#sorry if this is barely coherent

[carnival-core]

Ok fuck it this’ll get it’s own post . I said I’d say my Evelyn Deavor thoughts out loud when I got more a brain and I . Vaguely have one . So!! Weird start to a post defending a character’s writing, but the biggest mistake everyone who’s complained about her character has made thus far is thinking she’s supposed to be smart and logical because She Said she’s smart and logical. 

Evelyn Deavor is, on enough of a level to serve her needs, really fucking smart. A tech wiz, who knows Just enough about how the human mind works to serve her needs - Just as much as she’d need to make her hypno-tech not utter failures. But the thing I hardcore disagree with compared to most people, is the opinion that her intelligence shown in the movie ending there is a writing flaw. BC . The places where she falls flat are consistent? Consistent enough to feel intentional. And also, Really compelling, at least to me. To the point I think people would love her were it not for the fact she was in a Disney movie, and given less time to shine through in her role than she probably deserved (though honestly she had more time as a villain than most twist villains). She’s not an infallible genius, she’s a pessimist with an ego, the type to look at those with optimism in their hearts and feel Oh, she’s clearly superior, she doesn’t live in such childish extremes - even though she lives a childish extreme her whole life. Her brother and her both went through something traumatic as children. They both lost their own parents - and presumably, almost died themselves - because their father was too reliant on something that was not infallible in it’s own right. Her brother’s childish mind took a childish route to explain this - “Superheroes went away, so mom and dad went away.” It was logic Evelyn bashed heavily in the movie herself. But.. hers was Not much better.  “Superheroes exist to begin with, so mom and dad went away” was the logic she fell to in her own childlike, traumatized brain - just as much an extreme, but one she tried to sell as logical, because hers was more bitter, hers was more angry. She let her bitterness and anger consume her as a whole for all her life up until, and perhaps beyond the movie. She is canonically, a bitter, suicidal alcoholic. She drank in almost every scene she was in, when she was trying to trick the Parrs - she barely hid her own general contempt for superhero worship or the way modern tech was advancing to push reliance on non-infallible forces -- When her brother showed he was not going to be on her side for her plan, she tried to kill herself. She sent her plane crashing toward the sea on purpose, knowing that was the most likely outcome. She did not believe Helen would save her, she expressed both her shock and disgust at the fact well enough. She is a bitter, angry, pessimistic woman who could not see any other point of view, who let her childishly extremely pessimistic view of the world spurred by her trauma she perhaps probably both could not get help for and did not Want help for consume her , and she saw everyone who ever disagreed with her as an idiot who she could begrudgingly tolerate until she could make them see the truth. These were consistent traits that were barely , if at all , shoehorned in by the twist. I think the biggest downfall to her character As a character is people believing -- Oh, She portrays herself as infallibly intelligent, so the writers must want me to think she is. I find smth a little ironic abt this fact but I can’t put it in words

#Ask to tag #Suicide #But fictional #evelyn deavor #I love her <3 she is very stupid #On purpose #Sorry if this is barely coherent

[reboren]

#slay the princess #so sorry to anyone who followed this account for stuff #especially for art #here's something dumb i made a while back as an apology #barely making stuff and barely ever being online is a bad combo :) #i do have a million drafts i could make coherent enough to post #i just gotta get enough energy to be more than just a husk of a person

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Milk theory? 👁️👁️

ANYTHING FOR YOU TWO!!!!

ok this is gonna be short and mildly insane. i would like everyone to understand that this is pretty much Entirely unfounded & i'm just reading too much into a teeny little thing. however i've convinced myself that this theory is viable against all better judgement

take these mad ramblings with a Monumental grain of salt. im not to be taken seriously ever

so it all boils down to This

Little

Motherfucker.

the milk carton behind Barnaby's house.

it was added with the last large update, and it Immediately made me lose my mind. it's such a... strange thing to add to the map, which already has Teeny Secrets - along with other choice objects that make me narrow my eyes. but this isn't about them.

The very first thing I thought of when I saw the milk carton was the phrase "no use crying over spilled milk". which, of course, essentially means that there's no point in crying over things you can't change / things already done. There are a couple ways i'm interpreting it with this context

Something is going to happen that Barnaby feels personally responsible for. or is responsible for - either indirectly, or maybe he'll do something terrible. i think it's entirely possible that he might do that possible something for Wally. and again, take this with salt, but Clown has implied through trivia and fun hypotheticals that Barnaby would go to lengths for Wally. and yes, i know. taking evidence from "what would the neighbors do in Among Us" is absurd. IN MY DEFENSE! while the trivia isn't really to be taken seriously, there's always a thought process behind character roles and dynamics and behavior, and that is something that can be (carefully) looked into and applied. like in Among Us, apparently Barnaby would, and i quote, "Barnaby does all the Dirty work if Wally is an Impostor- Anything to help his little Buddy out...". anything to help his little buddy out, huh? like, it's been stated that Barnaby knows things about Wally that no one else does. and it's been mildly implied that he's fairly protective of Wally. and we all know that Wally is getting into some deep shit, and whether he means to or not he's likely gonna fuck everything up for everyone. it's not that big of a leap to speculate that Barnaby might do something drastic/horrible/regret-worthy in Wally's name / for his sake.

2. something terrible is going to happen to Barnaby / directly related to Barnaby, and he's going to be absolutely powerless to do anything about it. though i think that's kind of a given... yeah this section is pretty self explanatory

3. Barnaby is going to go missing. because what used to be on milk cartons? Missing Posters! yes yes i know this one is even more of a reach, since milk cartons didnt have missing posters on them till the 80s, but yk. it's a Thought.

my second thought was "oh ok so when the carton spills, it's curtains for Barnaby." this part of the theory is just me being paranoid that Barnaby is going to wind up kicking the bucket - though i suppose if that were the case, there would be a bucket, not milk. well, if a bucket ever appears, i'm going to start prematurely mourning. Still!

the point is - at some point, that milk is probably gonna spill. it may be just a detail as things get better Worse, or it could be indicative of something terrible happening to / because of Barnaby. the milk spills, Panic Time.

Milk Theory.

#innocuous milk carton: *appears* #me: I Will Now Proceed To Lose My Absolute Shit. Thank You. #ITS AN OMEN TO ME PERSONALLY #im sorry i read too much into the map. OR MAYBE I READ INTO IT JUST ENOUGH! who's to say who's to say... #certainly not me! #its just. such a choice of prop #i mean it makes sense-ish on just a decoration level #milk is pretty common in relation to comedy methinks #but still. it stands out to me. #Im Aware That This Barely Makes Sense And Its Somewhat Ridiculous #Im Not Known for Having Good Or Even Coherent Theories #homebogging #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #alright well this was fun. nobody look at me #the day i stop overanalyzing the map is the day i die #THERE ARE ALREADY SECRETS IN THERE! THE MAP IS PROVING TO BE IMPORTANT! #IM ALLOWED TO READ INTO THINGS! #also riv i havent gotten the chance to sit and listen to it yet </3 Soon though! i Promise!

[larkspurglove]

Messy spoiler heavy Aventurine appreciation post

I am so so so so so so so in love with him it’s unreal. Anyway.

I am SOOOOO happy he’s got a present and active role in the story so far. I’m used to my favs in Hoyo games not showing up a lot because they’re either ‘side characters’ who’s lives are usually expanded upon in limited time events or they have a Deep Dark Secret Past and as such they don’t get screentime because their past is Too Much. Can you tell the deep dark secret past is about Luocha and Jingliu ANYWAY

Even if he’s a bit of a bastard, I genuinely enjoy his personality. I find it funny that he’s a gambler yet supposedly doesn’t put himself in situations where he could end up with the short end of the stick. It’s contradictory and stupid to believe you’re above bad luck but I love him anyway. He’s smug and clearly has an eye for charming his way into favour.

Not to mention he’s smart and in a way his gambler persona plays into how he acts. He keeps his proverbial cards close to his chest, and doesn’t let on what he doesn’t want others to know, only stepping into the fray when he knows (or believes) he can’t lose. Penacony as a whole seems to have heavy themes about deception but that’s besides the point.

The whole talk about his past is interesting too, from the tattoo that appears to be an actual word (and possibly a way of the IPC branding him?!), the implication his home planet is full of ‘wolves in sheeps’ clothing’ like how Kafka is from a planet where its residents physically cannot feel fear, him being an orphan??? and the implied debt he has towards the IPC. I know deep down below his smug exterior there is a sad traumatised man.

His dynamics with the other characters is entertaining too. From his underlying distaste for the more diplomatic characters (Himeko, Sunday), the passive aggressive banter with Sparkle and Ratio (although Ratio is just straight up condescending at times) and the way he’s very clearly trying to manipulate the trailblazer onto his side.

As a final note, he’s actually short compared to a good majority of the male cast. The hat adds a decent amount of height I did have a photo of him next to Luocha for a better reference but I forgot to save it, so take this Ratio screenshot instead.

#if this is hard to read sorry #I’m writing this late at night #and I can barely form coherent thoughts about my favourite characters normally #hsr aventurine #aventurine hsr #aventurine #honkai star rail #hsr #penacony spoilers #honkai star rail spoilers #hsr spoilers #lark rambles

[sanctus-ingenium]

I'd looove to hear a little about your worldbuilding process if you don't mind sharing. How do you go about it? I know you have shared in a few posts already but just wanna know moree. Also where did it all begin? What inspired you? (eating it all uppp!!!)

hi!! I know I wrote a big long thing like last year or the year before about the process to making a setting but I cannot be arsed to find it rn so here's some disconnected thoughts

Overall I don't really make Headworlds or Worldbuilding Projects the way a lot of people do (which is why u keep hearing me say 'setting' over and over) because mainly what I make are stories in the order of characters -> plot -> world. those three things have to serve one another in that order of importance, so the world itself bends to serve the narrative. for example, ultimately idgaf where the holy beasts' skeletons come from, that is not important because the beasts are basically just a big plot device to serve the story. i can make some post-hoc justifications for their existence (and i did) but at the end of the day it will not and does not matter how they work or where they come from. the world is full of mysteries that will never be solved because the characters are not in a position to solve them. aside from a single border conflict, the world outside the mezian empire is nebulous and unimportant.

I don't enjoy working in a world -> narrative order because what I want to produce isn't just a series of info posts or artpieces about a setting, but a closed and self-contained story which is the justification for the entire world's existence. Headworlds that are all world and no character don't interest me.

So basically in the process of worldbuilding, I have to serve the story. A while back I made a post about continental history around Inver, all these wars and occupations and schisms and so on. All of those exist solely to provide a particular political climate, justification for Aquitan's theocratic structure, and the spread of the southern church north into Inver. I already had the idea of this church, that it would be integral to the country as a main political faction, so now I have to figure out how it got there and the political ramifications of that. It's all worldbuilding for sure, but it's a support structure underneath the story about how that church eventually changes world history, because i wanted to write a story about a church lol.

I guess if I wanted to explain The Process for a world -> characters setting i'd just be giving you How To Write A Story 101 lol. But basically: I think of a concept which interests me (big mechs yay). Then I think of a conflict that might arise (where does the fuel come from? who controls that supply? what might that do to the concentration of power in this area?). Then I put a character in what I consider to be the most interesting position to observe the effects of this conflict (a knight, an enginesmith, an exile), and honestly the main plot generally writes itself after that. I extrapolate the hook from that.

In terms of characters, I try to avoid calling them 'ocs' because in my mind 'oc' tends to be a very static stand-alone thing. Like I couldn't make a useful ref sheet of my characters because they are all changed by the story. I couldn't say 'he has a carefree personality' because in a few chapters no he fucking won't. in the same way i struggle a LOT to talk about my Siren setting which as close to a specbio 'headworld' as i'm ever gonna get, because I am worldbuilding in vastly different time periods at once in a world which is always changing, i can't make a post about for example a map of Siren because that's just a map from one era, I'd need to make a dozen maps to show how things change, how time affects it all, etc.

Because nothing is ever static and everything is in flux, pretty much the only way I can handle a setting like this is, again, just to focus on a few small stories centered around a cast of characters separated by time (i have... 4 distinct stories in Siren. maybe more). this is actually a frustrating barrier to me sharing any information at all about this place lol i'm the struggler

Where did it all begin? When I was 11 I used to write stories in my copybooks in class. There has never been a time where I was not making stories and where my stories were not the only important thing at all to me, superseding literally everything else. I learned how to draw digitally in 2011 because I wanted to draw my characters.

What inspires me? Everything lol. I actually don't have time to Consume Media much, I struggle watching movies or tv and I mostly hate video games because I would much rather be productive and sitting and watching a screen feels like a waste of my time. but I like reading books because I can take them with me on my phone. I get ideas from all sources but mostly non-media sources, like obviously mythology but also my history with the church and my scientific education. Usually nonfictional sources interest me the most (i was going to write a whole story that was a post-apocalyptic plague plot based on canine transmissible venereal cancer haha and even to this day that's where "the Immortal Hound" title comes from, little easter egg in inver)

#sorry this is barely coherent

[xysidhequeen]

I know in your Red Knight AU, Jason when on the rampage in another realm, after finding out that Batman replace him with another Robin.

Did Danny manage to be there for him during that time?

He did! Danny was always there for Jason. He actually wanted to chase after Jason immediately, but luckily, the first thing he did was panic call Jazz, absolutely out of his mind. Jazz promptly told Danny to let Jason have some space for a little bit to process.

Which was for the best, really. Jason needed to not feel like he was trapped and that he could be angry. He never really got that before. But the most important thing is Danny came after him and brought him home. Jason needed to feel like he could be angry, but also, like his anger wouldn't mean he'd be punished or abandoned. It was a very delicate time for him, but Danny, Jazz, Sam, Tucker, and all our favorite ghosts made sure Jason knew he was very much wanted still. And that he was utterly irreplaceable.

Skulker handled this by breaking all of his weapons and suits overnight and saying he didn't know how to fix them. (Jason very much knew what he was doing, but the time spent on fixing things helped ground him)

Ember handled this by announcing that she couldn't possibly ever sing ever again unless her only other band member was there (Still very obvious, but music time with Ember usually devolved into very necessary crying time. A lot of ice cream was consumed)

Johnny and Kitty handled this by getting into a MASSIVE fight and refusing to speak to each other unless Jason mediated. (This actually was far less obvious, as the two tend to get into fights often. No one is actually certain if the fight was fake or not to this day, but they also haven't broken up once since and Jason is incredibly proud of that)

Fright Knight handled this by.... well, actually, he took the blunt approach and told Jason there was no one in any realm dead or alive he'd ever consider worthy to be his apprentice besides Jason. (This was highly effective as Frighty has always been bluntly honest with Jason. He didn't wholly believe it but it was a comfort. Frighty then beat his ass in a spar and he didn't think of much else)

Basically, everyone was there for Jason. Not just Danny. Jason was made to feel like his anger and hurt were valid, because they were. But he was also not just told, but shown how precious he was to every life he touched. He didn't get it, not at first and he struggled to really believe it.

It wasn't until later, after Danny opened up more about his own trauma and the effects it had on him that Jason actually began to somewhat understand more of what Jazz meant when she said Danny was getting better. He pieced more of the story together from the others to paint a better picture, and that's when it clicked for him. As much as he needed Danny, Danny had needed him just as much. (Clockwork may have had a hand in this as well, but whatever those two talked about, no one will ever know)

Also, as an aside, once everything calmed down, Danny was very pleased to learn the rebelling realm was now back under control and quite terrified of the Ghost King and his Knight. It saved him so much paperwork.

So yeah, this was a bit all over the place, but hopefully, it answers your question. Team Phantom and the ghosts are basically a very large family, and they might fight and bicker, but they seriously pull through and muster together if anyone is hurting. They're a bit clumsy sometimes with it, but the love they all feel is very obvious. I really, really wanted to give Jason a much more healthy origin story into becoming Red Hood than he got in canon. The poor boy went through enough. It was past time for him to get to heal.

Jason still has some hangups. His abandonment issues are still there, and his fear of rejection. But it's not as bad as it was, and because he'd been allowed to express his anger without being punished(or enabled, anger is a fine emotion to feel. But you should never let it consume you) for it, he figured out how to manage it.

He might still slip now, and then, he has trauma, and that won't go away. But Danny will never, ever let him fall. Neither will the rest of the weird little eclectic family they've built.

#zee answers #this is barely coherent because im at *checks watch* 25~27 hours no sleep? maybe? im loopy #sorry if this was insanity #just wanted to make it clear that Jason was never left to deal with anything alone #he always ALWAYS had support #a massive support system actually like you cannot possibly stay feeling bad when you have like 20 people determined to make you feel better #and i want to make it clear that Jason's anger was never seen as a bad thing to the group because its NOT #and how can you learn to manage an emotion youve never been allowed to properly express before? you cant #so Jason got to learn that too. and he learned the best ways for HIM to handle his anger between all the ghosts trying to help #this fic began because i just wanted fluff and nice things for Jason because I love him and he deserved so much better than canon ever gave #so of course Jason got support and love and everything he needed to feel secure and safe #this is at its bones a fluffy AU #dp x dc #danny phantom #dc x dp #dpxdc #dp x dc crossover #the king and his red knight #the king and his red knight au #tkahrk #tkahrk au #danny phantom crossover #halfa jason todd #Jason Todd #jason todd/danny phantom #jason todd x danny fenton #jason todd/danny fenton

[zeb-z]

Thinking about Pac and his self worth issues that stretch for miles, who will always be self sacrificing if there's a chance to save his family. He's twice repeated this risk taking for Forever, taking the pills to find a cure, and now going through the portal to find some stable way to get him back. Both times there is no guarantee for his safety, the process is entirely experimental, and the stakes are high - but that's okay, because it's only his life on the line, and in the grand scheme of things it isn't valuable (to him at least).

Thinking about how Pac took the happy pills cure while sobbing, how Cellbit told him he couldn't stop him from being sad but he wouldn't let him be alone - and now Cellbit has managed to leave him alone in legitimately the worst way possible. Not by getting lost or kidnapped, but by losing himself. Becoming so similar to a version of himself that Pac has to separate into an entire different person because of his trauma around their time in prison. Becoming someone Pac builds walls and barbed wire and lava traps to avoid, to push away. Last time he had Cellbit to finish what he started - and despite all those promises, this time all he has is himself.

Thinking about Tubbo and Pac's conversation while he was on the happy pills - "what are you learning?" "I'm learning that happiness has a price. and it's kind of worth it." How he is no stranger to the consequences, how he's aware of the dangers, and still he will pay for them time and time again. Anything for Favela 6. Anything for family. Happiness has a price, and for him it's everything.

Thinking about how it all worked out last time, but this time is different. Forever returned without even having seen Pac. This risk did not pay off, and now the guy who would burn himself to keep others warm is in literal hell trying to find someone who isn’t even there.

Thinking about a ship called Hope, and how Pac set off to find it, alone. About the Fed operation room he walked into, alone. About the portal he stood in front of, alone. How there has to be significance in this symbolism.

Thinking about Pac and his odd taste in men and his terrible self esteem and his loyalty and love for his family, and the way he can’t seem to catch a goddamn break. How despite all that’s happened, he’s pulled off the impossible before - surely, surely he can do it again.

#thinking about pac and losing braincells to the worms. can he live something that isn’t tragedy please #sorry this is barely coherent and five different points stacked together in a shambles of a character analysis but I’m going to explode #mcyt #qsmp #q!pactw #pactw #character analysis #z speaks

[p4nishers]

i cant stop thinking about the pie scene. its such a perfect representation of their relationship, even if their roles are a little reversed. the worry and the care they have for each other is so telling in this scene because up until this point loki was solely focused on finding sylvie and nothing could really break them out of their focus but the moment the SECOND there's something wrong with mobius they forget about everything to be there for him. like they could've continue the interrogation on their own and s1 loki must likely would have done so, but instead they went after mobius, CHASED after him basically, gently tried to persuade him to talk and were genuinely so focus on mobius they didn't even question where they were going (because mobius was leading them and they trust mobius to lead them wherever he wants to). and what really gets me is the way they say "mobius, you were clearly ahead of me" because it could be written down to their usual bickering and the back and forth that they always have but instead, loki sounds concerned. they sound so concerned that mobius, who is usually calm and collected and levelheaded, didn't even know WHERE they were going. you can see how concerned they are in every movement of their body, they don't try to hide it or play it off as a joke, instead they try to make it better for mobius. can you remember a time loki did that for someone, even in future movies? because i can't. and here is the crux of it all, they know mobius so well that they automatically know food/pie will make it better for him so they offer to eat pie with him. the whole scene they speak in such a soft voice and are visibly so careful with what they're saying because they dont want to screw this up, they dont want to make this harder for mobius. they wait him out and when he finally admits that it wasn't tactical, he just lost it, they have this little smile like they're PROUD of mobius for admitting and being so open and then they go on to further reassure mobius and say "it's okay" which they basically learned from mobius since before him nobody really took the time to reassure them like that. but mobius always did, because of course he did. and then they bring them into a lighter territory with them mentioning new york in a flippant way because they no doubt just want to see mobius smile again. and sure they might disapprove of mobius' choice to not visit his timeline but they don't argue with him because ultimately they recognize that it's MOBIUS' choice. and then AND THEN when loki gets worried about how to get brad to talk, mobius is THERE to be the one to reassure them and make them SMILE. like it's just crazy to me that he was the one upset just a few minutes ago but the moment he sees loki SLIGHTLY unsure of themselves he steps in and KNOWS how to make loki smile. i need to lie down.

#and then u contrast that w the sylki pie scene and find none of the trust and care and worry and knowledge of each other that lokius has #like do u ever think about the fact that loki didn't smile not ONCE in a scene with sylvie?? it might seem like a small thing but then u #remember that they always seem to smile at least a little mobius and u r just like. wow. u can literally see who is better for them just by #that alone #sorry if this isn't coherent ive got a cold and my left hand hurts like a bitch so im barely alive #lokius #loki spoilers #loki season 2 #loki laufeyson #loki series #mobius m mobius

[capn-twitchery]

ok so it is really mean to twitch (sorry) and i'm not sure if i can pull it off art-wise but i think i have a reflection idea for them

i was thinking a while ago about how it might work for their reflection to look functionally the same as real twitch, since twitch themself is kind of a persona in a way & one that they are very unapologetic about being. the only thing they actively hide & dislike about themselves is, y'know, the whole red honey thing & thinking about the whole red honey thing, and the fact that their eyes might give it away. it's the one thing they hide!

so anyway what if their reflection looked exactly like twitch except behind the shades its face is falling apart. and inside is a red honey hive--maybe the more worked up twitch gets about their memories the more the reflection falls apart. sometimes it just pulls parts off itself.

sometimes it reforms, sometimes it doesn't bother to reform at all. but sometimes it reforms with the wrong parts, like they belong to someone else. twitch doesn't know who, though (not yet anyway)

#this is barely coherent i'm very tired but i am having Thoughts #i should probably tag this as #body horror #sorry twitch. it's a fun concept but sorry #at least there'd be no blood! just. red honey gore???? #londonmusings #twitchery

[notanotherinfjblog]

A few thoughts on NJs

I'm currently in the unique position where my most frequent social contacts are an ENTJ and an ENFJ, and one thing I find is that NJs generally strongly gravitate towards each other. Coming across a fellow NJ out in the wild is exceedingly rare, so whenever that happens, there is always this strange moment of instinctual mutual recognition. Suddenly you see your own Ni reflected back at you. It makes sense that you'd want to stay close to that person.

In the following, I will just talk a bit about the observations that I've made (not very coherently, I'm sorry). Something that I find interesting is that even though our minds work very similarly (always dissecting everything, searching for patterns and meanings, making seemingly random connections in the search for the root of something etc.), NFJs and NTJs have very different priorities. The NFJ can be completely drowning in work, but that will never stop them from prioritising people over everything else. They will collect and cherish every tidbit of information that someone told them about themselves. They will sacrifice time they absolutely do not have just to be there when an acquaintance they somewhat like gives a talk about something that is in no way relevant to the NFJ. They will be able to recognise all their co-workers by the sound of their steps alone. All of this is precious information. The NTJs, on the other hand, will not even bother to learn your name unless they have taken an interest in you in any way. NTJs will be polite to you, that's no issue, but if they don't care, almost everything you tell them will be deleted from their brains. They prioritise the abstract over everything else. If they are busy thinking about, I don't know, quantum physics, you are welcome to discuss it with them and they will be delighted. If you and the conversation are interesting enough, they will also figure out how your mind works in the meantime. But this is a step you have to unlock with an NTJ first. The NFJs will do this automatically. Funnily enough, I find that NTJs become more openly annoyed by you the more they have grown fond of you. If you are being annoying and they don't care about you, depending on the situation, they will either simply leave or put you in your place. If you are being annoying and they do care, you end up with amazing conversations like this:

INFJ: "I needed help with that work thing, so I asked a friend, but it didn't really go as planned and so I ended up with even more work to fix the thing afterwards." ENTJ: "Well, why didn't you ask ME for my help? I can help you better with this than your friend can." INFJ: "I didn't know I could ask you." ENTJ: "What do you mean you didn't know? Of course you can! Sometimes you are just ... Can you do it over?" INFJ: "Why? I've already done the thing now." ENTJ: "Can't you just throw it away and do it again, but with my help this time? I could help you with it right now." INFJ: "What for? Like I said, it's all done." ENTJ: "Just ask me next time."

Because once an NTJ cares, they care. They want to watch you live a good life, but then they witness you making your own life difficult just by being the way you are, and it will be frustrating because it's not something they can just fix. They will be nosy, they will observe and analyse everything about you (just like an NFJ in default mode but the NTJs are more normal about it). But if they don't care, you end up with actual conversations like this:

ESFP: "I'm going to leave work early today to go to that concert later tonight." ENTJ: "Oh really? What concert?" ESFP: "What do you mean 'what concert'? I literally told you that like an hour ago." ENTJ: "Did you? Sorry, my brain must have registered our conversation as useless information and immediately deleted it."

This is absolutely not something that you will ever hear an NFJ say to someone. If they don't like you, they will just never seek out a conversation with you, but if put into a situation where they have to interact with you, they will remain polite, quiet and a bit awkward (but then again, I have yet to meet an NFJ that isn't a bit awkward in general). Something that I've noticed between ENFJs and INFJs is that we are very similar, but we externalise our Fe a bit differently. I will have the impulse to do a particular Fe-driven thing and then stop myself from doing it because I think it might come across as slightly pathetic. ENFJ just does it. An example: when someone I like (or even only feel neutral towards) tells me a story about something that happened recently and hands me their phone to show me a photo, I get the impulse to look at every photo related to this story because I want to know everything about this person and their experiences, just soak it all up and gather all the information. But then I take a step back and think this might come across as too intrusive, so I do nothing and just listen and look at what is presented to me. In that same situation, ENFJ will straight up ask to see every single picture, zoom in on every face and ask questions about all the people in the pictures and so many other things with genuine curiosity. Meanwhile, I express my Fe more by pulling faces as a reaction to everything that is said to me in order to make a connection with people (think of Jim Halpert looking at the camera in The Office. That's me.). ENFJs, however, are more blank in the face and generally the least emotive of all the FJs. You tell them a funny story and they will just ... stare at you. Their reactions and feelings remain hidden beneath the surface. I never really understood why so many people have told me all my life that I'm completely unreadable. Until I met ENFJ. I know what they mean now. There is a disconnect between the NFJ and other people. They collect all the information about everyone and figure them out in silence, but every non-verbal communication from them seems slightly calculated. Like they are in hiding. It's like there is a window between you and the NFJ. You can see them and interact with them, but you can't quite reach them. There's something invisible between you and it's keeping you separate. I get it now. Many have tried to read me, but only one seems to have cracked the code: ENTJ. Generally, NTJs do show the typical Ni detachment from the world, but their mental and emotional states are not hidden. You always know how they are feeling.

#sorry for my usual lack of coherence it will not get better #but yes i really can distinguish all my co-workers by the sound of their steps #when i'm sitting in my office and hear a door opening at the end of the corridor i really do immediately know who it is #fun fact: entj's and enfj's steps sound very similar. if you hear a door opening but the steps are so quiet they're barely audible it's ent #if you hear a door and the rustling of a jacket but no steps at all it's enfj #entj always finds it freaky that i'm already waving at him before he's standing in the doorway to my office cause i KNOW it's him #meanwhile he answers questions i did not ask yet because he could see the question on my face as he says (as if that isn't freaky hello?) #entj #enfj #intj #infj #ni #high ni

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

Honestly, I think one of the biggest ways that we can see how much Wilson's cancer diagnosis affected House was through the whole ticket scenario. Obviously, House plays pranks, he always has, it's nothing new. But since getting out of prison, he has been so careful not to violate his parol. Don't get me wrong, he was upset that in his mind, Foreman was trying to replace Wilson, but I don't think that's why he reacted the way he did. At least not fully. He wasn't completely sure that his actions would lead to the damage that they did, but House isn't stupid, he had to have known that it was a possibility. He acted rashly and impulsively and tried to play off his actions like it was just a joke. We see all throughout the show that when House feels cornered, he lashes out and hurts himself and the people around him. I think he acted out because he was scared and he didn't know how to cope with it, so he did what he always does and became destructive. Like I said, House is an extremely smart man, I refuse to believe that he didn't consider that his actions would result in the destruction that they did. And it makes me wonder if it was House's way of punishing himself or if it was his attempt at hiding. If he was sent to prison, he would be leaving Wilson involuntarily, so he could pretend like it wasn't his fault. He wouldn't have to face the situation or watch as Wilson got sicker and sicker and eventually die. Instead, he could sit in a jail cell and pretend like everything was fine and avoid it all. Or maybe he blamed himself. Maybe he felt guilty. Maybe he felt like he didn't deserve to be there for Wilson in his final months, and he thought Wilson deserved better then him, so sending himself back to jail was the kindest way to separate them so that Wilson could be surrounded by others. He could've blamed himself for not realizing Wilson was sick because he never even considered it until Wilson told him. I can just see him beating himself up over the idea that, who doesn't realize their best friend is sick with cancer? How could he possibly have missed it? Was he truly that self-centered and selfish that he paid so little attention to his best friend that he completely missed the fact that he was dying? Or maybe he thought back to all the times he screwed Wilson over, and all the times he hurt him and manipulated him, and he thought that Wilson deserved better in his final months. I'm not sure which it was exactly, and maybe it was something else entirely, but I believe with all my heart that Gregory House, whether consciously or unconsciously, was trying to get himself sent back to prison, before he changed his mind and realized that he wanted to, needed to, be there for Wilson.

#sorry this is long #and barely coherent #i hope it makes a tiny bit of sense #but im agonizing over it #house md #house #greg house #james wilson #hilson #gregory house #wilson #house md headcanons #house headcanon #house/wilson #wilson/house #house and wilson

[carnival-core]

Ok realistically speaking it is better prob to explain to kids that Santa is kind of a state of being rather than an entity to explain why kids who don’t celebrate Christmas don’t get gifts , esp with like , the fact poorer kids who Do celebrate don’t rlly get gifts often either , and etc . But honestly if we wanted to keep the established lore of santa as a weird winter and generosity deity where he’s a generally really nice dude alive I’m surprised no one’s ever just said like “Oh Santa knows Christmas isn’t secular and doesn’t wanna force his whole deal on kids who don’t celebrate the holiday” or smth . A Santa who just stays in his lane or w/e

#christmas #Sorry if this is barely coherent #Good luck explaining why Santa skimps out on poor kids tho I got no bs nice explanation for that one

[melrosing]

I have been thinking over on twitter about that weird show plot point of removing Jaime from the KG which I DO think will be book canon no matter how nonsensical it was in the context of the show. actually BECAUSE of how nonsensical it was in the show but ANYWAY over here I am thinking of the KG as kind of representative of his ‘marriage’ to Cers

Like first of all Jaime’s relationship with the Kingsguard and all it represents does go quite a way beyond Cersei and their relationship (of course), but I think in many ways his swearing himself to the oaths of the KG becomes a stand in for the oaths he can’t swear to her. He swears to be by her side even whilst she swears no oath in return, and thinks that’s his life’s lot. He begrudgingly thinks to himself in ADWD he doesn’t have a wife, he has a sister - as in, that’s all he can ever have, that’s the deal he made, and what scope has he for escaping it?? supposedly

But then of course he has sworn another oath to Catelyn - with Brienne (and I swear I’m not trying to make everything about JB but also. maybe I am) - where it’s not about pleasing Cersei or serving anyone other than himself and what he believes is right. It was an oath sworn independently of any side, any higher power, and Jaime wants to uphold it because that is what he wants to do. And he’s able to share the load of that oath with Brienne. At the moment yes tbf Brienne has shouldered most of that load lmao, but I don’t think JB will be wielding the two halves of Ned’s sword for nothing: ultimately, they will both fulfil it.

also to me this also kind of ties in with everything that takes place in the white sword tower between Jaime and Cersei + Jaime and Brienne in ASOS. Cersei essentially arrives in the colour of the KG, Jaime’s colour (I.e. white), trying to renew their bond - but Jaime rejects her because their bond is already deteriorating and they each have different interests now. Meanwhile w Brienne, kind of the opposite happens: he invites her closer, he bestows his own house colours on her in the form of a sword (representative of the oath they share, and sub-textually suggestive of a cloaking ceremony), reiterates the oath they’ve sworn together, and takes his first steps in claiming his own hopes for the future and his own.

Yet in AFFC it’s his oath as a member of the KG that is tying him to KL still, and I think that’s part of why Jaime will be removed from it - this is no longer about what an oath dictates he should do, it’s about what he thinks he should do, and he needs to be freed from the KG to fully reckon with that. So I do think Jaime will be removed from the Kingsguard and that it’ll be Cersei that does it. He’s emotionally removed himself from her already, but she’s gonna sign the divorce - it’s irreconcilable differences babes

and whilst I don’t think that ends Jaime’s duty (of feeling thereof) to his family or categorically ends every care he has for his sister, that he will certainly still have to reckon with, but I think these two oaths are each representative of Jaime’s changing relationships, the cessation of one and the beginning of another

Anyway bye

#jaime x brienne #asoiaf #sorry this barely coherent but. I wrote a lot of emails today and I’m Tired

[v-arbellanaris]

here's the thing, right. like. okay, let's take everything up to the title showing up as the 'origin' style opening for dai, where you establish character. but like. literally what about that opening establishes character. you get brought to the chantry in haven where they briefly discuss executing you before declaring the inquisition. you can either begrudgingly support the people who have actively threatened you repeatedly or you can go uwu i'd love to help you guys out im so excited to be working with you. like. hello.

#throughout most of the haven stuff you don't get to develop your own opinions on anything. key information is shoved into codexes with #no other information or dialogue contradicting what was said. if you do express an opinion the game goes out of it's way to have every #single companion hammer you over the head with the 'correct' opinion. and for some reason they're almost ALL on the same page. #for example. DORIAN advocating for the circles so southern thedas doesn't ''become like tevinter'' like hello what. WHAT. #magic dangerous. apostates bad. blood magic evil. wardens bad. tevinter evil. qunari evil. dalish bad and stupid. ferelden bad and stupid. #chantry good! templars good! seekers good! orlais good! colonialism good! #like somehow. ALL OF THEM. #when it's to that extent like it's clear they're trying to push you towards some kind of conclusion. rather than letting you make your own. #or even be able to express it. AS AN ACTUAL CIRCLE MAGE I CANNOT EXPRESS COHERENT ARGUMENTS TO SUPPORT THE REBELLION. #like HELLO??? #sorry but there IS no moment or period in time where the herald gets to establish their character. they're immediately thrown into #the deep end of the plot. you get IMMEDIATELY THROWN into the resolution of the mage-templar war. with barely any info except what you #get from your advisors and companions. and some codexes if you go out of your way to read them. which. considering they push you to go to #val royeaux as soon as possible. is just. #like come on. let's be real here. #tbd #dai critical

[comradekatara]

whenever i remember what a genuinely compelling and lovable protagonist korra is, whose identity issues ultimately conclude with her bracing her fallible humanity and choosing to find meaning in her suffering, and how her relationship with asami is so subtle and meaningful because it involves their mutual unconditional support and understanding as two young women who were both raised in privilege but also under the autocratic thumb of these dominant hegemonic societal forces, and how they are consequently torn down by the world over and over again but by choosing to remain by each other's side they are able to overcome their grief and doubt, and how this message of finding meaning in vulnerability and mutual support is amplified further by korra's role as a brown indigenous disabled queer woman protagonist and how her struggles with identity and proud yet nuanced assertion thereafter is so particularly significant... i'm like damn. sure is a shame that the political landscape sucks so bad that i cannot even praise lok for doing all that without adding this necessary caveat every single time.!

#sorry that this is a barely coherent stream of consciousness word vomit #i was just . thinking abt korrasami. and well. #lok crit #korra #asamixkorra #analysis #hot takes #sometimes individual characters & relationships divorced from the political context of the text theyre in can be so good that u momentarily #forget how much u hate the wider landscape of the show itself and worship at the altar of korra(sami) forever regardless #sometimes.! perhaps...!

[delisocks]

something that always kind of bugs me in brba fanworks is the portrayal of jake as this like prodigy supergenius. like, yeah, he was obviously smart, but really mostly he was Easy!! jake’s parents favored him over jesse not because he was special but because he was expected. he fit within the convential metric of success— straight as, sports star, band kid, upstanding citizen— so they could tell themselves, hey! we’re good parents!! we did something Right here. because at the end of the day, they didn’t neglect or abuse jesse, they really tried to help him— it’s just that they weren’t equipped for jesse. they didn’t know what to do with him, because he didn’t fit into any convential metrics for success. the world was not designed for neurodivergent people, and neither was their parenting!! it was designed for people like jake!!! when they looked at jesse, they felt like they had Failed at something. when they looked at jake, they felt like they had Won.

#sorry im so sleepy this has just been bouncing around in my head for days #hope it’s coherent enough #honestly barely feels worth tagging when my posts regularly rack up like 10 notes max but #adam pinkman #diane pinkman #jake pinkman #jesse pinkman #breaking bad #analysis