with me (or don't)

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riftwalker-limbro · 10 months

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I see Verica being competent and i must ask about the opposite too. What is it that she's Not the good one at in the triad, aside from Extremely Specific Science Stuff that her boys have their PhDs in? What is a problem that she'll tackle better with her boys than without?

>:D

the most obvious one is that she may be good at coming up with shit but she's not the best at determining the sanity of whatever shenanigans she's just come up with

when pule and vince are there and her eyes light up with the next Big Plan That'll Be So Much Fun Guys Cmon, they can tell her Girl That's A Bad Idea. as academics, one thing they're Very good at is spotting the errors in someone else's work from a fucking mile away and immediately commenting on it

#you KNOW who inspired that last line #rift asks #i'm gonna keep rotating this while i bully my lich until she's dead again. bc there's gotta be more as well. the saga of nerfing verica #she's just so good at plans that she's very good at getting what she wants and that sometimes Also bites her in the ass i feel like #hm.#and Thank You for indulging my nonsense jhbdfg

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myinterestsvary-writes · 10 months

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Finished English Class this semester but am going to read this just because. I’m sorry that the book is tattered. There’s a lot of old, poorly maintained books in my house that only recently got out of boxes and were shelved.

#listen I am not a book nerd or romantic #at least I don’t think so #but sometimes I just intrigue myself so much in some things that I indulge in that spring to mind #I’m not easily understandable and I guess its fine #I used a quote from this book and reading up on the analysis of it I am intrigued and also happy that I used that quote appropriately becaus #in my mind it fits #you just gotta know the context lol #books #literature #wuthering heights #emily bronte #the context of the quote and also why I personally thought it to be appropriately used #In case you haven’t noticed I'm weird. I’m a weirdo. I don't fit in. And I don't want to fit in.#have you ever seen me not let my curiosity get the best of me and suffer the consequences?#did you not see me get obsessive sometimes over shit I love and (rarely I’d like to think) shit I hate?#yeah. that’s weird

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canon-fcdder · 2 years

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(( this is so cute holy shit im Thriving ))

#(( im only on ep 1 but omg i'd Die for them ))#(( they are both so cute and in love even if they both don't fully realize it yet ))#(( i didnt know this existed until today but i am Living For It ))#(( sometimes you just gotta indulge in a love story about two disaster bois ))#canon-fcdder #⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰɪɢʜᴛ; ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ʀᴜɴɴɪɴɢ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ❞ ¦ 「 OOC 」#⭒ ˙ ˖ ✧ — ˗ˏˋ ❝ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ɴᴏᴛ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴇʏᴇꜱ; ɪꜰ ᴛᴇɴ ᴍɪʟʟɪᴏɴ ꜰɪʀᴇꜰʟɪᴇꜱ— ❞ ¦ 「 Liveblogging 」#(( wont spam about it but i just needed to Say lmao ))

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etherealspacejelly · 4 months

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sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.

i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.

so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.

today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.

and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.

so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.

#autism #actually autistic #adhd #audhd #actually adhd #neurodivergent #im tagging adhd and autism because that is specifically what i have #this post can apply to any neurodivergent people who feel it helps #i am fully aware that neurodivergent includes people who arent autistic or adhd

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isekyaaa · 4 days

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I said what I did, but my writing currently is extremely flowy. There's no bumps, crevices, curves, hills.... It's complete and total legato. However in my case, the issue isn't with sentence variation. It's the way I word my sentences. It's too poetic and vibey. Honestly pretty cringe in many aspects, like it's doing its best to sound meaningful and deep. It works well writing oneshots, but if I ever wanted to write an actual chaptered story, it'd completely fail. I really need to learn how to write proper prose again...

#rambles #i say i need to but like who knows when that'll be haha #i like my writing as it is but it's pure self-indulgence #me being greedy and wanting to make a mic drop kind of statement #but that's not what fiction is always meant to be #sometimes you just want to tell a story #that needs no fanfare #and yet everything i write is fanfare #gotta go back to analyzing writing i really like again haha #thinking about it more if i had to describe my writing it's very pretentious #like a peacock showing off its feathers my writing is meant to be eyecatching #it's MEANT to sound good because that's how i purposefully engineered it. it's meant to draw you in #and i don't mean this in a good way #my writing is like a marvel movie #specifically engineered to rake in profit #and like marvel movies it's not always successful #but my stories are specifically written in a way to be showy and flashy #it does that to distract you from the fact that i am not skilled at writing #i really should try to write a legit chaptered story one day #it'll really highlight my weaknesses which is what i need #thinking abt it more my writing style is based upon my understanding of how ppl work haha #it's more of a psychological manipulative thing than anything else #gross lol

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exopelagic · 2 months

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once again facing unstoppable force (anxiety-driven need to finish my work) vs immovable object (brain doesn’t wanna do anything but think abt little gay people)

#solution: write tumblr post #I JUST figured out a fix to my plot problem in this story I’ve been thinking abt #and I rlly rlly badly wanna start fleshing out these characters bc this is the story I’ve been most excited abt in a long time #it’s also combining a bunch of elements I’ve been playing with for a long time but never fit #and I am obsessed with all of the character concepts I have rn. there are 4 and this caters DIRECTLY to me #I’m getting much better at crushing the anxiety spikes that are uh. like. vaguely scrupulously ig that kept me from making things do ages #in favour of going hard on self indulgence and I’m having a great time #scrupulosity* as in i worry incessantly abt readings and sociopolitical implications until I’m just exhausted by the concept and drop it #sometimes you can just have fun luke it’s okay #but yeah I am!! and I wanna draw them all and do more stuff but #I have THIS FUCKING LECTURE. most boring frustrating man alive hislectures SHOULD BE GOOD but he SUCKS #he cannot get to the point and takes so many detours which are COOL but he’s so pretentious about it his lectures are PAINFUL #I get headaches within a few minutes of listening to him talk this hasn’t happened since I was sleep deprived in the v basic first year 9ams #and I’m on the last one. out of four. I have half an hour left. but this half an hour is insurmountable #and I gotta finish it bc I have so much other stuff to do (only two more lectures (better)!!! but also coursework now #which is easier!! and I know how to do both of them but it’ll take a chunk of time and I’m committed to getting it done by end of next week #okay. okay fine. I will watch this dumb fucking lecture and it will hurt #but once it’s done I will literally never have to listen to him talk again this is it forever. one last stretch #and then I can mess w my story while I have food. I can do this. pray for me #luke.txt

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gremlingottoosilly · 26 days

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Monster!Konig finding a darling who's a hybrid of his kind or a sub-species, soft and pliant and maybe is even the one who seeks Konig out. Like she smelt him and went 'mm big strong mate. Gotta snatch that up.'

Being a soft and compliant hybrid who got to Konig's base and presented herself to him...you had competition, of course. the colonel was a really nice snack for any fertile monster lady in the area, but something in your sweet manners, in your soft voice, and pretty features made him reconsider searching for a strong, resilient mate for his eggs. It wouldn't matter anyway, his children surely taking his form or a stronger hybrid one - but he looks into your eyes and sees something he likes. If anything, he can find an incubator for a clean batch of eggs...you're still going to be his pretty mate. He parades you like a trophy, showing you off to everyone. Ever weaker monster needs to see the way you cling to him so they could understand how their mates should behave - and every pretty pet should take notes of your behavior. You're pretty, especially when you're filled with his eggs, and Konig often indulges in just sitting with you on his lap, kissing your face or your belly. There isn't a moment when his hands or his tentacles aren't on your body - he will only leave you during the missions, simply because he doesn't want to risk your life. His officers would have to get used to see your shaking form on his lap, getting pounded over and over again. Everyone knows that the Colonel hates pointless official meetings, and no one can really say a word against him fucking his wife on the table, but people do get slightly jealous. You're pretty and so fertile, so obedient - everyone should thank him for allowing even the sight of your body and not keeping you hidden. You're so active, too - sometimes even riding him in his chair, with your hands grasping his shoulders as you bounce on his cock, begging him to fill you with even more eggs. What a pretty, perfect pet you are.

#cod #konig x reader #konig #yandere konig #cod x reader #yandere cod #monster!konig #tw: monster fucking #call of duty

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