#sorry if most of this lacks sense

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[paintingformike]

breaking my silence for a bit...mike’s awareness about his feelings for will is something i can still debate on, but honestly if you think he's still somewhat “confused” between will and el you’re like 100 steps behind on the plot sorry

#anywaysss the desert scene only makes sense if mike is 100% sure hes not in love with el #i’d even argue that could be the exact moment he realized he really didnt love her #i think i’ve read an alternative explanation on it #but it felt like complete mental gymnastics just to prove he was still “confused” about how he really felt about el 😭 #sorry but the most sensible context for that scene really is just mike relating to will #bc he’s also scared el would be hurt once he admits he doesnt love her. thats the whole point of the double meaning in that statement #two people hiding different truths: one is about being in love while the other is about not being in love #btw im also up for mike realizing his lack of romantic love for el by the end of s3 #but him realizing that midway through s4 while hes having a coded emotional conversation w/ will also makes sense & is another possibility #byler

[wr0ngwarp]

um. uh. hi every body. something evil and malevolent happened in my brain this month.

this is. um. a Jet Set Radio/Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of Death joke AU, spawned out of a in-joke that started in a pokepasta discord. my apologies to both the pokepasta and jsr fandoms

the entire basis is the idea that Corn in Future retconned og JSR Beat as leader/founder of the GGs (is beat being leader in the og even CANON?) so Corn and Beat are the Myras. no it's not a joke funny enough to justify how many hours i sunk into drawing these. no attempt was made to change the setting, assign most of the other cast, or otherwise make this au hold up to ANY amount of scrutiny. if i tried to make this actually work somehow then i'd REALLY end up too far gone. also i keep calling myrtle!beat "Meat".

MEANWHILE, IN A BETTER UNIVERSE:,

#jet set radio #pokepasta #creepypasta #jsr #explorers of death #pokemon #crossover #gore #body horror #blood #ask to tag #long post #jsr eod #also i said ''i didnt assign almost anyone else'' but thats not entirely true. #i did assign dj professor k as wigglytuff. but i decided i needed to draw a line in the sand somewhere #and drawing dj k as eod!wigglytuff is simply too much. some mental images really DONT need to be inflicted on others #i also thought about who would be grovyle and ended up leaning towards combo #i sort of think of him as having protagonist swag about him bc of chapter 2 in teh first game. #also i have a running joke w my sibling about combo being meta-aware bc of a jp-only line he has in future #where he tells roboy he wants to save. #i swear to god i had more reasoning than this but my mind is drawing a blank rn. sad #also i guess this would imply that cube and coin would be celebi and dusknoir but theyre not even in explorers of death so RIP #i did also briefly consider clutch as grovyle bc 1. stealing things lol and 2. joke about him being future-exclusive #and grovyle is FROM DA FUTURE... but frankly clutch does not feel like he could pull off being grovyle. in my opinion. #also i guess sitting here now i suppose it wouldnt even make sense in the context of the eod au cuz everyone but the main trio is og jsr #on that note. i had no idea what to do for gum's design so i chose the most awkward route possible i guess. im sorry gum. #in general gum kinda got the short end of the stick here due to being consistently the Second-in-Command meaning she's shadow #I'M SORRY WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #well at least she's better off than yoyo. me n my sibling just automatically were like ''he's bidoof'' ''yeah he's bidoof'' #also like last note. but. the jet set radio fandom is SEVERELY lacking cliche edgy over the top evil creepypasta versions of the cast

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[randomartsideblog]

I think I'm going to queue a bunch of personal art/sketches/wips that will never be complete starting today. This is an art account, after all...

#note: many are older and inconsistent in art style. some may not make sense. some will be tagged with warnings because... Well. yeah. #random stuff #just a heads up #i know most here are present for SM but uh. MY BLOG HAHAHAVDH I CAN DO WHAT I WANT!!! #sorry for a lack of fandom stuff. im a tiny slump *glances at large hole im in.* yeah. working on it.

[binghe-malewife-goals]

[dying, spluttering for something to quench my unceasing thirst, gasping wheezing] need more.... creature and victor dynamic that isn't just them being child/parent..... so much potential, yet so little I have seen...

#mary shelly's frankenstein #victor frankenstein #adam frankenstein #frankensteinsmonster #sorry this is just me complaining about the lack of creature/victor art out there #not even in a romantic sense either tbh #i want them to have the most annoying roommate who i hate but im stuck with him so this is my hell now dynamic #adam would roast victor alive in a academic debate and victor would never recover from it #honestly adam and victor living just to spite the other tbh

[missshame]

I hate studying I just wanna create stuff and see the world I hate how little control I have over my life

#Let's make it clear I know I'm lucky to get higher education and I'm grateful for it + knowledge can be the greatest tool #It's just that medschool is killing me and there's just too much stuff to learn and I'm struggling so badly with it that at the end of the #day it feels like I'm not learning anything and I'm completely dumb and uneducated #I'm not even a good student but it takes all my energy and even when I'm not studying I rarely have the energy to do anything #The only thing I sorta do consistently is working out because it makes my brain shut up for a while and it helps the muscle pain I got from #All the stress and sitting at my desk/working long days at the hospital #Anyway I love complaining sorry #I just feel like I had /have a very creative artsy nature and I'm really suffering from the lack of it like not in a I don't have enough #time for my hobbies and to relax #Which is already bad enough btw I don't think it should be considered normal for anyone to be too exhausted to do anything outside of work #But I really feel it in a I'm not myself anymore it's hard to move forward and build confidence and a sense of self while having a life so #far away from what you love and feel like you need + denying yourself what you desire the most can't be good to your brain let's face it #Anyway long story short first thing I'm gonna do when I finally get my degree is by me some drums learn the guitar and paint on the walls #And in the meanwhile Idk do I keep living this way? If I do will I go completely insane? #Or do gift myself the right to give up on the idea of being a slightly less bad student and do I say fuck it and start living my life now ? #Idk! Idddkkk !!! #Oh my god

[michiganmerchant]

dang haha thats crazy anyways.

#do not percieve these tags pls they are for ME and ME only #but unfortch i need to write rule 63 mattdrai like. tomorrow #i really need to bang out the pwp married traded to florida fic before i lose my mind #like. oh my god the fucknasty sex they would have married and finally living in the same place #its WET. its fucking SLOPPY. because matthew doesnt know how to control herself #like. yes yes ok leon as a girl great point but sorry MATTHEW? AS A GIRL? #leon would not have a breeding kink but matthew would #motherfucking mvp of 2023 nhl ash older brother to two #chantal's stories about matthew being extremely good with children even as a young child #CMONNNNNN #all the houses she's ever bought have huge bedrooms and plenty of potential play areas in great suburban neighborhoods #matthew cares about her family so much that she wants to have one #AND most importantly she would still lack. the tkachuk sense of shame #wow i am going fucking insaneeeeeeee #google drive

[hella1975]

(hella you dont have to answer this, just wanted to say it) i know you ofc know that grief is a really complicated n fickle feeling but. it is, so i hope u can give yourself that space to grieve and do whatever it takes...but also please take care of yourself. and we're both creators of stuff so i really get the feeling, but i promise youre not destined for getting worse or stuck in that. something similar happened to me my senior year and even if you didn't know him that well, you're allowed that space to feel too.

ik my words prob dont do much, and i dont pretend to know better than you about your hometown or life or anything like that, but im here if u wanna talk. i love u <3

thank you for this my love. this is so kind and you didnt need to say anything but you DID and im so grateful for that. i promise im okay and im very good at being able to tell what episodes are temporary and what are more serious, so i know this one is temporary and is more shock/natural sadness at hearing the news that will peter off over time, so im trying to just. let myself feel it all for now and then put it to rest after a couple days. im sorry you can relate at all, i feel like it's such a specific, strange kind of grief to explain, when it's someone you know very distantly and technically have no 'right' to grieve, because like you said, grief is complicated, and it doesn't care what right you have to it or not. which is something im having to remind myself of and tell myself im not being selfish or self-centred for feeling upset by this. ive reached out to one of my irls and im going to tell her tomorrow bc i trust her to be good about this, so as basic as that sounds that's a pretty huge thing for me and im hoping it'll help even if it is just. talking it out. idk. but i appreciate this and i appreciate you, ily bestie xx

#as much as i do blame my hometown i think a part of that anger/blame is a coping mechanism #bc it's easier to blame all the bad things that happen IN that town ON that town if that makes sense #and im aware it lacks nuance to narrow shit down like that but it makes it bearable for me #to just blame everything on this vague broad 'hometown' idea in my head #instead of truly delving into it bc that WOULD make me miserable #im so sorry to even delve into this for anyone idly reading bc i know this is very serious but i need to put it SOMEWHERE #like im twenty and SIX boys in my year have died #two were drug overdoses and one got pulled out of the river so we'll never know which of those were accidental or on purpose #one boy had leukaemia another got killed in a hit and run the day before his eighteenth birthday #and now this boy. and he fucking hung himself like i cant get that out of my head of all the ways to go he chose that #and of those six boys two of them were my cousins and one was seventeen when he overdosed and we're pretty sure it was an accident #which makes it WORSE like he would have known when the drugs were already in his system that it was too much #and he was just a child. he would have been so scared. and they're all just dead now and they keep dying #and i just feel so helpless and like in me getting out of that town i left them behind? #idk. im venting now im not expecting any of this to be addressed by anyone lmao the problem with most of it is that it CANT be addressed #like what can you do? just keep on going until the next one #ask #delete later

[nounpolycule]

My toxic trait is like I mean Blink is good but I can't wrap my head around it being the highest rated episode of Doctor Who on IMDb. Top 30 fine but #1?

#it's not my favorite episode it's not my favorite RTD era ep it's not my favorite s4 ep it's not my favorite RTD era ep written by Moffat #it's not my favorite Weeping Angels episode (though I will say that it's the best) it's not my favorite Doctor-lite episode #it's certainly not my favorite episode of TV of all time and I also would say it isn't the best either #I don't think about it unless someone brings it up I don't watch it unless I just watched Human Nature/Family of Blood and let it play #it's not /bad/ it's just. meh. #full respect to people that love it but I don't get why it's above Heaven Sent she is a cinematic masterpiece #actually what I really don't get is The Husbands of River Song being /46 out of 198/???? #how is THORS one of the lowest rated (bottom 5 of 15) episodes that River is in. this is homophobia just like the lack of a 12river kiss. #sorry I saw the post about it being one of the best episodes of TV of all time again & there's people arguing about other things on my dash #& I've taken my meds but not actually started anything & I'm actively avoiding what I need to be doing #thus I am saying things I would not say in a fully public Discord server per usual #also sometimes I see people suggest it as a first ep to watch (not a 'if you only watch 1 ep' but a 'watch this first') which is a dif rant #like I'd show my dad Time Heist because I don't expect him to get into the show but I think he'd enjoy that one #but at the very least go with en episode thet follows the formula if you want to get someone into the shoe #*show #so that they know. whether they'd like the show. #personally I'm a big ''start with Rose'' fan but I have many biases including I don't like consuming media out of order #but like. there is someone I want to make watch s8 and s9 and I'm not necessarily going to make her watch 1-7 first #like Deep Breath (a Doctor's first episode) is a reasonable starting point to me #a Doctor's first episode/a companion's first episode/an era's first episode are what make the most sense to me for a first ep ya know? #bonus for all three. #but like would you start SPN with Changing Channels as a ''do you like the vibes of this show?'' #or Hush or Tabula Rasa for Buffy? (I outsourced that one so if it doesn't get my point across not my fault I am buffyless) #anyway. #someday I'll watch Buffy someday I'll start arguments on the internet about more important things that sharing an unpopular DW opinion #and someday I'll start things on my to do list with less than 3 hours of coaxing #okay have a nice day. 👍 #i speak #kasteraxilkemeryapheshexerindaikyat.pdf

[shshshshshowrunner]

My will issues were unique I think.

#i forgot the epic highs and lows of emotion they brought with them. #i forgot how euphoric it felt when i did something Good that i was Supposed To Do #something that was Received Well with a Smile #and i also forgot how instantly crushed I'd get if met with a frown or even lack of enthusiasm. #like when i say most of that dream was bliss it was BLISS i was BLISSED OUT #pupils the size of quarters i swear. dumbass mode activate. #dream me made xigbar breakfast and he smiled at me and it was like CRACK it was like heroin #[following tags invisible to all but Xigbar] #it was also the horniest dream ive ever had in my life like. im functioning at 50% sensation but i WASNT IN THE DREAM. #IN THE DREAM IT WAS 100% #and it SHOWED. #my sense of taste too... and smell.... #scooby snack ass dream fr fr. and by that of course I mean [GUNSHOTS] #sorry i meant [a loud car goes by and drowns me out] #haha weird i meant [I am hit by a train and fall apart like legos]

[vimbry]

you ever see posts that are like, "hey this place doesn't function like many other socials. content will only get shared around by reblogging it, so if you like something, keep that in mind! consider leaving feedback more often too! don't forget to appreciate artists!" and you're like yeees.

but then either that post, or the comments after, descend into, "you should be grateful for fandom creators! reblog everything you see! don't like! they put so much hard work into everything they make for free! you're a consumer and you owe them your attention! it's free! they do it for free!" and you're like noooo oo o.

#also I think. while there prob are some people used to twitter and tiktok who legitimately aren't familiar with the algorithm/lack of #I think people sometimes simply don't want to reblog something. it's not a misconception you can clear up for them #this is not hyperbole. I saw someone call people who engage with fandom creators' content consumers #unless you're talking about commissions/other paid work no we are not #I agree creators DO generally deserve more appreciation and not be treated like automatons who produce your fav thing #but now it's been phrased in a way that's a bit demanding so I'm not going to platform that #I'm sorry but if someone likes something. it means they liked it #and they engaged with it in a way that showed that they liked it #I vastly prefer feedback too! it's my favourite! I actually find it super hard to conceptualise likes despite what I just said lol #but it's something I gotta work on myself #venting makes you feel a bit better but let's not pretend trying to guilt trip people into engaging with you more is going to work #that will at most get you a short wave of pity reblogs. nobody wants that for their creations #idk the inflated sense of self-importance given to internet creators feels really strange to me #I don't get why fandom hobbyist is considered this great title worthy of inherent reverence now #I mean ''now'' isn't exactly true I know there's been BNFs for decades but. I mean just like #the act of Being an online creator for anything gets you treated as if you're some kind of neurotic captive animal

[meltamorphosis]

probably not normal for me to break down crying and spiralling over the thought of having to get a job huh

#melty vents #to me its not the idea of getting a job itself #im fine with working #its just. transport . auhghhaghghghh Transport #im scared of cars and im ESPECIALLY terrified of the thought of being in control of one of them. i dont trust myself with that. #my ankles break down every time i walk for like 10 minutes so just getting places is a hassle.... #so that leaves me with public transport #which i should REALLY learn to navigate properly OTL i cant make any sense of it at all... #really honestly at this point i would genuinely just love to work at the shop down the street #genuine dream job at this point its a quick walk its a small store ive shopped there for years and years #but they dont have job openings so . OTL #this isnt even getting into my lack of an education #god i hate living its so difficult... i wish id never been born #idk this topic unprompted Always sends me into a depressive spiral because i always start thinking 'why should i bother with this' #'itd be easier to just die' #so . thanks mom for randomly sending me all those job listings unprompted im doing great ^_^ sorry for being your most pathetic child #sorry that im such an idiot who cant do anything right and loses it over the most basic human responsibilities #i know im worthless and contribute nothing to human existence im really really sorry

[mothheart]

I feel like a lot of people use the 'your brain finishes developing at 25' thing as an excuse to treat people younger than them/that age poorly. Like the Worst person I ever met on here (who treated me very poorly) believed that wholeheartedly. Shocker !

#like sorry but maybe just use your noggin and think about that #does it make literally Any sense that 25 is somehow a magical age that your brain stops developing #do you think you are truly fully mature and experienced because of a specific amount of years alive #makes no more sense than society seeing 18 year olds as adults and expecting them to be fully independent the moment the clock strikes 12 #lol #there isnt a magical age that means youre Mature now #if you treat people like theyre less than because any of these things youre the problem #you just want an excuse to be a mean adult. glorified high school bully #ive met a 25 year old who was more emotionally immature and lacking the most basic of communication skills #sorry but kind of starting to hate people for this lol #miles rambles

[dexter-apologist-5000]

Okay I know no one really cares but like I has this idea for a ratcandy animation and I need to talk about it, y’all know The Blake Robinson Synthetic Orchestra’s cover of ““Oh bubblegum” from 2012. Yeah that 

I don’t think much explaining needs to be done if you have listened to it prior tbh 

#bremlin says the most stupid shit idk #idk sorry if this don’t make sense #it’s probably nit going to happen due to lack of motivation but ya never know #also I’m very tempted to challenge myself via “animate one scene from X everyday” thing #but with SM #if I did do it I’d probably do Unwanted guest #or deadly smiles but more likely the priorly mentioned #but that’s a lot so again probably won’t happen #sm ratcandy

[tunderilona]

i cannot talk about things like education or healthcare or taxes or jobs or careers in english, i sound like an idiot every time because i simply lack the words i want to say

#just so you know id actually make sense in my own language................ i just cant translate it to english for some reason #this is @ the anon mostly i DO agree with you on certain points and im sorry for lacking the right words #we would have the most intellectual conversation in hungarian i swear .... i could actually articulate what i want to say