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𝑆𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐼𝑠 𝑊𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔, Part 1

A/N: I changed the original story line a bit in here, so just beware! Also, writers-block is a bitch and when I sit down to write something after ages... I have at least 20K worth of a work which I had to divide in 2 and even that isn't enough...

Warnings: Bill and Frank being parents, Bill is not dead, I know it was unfair for him but I love sadness, Bill being soft with reader, found family trope at its best, mentions of death, mentions of pregnancy in apocalyptic world, infected children, mentions of killing infected children...

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Joel Miller was a certaifed stupid, and how he left with Ellie only further proved this even when you clearly warned him about everything.

When you left the morning before, now it had been two days or maybe three, you wished and hoped that Joel would listen to you for once. After everything you did together, everything you told him about... You thought he wouldn't go with his plan.

But sitting down on a chair in Maria's home, while the woman was cursing at Tommy for also going with them, you couldn’t agree more with her frustration.” Those Miller boys and their stupidity! Who do they think they are when their women told them to sit their asses down?!” she hissed angrily, throwing her hand up in the air while you chuckled awkwardly and made her sit down to cool a bit.

“For your info, I’m yet to be the woman but I completely agree with ya.” You meant for the words to comfort her, but by the look of disbelief and even more anger on her face-if that was possible- she scoffed at you.

“Oh, come on! Don’t be ridiculous, we all know you two had sex 3 days ago and confessed.” She said, surpessing a smirk at your shocked gaze. “When- How did you-“

“Ellie and Addy told everyone... God damn it, if they weren’t such shits, we could have been celebrating this!” you weren’t surprised the two noisy kids who became best friends quickly told them about it, but it didn’t make it any less embrassing for you to hear it so plainly and clearly.

You slept with Joel the fucking Miller, the town’s new Eiffel Tower.

And you were so god damn smug and happy about it.

Especially remembering how painfully shy he had become after seeing you naked next to him was a sight by itself.

“Yeah, I did. One of the best nights of my life, and I intend to have them for more yearsto come so, if you excuse me... I will go and fetch their asses.” You said with a smile, remembering how his calloused and warm hands felt against your body, how you boldly made a move

“I’m comin-“ you raised a hand to stop Maria, pointing to her slightly obvious bump with a serious look.

“I know that you can hold yourself, Maria but the baby in you can’t.”

“You can’t go there alone, Y/N...”

“Who said I would?” you quirked your brow at her teasingly, her tilting her head in response. It wasn’t for long that she understood what you meant, and looked after you with her own knowing smirk.“Oh, you sly woman...”

Catching up to them, with a few days ahead of you, wasn’t hard. Being the Night Killer, the vicious killer who killed more than let alive, you were good with finding your way through the tunnels and forests.

But Bill wasn’t.

And Addy was obviously making it hard for him with her sassy answers which was a product of yours.

“God damn you, and your stubborn ass woman! Why the hell are we following after them?!” he yelled over, making Addy throw a funny face to him instead which made him grunt and raise his gun for any attacks. You rolled your eyes at both of their childish attitude, knowing Bill actually held a soft spot for the girl but since she was the living copy of you who had gotten the sassy remarks from him...

It made it hard for him.

“To save their sorry asses, old man. I didn’t tell you to follow me, just told you that I would be going after them. You were the one who came-“

“Yeah, because I made a promise to Frank!”

Frank, the name that made both of you bleed painfully. Bill, for the lover he lost, and you... For the father figure you lost. You gulped with tears sitting at the corner of your eyes, and Bill’s gaze softened at the way the love and care still was somewhere in your heart. Even though you were a killer for most, a hero or the villain who sacrificed everything...

You were still a little girl deep inside.

You were the reason why Bill didn’t kill himself that day, making a promise to Frank...

You were his new purpose now.

“I’m sorry for yelling, Y/N... I didn’t mean-“ he started regretfully, even for an ecantric man such as himself, he knew when he was wrong and needed to apologize. You knew it was a sensitive topic for him still, and you also knew what your true purpose was when you told him you were going to follow Joel and Tommy.

You knew he would come after you, and in a way, you used that against him.

“you don’t have to keep that promise anymore, Bill. You don’t have to pretend like you care either.” You said harshly and wiped your tears and continued walking through the empty, full of fungus streets while Bill was left speechless. Your story of meeting with the two was a strange one. It was one of those times that both he and Frank got out to kill the infecteds that entered the town. They stuck together but in the end, the Runnerz were a lot to handle and they accepted death...

Only to be met with the cold, black veil of legend herself.

The cold-blooded killer, Jack the Ripper in a female body...

The Night Killer.

After that, it was a constant loop of Frank trying to make you get out of your shell while Bill told him that it was the worst idea ever crossing his mind. But for some reasons unknown to Frank, you reminded him of himself.

Of how scared he was before meeting Bill.

And deep down, in your wild and cold eyes... He saw the potential to be more.

And he made it his mission to make it come true.

“I never said I didn’t care, Y/N...”

“Says the man who wanted to kill me at the first chance given... Seriously Bill, it’s not like I’m gonna blame you. I was the most horrible person and you had-“

“Shut up and listen for once, you woman!” you stood frozen at where you were, turning to him with a face that told him to go on. “It’s true that I didn’t like you at all, and even went as far as trying to hunt you in your sleep...” you rolled your eyes at his frustrated ramble, turning to leave and keep walking. You already knew about it all, knew and saw how... serious he was about killing you at that night. You still remembered the chills you got at the look in his eyes and the knife he held in between his hands, how you calmly continued to lay on your side and waited for him to finally kill you.

Kill you so that you could finally be free.

But for some reasons, he didn’t and instead widened his eyes, taking several steps back as if the sight of you and the knife in his hands burnt him. He then left without saying anything, and ever since then... You wondered why he didn’t kill you when he had the chance.

“If you trully wanted me dead... Why didn’t you do it when you had the chance? When I did nothing to stop you?”

“Because... I also saw what Frank did. How there was still a good part in you, an innocent and fragile side you never let anyone see... And suddenly, the feeling of caring for another being overtook me, made me scared. And I ran away, never talking about it to anyone, but deep down... I wished I had a child like you, even when I was being a douche and always said I hated the mere idea of them.” He tenderly took your hand in his, the young skin contrasting with his older and veiny ones, and with that simple act came the tears you had been keeping to yourself, making you stop and bow your head in silent agony.

You never knew he felt like that, never knew that two men you had come to care for as if they were your parents also saw you like their kid.

The kid they never had.

You always thought the soft, caring touches of Frank on your hair was just meant to tame you. The way he would make the best meals and bring them to you was only to keep you alive, and the way he insisted on teaching you how to take care of plants was a play to get under your skin and use it against you...

When all of them were done out of love and care.

I was so awful to Frank... The first man who treated me with kindness... And now, he is gone.

“How can you love me after all the shit I did to you? I was such a bitch to Frank, and now he is gone and I couldn’t even tell him that I, too, loved him like a dad...”

He watched you with his own sad ones, a soft smile pulling his lips up at the sight of you crying, feeling and seeing you as a little girl who injured herself. He didn’t know the answer why he was so protective of you, why he always stuck around you or even followed you here-barrelling out his house and coming as soon as possible- He often asked himself why, even after realizing that he started to feel like Frank about you.

He always silently watched over you, thinking that he was protecting Frank. Took more food to bring, time out to make sure there was nothing else that would come after you.

Even if you often walked in the most awkward times, such as mornings when you couldn’t find Frank who you grew used to easily.

“Y/N WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!”

“I am hungry and didn’t want to mess with anything in the kitchen... But I see that you had your fill.”

“I swear to God, if you don’t get out in 10 seconds...”

Or whenever you caught them in quite sensual ways, like a kid always following the parents. But they were like the kids being scolded in front of you with blushes all over their cheeks, with you standing before them with an agitated look.

“If we live in a house, there needs to be rules... Rule number 1 includes stop getting handsy.

He always thought what he felt deep in his heart, the flutters and the twitching, was because you irritated him. Before you, he did everything he wanted any time. By himself, and with Frank. He wanted that life, and often avoided you since he “saw” you as an obstacle...

He didn’t understand what it was until you went away one day, and never returned. He remembered how Frank was devastated, and how he begged him to find you and take care of you. Not for himself, for Frank was already dying.

But unknown to Bill, Frank put a radio in your bag before you left and kept in contact... Until the day he was dead.

And remembering Frank’s last words, there is someone that will have a part of me with Y/N, Bill saw what he meant by them.

Frank’s love and care shaped you into a better person, brave and strong. And you shaped the little girl running in front of you curiously, looking around without touching anything per your warning.

“I think he knows, dear... Frank is already here, with us. In the shape of that little girl. He changed you, thought you to love and care again, and you raised an amazing girl with your love.” You smiled at his words, deep down knowing that he was telling the truth. You weren’t related to any of them by any means, it was impossible after all, but you swore that Addy had Frank’s soft eyes, caring yet brave side that always protected those close to her.

And you hoped that Frank was trully watching you three, hopefully proud of you.

“Mom, I’m gonna go and look if there is something useful for us, okay?!” Addy yelled to you, pointing to one of the tall building ahead. You briefly looked to where she was pointing and nodded your head to her way.

“Okay, don’t get too deep inside!” she yelled something in response, excitedly going to the building you three would get in to look around more closely while you abruptly turned and gave Bill a hug.

A crashing hug that made one loose all the breath uet warmed them.

He chuckled at your unusual soft side and hugged you back, hands raking through your locks with his cheek smushed against the top of your head. He felt the tears come to his eyes slowly, having missed the feeling of having your loved one between his arms, and swore for his life to protect uou and Addy even if it costed him his life.

He would do it for you, for Addy, for Frank...

But above all, for himself and the lover you had lost.

He remembered Frank telling him one day that you found a man to love, brave and good-hearted, which made Bill feel jealous. Then he went on telling him everything he had learnt from you, what you guys did what you were doing, how everything was... Until his voice dropped at telling Bill what happened...

How Michael, your lover, was dead and you were left pregnant... Seriously, how long had it been?

“How old is she?”

“You mean how old did you get?”

“Y/N...” he warned you softly, which made you sigh and take his hand to get inside the building Addy disappeared into, on guard with your gun out.

“14...”

“That means... You gave birth to her when you were still the Night Killer.”

“I am always the Night Killer, Bill... I just keep that blood-thirsty, dark side of me controlled, hidden.... I didn’t want to let her go because I selfishly wanted someone I could love and drop that shocked attitude, I’m not a monster that kills children for no reason.” You giggled, slightly on guard after what you said. You knew that child infected ones were... disturbing for even a man like Bill.

And it definetly was.

“No reason? What could be the reason of such shit?!”

“Being infected... When they’re infected... There’s nothing you could do but end their misery. Even if it kills you inside.” You kicked one of the doors open with your gun, lowering your mouth to the radio to reach out to your daughter.

“Addy, where are you? Are you safe?” you waited for only a few seconds before she picked up. It was the deal between you two. When you would let her come with you, she always had to reply back to you and if she didn’t?

You would come to give Hell to the stupid asshole who tried to take your daughter.

“I’m safe mom! In the second door from your left, the door you kicked I mean....” you smiled in return and pointed to Bill where Addy was, both running inside to see the girl looking out one of the windows carefully with a stern, serious face.

Way to serious for her.

“Addy, what’s wrong?”

“Uhh...What I am seeing won’t make you any happier...” she said without looking, waiting for a few seconds before she spoke again innocently. “Not that grandpa here is happy at all...”

“Goodness, Y/N, did you have to raise your mini-me so perfectly?’

“My mom is amazing, of course she raised someone as perfect as she is!”

“Okay, okay! Stop simping over me and let me see!” you leaned over to see whatever it was that made your daughter get nervous, curious if it was some rookie raiders...

But the sight that welcomed you, was trully not a good one as Addy said.

“We need to go down and help them! They will get killed!” Addy quickly moved to head out, fierce in her own way to go and kill whoever threatened her family, whoever dared to hurt them. It was something she had seen from you, something she took after you and used at every chance given.

But you knew where that would go if you didn’t set some boundries.

She would go as far as sacrificing herself for others, with no single care for her life.

And you weren’t ready for that.

Ready to let her go, your little baby go, especially in a world like this.

“Addy... Be careful. I’m not loosing anyone today.” You held her wrist thightly, eyes shaky with fear for the girl before you, stopping her in her track. It had been days that you’ve been observing those fuckers, cannibals, and the last thing you wanted was to loose her when you were trying to save others.

She gave a beaming, reassuring smile, knowing how much you worried about her given to the circumstances, nodding to your words before hopping down and walking out the building alongside Bill. “We will, mom! You have our back after all!”

“Always, my dear... Always.” You whispered while looking at their backs sternly with thight lips, rounding up the corner to settle on the roof where they were keeping Tommy, Joel, Ellie and two other kids. Seeing them all tied up, Ellie screaming to be free while her tears poured down her eyes like waterfalls, Tommy struggling in his chair while screaming Joel’s name...

And the sight of Joel’s bloody torso...

They all ignited a fire deep inside, all burning and destroying, causing a rage that was far too dangerous even in this world. A rage that made you who you were...

They would pay, for the tears on Ellie’s face and the blood that was shed of your lover.

Entering the building with the girl a few steps before him, Bill shivered harshly. It was like those sudden shiverings when you knew trouble was close but deep down... He knew it was the effect of you.

The Night Killer’s effect, an affect that promised blood-shed.

Looking at the girl who was already resembling you a lot by the way she acted, he sighed and thought about Frank for what seemed like a hundreth time. He probably would love to learn that you didn’t run after revenge anymore, even going as far as calling the kid his granddaughter. He wondered if she knew, if she was aware of who her mother was...

But yet again, those days were no more for you. You said it yourself: I’m done with all the killing, Bill.

So, if you decided that it would stay hidden... Then, it would stay hidden.

But if there was one thing which stayed the same with you and passed on the girl...

That was to act on urges.

“Hi, hello- Oh, damn! Sorry, man, you having some problems?” she exclaimed when she saw a man hold the gun to Ellie’s face and her jaw thightened in anger for someone threatening her best friend’s life. The man in question, one of David’s followers, aggresively turned the gun to her and Bill behind, Ellie’s eyes widened at the sight of Addy holding her hands out so that the man wouldn’t shoot, yelling at him and insulting.

“SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU BITCH AND LAY WHERE THE OLD MAN LIES!” both Addy and Bill gasped silently at the sight of Joel’s bloody body, impaled and bleeding. Addy could feel the slight tears come to her eyes while Bill’s hands twitched at his sides at the state he was in, with Ellie pressing down on the wound so that he wouldn’t bleed out more.

There were so much blood, more than normal and definetly more than Addy or Bill ever saw on someone.

“DROP YOUR GUNS AND SIT AT THE CORNER! THE FUCK YOU WAITING FOR?! DO IT!”

“Okay, okay... Calm down.” She nudged Bill to do as she was doing, dropping their guns on the ground and setting themselves down next to Joel who opened his eyes slightly and groaned in pain at the sight of Addy, in a way asking what she was doing here, trying to get up to shield her even in his state but, Addy’s hand stopped him softly making him lay down.

“It's okay, old man... She is here.” She whispered slowly, both Ellie’s and Joel’ eyes shining with hope. Joel already felt bad at not being able to keep his promise to you, the promise of coming back in one piece, and now, your life was in danger because of him...

Again.

And you were here to save his sorry ass... Again.

Seeing her whisper down, the man shot his gun which the black guys flinched and tried to protect her. He yelled profanities at her, shooting like a maniac with a grin when one, clear shot rang through the whole place...

And the man dropped dead with that bloody smile.

Addy slowly raised her head beneath the arms that was protecting her, seeing the worried eyes of the older guy look at her, asking if she was okay. She nodded and checked everyone, no one had any bullet wounds which was a relief and slowly got up to look out the window to see you cleaning your rifle and preparing to get down.

“Addy, be careful! Whoever is there might-“ exclaimed Ellie worriedly, fearing that she would be shot too but Addy only smiled wide out the window, turning to her with a happy face and hips cocked to the side sassily.

“do you think some measly hunter or something could shoot that clean? It was mom... She is coming here.”

“But, there are more of that men! She could get seriously injured!” before they could continue arguing the raspy, struggling voice of Joel spoke, having a hard time with speaking with the wound in his stomach. Even in his state, he didn’t back down from worrying about you, about everyone in the room. It was his fault that he didn’t hear their group sneak up on them, it was his fault he was stabbed and the tears on Ellie’s face was also his fault.

And now that you were coming here... It would also be his fault that the disappointment and fear sat your face he loved so much but never said anything.

“She is... though... She would give ‘em hell.” said Tommy, as if he heard Joel’s silent dilemna while Addy sat him free from the ropes holding him down thihhtly on the chair, eyes catching your fast figure down on the street which was... killing everyone that came across you.

“Heck yeah, she would. So be prepared and make your prayers because she is coming right here to whoop your ass.”

And whoop their asses you would.

Sometimes men could be so stupid. Tommy, for not having an eye out, especially at this part of the city; Joel, for thinking of himself to be invincible and Bill for freezing. Ever since you knew those three men, it had always been you who saved their asses, help around clearing the infected.

“They should stop calling themselves fighters if I’m always the one protecting them. Seriously, I was done with killing and now... I have to deal with those fuckers.” You huffed out while putting the rifle on its respective place and yanking out your gun and axe. At least 12 of them was standing before the building they were held captive and there could be more of them inside but now that you saw the state Joel was in...

Nothing could stop you.

It was like a red button was pushed, suddenly seeing all red. They were all your enemies, obstacles to reach to those you cared about. They were cannibals after all, they didn’t care about humans or anyone in general...

They didn’t have to live...

But they didn’t have to die swiftly too...

When it was all done and clear, all that was left of those who was unfortunate enough to stand in your way was... Unrecognizable, with blood and other organs sticking out. You played with the axe you held, turning it to either side and with a hard look, you went in, careful for any sound.

From Clickers and humans.

Yet, your feet carried you upstairs quickly to where Joel, the kids and Tommy were. Your heart beated hard, with fear and adrenaline at the sight that would welcome you. The man you loved, laying there almost motionless, maybe even dead. The man who was fine 2 weeks ago, laying next to you under the sunlight hitting your bare skins and warming your bodies as if your hearts didn’t already do that job...

Everything was fine...

And that was why you insisted on them never leaving because even when the Fireflies weren’t there...

They always brought chaos.

Finding the room they were in wasn’t hard, with Bill’s constant yelling and Ellie’s insults, it would be impossible to miss it. You sighed heavily under your breath, cursing at their loud voices and relaxing when you spotted no Clickers. Entering the room by opening the door slowly, the two young black boys raised their gun at you, thinking of you as an intruder when Addy jumped up and made them put the guns down.

“It’s okay, it’s okay! She is my mom, she was the one who saved us!” you watched the kids heave silently, dropping the guns slowly and you watched them with a hard, threatening look. For several seconds, you three watched each other, trying to see what the other would do. “I don’t bite, kids. You may relax.”

“it sure as hell didn’t seem like that a few minutes ago...”

“It’s the way of living, kid. You gotta do what you gotta do for surviving.” You mumbled and took out a cloth from your pocket to clean the axe, momentarily making the young man flinch and touch his gun. You chuckled humorlessly, putting your axe on your back and walking up to him. “You’re a tough kid. Name is Y/N, what’s yours?”

He seemed to hesitate with trusting you, having an arm around the little boy when Ellie interfered. “She is a good woman, really! She is not like that motherfucker.”

“Good? I’m not sure... She is tough as a nail...”

“That was a shit tone, man! How in the-“

“That’s the pain talking, kid. He always is like that, and Joel? Shut up before I kick your family jewels!” You threatened Joel and he, being high on pain, chuckled and looked at you with a lovesick gaze, muttering a wow which you let out a groan and turned back to the boy before you.

You knew the look he had, the look of fear.

For both his life and the young boy’s, but the sight of Joel in need of your help was enough for you to sound so hostile and you didn’t have much time.

“Look, I know seeing new people when the world is like this ain’t the ideal way but if I wanted to kill you, I would have done that already... You wanna know what happened to those fuckers who kidnapped you?” he hesitantly nodded and you pointed to the window, where he moved with the boy clutched to him thightly and looked down... to see the nassacre you left behind.

“I would have exactly done that shit if I didn’t trust you. If Ellie says you’re friend, then you’re friend.Now, are you gonna tell me your names?” you clapped your hands and waited for them to talk, seeing the clogs run in their minds when the older one dropped his gun made the younger one do the same while using sign language.

So, the younger one is deaf huh? That must be why he is so overprotective of him.

“ My name is Henry, and this is Sam... my younger brother.” You smiled down at the kid clutching his brother genuinely and signed nice to meet you, Sam in sign language which made the boy beam at you and Henry gaze at you shocked.

Damn, I never thought I would be using sign years later...

“You know sign language?”

“Learnt when I was young, when shit didn’t happen. I remember some words, not so extreme shit... You hungry? I brought food.” You set your back down and took out a few food and a medical kit to treat Joel, scolding yourself for forgetting about his wound when these two had guns pointed towards you. You gave the bag full of some crackers and cooked bean to them, Henry and Sam’s eyes widened and they took it gratefully from your hand. “You... Thank you, but what are you gonna eat?”

You waved your hand dismissively, kneeling down next to where Joel laid wounded and sweeped his hair back softly, worried eyes raking through his face while he watched you fondly with a sad look. “No need, kids. You need to eat, and you too Addy, Ellie. We’re fine right now, go and settle down for a few days. We will have to stay in here.”

“What do you mean we’re staying here?” The kids settled down a bit away from you four, letting the adults do the job when Tommy suddenly appeared next to you, eyes worriedly looking at his brother. “Joel can’t move with a wound like this one, Tommy. We need to stay for some time, lay low and hope that he will be fine enough to walk.”

“I'm fine, Y/N- aghh!” he whimpered in pain when you jabbed at the wound with steril gauze, a disappointed scowl setting over your features. “Yeah sure, like I believed you.”

“Keep going-“

“If you tell me this one more time, Joel, I swear to God I will make you suffer with my hand.” You voice shook slightly, the sight of him in pain was too much after not seeing him for weeks.

Remembering the last time you had the man you loved bloody in front of you...

Bill and Tommy sighed at the sight, knowing that you two needed to talk privately. “Okay... We’re staying here. There are snow everywhere, it would be hard to move. In the mean time, you get well brother and Y/N? Don’t blame yourself.”

You nodded at the meaning behind his words, how he pointed to what you knew about the Fireflies and how you failed- in your words- at protecting them. “I... can’t promise that but I will try. Go and watch over for tonight, no? Me and Bill will take care of Joel.” He nodded and went out, Bill going after him to find something to make Joel lay on while you two were left alone .

Joel’s eyesight was hazy because of the pain, but he could still make out your soft features even when it was covered in blood. He frowned at the sight, thumb slowly stroking the drying blood. “Is that yours?”

“You’re wounded, probably in pain and still asking if I’m okay?” you chuckled without humor and he grinned at you, though it was cut short by a cough and gave a smile that made you fall in love with him a bit more. “When I see blood on the woman I love, I’m gonna worry over her.. That’s the deal with me...”

“Yeah? Well, I guess you gotta trade that with me because when the man I love is in danger, all hell would break loose with me.” You let your forehead drop to his, both of you closing your eyes at the feeling of having the other right next to each other.

“Don’t go yet, please.” He begged, voice suddenly vulnerable and you nodded immediately, setting a hand over his chest and rubbing it comfortingly while mumbling I’m here continously to soothe his worries. Joel liked to pretend that he was strong, mighty enough to take whatever was thrown at him, always ready to put himself in danger if it meant he would die.

But right now, he was just a slightly scared man who relied on the person he loved, and trusted himself with.

And though his words failed him once again, his eyes spoke a million of them. Don’t leave me, I’m scared, Is everyone okay, Are you okay..?

And the most valuable one… I love you.

“I know, Joel… You don’t have to say it if you don’t feel ready… But know that I feel the same.” You smiled at him while taking a bottle of alcohol out to pour on his wound, preparing the needles and gauzes you brought and Tommy found. Joel looked at you with his shaky eyes, eyes that had tears in them. So long he had gone without love and care, and so long it had been ever since he felt them.

The last one was from Sarah, and ever since her death… Joel thought that he didn’t deserve anything good in his life, fort hey would be ripped apart from him.

And he didn’t want to, couldn’t let you be one of them. It would kill him, loosing the woman he loved… But it would sign his death penalty, knowing that a little girl who had no one except her mother would be left all alone.

But…

“Yeah..?” he asked, hopeful and selfish, wanting to hear you say the words over and over again even if he was scared to utter them. Utter the words that seemed like a curse to him at this point.

You nodded your head at him giddily, him chuckling at the enthusiasm behind your eyes. He put his hand above yours, giving it a reassuring and thight squeeze to make sure that you knew how important you were to him. No, not only him but to everyone.

He wouldn’t use his words, but perhaps one day… he would.

“You settled for an old man like me, sweetheart? Must have done something good…” he attempted to joke to lighten the mood, and he was successful in that when a snort left you.

“You aren’t that old Joel, and I’m not 20 or something. I’m almost 40.”

“ Doesn’t change that there is an almost 15 years of age gap…” he tried not to show it, but it was one of the main reasons why he was adamant on not telling those words, fearing that it would make you settle for him when you didn’t want it in reality. He knew it was silly, if you trully didn’t want him. You would have dumped him a long time ago.

Hell, you wouldn’t even come after him.

The thoughts made him frown cutely, a sight you weren’t ready to witness. It was probably because he was high on pain, nonetheless, it was a welcomed sight. But behind those words and frown, you saw what he said ate him alive slowly, the same insecure look of his eyes told you enough.

And you had a good idea for a punishment that wouldn’t go to waste.

“Hmm, too bad then. All I want is you..” you muttered softly after kissing the corner of his lips, slightly dry yet very warm. Joel smiled into your mouth, momentarily forgetting where he was when the burning feeling of alcohol made him groan loudly.

“You are a minx, you know that*”

“No, I’m not. I needed to punish you and what best way then pouring the alcohol that suddenly was in my hands?” you asked innocently, with Joel giving you his famous dead-pan look when Elli elet out a groan from the corner, Addy cooing softly.

“Oh God, they are being lovey-dovey, mushy-goosey again…”

“Don’t act like you don’t like it, Ellie”

“Well… It would be better if they didn’t-“

“Excuse me but Is someone gonna explain how all these people except me and Sam kow each other in this room?”

Three mixed voices made both you and Joel look up startled, Joel silently flushing under Addy and Ellie’s stare while you eyes squinted at Henry and Sam. You didn’t feel much about the kid, except wanting to protect him.

But this Henry… He seemed somewhat familiar to you.

And if there was one thing you knew… It was that if you felt like you knew someone, you always had to be on guard.

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