#sorry I didn’t get any sleep

[wundrousarts]

if you're still taking requests, maybe archan, mahir, or francis? i love them all so much and they're very underrated. only if you want to! your art is the best part of the fandom.

I like doing requests as warmups or chances to experiment or etc. so you are always free to send them in and there’s a good chance I’ll get around to it eventually! Anyways, I just went ahead and drew them all lol 👍

I still need to figure out their designs further, but I think this is a good start… I don’t think I’ve ever properly drawn any of them. Every year around 9/19 I set out to draw a 919 lineup and it never ever happens, so I’m glad I could still share how I see them this way :)

#nevermoor #nevermoor fanart #archan tate #mahir ibrahim #francis fitzwilliam #asks #sorry for the low quality I’ve been drawing nevermoor stuff real tiny on a huge canvas so this is a screenshot lol #also I’ve been in a 3/4 angle heads phase lately bc I’ve been enjoying drawing chins / more varied shapes but also. I’ve gotta move on lol #anyways ever since I moved mogtober announcements to 9/19 I doubt I’ll ever draw a proper lineup for them for. awhile. #I have some heads from 2021 and I started a lineup in 2022 and I prob won’t get around to anything in 2023 so. who knows lol #the colors might be off bc I colored this late at night and forgot abt changing brightness and also the screenshot was weird so. idek. #it’s 1AM I’m going to sleep zzzzz. hope you enjoy! #also I didn’t consult any wikia pages or anything so ummm. who knows what their eye colors are. or hair colors even. I certainly don’t. #I just imagine archan as blonde bc the angel/cherub? comparisons and I imagine francis’ hair to be short and close to his head bc cooking #mahir is. idk if his hair has ever been described but I imagine it slightly long. not quite jack length but it’s also not short. #pretty similar lengths just I feel like jack’s hair would lean longer and he’d let it grow out slightly while mahir would get a trim sooner

[scionshtola]

currently cori has the emperors new fists for their mnk weapon bc the whole idea behind mnk cori is estinien was like “you need to learn to throw hands in case you can’t use magic or your gun.” but i’m kind of enamored by the idea of them engineering themself a pair of gloves or aetherically charged brass knuckles or something after enw

#i just like letting cori use any skills she might have picked up from working with stephanivien lol #also i’ve been toying with the idea of cori making rings or bracelets that help collect and channel their aether through their grimoire #and other weapons since they have a hard time with it currently #and i think that would be easier than making something for each weapon? but idk if that would work #i mean i guess technically speaking it’s not really lore compliant anyway so whatever but i like to stick to what i can #anyway i think estinien is like cori this defeats the purpose and cori just makes him a pair and just like the friendship bracelet #he cherishes them forever #also the conversation that exists in my head between them that’s like estinien telling cori he didn’t think it would be permanent when he #said they might not use magic one day he just wanted them to not die if they had to fight and cori’s like well. wistful glance into #the distance. you were right i guess so thank you. #is actually very heartwarming #they’re unexpected besties #i need a text post tag #sorry. i think the less sleep i get the more posts and tags i have to write

[saminthea]

Is it appendicitis or just fibromyalgia and a stomach bug? Guess we'll see in the morning!

#fuck #nothing like a gradual increase in acute abdomen pain over the course of the week #along with diarrhea and nausea and lack of appetite #tmi #probably #my mom's giving me a ride to the ER in the morning #still have a couple irl friends as mutuals here #not right now because I've yet to throw up and I don’t think I have a fever #probably just not going to sleep so I can be sure I'll be awake when it's time to go #spend the rest of the night by the toilet in case I throw up #she's a nurse so she had me do the test where you put pressure on the pain and then release #at first it didn’t feel any worse #and then #it felt A LOT worse #vent #sorry #I've never had surgery before #and as previously mentioned I have fibro #which is probably going to mean a longer recovery time #did you know fibro can get worse when you have other infections in your body? #I'm currently having the worst flare up I've had in months #and it came out of nowhere #god Im not ready to potentially need surgery #I'm hosting a gala in 2 weeks! #a gala that has been in the works for months! #there might be as many as 40 people there #at least I have MaineCare #so I don’t have to worry about my insurance deciding not to cover it #very deliberatly posting this here and not Facebook #just so I don’t needlessly worry friends and family

[lilyoffandoms]

Y’all are amazing! I wanted to say something yesterday but I was truly at a loss for words when Elsa messaged me.

I don’t deserve the honor you have all given me by surprising me with your group decision for me being the next CFWC’s writer of the month. I would absolutely 100% choose any and all of you before me but I am so beyond surprised, happy, and excited that y’all did this for me. Thank you thank you thank you!

Thank you to each of you for participating in this little event and for supporting other writers and being all around some of the most amazing people!!

@aallotarenunelma @jerzwriter @storyofmychoices @karahalloway @tessa-liam @peonyblossom @mydemonsdrivealimo @trappedinfanfiction @petiteboheme @coffeeheartaddict2 @ladylamrian

#i seriously didn’t know what to say yesterday #but now that i got some sleep (best sleep i’ve gotten all week) #after a crazy amazing weekend with friends doing something entirely new to me and sooooo out of my comfort zone #and after getting a new phone overnighted since i lost mine in a sink full of water on friday #i can finally respond properly to y’all #also using my friends ancient mobile last night was an experience lol i think i messed up posting 10 times at least #i emailed my editor from my friends address because i didn’t log out her account #i opened two docs from my friends account too #i was a mess yesterday so sorry to any of y’all that witnessed it lol #now that i’m done probably over sharing thank you so so so much to each of you for this surprise!!

[petrichorium]

Happy anniversary of the time I wrote 20k words in a week and got ghosted by the artist who was supposed to make art for the fic lol

#it’s been a year I can be bitter now right #for a SINGLE DAD BAKUGO FIC r u kidding I should have had artists lining up to make the art and instead I get shafted #I don’t fully blame the Big Bang staff. I think it could’ve been handled better but it’s mostly on the artist #but wow that rlly happened huh LMFAOOOOOO #shoutout to Shay for being the most supportive friend through all that truly #I got to live vicariously through her assigned artist who was amazing && also she drew me some stuff that was adorable 🥺 #if anyone wants to know why sleeping is taking so long to write it’s bc I was fueled by spite and a deadline for the first chapter and now #I am just. kinda bitter and sad abt the rest #which sucks bc I love the fic I rlly do #hopefully I can get over it bc it’s silly to let something like that ruin the fic entirely #SO insane tho. the way I was the only one who made the cut and didn’t get art too #not even bc I didn’t get picked but bc my artist was a sham. nice. love that truly #the staff was okay. I’m not gonna pretend I felt supported but I get that it’s a complicated and stressful event #and it was a difficult situation bc my artist insisted they were working on stuff. never got an official ‘sorry I’m dropping out’ message #so I get it. but I’m also still pissed :) abt the whole situation not. at any singular member or staff or anything #mostly at the artist #but again could have been handled better fr

[foxgloveinspace]

hi hello!

i am being very very normal about this video i swear

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM6XEFBCc/

i am so, so week for guitarists 🫠 also the eye contact with the camera?! so, so normal i promise🫣

(i may or may not be using sleep token vids as a distraction from school stress and also stressing over presale tickets lmao)

I’m not being normal haha.

There’s too much to concentrate on at one time haha. I love his eyes in this lighting, (love that jacket gonna miss it), I love how you can still hear both Vessel and IV (tho Vessel is much quieter). I love how IV holds his hands as he walks away from the mic at the end. He has this way with his hands that I can only describe as elegant, but in a harsher way then I would describe Vessel’s. Where as III’s are… ‘sharp’ and II’s are ‘dominant’ for lack of a better term haha (idk if that’s right, but more so in the since of commanding then… anything else). And jeez…. Even the way he walks.

I was trying to think of something witty to say but I got nothing. I love how the camera pans over to show Vessel doin his little dancy dance at the end haha.

#very much so #sleep token #hihi!!! #friend exie!! #ahhhhh sorry your stressing about tickets!! #if you get to go. please take some vids again haha. #I do not get to go no matter if I had the money or not oof #that didn’t make that much since but I won’t try again lmao #they are…. going to be 4 hours from me. but I don’t have a license and even if I did my dad would have a right panic attack if I tried to #go across state without someone else #he’s too over protective of me I swear. if I had a car. and any money. I’d be going. but alas. #weird to think you posting iii vids and being a simp for him was how we become friends haha. #exie I know you passed your one year sleep token anniversary but mine is Monday!😭😱 #how has it been a year?? and also how has it ONLY been a year?? #edit: I wish they would go to starlight theater in KC so badly. 😭😭

[the-teddy-bear-butch]

Sometimes I really just need to hear “I’m proud of you” even when I fail.

#can’t sleep #stressed about my biochem exam in the morning #and I know if I do bad I’ll get a lecture #the whole ‘well did you do x y and z’ from my mom #yeah maybe I didn’t do 100% of the things that could be done #but I did was I was physically and mentally capable of #I did not have the time or mental capacity to seek out the TA #besides I don’t know what to even ask them to clarify/help me understand anyway #but I studied #and I did the homework #and I showed up for most of the classes outside of the ones I missed for chronic pain issues #she doesn’t understand how badly I’m in pain a lot of the time… #or she’s just used to pushing through it herself #idk how she does it but I can’t #I’m so tired #I just wish she’d tell me it’s okay she’s not mad and she’s proud without any sort of additional commentary #it would do wonders #sorry this was way longer than it was meant to be I’m just thinking out loud and throwing words into the void

[queenangella]

sometimes working together on a thesis is like *she cant do her tasks because she’s busy with following classes I guess there’s really nothing else she does* me: oh its fine I get it I’m busy too sometimes you know if I can help you with anything let me know:)) vs. *I can’t do all my tasks on time bc well i work six days in a week and spend three nights a week doing volunteer work and oh because my thesis partner is apparently once again busy with following classes I guess she dumped all her work on my lap* she: oh you should tell me next time if you’re busy cause these tasks are really important :/ you shouldn’t like let them wait so long

#like yeah bitch I know they’re important that’s why I woke up early Monday morning to handle them but if you remember. I couldn’t cause you #did everything you were supposed to do wrong:)) and #then I skipped my lunch because that was the only time I could make free to fix it but couldn’t :)) bc apparently you didn’t even do it #wrong you just didn’t do it you copied it from someone else whose task wasn’t even remotely the same:))) #and like I get that following classes is important I get it but I literally looked up her schedule she’s got at least four half days a week #that she doesn’t have any classes. I’m making literally every minutes I have time to do these things and she can’t manage to make some time #in those four afternoons???? so she dumps them on my to do them all in the one day of the week I got free and have also other things to do #which forces me to literally not eat and sleep to be able to do them???????? #I’m so pissed our meetings are literally like me: ‘oh yeah I’ve got an incredibly busy week but I’m sure if I just work longer in the #evening and sleep a little less then I can make an hour free every day to do these interviews’ #she: ‘that’s great that you can make time for that! I can’t cause I’ve got a class somewhere that day so can you do like all the work??’ #like if she’s gonna dump me for the statistical analysis I’m gonna literally destroy all the data in my wake good luck doing the actual work #all over again next year #sorry I’m probably overreacting #she’s not that bad but she also needs to shut up instead of criticising bc I’m not doing all the work fast enough while she’s ‘so busy’ all #the fucking time #at least I’m doing the fucking work

[celestialulu]

i am not fit for waking up before 11am my sleep has been messed up for months

#it’s gotten worse too because I keep getting anxiety late at night thinking about bad things happening #because one of my relatives is in the hospital though I’m not close to them it makes me think like idk my grandparents probably could just #Yknow any day now #I used to have this like a year ? 2 years ago ? #but I got over it #i wish I had like sleeping pills or something #i would go to the doctor but I hate talking on the phone #didn’t mean to go on a long rant sorry will delete laterrrr

[flintstill]

God I loved that in my neighborhood back where my lease is that the grass gets mowed at like 5pm or a bit later

Fuck ye outside my window I’m trying to go back to sleep

#dsps #dspd #dswpd #my mom just screamed at me for taking a sleeping pill to go back to bed #(which is unfortunately not uncommon. esp at my parents house where I can never get good sleep) #especially because my fucking body woke me up after 4 hours of sleep when I am trying to sleep as much as possible like 12+ hours #to fight off the fevers I’ve been intermittently having #and the yeast infection from hell and two different cold sores in 3 weeks despite #I literally paid for a hotel for two nights because I tried valiantly and failed to get any decent sleep at my parents house #even with melatonin and cbd and CBN and sleeping pills literally trying every *safe* combination #and then she accusingly asks me when I went to bed #like I’m not a fucking adult whose on fucking break. like I don’t have both adhd and fucking dsps #she just had joint surgery and I’m sorry I haven’t been able to help her as much #but I wasn’t even supposed to be here now?! I was supposed to fly back a week ago but had to cancel because I got sick #and have been running errands since #and also while sick #which has probably #made me fucking sicker? #like not yesterday but the two days before that I was running around doing errands with a fever. (covid negative) #I didn’t fucking ask to be sick or tomorrow be able to sleep in this house #and she fucking yelled at me that I have to go to bed at midnight #like bitch I don’t have to do anything #and thank you again for making me feel so profoundly misunderstood and unlistened to #and worthless because of my adhd and dsp #I really hope it was the pain from the surgery and her pain meds not having kicked in #because it was out of character #like I hate that this is one of the few times your hearing about her to build a picture about #as if anyone is reading these tags haha I am processing and venting #because she is usually wonderful and lovely #but she was a fucking bitch. she really hurt my feelings

[sickgraymeat]

Every day 😭

#I’m not even leaving now shdbsdnndnd #it’s actually the burnout tho I will find any way to delay leaving for work it’s terrible #not even conscious like I’m writing paragraphs abt rejection sensitive dysphoria and communicating & respecting boundaries but #it’s always something #I need gas too I’m gonna be so late I hate this #ok I’m getting up RIGHT NOW #the worst is liek ‘im so sorry overslept have been sick and not sleeping great’ how do you say that to your employers who are parents of 2 #2 under 2??!!?! #like???? #I didn’t actually oversleep but it’s better than saying what I said here ahdbdndnnd and close to the truth the exhaustion sick weird sleep #is true

[lovelyisadora]

got a ten page proposal due tomorrow ✌️ have zero pages written ✌️

#what’s wrong with me lmao #anyway I feel horribly sick again!! and have to work tonight #and did not get any sleep #so uh. I don’t think the writing is gonna happen #in my defense I am in the middle of a horrible family emergency #but my prof was like too bad I’m only paid to work through June 15 get me the draft now or you’re being inconsiderate #and I was like ??? ma’am my sister relapsed and lost custody of my nephew and CPS didn’t give him to my mom and now we’re in a legal battle #like Jesus Christ sorry I’m trying to help my family get custody of my autistic eight year old nephew #grad adventures

[hey-op-just-kill-me]

Lmk how two of my professors are going to assign research papers the day before break and then make them due the day we get back.

#they’re like ‘what it’s not like you have classes to worry about it’s plenty of time’ as if people want to research and write 10 page papers #in the one week that we have off #like have I done anything productive this week? no. but that’s not the point #the point is breaks shouldn’t be for professors to assign more fucking work #like if my professors can still leave work from months ago ungraded then why the fuck do I have to hand everything in on time?? #my English professor legit said he didn’t understand my paper I’m writing for his class but that’s because he has yet to give any response #like he said it wasn’t well organized #I’m sorry maybe that’s because you’re trying to get my whole point from an outline and I was giving you a general FUCKING OUTLINE you won’t #see how point A reaches point C because you want this to be 10 pages and only to have 3 points #Istg I go back Tuesday and all I’m going to do until then is my assignments #all I’ve done up to this point is catch up on sleep that I didn’t have because I wake up and get on a train at 6am #sorry I love college it’s great (ehh) but sometimes it’s just like

[hiya-im-mary]

:(

(I’m letting out my feelings in the tags!)

#I’ve been feeling lonely #I’ve been in a bad mood and pretty irritable today #It might not be for any good reason butttt #I didn’t get a good night of sleep #Maybe that’s it? #or just how the human body works #I’ve just been feeling pretty lonely… #Soooo…not too good!!!! #… #I’m sorry for it!!!

[lesbiansanemi]

I am so Normal about fiction

Like I don’t get it. I don’t get it. I hate having conversations with normal people about fiction and stories and what books they like and shows they watch because they just—they just say “yeah, I liked this thing.”

Have you just not experienced the right story for you? Or do you just not care? Stories and art are everything to me. I experience a story I love, and I feel like it is literally a part of me. I read it, I watched it, and as I did that, it broke me apart and when I put myself together again it was all tangled up with me. Sometimes I ache from how much something affected me. It makes me feel more emotions than I could ever hope to describe and nothing can ever compare to it.

How do some people go their whole lives without experiencing this? I can tell, just by talking with people that they don’t really get this, and if I ever express these feelings or how powerful I think a good story is they look at me like I’m the weirdo, or just kinda smile and nod to be polite and I?????

What is it??? How are you missing this??? How can you live life without this????

I’m Normal about fiction and the rest of you are just experiencing it wrong or in a heavily diluted form or something

#I think I have one.... *maybe* two ppl I have attempted to talk about this with kinda get it #no one else has #my family always thought I was fucking weird any time I tried to express this #most of my friends are like ‘eh stuff is good but not Like That’ #and I just.... #don’t understand??? #how has nothing connected to you #how are you just *going* through your life without this? #if I didn’t have this I don’t know *what* I would be #I think if any kind of higher being exists it’s a story #*that* is how you connect with the world #that is how you touch it and experience it and express it #to me anyways #and I just don’t understand how some people.... don’t #anyways it is very late and I am very tired and I have spent all day today jumbling up my emotions my watching my favorite things #I will go to sleep now sorry about the rambling I am just laying in bed and Thinking a whole lot #kaz rambles

[marshmellowtea]

Dude, buddy, amigo, it's fine! I don't know about the others but I didn't mind it, I don't think you embarrassed yourself and I don't think the rest of were actually bothered by it. (Although this could just be my spouting shit from my ass but still-)

hgg thank you, i’m sure you’re right i just. i dunno. feel kinda awkward about it ^^;

#but honestly i didn’t really get any negative responses so my brain is probably just overreacting #also sorry for not responding to this earlier #other than making soup and then making that post complaining about the soup i’ve done nothing but sleep for the past like. 20 hours #so now i’m gonna make coffee and actually try to do something so i feel less like i’m melting into the couch hdhvsthdd #marshy gets asks #red-pillpop