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futuristichedge · 3 months
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Surprise! This cat is transgender
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spooksicl-e · 1 year
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small comic for a thing i’m very deviously constructing with a friend (nemesis)
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sobeksewerrat · 2 months
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What’s something you wish you could see more of (or you don’t see at all) in fics for tmf, relationship(s)-wise, certain characters getting more focus than they did in canon, etc—?
Ooooh, there is a lot, but here are some things:
Hailey being more of her GL era self, instead of an annoying bitch or shy girl from the GC era
Wish the Dromies got more focus on their friendship and closeness instead of "These are the Dromies. These are Drew and Jake. They are the only ones who matter here"
I SO wish Daisy got to be matchmaker in a few more Drake fics. Like, cmon, she's perfect! And her friendship with Jake is adorable!
MORE. FICS. FOCUSING.ON. ZANDER'S. TRAUMA.
Can we please get more character depth for Henriam and Milly instead of just "haha funny silly guy into MILFs", "haha funny silly guy into anime" and "haha funny silly gal who is violent"??
Hailey's backstory with Lia. Cmon you guys the Hailia friends to enemies to lovers writes itself.
Need to have more fics to show Zoey's characterization, even if she isn't the focus character. She is usually an ominous background figure or wayyy ooc. (I am guilty of this myself usually because my fics are vent fics in disguise. However, I am trying to improve somewhat)
LESS MISOGYNY IN M/M FICS. PLEASE.
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girl-from-yharnam · 4 months
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📸 Scott Strazzante
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wheeboo · 8 months
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is everyone just collectively feeling like shit today becuz same
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howelljenkins · 3 months
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kal i had an interview with harvard and im fucking stressing because i feel like i sounded so contrived and worried the entire time. like my answers were fine but its just sometimes i felt that i was rambling on and on about something this woman couldnt bring herself to care about. is it wrong of me to feel a little bitter? here i am doing an interview with a person who will forever be financially better off than me because her and her hoity toity husband are both harvard law graduates. meanwhile, i was given an interview but in the same way meryl streep goes take a chance, hire the fat smart girl in the devil wears prada. unserious and ultimately a falsely kind gesture before eventual rejection. according to the harvard crimson there were about as many students here in the top 1 percent by income as the bottom 60 percent in 2017. like fuck your stupid interview and your billions in endowment and your colonial history and your silencing of students. whatever. and i still would matriculate if i got in and could afford it. i feel like a hypocrite.
welcome to higher education. this feeling does not go away but i find it’s better fueled into 1) combatting imposter syndrome 2) use your position to help boost other poor kids up too. like u said majority of them are rich hoity toity losers who quite frankly are not that smart so it’s hard to put much credence to their opinion of you. being poor at a rich PWI made me adopt a positive absurdist philosophy i think. everything is silly and all those legacies wish they could be as interesting and enduring and fantastically talented as not only the 1% of normal people who get in but also the 99% of normal people who don’t get in and still have more merit than they could ever dream of
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nosleepgummitato · 1 year
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ITS DONE
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I finished this far sooner than I expected tbh.
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wordfather · 2 years
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opens my ribcage and takes out my heart and gives it a little kiss and then carefully puts it back
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ncthandrake · 1 month
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so i realized that i’ve never shared any of my ocs on this blog before and i started playing ffxiv last night soooo might as well show my new baby!!! 💕 love her sm 🥰
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A little post-river pick-me-up.
Lucy Carlyle x gn! Reader
Summary: R makes panqueques con dulce de leche (argentinian crepes filled with a milk based caramel) for the team after the shiver-inducing Thames fiasco.
Warnings: Falling into the Thames (chapter 7 follow-up), me sugarcoating the end because I'm weak for this fandom and this fandom only, and fluff.
A/N: The uncover DEPRAC agent didn't die, Joplin (just noticed in the book she's a man btw) doesn't exist, and Penelope Fittes is a good person, because I say so. Also, reader is Lockwood's cousin.
Word Count: 1.9k
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Thank God. 
Thank God you were born in a town surrounded by water, thank God your father had insisted on swimming lessons since you were five, thank God you actually learned.
You’d probably drowned otherwise. Jumping from that rooftop, at least fifteen meters high, was already too much of a physical trauma, to add struggling to keep afloat on top of it. Now that you think about it, thank God you’d done all those scouts survival courses too. 
The moment the three of you hit the water, and after the initial sinking -followed by the thermic shock and panic- you instinctively swam up to the surface.The night breeze was somehow even colder than the Thames now.
“Lucy!” You yelled with the first gulp of air you got into your lungs. “Anthony!” You weren’t sure how far they could be, if you had drifted away during the fall, if they were still underwater. It was pitch black, and you didn’t even know if you were safe from the golden blade yet.
You kicked your shoes off into the river to lessen the weight, and considered doing the same with your dressing pants. “LUCY!” You heard some rustling in the water near you, and begun a clumsy front crawl towards it. It was your cousin, Anthony, who seemed to have just had his first breath. You held onto his arm. "Are you okay?"
"Peachy." He was having no problem with keeping his head above the water, so you let go.
You rolled your eyes, a dry but sincere "Great." Left your mouth, then you got serious. “I can’t find Lucy.” 
He nodded dutifully, but before either of you started calling out for the girl, she popped up a few meters away from you. You thanked God again, but noticed that she was coughing and struggling to stay afloat.
Lockwood got to her first and helped stabilize her, but you noticed that he was just as shaken, so it was kind of up to you to wear the trousers in the situation. Which right now meant to take them off. You had a pair of biking shorts under anyway, no biggie. So you did, discarding your coat into the river as well.
You got closer to Lucy and took Lockwood’s place holding her up. You weren’t sure Lucy knew how to swim at all. 
“We need to get to shore ASAP.” Anthony nodded again. You wondered if today’s events were too much for him, he seemed so quiet, unlike his usual self. You already missed his overconfident attitude.
At some point of the trip to the nearby beach, Lucy had actually started swimming by herself. Still, you kept an eye on her, just in case.
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Getting out of the river was not as satisfying as you had imagined. You were grateful and relieved to be on solid ground, of course, as the whole group’s muscles were quite fatigued, and you were all agitated after swimming; but the cold that came with it was almost unbearable. The three were shivering violently when you threw yourselves to the gravel to catch your breaths.
Lockwood was the first to sit up. He felt horribly guilty for how the events had unfolded and how all of you had ended up in this situation. He knew it was his fault, his pride started the whole bone glass thing anyway.
Your teeth were chattering, and you knew you all were going to die of hypothermia if you didn’t get home as soon as possible. Besides, sooner or later you were bound to cross paths with a Visitor, and you were in no condition to fight. 
You turned to your side, and saw Lucy looking up at the dark cloudy sky with glassy eyes. Her lips were turning purple.
You jumped up into action, and reached an arm towards your girlfriend to help her up too. She struggled a little bit to gain balance, and so did Lockwood, and so did you, but in no time you were walking towards the nearest ghostlight to hail a night cab. 
Your appearance wasn’t decent at all. You were all dressed in night attire, but wet to the bone and filthy. Lucy’s mascara was running down her cheeks, and you were barefoot and in gym shorts. For a second you thought you probably looked like wet, sad, kicked puppies. Still, a taxi driver took pity on you and parked.
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You didn’t even have the energy to fight Lockwood on this one, or tell him how reckless he had been, or how you could have all died tonight. You were exhausted. Still, as his family, you had the inherent responsibility to make him take account for his actions. “You can take the shower first, Luce.” You told her the moment you stepped into 35 Portland Row. 
“Are you sure..?” She turned around to look at you, hesitant to climb up the stairs to your shared room. 
You nodded and tried your best to smile for her. “Of course, just don’t use all the hot water again, please.” The joke went right over her head, but she still nodded and made her way to the attic.
You crossed your arms to try and hide your shivering. When you were both alone, you turned to face your cousin. “Dude..” 
“I know. I’m sorry” You didn’t mean to make him feel worse about it, but this wasn’t going to just be forgotten and forgiven like almost everything always was.
“You fucked up big time.” He just gulped and stared at his now water damaged dress shoes. You sighed. It was not the time anyways. “Go shower so I can patch up your forehead.” He was about to complain, but you cut him off with a gesture of your hand, “Don’t lie to yourself, we all know you’re an awful nurse. Now go.”
“You sound like aunt Lauren.” He grumbled. That’s how genetics work, you thought, but before you could react, he had already gone upstairs.
You sat on the second bottom stair step, and leaned your body to rest on the wall. You were facing the door, waiting for George to barge in, and tell you all that the mirror had been safely handed to DEPRAC. You truly couldn’t take any other scenario for an answer. 
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The dissonant shriek the hinges emitted when the entrance door was opened disturbed your sleep. You hadn’t even realized you dozed off. You clothes were still wet and cold, so it couldn’t have been too long.
“George.” You said standing up slowly. Your knees popped and the general soreness hit you like a tidal wave. “Is it over?”
He turned the key and locked the house. “What happened to you-”
“Long story, jumping into the Thames does this sometimes, is it over?” You repeated. It sounded desperate.
He seemed to understand. “Yes, it is. The furnaces are not on during the night, but I made sure they took the mirror to the lowest level to be incinerated first thing in the morning.”
“Good.” Everyone was inside, everything was okay. You were all safe and alive. You tried to hold on to that thought. You breathed out slowly. “I need a shower.”
Halfway up the stairs you looked over your shoulder. “The entirety of today was a clusterfuck. How does argentinian milk caramel crepes tomorrow afternoon sound? If we go to Arif’s before that I can prepare some. This team really needs a pick-me-up.”
George took in your tired eyes and miserable appearance altogether. He formed a half-smile and nodded softly. You did the same and headed to the small bathroom in the attic, making a quick detour to apply a few steri-strips to Anthony's forhead and calling it a day.
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You got out of the shower and dried your hair. Your piyamma was already on when you got out of the bathroom and into the room, a cloud of steam following you. The lights were off, but the street’s ghost lamp illuminated enough for you to get to your side of the bed without stumbling over something.
Lucy had been so tired she had fallen asleep over the covers. You picked her up softly, undid the bed and did your best to settle her in, following suit onto your side. She stirred.
“What took you s’long?” she slurred out. You could tell she wasn’t really awake. You answered anyway.
“I was just waiting for George to get home. It's over.” You were lying on your back, and in her drowsy state she got closer and curled onto your side, an arm around your waist. You caressed her hand softly with your fingertips.
“Yeah?” She asked. You hummed in confirmation. Her body relaxed and her breathing evened out. Soon enough, so did yours.
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The feeling of freezing water engulfing you and getting into your lungs woke you up. You opened your eyes, the adrenalin already in your bloodstream, muscles itching to get into action. But you didn’t. You were safe, in your room with your girlfriend sleeping soundly by your side. It was just a nightmare.
You didn’t want to go back to sleep though; you knew if you did, your mind would come up with more terrors to torment you with. From your position you checked the clock on the wall. 10.52 a.m. Too early for your liking, but it would have to do.
You got up slowly, making sure Lucy's sleep didn’t get disturbed in the slightest. 
Every single fiber of your body was sore, it felt worse than the night before, but it made sense, so you decided to ignore it.
You brushed your teeth and picked up some clothes to change downstairs.
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After getting the supplies and getting the pancake pan going, little by little the house started waking up. 
“Would you please put the kettle on the stove?” You asked George. He was the first to wake up and the most alive looking, at least compared to the shapeless form slumped over the table, AKA your cousin Anthony. Lucy hadn’t gotten up yet.
It was one p.m. when the last crepe left the pan. They were all stacked up on a plate, ready to be filled with dulce de leche and enjoyed. The tea was already in the teapot, Ariff's swiss rolls on display, and other add ons made by George scattered around.
Still, Lucy wasn’t there.
“Don’t you dare start without us.” you said in an over dramatic manner, pointing at them and making a threatening gesture as you headed upstairs. You knew they were going to be halfway down the stack by the time you came back anyway, but you didn’t actually care that much. 
“Lucy…” You sing-songed when you got to the attic. At first glance you noticed she hadn’t changed position from when you left her a few hours before. 
You sat on the edge of the mattress and ran your fingers through her hair. Slowly but surely, she started stirring, her eyelashes fluttering open.
“Hi.” She croaked out.
“Hi, babe. There are fresh crepes in the kitchen, and I was wondering if you wanted some… you know, before they get eaten by George and Anthony… who were left unsupervised just about now in front of the plate-”
She jolted up at that. You knew it would do the trick, since it was her favorite dish. She smiled broadly, gave you a little peck on the cheek and got into the bathroom.
In no time you were both heading towards the kitchen, holding hands.
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Bonus:
You were surprised to see the guys hadn’t gotten to inhaling the food yet. Then realized as they handed you a butterknife, they were just too lazy to actually spread the caramel into the crepes. You rolled your eyes, but prepared one for each, and then another one. You ate last, but you didn’t mind, you were happy you could bring a smile into their faces, even if it was just with something as simple as food.
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After finishing the breakfast feast, the whole agency, one by one disappeared into your bedrooms to take a well deserved nap.
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charliecharlington4 · 5 months
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i haven't been getting enough sleep lately and i straight up do not feel good mentally🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 also i dont think my antidepressant is working but that's not my problem now im jusr tired 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 also if i ever post anything odd, i probably posted it on a tuesday or thursday morning because on those days i get to school around 6:50am and sit there just on my phone or thinking until 8am so i am NOT to blame for any overly silly posts 🔥🔥🔥 (disclaimer: the following statement has no relation to the previous. i just like autism) another day another autistic trait unearthed 🔥🔥🔥 speaking of which do you guys have those friends that you're sure are neurodivergent but they don't think so because i have those types of friends irl and i guess kind of online (my friend ryan hi ryan btw you cannot escape the adhd allegations) and yeah what wwas i saying uhhh oh yeah i havent been getring enough sleep and my brain doesn't work well when that happens does anyone have advice 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
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ditch-lily · 11 months
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lol rip to my work schedule the last few days but i've emerged from jbc late night schedules (damn u timezones), jbc morning schedules (damn u timezones), and friends coming over to watch kp.... yet somehow also finished up 6k on the next chapter....
lol yeah anyway back to work deadlines i'm a dumbass
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syncrovoid-presents · 8 months
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I am. Not dead. BUT will be gone for a like a day or few because the stuff at work did not! want! to! work!
Which I'd another way of saying that I finally was able to get free after working 34 consecutive hours in a row. The day prior I got 1 hour of sleep and that is all after 5 days of 10 or 11 hour work days.
I am so sleepy. I am taking tomorrow off and probably going to sleep right through it. Anywho cheers everyone!! I am going to go to the shadow realm now @:P
#syncrovoid.txt#delete later#maybe??#the one coworjer that has been helping as best he can is now calling me a cyborg haha! it is funny#but strange because before i was officially hired the supervisor (lead programmer) said i was#i was like a robot and if i had been perfect there'd be no difference#<- this was his notes when i finished my (payless) practicum there that lead to me being hired before graduating#ironically the new guy (hes been around half a year lol) was one of the only other people that graduated from my course#none of us ever met but it is cool!! and he did a lot to help out over this week of nonstop work#<- okay i KNOW someone will say “hey. you know you could have stopped right?”#but consider. i have very bad body awareness so i dont notice much impact from sleep deprivation and also i would feel so guilty @:(#and also consider!! i have either earned a hefty paycheck of the redt of the week off so like. capitalism yay?????#<- i do not support capitalism#ALSO sleep deprivation is SOOO silly because i get hyper! i feel like i get more and more energy and my brain doesnt stop thinking!#i have had a grand total of 3 hours of sleep in the past uhhh 4 days??#it is so silly!! but probably not good for me#but i CAN confirm to you that when websites say it takes 3 days of no sleep to start hallucinating they are exaggerating#it takes at least 5 or a week with only 1 or 2 hours sleep#even then it is so minor.#weirdest sleep deprivation hallucinations ive had was where every second time i blinked the world was overlayed with a different one#it has happened twice and it is literally and without exageration the STRANGEST feeling in the world. in the universe even#it is like you are flickering btween two realms that occupy the same physical space but from two different theoretical spaces#if that makes sense??#the first time it happened it was at a huge school sleep over and every few moments the gym full of sleeping bags and other peeps#would transform into all the chill monsters just living their life. like monsters in terms of not looking human nor like any earthly creatur#but not mentally monsters. it was like a towns square sort of thing? so they were rushing about and coming in and out the doors#second time it happened i was like 14 and in the back of an overstuffed car with a friend and their mom and we were in the middle of nowhere#forest for hours and hours longer still. slept on the side of the road lol. but it was like very so often huge huge giants would step over#the trees. all you could see was the somewhat woody-scaly texture of these massive massive poles or legs or whatever#slowly moving over the forest and walking around. looking up into the sky they just faded away too tall to see
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famderfries · 2 years
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Thinking about how Snotlout has this grand facade that no one really believes that hes cutthroat and suave and cool and manly because thats what his father says he should be, but he will see one (1) dragon that he likes and immediately melt and cry and show hes literally anything BUT his father
#And he always goes back into it too :(#GOD i WISH theyd let him commit to being himself in the third movie :(#like if theyd given him solid developmen and than killed him off it wouldve given hiccup all of the motive to send the dragons away#Snotlout is one of those characters that isnt allowed to change for reasons you csn totally empathise with and I love him so much#Snotlout is GENUINELY a complex character and the movies do him kinda dirty tbh#Like you have this fuckin. swagged out bully who thinks hes so cool and so strong and all that. and he deprives his dragon of sleep-#and attention and youre thinking 'God This guy sucks.' AND THEN YOU MEET HIS DAD AND YOURE LIKE OH. NEVERMIND#and honestly? peak character introduction#Having Spitelout himself be such an absolute asshole who only believes in muscle and strength and masculinity is so interesting#And the whole group hates him!!! and they put up with Snotlout partly because his dad SUCKS.#AND AND AND. SNOTLOUT IS ACTUALLY SUPER COOL. HES ACTUALLY HAD SO MANY COOL MOMENTS BUT ONLY WHEN NO ONE IS WATCHING#AND THATS BECAUSE AROUND EVERYONE ELSE HE FEELS THIS PRESSURE TO BE WHAT HIS DAD EXPECTS BUT AS SOON AS HES ON HIS OWN HES SOOO COOL#like hes genuinely so likeable and soft and caring but Spitelout is such an abusive piece of shit that he doesnt like him for it#this is surface level analysis treated as if its profound but you get the point#heres your monthly snotlout rant#apollo says stuff#snotlout#snotlout jorgenson#snotlout httyd#httyd#how to train your dragon#rtte#riders of berk#defenders of berk#rob/dob#apollo rants abt httyd
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whis--ker · 4 months
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rewatching pafl after a new episode releases is so so so so so so so wonderful everybody watch pafl immediately
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ugh i feel fucking sick. probably spent too much time inside but. ok i can go out tmrw as long as i sleep early tonight. i could maybe take some more photos as well. wait ig i could do a mini photo dump here from. the other day. when i  went out. some of them r nice :3 ok wtf tumblr lemme add the fucking photos. ok there we go. undrer the cut bc otherwise theyd make the post 2 long.
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there r a couple others idve added butttt theyd most likely doxx me lmao soooo yea. also bonus cat
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