#sorry if you like kaykay

[kayventa]

wow

i called and she said she was tryna sleep

and i apologized

then she said "okay good night i love you"

ah.

#just friends #i love you #lesbian #uno #nighttime #feelings #what? #im confused what did i mean #huh? #seriously #wow #krikri not kaykay #sorry that sounded better in my head #im not sleepy #i see the moon hehe #it reminds me of her #i dont like the idea of falling for someone that fast #me and my ex are still close. she's doing well and so am i #😊 #🙂 #😕 #☹️ #😣 #😫 #😖😣 #god this is fustrating #long tags #kritah

[mbappebby]

Sometimes you just need your brother || Pt.2

Summary: After finding comfort in her brother’s place, it just seems too good to be true when her father knocks the door….

Makayla Verstappen (OC) x f1 grid

Series

Makayla had fallen asleep with her head rested on Max’s chest. Max didn’t notice until he looked down and seen his little sister asleep.

The 3 other drivers were still at his apartment, Kelly and Penelope were due to come back any moment and that’s when Daniel, Charles and Lando would leave.

“I can’t believe he actually kicked her out.” Max said as the 3 of them looked up at him. “It’s awful, I really don’t understand him” Daniel said.

“She’s only 16 like,” Lando added. “Does he know she’s here?” Charles asked. “Probably, she can only go either me or Vic” Max told him.“You think he’s going to try and take her back?” Lando asked.

“I’m not letting him, I know how he’s been treating her and I’m not letting her go through that anymore” Max added as the door opened.

“Maxie!” Penelope exclaimed as she made her way towards him but stopped when she noticed Makayla there. “What’s KayKay doing here?” Penelope asked.

“I’ll tell you everything later okay? Just keep the noise down as she’s asleep” Max said as she nodded before running back to Kelly.

“We better be going, message any of us Max to update us. Remember we are here to help, Mack is like a sister to us as well” Daniel said.

Max moved his sister‘s head in his chest and onto a pillow before he walked to the door with his 3 fellow drivers. “Thanks guys, means a lot” Max said before bidding goodbye to them.

“Is she okay?” Kelly asked referring to Makayla. “Dad kicked her out, she used all her savings to get a flight over here” Max said. “He kicked her out? Who would that?!” Kelly replied.

“Him apparently, you okay with her staying with us for awhile? I know P loves her anyways” Max asked. “You don’t need to ask, she’s your sister and I know P loves her too” Kelly said with a smile.

“Thank you” Max added.

//

Makayla had woken up to see that she had fallen asleep on the sofa. “Hey sleepyhead” Max joked seeing his sister finally awake. “Shut up, I was tried” Makayla mumbled.

“Is KayKay awake?!” Penelope shouted and when she seen the girl awake she ran and jumped on the sofa with her. “Hey P!” Makayla said as she tickled the young girl.

“KayKay! Stop!!” Penelope giggled as she tried to get out of her grip. Kelly sat down by Max, the two had smiles on their faces seeing the two girls together.

“Hey Kel, sorry didn’t see you there” Makayla said. “It’s alright, happy to see you smiling Mack” Kelly replied with a smile. “Mummy! Can Kay take me to the beach?” Penelope asked.

Makayla gave her older brother a certain look, that he knew he couldn’t say no to. “I hate when you do that look, just be careful you two okay? Be back before it’s gets dark” Max told them as Penelope cheered and ran to get her coat.

“You sure you’re okay with this?” Makayla asked, mainly directing the question to Kelly. “Mack, you I trust you with P. How many times have you watched her before this?” Kelly said.

“Just making double sure. Thank you, we won’t be long!” Makayla said as she got ready for the couple watched the two girls leave the apartment.

“I hate how he’s made her think she isn’t allowed to do or go anywhere..” Max mumbled. “She’ll be alright, Mack is a strong girl. We just need to make sure he stays away from her and not try and take her back” Kelly said.

//

makaylaverstappen

Liked by kellypiquet, maxverstappen1 and 227,629 others

makaylaverstappen: P💗

view all 2,527 comments

user16 Aww so cute!

user19 I adore their relationship!!🥰

user93 So cuteeeee

kellypiquet She loves you so much💗

makaylaverstappen I love her more💗

user72 Awhhh!

user99 P loves Mack so much🥹

user13 💗💗💗

user4 Adore them so much!!🥹💗

maxverstappen1 She likes u more than me!

makaylaverstappen well obviously😌

maxverstappen1 🙄

user63 lol Max🤣

user02 Max and Makayla >>

//

Makayla and Penelope made their way back to the apartment, the young girl ran to her mother while Makayla followed behind her after taking her shoes and coat off.

“I want KayKay to take me to bed!” She heard Penelope said as she entered the room. “I’ll do it Kel, c’mon P! Let’s finish that book off we were reading!” Makayla said as Penelope jumped in her arms as she carried her to her room.

Max and Kelly smiled at the pair before quietly following them and stood by the door watching the both girls. Makayla finished reading before kissing Penelope’s forehead and leaving to door to be greeted by the couple.

“Watching us were you?” Makayla joked as the three made their way back to the living room. “You are so good with her, she adores you” Kelly said. “I love her” Makayla replied with a smile.

The three of them started to watch a bit of TV, Makayla was on her phone a few times before it was starting to get late and they was about to make their way to bed, but there was a knock on the door..

“Makayla! I know you’re in there, you better come here before I phone the police!” They heard Jos shout.

The girl looked at her older brother with fear on her face, how was she going to get out of this? Kelly came over and pulled her into a hug, before Max started to make his way towards the door.

“Makayla, get here now!” Jos shouted.

#f1 #f1 imagines #max verstappen #max verstappen imagine #max verstappen x sister #formula 1 #formula 1 imagines #f1 fanfic #verstappen!reader

[driaswrld]

vi. home.

part of : letters sealed and unsent event.

— from : fushiguro toji.

i made five hundred thousand yen today.

it doesn't feel like much to me though, probably cause it isn't.

sorry if you tried ringing the burner. it fell into a bowl of udon a few days ago and i forgot to get it replaced — you know better than to worry about me anyway.

so what's my pretty girl been up to? stayin' cute? stuffing your face with that preheated junk you call food? i'll bring back some stuff when this job's over, we can get to cooking up a storm in that little kitchen.

maybe if i'm in a good enough mood i'll let you convince me to wear that cute apron you've got.

you into that?

ofcourse you are. little perv.

i don't really like it here much. maybe i'm homesick or something.

and before you go talking shit about "how can you be homesick for a home that isn't even yours?" i've got a key with your initials on it that says otherwise.

maybe it's the crowd, the noise in the city, or the job.

maybe i'm bored out of my mind.

but i think i miss you. miss that pretty face, that little pout you do when you don't get your way like some spoiled brat - the way you squirm a little when your feet get cold under the covers.

okay, alright. i miss you.

when i get back, when i get home, i'll make up for all that lost time. i got a little something for you too — no i'm not gonna tell you what it is, don't be impatient with me, you know better, pretty.

it's nothing too fancy, just something i saw when i was walking around, made me think of you. don't get too sappy on me either, it's just a gift.

when i come home, you'll be waiting for me, right? wanna hear you say you miss me too, stroke my ego just a little.

i love you. so damn much.

it won't be long until i'm with you again, so don't worry your little head about it, okay? stay cute, stay safe, stay fed and keep missing me.

love you, i'll be home soon.

— for khae 💌 (@draecys)

i love u so bad kaykay ik u only requested this bcus u got tired of me ranting ab toji :))

+ a mini letter from khae :

Little sis !!! Congrats on your big soon to be 500 followers stink ☺️ I love you sm keep writing good stuff and feeding my daily delusions esp with those satosugu x reader <333

#lsu ✉️ #jujutsu kaisen #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #toji x reader

[lovesosweeet]

better left unsaid // cth

chapter forty two

in which orion has leukemia, and calum doesn’t know.

calum hood x fem!oc

read other chapters

november 21, 2018 los angeles, california calum

Hearing from Emelia was not on my bingo card for today. I know she has been in contact with some of the others pretty regularly, mostly KayKay and Crystal, maybe Luke, and I think some with Ashton, too, but she has not reached out to me personally since everything happened, aside from when I texted her a week or so ago. When her name pops up on my screen saying that she’s calling me, my heart drops.

‘Is she dead?’ is the first question that pops into my mind, and with that, I start crying while I swipe across the screen to answer the call. Would Em call me if Orion died? I would think so. I’d hope so. 

“Emelia?” I ask into the speaker. My voice is wavering with nerves. She can’t be dead yet. She looked fine when I saw her last. Frail, and sick, but she didn’t look like she was on her last leg. Please, please don’t tell me she’s dead.

Emelia starts crying into the line, and it only makes me even more nervous. She hiccups and then takes a deep breath before she speaks.

“Cal, she needs you.”

I’m thankful that it’s not a notice of her death, but it’s still not good news.

“She’s too scared to say anything herself. She doesn’t think you’d pick up if she called, but I knew you’d pick up. She’s… not doing great, but the depression is wearing her down faster than the cancer. I’m sorry to ask like this, I just can’t watch her spend another day crying in bed and too sad to eat or do—“

“Em, breathe,” I say to her. She and Orion do the same thing under stress: just keep talking to explain something that they made clear with their first few words. “I’m leaving now.”

I don’t think twice. I need to go to her. If Emelia is saying Orion needs me, then I’m there. I’m dropping everything and I’m going. I don’t care if Orion broke up with me. I know she still loves me and I still love her more than I’ve ever loved anything or anyone. If Emelia thinks it’s time for me to go to Orion, I’m going. Emelia asking me to go is practically the same as Orion asking me to. Their hearts are almost the same and they know each other better than they know themselves.

I don’t bother to do anything like pack or take care of Duke. I’ll have Luke or Sierra come take care of him. I just grab my keys, wallet and shoes and walk out the door in a matter of seconds. I don’t know how long I’ll be gone, but none of that matters, all I know is I need to leave.

“We’re at her moms’. Do you need the address?”

“Em, it’s only been a month and a half since I was there. I don’t need the address.” I laugh quietly, even though I’m a mess of nerves and worry.

“Right, sorry. It just feels like it’s been a million years.” 

I am in the elevator now, riding it down to the lobby. 

“I know. It’s been fucking brutal,” I confess. 

The elevator doors open up to the lobby where Ron is on the phone. I nod to him and he waves. He’s been devastated that Orion is gone, but in her absence, I’ve made an effort to make conversation with him whenever I can, so we wave or chat every time I see him. I get through the lobby and then to the garage. I hop in my car and start it, still on the line with Emelia, who’s just crying. 

“It’s okay, Em. I’m on my way, alright?” It has to be okay.

“Thanks, Cal. She’s not the same without you.”

“I haven’t been whole either.” I don’t know how I lived before Orion. Now that I have had her, my life doesn’t feel right without her. Orion made everything in the world make sense. She showed me the best of humanity, the brightest light, and the purest love. I get to go to her again, and the prospect makes my heart light up again.

I put my Jeep in reverse and then zip out of the parking garage, turning onto the busy street.

Emelia laughs. “Yeah, I’ve seen all the shit on Twitter.” 

Twitter has been a hellscape of mostly well-intentioned fans commenting on my very apparent heartbreak. Everything I do on stage or in public is documented and it feels as if everyone on the planet knows I’m depressed and recently single. Me being spotted in Cologne with Paula was just another catastrophe for the fans.

“Did you expect anything else out of our fans?”

“Not in the slightest,” she says. “Okay, I’ll let you go since you’re driving. I’ll see you soon?” 

“Yeah, I’ll be there as quick as I can.”

The drive feels like it takes forever, and I feel all kinds of nerves. I don’t think Orion knows I’m coming, so I hope Emelia wasn’t wrong in calling me. I pray she wasn’t wrong. 

The thought of holding her again has me giddy, but I know that she won’t be feeling well. She’s not doing well at all, and I feel somewhat selfish for being excited. I’m also nervous to see her, knowing what Emelia just said about her. She’s not doing well. I wonder how much smaller she is, how much her hair has grown, and how the treatment plan has been going. 

Circumstances are less than good, but I’m looking forward to seeing her regardless. Seeing my girl again is all I’ve wanted since she made me leave, and it’s happening now. 

I call Luke while I drive once I see signs saying I’ve reached San Diego and can turn off my GPS. I know how to get to the Moss household from here.

“Hey, what’s up?” Luke asks, answering only after a few rings.

“Hey, not sure how long I’ll be gone, but I’m on my way to see Orion right now.”

I have more to say, but I know he will have questions, so I stop talking to give him a chance to ask whatever he wants. He fulfills my prophecy instantly and starts spewing questions.

“Wait, what? How? Why? What happened?” 

“Em called me and said she needs me, so I’m going.” 

“That’s… good and bad, I guess.”

“I know.”

“So you’re going to San Diego?”

“Yeah, and I was hoping you and Si can take care of Duke for me?” I haven’t thought about the prospect of him saying no, so I’m hoping he says yes.

“Of course, whatever you need.”

“Thanks, Luke. I owe you one.”

“No, you don’t. This is the least I can do for you and O. I’ll go get Duke in a bit and keep him here for now. Petunia will be happy to have a friend.” 

Duke and Petunia are very different in size, but they love to play together. 

“Thanks. I’m sure Duke will be excited to play.”

“His food and stuff is still in the same spot?”

“Yeah, nothing’s changed.” Except Orion doesn’t live there anymore.

“Sweet, I’ll let you go. Let me know if you guys need anything else, yeah?”

“Sounds good. Thanks again, Luke, you’re the best.” 

We hang up right as I turn onto the Moss family’s street. I see Emelia’s and Orion’s cars in the driveway and park behind them. Her moms must be at work since their cars are gone. As I pull in behind Em’s car, the front door opens and she waves to me. I park and get out, running up to hug her. 

She looks rough, and she’s not the one sick, so I know Orion is worse off. Emelia’s eyes are brimmed with tears, red and puffy. She welcomes me with open arms and hugs me tightly. 

“Thanks for coming,” she whispers.

Had she thought I wouldn’t? In what world would I not have come when she called? I love Emelia, and of course, I love Orion even more. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for either of them.

“Em, you could’ve called me at 3 in the morning and I’d be here as soon as humanly possible. If I was anywhere else in the world right now, I’d be on the first flight to San Diego, seriously. Thank you for calling me.” 

“I know that’s how it would’ve been before, but I wasn’t sure, with everything…” She whispers into my chest, sniffling quietly.

“Nothing could ever change how I feel about Orion. You know this. I love her with every single cell in my body.” I hope she can hear the sincerity in my voice. I mean it. I don’t think that there is anything that girl could do that would diminish my love.

Emelia steps away from me then and smiles. “I’ve missed you guys being gross together.”

“Can we go be gross now? Does she know I’m coming?”

“No, she’s been asleep for a few hours. She’d had a bit of a breakdown earlier and I called Ash freaking out, because I wanted to call you but wasn’t sure, and he said I should call you, so I did.”

I make a mental note to give Ashton a few points, but he’s still very deep into the negatives. Nonetheless, I’m grateful that he knew me enough to urge Em to call me. If he hadn’t, I would be spending another day alone, mourning my relationship and sitting in the dark about how the girl of my dreams is doing. Instead, I get to see her again.

“What was the breakdown?” I ask.

“Oh, you know, just Orion things. She’d been doing a Twitter deep dive and felt awful for seeing how bad you’re doing, hurt by the shit people are saying negatively about her. She feels like she ruined everyone’s life. She’s feeling lonely, depressed, and—fuck, I guess I should let her update you on her treatment and stuff.” Emelia sighs, her forehead wrinkled with worry. “Here, come inside. Want coffee? Tea?”

She opens the door to the house for me, and then she guides me to the kitchen. She gets out the electric kettle and fills it with water before I even answer her.

“I’ll do tea if you’re making some.”

Emelia nods, switching the kettle on before grabbing mugs. I instantly recognize Orion’s favorite Madrid mug and another she had thrifted a few months ago. She’d taken them from our apartment, and I’m glad to see they’re getting some use here. 

Once the water starts to boil, she turns the kettle off, plops tea bags into the mugs, and then pours the hot water in. She hands me the Madrid mug — I honestly used it far more than Orion did, but it was technically hers so I couldn’t fight her on taking it with her — and I’m happy to get to use it again. As I go to take a sip from my tea, I hear footsteps on the floor above us.

“Em?! Where the hell did you go?” Orion yells.

Hearing her voice for the first time in a month and a half makes my heart skip a beat. 

“Downstairs!” Em yells back, and then she smiles at me knowingly. She’s stopped crying now, but her face is still blotchy and her eyes are still bright red. 

I turn to be able to see Orion as she comes down the stairs in search of her best friend. Her bunny slipper-covered feet appear first, and then baggy black sweatpants, and then an All Blacks hoodie that I had bought her last year. Her brown eyes widen as she sees me standing in the kitchen. Her face morphs through almost every emotion imaginable: shock, joy, anger, shock again, and then she’s crying what I hope are happy tears.

Her short hair is now long enough that she can messily tie it back. Her cheeks are even more hollow than they were in October, the bags under her eyes darker, and the light in her face is just… gone. But, at least she’s smiling right now.

We both hurry to each other, her throwing her arms around my neck and I lift her up so I can squeeze her as close to me as physically possible. She’s so light and fragile feeling, I worry I’ll crush her, but I need to hold her like this, at least for a few moments. 

“Wh—what… what are you doing here?” Orion asks with surprise laced through her tone, her voice gentle. She seems entirely shocked. 

“Em called me. Here I am.”

“But… I… I thought… I’m sorry. Cal, I’m so sorry. I don’t… I don’t want to hurt you, but I missed you so much and I felt selfish for it and I just didn’t want you to watch me fade away and I knew how bad it would hurt for you and…” Orion trails off. Her words are all accompanied and disrupted by hiccups and sniffles. “I don’t deserve for you to be here.”

I place her feet back on the floor, placing my hand on the back of her head and pressing it into my chest. I smooth over the top of her hair, holding her while she tries to explain herself.

It doesn’t matter. None of it matters to me. I need to be here and I need to be with her. I don’t care how bad it hurts. I have to be here with her, by her side, for whatever she needs. That’s what I need. The amount of love she has shown me over the past two years has earned her buckets of love. She deserves for me to be here. There’s no doubt in my mind about that. 

“You deserve for me to love you the way you love me. I’m putting you above me, just like you’re doing for me. I am here. I will always be here. You can’t get rid of me. The love I have for you is embedded into my skin, my soul, my blood. You’re mine, until the day I die, okay?” 

Orion not giving me a chance to not go on tour was her way of loving me, and I know that. She did it because she loves me. She wanted to spare me. She suffered back in LA alone because she didn’t want me to give up on going on tour. She did it to be selfless, to put my needs above hers. I’m here now to put aside from the pain she’s caused and be here for her, because she needs me. And, god, I’ve needed her.

“But,” she starts, and I shake my head. She can’t see it, since she’s still pressed into my chest.

“No, no buts. It doesn’t matter, okay? Whatever you wanted to say, it doesn’t matter. I’m here for you and I love you and none of that is ever going to change.” 

Orion goes quiet then, and the only sounds she’s making are of her shakily drawing in air. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, my love. I am sure.” I don’t know if I’ve ever been more sure of anything.

Orion squeezes me tighter, her bony arms digging into my sides, but I don’t care. Being this close to her again is the best feeling, and I don’t even care about the circumstances. All that matters is we’re together. 

I can feel her tears through my shirt while she cries. I’m so happy to be here right now. It almost doesn’t feel real. It feels like an eternity and also only a few seconds that we stand here in each other’s arms, but we both snap out of it at the sound of a camera shutter.

“Shit, sorry, I thought I had the sound off!” Emelia says.

Orion and I both laugh, breaking apart to find Emelia with her phone pointed at us. She has a close-lipped smile and teary eyes, her free hand pressed against her cheek.

“I’m so fucking glad you’re back,” Em adds.

I look down at Orion, who’s staring right at me, softly smiling. “There’s nowhere else in the entire world I’d rather be.”

The three of us laze around for the afternoon, laying on the couch and watching some random movie that Emelia insists we watch. I don’t even care; all that matters is Orion and I are intertwined with her head on my chest and our arms wrapped around each other. I don’t watch the movie. I simply stare at Orion and take in every strand of hair, freckle, eyelash, pore… I just look at her, in awe that she’s back in my arms.

Around 6:00, Penny, Gloria, and Eri come home. Gloria went shopping for Thanksgiving tomorrow and Penny had to pick up Eri from his after school play date when she got off work. They were all shocked to find me in their home, but welcomed me back with open arms. We eat dinner together — just a simple spaghetti and meatballs dinner that Orion barely eats a few bites of — and then they take Eri on an evening walk around the neighborhood, giving Orion and me our first moment alone in forever. 

“Thank you for coming,” her soft voice says. We’re back on the couch, music quietly playing in the background.

“Thank you for letting me come back.”

Orion looks up at me, tears filling her eyes again. “I was stupid to make you leave at all.”

I lean down, pressing my lips against hers. “It’s okay. We’re together now.” 

She nods, trying to smile while she has tears rolling down her face. “What all did Em tell you?”

“Not much, just that you’re not doing well.”

A flash of pain — not physical pain, emotional pain — lights in her eyes. “Chemo didn’t work.”

My stomach drops. I knew it was a possibility. It had to have been, given how Em spoke about how Orion has been doing. I knew it was possible, but I didn’t actually consider it.

“What’s next, then?” I ask.

She mashes her lips together and pulls them to the side, breaking eye contact for a second before she looks back up at me. “They said I could do trials for other treatments, or I can just ride it out and take medicines to keep me comfortable until things take a turn for the worst.” 

I selfishly would’ve asked her to do the trials, but I can’t imagine how grueling and uncomfortable they would have been, and if they’re trials there’s no way to really know whether they’ll do any good. I also couldn’t ask her to do anything. It’s her body and her life on the line. She deserves the ultimate say. 

“What did you choose?”

“I’m just riding it out.” 

I nod, trying to mask my slight disappointment. A chance at having her for the longest amount of time possible would’ve been nice, but I have to respect her choice for herself and her body. “Then I’ll be with you every single day, and I’ll do my best to keep you feeling okay. Okay?” 

Orion stares at me. I watch her mentally battle her need to not let anyone help her or prioritize her and I can tell it takes a lot of strength to accept me and my help. “Okay. Thank you.” 

“I love you, and I’m not going anywhere.”

She looks at me with so much love and sadness at the same time that I feel my heart constrict. “I love you, and I’m so happy you’re here.” 

—

@EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: no i don’t have permission to post this but idc. my heart is so happy and so full to have these two together again ❤️ love both of them and their love. @calum5sos & @ my bff who only has a burner twitter Image attached

@MacyLacy123: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: oh my god my heart can’t take this!! THANK GOD! and thank you for sharing!!!! love everyone involved sm. true love exists! @Ashton5SOS: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: best friend of the year award! @Calum5SOS: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: thanks for sharing her with me, Em. love you ❤️ @CrystalLeigh: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: okay WHAT i’m crying tears of joy. :’) CALL ME ASAP @5SOSGirlie: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: idk what’s going on but if cal’s happy i’m happy! @5SOSUpdatesUK: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: wait i thought they broke up? why is this pic so cute tho!!?? @Luke5SOS: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: IM CRYING AGAIN I LOVE THEM @Michael5SOS: Replying to @Luke5SOS: bro you gotta stop crying over orion and cal @Luke5SOS: Replying to @Michael5SOS: don’t tell me what to do i’m still gonna cry! @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: Replying to @Luke5SOS: it’s okay luke i’m still crying too but i saw it in person @Luke5SOS: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: yeah well I get to watch Duke so suck it @MaliKoa: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: don’t know how we got here, but I’m so glad we are! they’re the sweetest ❤️ @PaulaPeriodista: Replying to @EmeliaBoDeliaSmelia: YES YES YES! we all needed this! thanks for making it happen! @Francesca5SOS: Replying to @PaulaPeriodista: THE UPDATE IVE BEEN WAITING FOR

next chapter

#unrelated this is probably my favorite cal pic ever #maybe #5sos #luke hemmings #5 seconds of summer #ashton irwin #calum hood #fanfiction #5sosfam #imagine #fanfic #michael clifford #calum 5sos #calum fanfic #calum fic #calum x ofc #calum x fem!oc #better left unsaid

[ejzah]

In Miss Blye’s Class, Part 20

***

Since neither of them had planned on spending the whole day together, Kensi and Deeks decided to part ways for a few hours. Kensi knew she needed to finish some prep for next week, just in case they ended up spending tomorrow together too.

As she walked back into her apartment, her phone buzzed with a text from Nell.

Hey KayKay, wanna grab lunch?

Sorry, I already ate.

Rude.

I know, I’m a terrible friend. I was with Deeks.

Oh, then say no more. Actually, say lots more!

Kensi rolled her eyes at the winking and kissing emojis Nell added to her response.

Seriously, I feel bad I’ve barely spent any time with you recently.

Hey, a good friend never steps in the way of true love. Besides, you can pay me back by giving me all the dirty little details.

You’re awful.

And you love me for it. So when will my best friend be available again?

Kensi dipped ducked her head sheepishly, even though she was all alone, debating what to type back.

Um, maybe tomorrow evening? Caleb’s visiting with his grandma so we’re probably spending most of the weekend together.

Kensi Marie Blye! Nell responded and Kensi could almost hear her delighted shock through the screen.

Not like that.

Well why the hell not? Climb that gorgeous lawyer like a tree.

Nell Jones! That’s it. You’re out of control.

You know you want toooo!

Ok I’m putting you on silent.

Shaking her head, Kensi grabbed the binder of paperwork she brought home with her yesterday, and started in on the most intense grading session of her career.

***

While Deeks did had a few contracts to finalize, the real reason he’d suggested taking some time at home to prepare for their dinner. Given the late notice, he knew there was no way he’d get a reservation for one of the nicer restaurants.

Kensi wouldn’t care where they ate, he was almost certain, but he wanted their first real dinner together, alone, to be special. He’d decided on cooking dinner, but that required a trip for supplies.

When he got back three stores later—the first two were all out of bed tips—he started prepping potatoes, carrots, and onions and seared the beef tips. He hadn’t made this recipe in quite a while. Probably at least a couple years, so he had to actually pull out the stained cookbook his mom had passed down to him when he moved to college (the particular page he needed had actually fallen out years ago). He probably should have preserved all the recipes on index cards, but there was something special, almost sentimental, about squinting at the faded type and trying to interpret his mom’s handwritten notes.

Singing under his breath, he peeled several cloves of garlic, imagining Caleb’s reaction if he found out he’d missed out on one of his favorite meals. Of course, Grandma Deeks would almost certainly be filling him with a combination of her own home cooked delights and his favorite junk food, so he’d call it even.

He got into the flow of the things, chopping and sautéing that by the time he looked up from dumping a pot of perfectly boiled potatoes into a colander, it was almost seven, which gave him a little over an hour to finish everything up.

The beef tips were just about done, so he covered them with foil, setting them off to the side in the oven, and hurried out back to set up a table with the blue dishes head bought on a whim a few weeks ago because they reminded him of the ocean. Maybe surrounding the perimeter of the patio with lights and miniature lanterns was a tiny bit overkill, but he didn’t believe in doing things by halves.

Decorations and table set, he returned to the kitchen for the finishing touches. The doorbell rang just as he was tasting the gravy he just made.

“Oh yeah, you still got it, Marty,” he muttered to himself, then called over his shoulder, “Be there in a minute!”

He stashed a few dirty pans he hadn’t gotten around to cleaning in the dishwasher and glanced around to make sure there weren’t unsightly messes he’d missed. Though at this point, Kensi had probably seen worse and it didn’t seem to faze her in the least.

Kensi was patiently waiting on the front porch when he opened the door. She wore a red sundress, this one with a halter neck that displayed the defined muscles and lines of her shoulders and collar bones to perfection. Deeks didn’t know if she’d chosen it with him in mind, but the color suited her perfectly.

“Hey.” He kissed her briefly as she stepped over the threshold. “You look amazing.”

“Hi. And thank you.” Her eyes drifted over him approvingly, though she didn’t comment on his appearance. She inhaled deeply, closing her eyes. “What smells so delicious?”

“Dinner.”

“Wait, you cooked for me? I thought we were going out,” Kensi said, turning in the direction of the kitchen, though she couldn’t see from here.

“Yeah. I, uh, wanted to surprise you.” He shrugged, suddenly overcome with the rare bout of uncertainty that Kensi. “I hope you don’t mind.”

“Are you kidding? I’ve loved everything you’ve made.” Kensi clapped her hands together, her enthusiasm making Deeks grin. “Ok, so I’m ready to be dazzled with your cooking expertise.”

“Follow me,” Deeks said, holding out his hand. She took it without question, letting him lead her out to patio.

“Oh my god, Deeks, this is beautiful!” Kensi exclaimed, turning in a circle to take in the twinkle lights strung around the patio and the table decorated with candles. “You did all this yourself?”

“Yeah, I told you my mom’s a caterer. I used to help her set up when I was a kid. I can turn a napkin into a swan in 20 seconds,” he responded, making Kensi giggle.

“Impressive.” She spun around in a circle, bringing her within reach of Deeks. Settling her hands on his shoulders, she covered his mouth with hers for a brief but sweet kiss. “Seriously though, this is amazing. Thank you, again.”

He smiled, pleased by her reaction. “Here for all your party planning needs,” he joked.

Kensi tipped her head to the side, her expression shifting slightly.

“What are you thinking about?” Deeks prompted, giving her hand a shake.

“Oh, all of this. You. How much my life has changed,” she said, moving her hand around to encompass Deeks and their surroundings. “I didn’t realize how much I was…missing until I met you Deeks. I mean, I was happy enough, but not like this. A few months ago, I would have never taken a day off like this. You’ve made everything brighter, and fun. Carefree. You and Caleb. You’ve changed my life without even knowing it.”

“Kens—” Deeks shook his head, overwhelmed by everything Kensi had just attributed to his influence. It was heady and a little scary.

She leaned up and kissed him, lingering for several moments. When their lips parted, she brushed his hair back from his temple with her knuckles. “Thank you.”

“You know you’ve changed my life just as much, maybe more,” Deeks told her, laughing breathily. “I mean, I was kind of prepared to become a hermit and spend the rest of my life alone. Then this really hot kindergarten teacher walked into my life.”

“Oh my god, you’re ridiculous.” Kensi rolled her eyes, but couldn’t hold back a chuckle. “I meant it, you have changed my life, Marty Deeks.”

***

A/N: I hope you enjoyed this little mix of fluff, romance, and humor.

I’m sorry if it’s unrealistic, but I can’t bear to write in text jargon.

#ncis la fanfiction #Marty Deeks #Kensi Blye #densi #in miss blye’s class #part 20 #au #teacher Kensi #lawyer Deeks #self indulgent writer #fluff #ejzah fanfiction

[nightswithkookmin]

You jokers should just give it up and join taekookers into shipping jk with tae.support taekook as the only true couple in bts..Honestly stop shipping jimin with that man..Jimin has never loved jk in a romantic way the way you guys have been portraying and analysing every of jm interactions with jk..Jimin is such a sweet person and he shows his affection to every member the same way so stop making it seem like he has a soft spot for one member.Even if jm is gay he will never be with someone like jk.Jm is a sophisticated and classy guy of which Jk doesn't fit in the description.Stop shipping jimin with jk pls it's so disgusting.

and Join Taekookers??

Funniest shit i ever read🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Naa sis you high.

TAEKOOK?????????

Really any ship BUT TAEKOOK. those two ship themselves with anyone but eachother quit gyrating around sur🤧

Jimin don't like Jungkook romantically must be the most cliched self soothing self reassuring mantra I've ever heard from yall pink delulu cadets.

Hang it up. That narrative is over processed and so artificially manufactured. Yall are hopping around blog to blog like a bunch of Jehovah witnesses no one invited with realistically impossible rhetorics that convinces no one but your dumb selves trying to convert souls for your cult?

SIT DOWN Becky.

When their ship is not real but they won't let us be. Please lord let their batteries die.

And I love how narratives like these is what will spur Park Jimin on to do shit like this

In front of your Taekook and vmin chilee🤣

Sorry i meant to post the hickey he gave Jungkook but all I have is a video of him playing with Jungkook's balls

For someone he has no romantic interest in, he do be experiencing them chest pains when yall start them dating rumors bout Jungkook💀

He akekekes teasing V with other girls on social media right under our noses but can't keep the same energy for Jungkook. I dare him to💀

Aht aht aht aht! Imma stop you right there.

Jimin is too sophisticated for Jungkook???

THE WHO? THE WHAT?? THE WHEN??? THE WHERE????!!!!!!!

Does Jungkook pick his nose and eat it??

Sure he spits on his dick before he fucks som JIMIN ass sometimes but who doesn't??? Never spat on a vagina?? Never had your vagina spat on while being choked aggressively???

Cum to the gay side. The sex is good here.

Jungkook is so low class you ship him with Tae??????? That's not funny.

What about Tae makes you think Jk as worthless as you insinuate he is is right for him?? Do you perhaps hate Tae too??

Ooooooohhhhhh... I see what you mean...

ANTI. Solo stan right?

Please do me a favor.

TELL YOUR BIAS TO LEAVE JUNGKOOK'S TITTIES ALONE.

Just because it's broad and firm don't mean he should keep poking at it, gulping at it and going blank on stage when he sees his almost naked back. That shit is gay.

TELL JIMIN TO QUIT SUCKING ON JUNGKOOK'S NECK AND LEAVING BRUISES ON HIM. The fuck was he thinking??

TELL YOUR BIAS TO QUIT THIRSTING OVER MY JUNGKOOK KAYKAY??

Jungkook is a filthy low class human but your bias can't get him out of his mouth and he uses Jungkook as inspiration for his with you hoodie which you dry hump at night when you are lonely and feeling miserable.

Look how sad and miserable he becomes when Jungkook acts cold towards him on camera- isn't that why yall hate Jungkook so much and claim JK hates Jimin???

It gives yall chest pains when Jimin is literally drying on camera when Jungkook is busy feeding other ships right??

Support Tae Kook....

Yall ain't seen nothing yet🤣🤣🤣🤣

Some of y'all JM SOLOS are just so dumb yall give dumbass a bad name.

You think Park Jimin who gets so upset when others treat their siblings poorly, who insinuates hates anyone who hates his loved ones will smile at you for hating on his precious little donsaeng??

Do you know how much care and nurturing he has given to that man you insinuate is filthy and a scambag??

Do you know how much of his energy he's actually invested in healing Jungkook, loving him, teaching him, supporting him, raising him, being his friend, from the little contributions and input he makes into his career, giving him dance tips, helping him work on his stage presence, always improving himself so he can be a better influence on Jungkook not only as a friend and colleague but as a hyung?

Do you know what it means to him when he calls himself Jungkook's hyung?? Do you know how often he asks if he's being a good hyung to him??

Being a hyung is part of his all so sophisticated identity. Being responsible for someone else, being able to give back the love he receives that's all part of who he is.

When he says be a good human- if you cared so much as to invest a little time into researching this statement you'd know who Jimin is at his core. You bring his dignity into disrepute when you insinuate he is so unintelligent to surround himself with people that aren't worth his time especially when birds of a feather flock together.

Jungkook provides him with as much companionship as he gives him. And you are not so smart to disparage Jungkook and praise Jimin when Jimin calls Jungkook his You are me I am you.

Your vagina stinks for this. Go wash up.

You must hate Jimin too right?? To disregard his autonomy and to have no respect for his choices in friends. These are the same people who complain and ask us to respect JMs choices over his body when we complain he starves ot over exercises. Yet yall can't respect his Choice in career, band, bandmates, soulmates and boyfriends??

The audacity and hypocrisy you have.

Jungkook don't owe you shit. He's gon fuck your bias, spread him up mercilessly and give it to him good till he can't walk on stage and when our bias bites him back he will not bother to cover it up just to walk all over your graves.

And the sanctimonious flare...

Ma'am just quit being a Karen before Jungkook and I stomp your face with our chunky boots. Those boots were made for walking and we won't hesitate to walk all over people like you.

If you think over analyzing Jimin's interactions is wrong save it for your blog. Tumblr is free start a blog and write your thoughts there nobody is asking you anything here. Literally no one.

Let people do what interests them it's a free world free speech free association you stupid and if you hate shipping don't hang around shippers' blogs. Don't read it. How hard is that??

i can't take you seriously fuck off

What a beautiful couple. They in love 😙

I see a boner.

There, I over analyzed them.

Come beat me.

When you hate someone you hate everything about them. When you love someone you love everything about them. You may disagree with somethings about them but you sure grow fond of their interests.

Stop projecting your hatred for Jimin onto Jungkook and Taehyung you Kajafeeluv Jimin will spit on you🤓

Is that what you came here for?? Good.

Now shoo

GOLDY

[littlekiara96]

Meet Rose, my HSR OC :D

Her kit is based on life-stealing through DoTs and she's part of the Stellaron Hunters :D

I'd love to get asks about her (anything, really) ^^

I've tried to make her kit not too OP because she is meant to be a 4-star but huuuuh... Not sure I managed that...

[Kit, Eidolons (titles only) and voicelines under the cut]

— Ability

Basic ATK: Flying Thorns

Shoots 3 needles out of her umbrella to one enemy target, with a 70% base chance of inflicting them with Wind Shear for 3 turns, up to 5 stacks. Each DoT applied life-steals for 30% of her max health and 10% of her attack.

Skill: Lovely Sacrifice

Heals all allies by downing her own health by 30% of her max health. Each ally receives 20% of her max health.

Ultimate: Sweet Revenge

A blast that hits up to 3 enemy targets, life-stealing for 70% of her max health and 30% of her attack.

Talent: Unbearable Loss

Revives one ally per battle at full health but she sacrifices 70% of her Max HP in the process. She cannot go lower than 1 HP.

Technique: Delicate Touch

Attacks her target, applying one stack of Wind Shear on all enemies at the start of the battle.

— Eidolons

Under the Umbrella

Means to an End

Gentleness Aplenty

Irreplaceable Ire

Love Abounds

— Character Lines

First Meeting: “Hello, darling~ Don't fret; the name's Rose and I'm merely here to help you. Do tell me if anything hurts. If you behave, I might even kiss it better~”

Greeting: “How have you been since last time? Tell me everything!”

Parting: “Aww, don't worry~ I'm not going anywhere without you.”

About Self: “Oh? I’m not all that special! I just take care of the people dear to me, and I make sure nothing bad happens to them. Just what any good friend would do, right?”

About Self - Pendant: “You wish to see…? I'm sorry, but it's very precious to me. It's… a souvenir of sorts.”

Chat - Flowers: "I can't help but like the smell of roses… It reminds me of… old times…"

Chat - Love: "I say I love everyone, but in fact… There is one person I despise. Who? I'm not telling you~"

Hobbies: "I mostly read whenever I have nothing better to do. Do you know about a romance writer from Jarilo-VI? I just love her work!"

Annoyances: “Anyone who hurts my friends, be it physically or not… shall face the consequences.”

Something to Share: “Isn’t life just so wonderful? All the little things that make up the universe… It’s a beautiful, chaotic miracle, don’t you think?”

Knowledge: "Have you heard about the Knights of Beauty? They are quite the interesting bunch. I wonder what they are up to, nowadays…"

About Sam: "Oh, funny Sammy? He's a bit all over the place, but he's always there when I need help with anything. Sometimes, it's like he pops out of nowhere… I whacked him once with my umbrella reflexively. He asked for compensation. What was it? Oh, hum… Heehee~"

About Silver Wolf: "She's a good kid, once you explain things to her like it's a game. She has a passion for high scores and such, so she just needs a feeling of competition and she'll do anything for you!"

About Kafka: "Aaah~ I always go shopping with Kaykay! She has impeccable taste in fashion, and she even helped me train with my umbrella!"

About Blade: "I wish Bladie would stop telling me not to heal him. I don't even want his thanks, I just want him to… Ah! Don't tell him I called him Bladie!!"

About Elio: "Now, now~ If you think I will tell you anything about my boss… You're dead wrong."

About Argenti: “Wh- Why would you want me to talk about him?! N-No, I am not blushing! Who taught you to be so rude to a lady?”

— Combat Lines

Battle Begins - Weakness Break: “Careful not to prick yourself.”

Battle Begins - Danger Alert: “That's a thorny situation…”

Turn Begins I: “Time to reap what you sowed!”

Turn Begins II: “Let’s pluck some petals!”

Turn Idling: “Is there a problem, dear?”

Basic ATK: “Stay still!”

Skill: “Please, don't look…”

Hit by Light Attack: “Just a prick.”

Hit by Heavy Attack: “That one hurt!”

Ultimate: Activate: “Do not interfere.”

Ultimate: Unleash: “The constant flow of change in all that exists… How poetic!” - x2 “The flow of change… Wonderful!”

Talent: "Not on my watch!"

Downed: “Should've been… better…”

Return to Battle: “Did you miss me?”

Health Recovery: “How sweet of you~”

Technique: “Here's a gift~”

Battle Won: “Does anyone need a magic kiss?”

Treasure Opening: “Oh! How nice~”

Successful Puzzle-Solving: “Keeping one's mind sharp~”

Enemy Target Found: “Beware. That flower has thorns.”

Returning to Town: “We can rest whenever you need to.”

#hsr oc #hsr ocs #honkai star rail #kiara draws

[dannythescenesluttt]

HAII❕️❕️ o(>.0)O

☆ I'm Jaylin/Daniel but call me jayjay or danny ! [He/Him]

☆ I wont specify age cuz I'm not comfortable but I'm almost 8teen ! 🐇

A fag emo beaner who loves moobies and is an absolute whore for himbos and pathetic whiny men..

☆ I like horror/scary stuff, creepypasta/marble hornets, mlp, sanrio, monster high, foggy/rainy weather, emo/scene/gothic culture, and I also love reading and writing ! ^_^ I like a lot of other stuff too but that's too much to write, though I'm pretty much open about anything :3

▶︎ •၊၊||၊|။||||| 0:10 Sew Me Up –Spiritbox

Anywho, I felt like I needed to write sum like this cuz well, even if I don't post anything here, (too shy and not confident enough + social anxiety) I've been having some... weirdos.. follow and interact with me o_O

So! Here are sum things that are a HUGE DNI if you like, and/or are any of these. (^ω^)

If you like dd/lg (seriously dni. You're weird.)

Want to get r-worded, romanticize, or sexualize it ! (get actual help or jump.).

If you like doing rape play.

If you like age play.

Infantilization kink! (Unless you're a little and use it as a coping mechanism, then you're fine.)

Self-harm kink/promoting sh. (Especially you. Stay away from me, weird ass bitch💀)

Idolize eating disorders.

Fake mental illness for no damn reason at all.

If you sexualize teenagers/kids.

If you fantasize about getting kidnapped and being done horrible things to you, such as rape. Or if you wanna do that to someone else and think it's hot.

Necrophiliac ! (Even if you not one but still find it hot.)

If you like incest.

Zoophile ! (Ew)

If you think abuse is hot/attractive and if you want to get abused.

Yanderes. (Some of yall are okay, I fw yall but for the REALLY weird ones, then don't interact please. Especially if you wanna do sum like that irl, like killing and kidnapping or whatever.)

Don't follow me of your blog is only about sex and nudity.

☆ 'kaykay! I think I got 'em all. Now for the usual dni ! ^____^

Racists.

Homophobes/transphobes.

Xenophobes.

Ableist.

Fatphobic.

Dsmp/dream fan.

Fujoshis/obsessive bl fans. (We're not here for your fantasies and fetishes.)

Extremely, and I mean EXTREMELY religious people that judge/demonize other religions.

Basically all the usual ! nwn

And I think that's pretty much it? Anyway, have some more info 'bout me !

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ˚★⋆ ｡˚ ⋆

┊ ┊ ┊ ⋆

┊ ┊ ★⋆

┊ ◦ ┊

★⋆ ┊ . ˚

˚★

I heart vampires, I'm Mexican💪, I love animals a lot, my favorites being rabbits, rats, snakes, bats, and crows/ravens. I like writing a lot and reading ! I also like plants, favorite being the dragon skull flower<3. I like "weird" things and I love stars a lot. I have adhd and other mental issues, I also can be rude/mean sometimes so if I am ever rude to you, I'm sorry. You probably caught me in a bad mood or you just said something stupid. I like rock and metal bands, including vkei ❕️❕️I also like skz ^_<ᯓ★, I'm pretty much open to new music recommendations of any kind of genre !

I love my mami santita muerte🫶 And I'm also a shifter nwn ! (Ifykyk). And I think that's pretty much it?? Yeah, that's it, I think !

'Kay then byebye o(>.o)O

…⁠ᘛ⁠⁐̤⁠ᕐ⁠ᐷ♡ ༘*.ﾟ

#introduction i guess? #I just don't want any more weird people following me 💔 #I barely know how to work this... #ᘛ⁐ᕐᐷ #gimme music recommendations 🗣 #i'm in your walls #emo?? #gothic... I gusss.. #i love vampires #dannythesceneslutt 🐇! #🦇 #I need reality shifter mutuals❕️ #i'm just yapping #:3 #sorry this is so long omfg💀

[madame-fear]

(let me know if I'm being annoying or anything I just felt like keeping up the conversation- also you can answer this like a normal ask I don't really care from this point on)

Don't feel bad about telling me without sugarcoating or anything,like I said myself I had the suspicions from the moment I saw the request and the moment I saw the reaction I was like: yeah this confirms it. So don't worry you didn't hurt my feelings or anything, you're just making me feel better for not thinking I was being dramatic or crazy over it

I'm also not really trying to put my energy into this, even if it seems like it. I just wanted to share it because chisme but I've had better moments as a writer and I have more engagement with other mutuals of mine and that's whats great about this place.

Tbh I have greater times with anons and people in general that come across my fics than with my mutuals (NOT INCKUDING YOI IN THUS ONE DONT WORRY) because sometimes we grow apart in terms or they're busy and that's totally fine. I just don't like it when it's really obvious that they really enjoy their OTHER mutuals work but not mine because- you can unfollow me or just don't ask me to write for you if I don't cater your *particular* likings lol

Anyway I should stop with the rant because I already made my point but if he keeps up that behavior either I'll ask about it or I'll softblock

DARLING MY LOVE YOU AREN’T BEING ANNOYING AT ALL, IN FACT I LOVE SEEING YOUR MESSAGES AND CHATTING TOGETHER AHSHHDDJK 💕💕💕 Sorry I didn’t get to answer this earlier !! 🥺

Oof, for a moment I was actually worried. Because I knew you wouldn’t mind me being fully honest and would actually understand, but at the same time I was concerned in case I made you feel bad — so reading this made me feel super relieved!

Yeah,, girl you are definitely NOT being dramatic on this situation; that person is being an asshole with all the letters highlighted, trust me. I know his type 🙄 I’m so glad that it didn’t make you feel so bad nor you’re putting all of your energy on this person — otherwise they already have a serious problem with me 🗡🗡 THE TEA IS SO GOOD THOUGH 😩🙏

I get you, because if you’re going to be a jerk and think that you’re compromised to engage with someone’s content, then just unfollow or ignore them! It’s way better for everyone and it’s less toxic and it makes you feel less shitty! I hate it when people are so blatantly favouring others while they just act like they are forced to interact with you, like chill man no one is holding you at gunpoint to interact. ☠ ALSO I’M SO GLAD I CAN BE A GOOD MUTUAL FOR YOU BBY DON’T WORRY 🙏🙏❤❤

Kaykay my beloved; I suggest you either talk with him, or just straight up softblock like you said — trust me it will take a huge burden off of you to not have that type of people around you, and I say this from experience ☠ And don’t worry about ranting or spilling tea with me! I will be more than delighted to hear you out and help however I can whenever you need it! 🥰💕

#kay <33 #kaykay my sweetie #┆ ⤿ 💌 come chat with amira .ᐟ ୭ #— [. 🫂 ] ; my mutuals <3 #my mutuals <3 #loving my mutuals <3 #ask box messages #✧.* amiraverse #ask box #ask box open

[saintanjiro]

“Cmon dude, just wear the thing, it’s only gonna be a few villains anyway,” Tomura goads Touya further, grin wide when it only pisses the other male off further. His flames ignite only for Kirei to dose him with water to shut up him; though, of course, Tomura is soaked in the process.

The flame user looks absolutely defeated and it makes everyone want to laugh more, “it’s wet, gotta buy it now.” His comment makes you giggle, nodding your head in agreement, “you’re supposed to make the bride happy, plus she’s your girlfriends best friend.”

“It’ll be fine Dabi. You look pretty!”

- Tomura

"buy it, b-buy i—" I snort, holding my tummy as I crack up once again. He looks so annoyed, and now that Kaykay got him wet he looks like an angry, harmless cat.

"i'm sorry," I wipe a tear from my eye, walking over to Tomura and Touya, making him let go from Tomura's shirt. I turn to my man just in front of him, and gather his hair as if I was wrapping my arms around his neck, squeezing the water off his hair.

"Let's get you something to wear, don't want you gettin' sick." I say, tugging at his hand then to search for some clothes in his own style.

#✞; el bagdad. #tomura.👑

[honeyedlashton]

CALM Lyric Analysis Part 1: Red Desert

You guys apparently liked the idea so I’m not here to disappoint. I had way more to say about this than I thought I thought I did so, needless to say it’s long. I don’t know if the next ones will be this long, but yeah... I guess all I can recommend is for you to grab a cup of coffee, or tea, or water, or the blood of virgins, and let’s just break this opening track down. Here is “Red Desert”:

———————————————————————

Red, red desert, heal our blues,

I’d dive deeper for you

What a blessing to feel your love

Twilight moments with you

I’ve been asleep so long, I’m so far away,

The visions I see are strong, I hear what they say.

Won’t you leave all your fears at the edge of the world?

Tell you again like I told you before.

I’ve been asleep so long, wasting away.

Tell me would you pack up all your bags, stay true to north?

You’re the only one I’d do this for.

It doesn’t take too long, to heal and replace.

The demons we’re running from, they’re begging to stay.

Written by Ashton Irwin

———————————————————————

So this is the first lyric analysis of CALM. I figured I’d go in order, cause A) it’s less confusing, and B) 5sos put them in that order for a reason. So here we are. And here I am trying to figure out how to talk about this. The absolute first thing I realized is that this is an insanely difficult thing to begin writing about. But i guess this isn’t a thesis paper, so I shouldn’t really stress it. Alright let’s get into it, shall we?

When I first heard this song I thought: “ok so they took a love song and they made it West World,” (not really). But upon my first listen it didn’t seem lyrically rich to me because of the use of repetition. However, the more I looked into it, I recognized the deeper story. It is a story. It—like many of their songs—is symbolism for a relationship in a place in time where there are outward struggles.

Now this is obviously an established relationship, because talking about something such as putting your fears aside and going essentially to the end of the earth for someone means that you love and trust them completely. And in this, Ashton is saying that he has been “asleep” or distracted and distant from something he should have been focused on. He hasn’t been caring like he should, or like he used to. Maybe he had turned into a different person while he was in dormant mode, and basically living on auto pilot.

The “visions” he sees could basically be his call to action. His look into the past and future. The phantoms, the mirages, the oases he sees. Perhaps these visions are telling him that the commitments he’ll make in this relationship are the ones that will get him through the hot heat of his struggles. They could also be relating to the past. Having visions of the past and the future guiding him along as he travels.

“Won’t you leave all your fears at the edge of the world?” is a reference back to where the relationship started. Taking a chance and going forward together, leaving their reservations on the horizon behind them. But somehow in the midst he lost track and began “wasting away.” The the person he was before is no longer entirely who he is now. Part of him has decayed.

And then there’s the re-commitment of the pre-chorus. His visions come true. He’s asking his lover to be strong with him. They could search out their “true north”—finding a point to orient themselves in a spinning world—together so they can get back on the right path toward their destination: each other. They’re both looking for their norths together, because he believes that this relationship is the only one worth going forward with. The only one worth braving the great unknown for.

Not only that but worth going “deeper” to the heart of an issue. Because even if the day (or the issue itself) is hot and exhausting, it’s a blessing for the night to come and cool them down. Showing that when they’re away from the stresses of the day and can focus on their love, it’s worth it. (Also night being linked to love is a common duo on this album—and in every Ashton song ever—so remember that folks.)

In the second verse he opens it talking about restoring what he had lost when he was asleep. But the desert isn’t the one Ashton is saying heals him, it’s the fact that they mend each other. They “heal and replace” the parts of them that were “wasting away,” which is why they are parallels in the song.

The “Demons” he’s talking about have been referenced, many times throughout 5sos’s more recent songs. And they could be any number of things. They could be his own dark frame of mind, they could be actual people he “chooses” to hang out with, it could be a combination. Ashton has written many songs about himself as if he is a recovering demon/devil himself. And just like addiction, or a state of mind, or insistent people: they don’t want to be forgotten. They insert themselves and remind you they’re there. And no wonder he’s trying to run from it, imagine a constant onslaught of fears and insecurities following you no matter where you go.

As for the music, it is very percussion and rhythm heavy. Ashton really models the drums after “Meet You There,” and its very obvious. The music feels adventurous and melancholy. It has bluesy aspects to it, like the chorus specifically feels like a chant in a sorrowful blues song. I don’t know anything about music, except I do know a lot about tone, and the tone of this song is vast and scary and unsettling and adventurous. Not to mention the bridge has a tremendous buildup that makes me pay attention every single time I listen. It’s such a large sound you could almost drown in it.

It is a favorite of mine off the album, even from first listen. It’s so big and beautiful, I love it so much. The adventurous aesthetic is perfect, and it is the perfect way to starts album.

———————————————————————

So now that I’ve gone through the music and lyrics, its theory time. Now all of these are my opinions so take them with a grain of salt or don’t read them i could care less. I believe what I believe...

And I don’t believe this is some KayKay bullshit. Ashton is a fool if he thinks he can put this song that is about a very long lasting but suffering relationship on a playlist for a girl he’s been “on and off” with for a year. Fuck that. And fuck him for trying to sell that shit to us. in my eyes, this is so very clearly about Luke. It is about losing the end goal of a relationship, its about recommitting to being there for the one they love after a period of losing themselves. Ashton and Luke have been together since forever, and lots of the songs on this album indicate a tumultuous relationship with someone who has been there for a long time. and I don’t think neither Kay Kay nor Bryanna fit the bill. Also the first thing I could think of when I listened to the lyrics that said “Edge of the world,” my immediate thought went to that interview in 2018 Luke literally said that he’d “follow [Ashton] to the edge of the earth.” 

Also I almost forgot to mention that most of Ashton’s recent songs--especially the ones cowritten with Luke--(Midnight, Better Man, If Walls Could Talk, ect...) have been about only being able to love someone at night. which doesn’t line up if he puts a song he wrote about a long drawn out struggle in a relationship that spans over two whole albums on a playlist for her... likely story. (There’s also a lot of songs on that playlist that are not for her and are for Luke, but that could be a whole other post.)

Anyway “Red Desert” is a Lashton song through and trough in my eyes. So Ashton can say what he wants, and can post this song on his “for Kay Kay” playlist, but he can never convince me that this shit isn’t about Luke.

#red desert #calm 5sos #calm #ashton irwin #afi #luke hemmings #lrh #michael clifford #mgc #calum hood #cth #red desert calm #lashton #lyric analysis #sorry if you like kaykay #literally just my opinions you dont have to read them

[lovesosweeet]

better left unsaid // cth

chapter thirty one

in which orion has leukemia, and calum doesn’t know.

calum hood x fem!oc

read other chapters

october 2, 2018 san diego, california calum

I feel bad for my Uber driver. He’s got some blubbering man crying in his backseat at 7 am on a Tuesday. When he drops me off at the hotel, I tell him thank you through quiet sobs, and I make sure to tip him incredibly well on the app. He didn’t ask any questions, although I’m sure he had plenty. 

I don’t know why I choose Emelia over any of my friends to go to, but I do. I bang on the door to her hotel room until she annoyedly swings it open, her eyes flooded with concern. I don’t wait for her to hug me, instead I just clumsily throw my body against hers and start crying.

I’ve cried more in the past two days than I have in the past five years. 

“What’s going on?” She asks, her voice just barely louder than a whisper. 

“She broke up with me.” Even though they’re true, the words sound like a lie. I don’t even know if Emelia will believe me.

“You’re shitting me,” is how she responds, and I just cry, confirming the truth without words. 

She lets me cry for a few minutes while she processes what I said.

“Cal, I swear, I had no idea that she would do that. I’m sorry.”

I just keep crying.

“Here, come in,” Em says. She opens her hotel room door wider and steps in, pulling me with her. I let her guide me to her bed and she pushes me down by the shoulders to sit. “I’m gonna go get the boys, okay?”

I want to yell after her not to bring Ashton, but I can’t make myself say the words. I hear her banging on doors and then whispering in the hallway, and before I know it, my bandmates and their girlfriends are all streaming into the room. Everyone looks floored and they look at me with immense pity. I hate it.

They all just stare, but KayKay is the first one to break out of the pack, coming over and sitting next to me, wrapping her arms around me in a hug. I let my emotions go again, letting the sadness ooze out of me in hot tears that undoubtedly fall onto Kay’s sweatshirt. She doesn’t say anything, but she just holds me as I cry. 

The room feels deafeningly silent aside from my cries.

I want to be mad again. I want to yell at them all for letting this happen. How could none of us have known? How could none of us have sensed this all happening? I know Orion is to blame for keeping secrets, but Ashton is who I blame overall. He knew. He knew and he didn’t tell me. He’s my best friend. He should have told me.

Even though I want to be mad, all I can feel is the sheer heartbreak. The love of my life… isn’t even mine anymore. She doesn’t want to be mine. I never thought this day would come. We were supposed to grow old together. We were supposed to get married. I figured I’d propose in a year or so, and then once she was out of law school, we would get married.

We’d elope, probably in Spain, but then we’d have an Australian reception and an American one, both still small small, with professional photographers to capture every single second of the elopement and the parties. We’d take pictures in Retiro and celebrate at Space Monkey. We’d watch the sun rise from the park, just the two of us, on our first morning as husband and wife.

Orion and I had talked about all of it. She’d shown me a Pinterest board of engagement rings she’d like. 

We had plans to buy a house on the beach in a few years, once we didn’t need to be close to any college campuses. We wanted to get another dog, and maybe even a few cats. We didn’t want kids, but we did want to rescue as many animals as we had the time, space, and money for. 

None of it matters now. She doesn’t even want to be my girlfriend anymore. 

I never thought there’d be a world without Orion being mine, and here I am, living in that very world. She won’t even be in the world at all once she inevitably dies.

“Cal? Are you okay?” Michael’s voice brings me back to reality, and then I realize that I’ve temporarily stopped crying.

“I don’t even know.”

–

5SOS Cancel San Diego Concert!

Everyone’s favorite Aussie band was slated to perform in San Diego tonight as part of their Meet You There world tour, but the band has canceled the show without much explanation, citing a ‘family emergency.’ This is the message they posted to Twitter just a few moments ago.

“San Diego, we’re so sorry to say we won’t be performing tonight. We’ve had a family emergency come up. We promise to come back very soon and we apologize for the inconvenience.

We love you! Xx -Ash, Luke, Mike, and Cal”

Fans are immediately speculating after images were posted of bassist Calum Hood at the beach having an emotional breakdown yesterday afternoon, only to be followed by images of Hood’s long term girlfriend, Orion Moss, doing the same thing at a different beach. Allegedly, Moss was approached by police before fleeing the scene.

Whatever is going on, to say that fans are concerned would be an understatement.

read next chapter

#5sos #luke hemmings #5 seconds of summer #calum hood #michael clifford #ashton irwin #fanfiction #fanfic #5sosfam #imagine #calum fic #calum 5 seconds of summer #calum 5sos #calum imagine #calum x ofc #calum x fem!oc

[feebledetective]

🎁!

|| Want a few gifts from Shuichi? || Accepting! ||

Satoru’s gifts are…

 A plush rabbit, a candy bar, a baseball hat, and a coffee pot.

–   “ Ah- Satoru! ”

 Shuichi ran up to his brother, handing him a small gift box with items he thought would be nice for his brother. After all, he did deserve it, a lot actually. This is one way he would thank his brother for being around. Perhaps he’s thinking about this too deeply…

  “ I hope you’ll like what’s inside! ”

 He seemed so eager to see him open it, especially to see the coffee pot. Shuichi made sure he got the exact same candy bar Satoru loves so much, and the baseball hat was there in case he wanted to wear a different sort of hat. As for the rabbit plushie? Well, they ran out of cat plushies, unfortunately. But the rabbit one looked just as cute, if not, cuter. 

 It was perfect for his brother, considering how it’s a dark grey plushie. –

#[ sorry for the delay but !!!! here you go !!! ] #[ tysm for sending this kaykay! <33 hope satoru likes his emo rabbit plush! ] #ahogedetective #| asks | #ic | { They’re Relying On Me & I Can’t Let Them Down }

[cosmicmemory]

𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐌 | 𝐂. 𝐇

calum hood x fem! reader

requests are open!

liked by calumhood, kaykay, and others

yourinstagram you don’t know what u do to me..

View all 49,194 comments

calumhood Took those on my phone.

calumsgirl you have my heart

kaykay you’re stunning.

unofficialcal oh, she cute!

ashtonirwin when you are dropping your song

5sauce shut up i love you so much

empathyhoodie rare aesthetic: y/n in her natural state

lukehemmings love you ❤️❤️

calumsfilms THE QUEEN IS BACKK

5sos 🤤😍

liked by florencepugh, yourinstagram, and others

calumhood POV: you’re the concerned fbi going through y/ns texts.

View all 394,495 comments

yourinstagram i feel sorry for them 😕

y/nsfbiagent now y/n… what’s this photo? :(

calumandy/n lmao not the caption please

ashtonirwin grandma and grandpa vibes

y/nhatesme LMAOO ASH’S COMEMNT 😭

calumhoodupdates their relationship >>>

sierradeaton oh no! not the causal selfies

florencepugh wait this is iconic actually 😳

zoeisabellakravitz I kind of love this..

#fake instagram #social media au #calum hood #calum x reader #calum hood x y/n #calum hood x reader #calum hood imagine #calum hood fake Instagram #calum hood instagram #calum hood fluff #calum hood smut #calum hood angst #calum hood social media au #cosmic memory #cosmic memory calum hood #fake social media #calum hood x you #calum hood blurbs #calum hood fanfic #luke hemmings #ashton irwin #michael clifford #mgg imagine #social media x reader

[unlikelyempathpruneauthor]

Girls just wanna have fun

summary: the girls and you take over the first set of the guys concert for fun and as a joke, but you guys are really good which makes fans go crazy with how real you all sound like a real band.

Setlist: Babylon, Valentine, Ghost of you, No shame,Wildflower.

a/n: this is a 12 in the morning idea lol, thought it would be really cool to write this and of course the reader spends time with calum practicing the bass haha. I thought it would be cute for all the guys to see their girls in different settings.

a/n: august 2nd, fuck it i’m posting it lol

“this might sound silly, but it sounds like a good idea too.” michael said as cal spoke up, “out with it then clifford.” he said as you all giggled very interested in what he had in mind for the guys, or well for you ladies, but you didn't know that.

“What if our ladies do the first set of our concert?” he said as Crystal spoke, “Wait actually?” she said as you and the girls raised your eyebrows looking at one another while the guys were actually considering it. “that would be a fun idea actually.” Luke spoke as Sierra laughed, “you really think fans would enjoy that? not saying that we're bad entertainers.” she said as you giggled and everyone continued to elaborate.

“it would be fun seeing the fans reactions when they are expecting us.'' Ash said as he also mentioned how the fans all enjoyed the time they switched instruments, from the guys' view the fans loved it. “Besides the fans always ask about you guys it would be a fun way for them to see you all together.” Michael said as kaykay spoke,“okay if we were to do it, when would we do it cus if we're actually playing and singing we need to practice.” kay kay said as you nodded, “i agree with that,” you said as cal looked over at you with a smile, “wait your actually considering it?” he asked as you nodded with a giggle, “i mean it could be fun and we are all going,” you shrugged as all the everyone nodded. Cal knew you were a pretty nervous person so he didn't want you to feel pressure at all, since you two also had just announced that you were dating for a while now. But it would be a nice way to get the fans to know you too since they know the other girls very well. After planning rehearsal time, the set list, and the final date you were pretty much prepared, you just had to dread the planning time on your half.

You were only doing one of the main 5 songs that fans enjoyed a lot when the guys sang, so it was pretty easy going for all of you to do the main one, since a whole set was pretty intimidating especially to you, but 5 songs wasn't that bad. Of course the girls and you had some sort of experience with playing their instruments, since quarantine. You had told all the girls on facetime what you were up to, and they had been doing the same as you.

“So what have you been up to y/n?” sierra asked as you held your finger up and moved the camera to the bass, “this is so weird, but i've been playing the bass with cal, since you know we're pretty much stuck here, i thought it would be cool to learn.” you said as kaykay gasped, “no way! So have I but with the drums, Ash has been teaching me a little, it's so fun!” she said as you gave you a virtual high five, “This is so weird that you guys are mentioning this, but Luke has been teaching me too, its so weird, he came up to me with his guitar and he was like ‘let's have a jam session’ and i got the hang of the piano and the guitar.” sierra said as crystal spoke up and you thought it was so uncanny, but i mean it was pretty practical that you would all be learning how to play the guy’s instruments.

“I think they planned this because Michaels been teaching me how to play as well..” she said as you were all laughing and then Sierra spoke, “I think I see a band about to be immense,” she said as you all continued your conversations.

You all had been practicing for a while so you had some skill. Of course then you hadn't thought anything about that, but you kinda thanked cal for teaching you a little bit, since now you were going to do it live as a joke, but you were actually going to play and sing.

Though practice was enough for you guys to be prepared you also had to rehearse together to see how you all sound with one another. The singing part was easy for all of you since you guys would always sing. The boys had no doubts, they knew you would vocally sound good, but you girls already knew that since you had gone to a vocal coach and she even loved your vocals all together. She had even told you guys you were all able to make it as stars, but I mean you were only doing it one time for fun.  As you all arrived to rehearsal you and girls had even dressed up like the boys, you thought it would be fun because you guys were also doing some video diaries for fun for fans to see the behind the scenes. When the cameras started rolling and the guys did the intro before the cameras were on you as the guys would watch.

“Did you guys dress up as us?” Luke asked as Sierra nodded, “holy shit i just realized that,” michael said and you started laughing how identical she dressed up as look and also michaels reaction, “for promo purposes we had to, also that screams Luke, sierra looks way better luke im sorry,” kaykay sneered as luke began to sniff and fake cry and you giggled from what she said in the beginning, Crystal then added, “okay, but have you seen y/n, she literally has everything on point.” she giggled as you stood up showing your outfit, “yeah, it's not that hard when you can sneak into his closet, just that the pants were a little big, so i bought my own.” you giggled as you all were explaining your outfit, “did cal not notice?” ash asked as you shrugged which was when cal had walked in, “noticed what? Love did you go through my closet?” Cal asked as you all just started laughing at how he had just noticed you were all dressed up very similar.

“But also, kaykay, is very on point as you can see, with the bandana, the loose tank and of course the sticks.” you said as kaykay and you hugged one another like cal and ash would.

After the various jokes you had started to rehearse and the only thing to say was that you were all so identical to them, but before that the talented just screams out of you. You all were so good the guys were looking at the cameras worried, “i think we might be out of a job soon,” cal joked as luke nodded and the guys were laughing, “they are actually really good like actually,” ash said as he was clapping and whooping as the other boys followed. Cal and the guys even had his flashlight on when you were singing Ghost of you.

“Dude, they are so good, they have been planning this haven't they?” Michael said as you were done with the set completely, you all were confident that you were gonna kick ass that night. Even if this was just a prank set, you were all actually really good, like really.

Cal was so proud of you, that all the practice you two had done was good for you, he was hoping you would actually even consider doing more music stuff. The boys were all proud of you guys and of course their ladies, they all had agreed as well that you guys have so much talent, but they knew this life wasn't for you guys, since separation would be much bigger, unless you toured together….but i'm getting ahead of myself.

Once you all hit the tour bus and were on your way to the first concert of the tour, you girls were actually playing tonight, you weren't as nervous as you thought you were, but at the same time you were a nervous wreck. You and Cal were cuddled up in your bunk as you were watching a movie, “are you nervous for tonight?” he asked as you giggled a little, “i mean yeah kinda, but that's normal right?” you asked as he nodded, “yeah it is, and besides you guys are really good, like actually, all that practice is going to be worth it.” he said as you nodded and he had his arms over your body. He loves how involved you are with his life and his career, and how supportive you are. You were always there for him and he will always be there for you too, even if this was a little way to entertain the fans and make a funny thing out of it.

As you arrived at the venue, you were getting excited as you and the girls had stayed in your dressing rooms getting ready while the boys were doing sound checks and greeting fans with VIP passes. You were still doing video diaries so you were all pretty chill and relaxed once you arrived at the dressing room and started to change and get prepared.

“Okay, so right now the guys are currently doing their thing while we change, and get into character, so uh..yeah.” you giggle as you all do your thing while the cameras are rolling and trying to catch small moments of you all. “Are you guys nervous?” the guy behind the camera asked as you all prused your lips, “uh not really, we all rehearsed and practiced i think we'll be great,” kay kay said as you giggled, “okay but we actually sound like a band when you say that.” you giggled as Sierra and Crystal nodded.

You all were getting into your guy’s signature clothing when it came to doing live performances and the end result is so uncanny. You were getting into the signature skater pants and black top with some vans. You had curled your hair slightly a lot like cal’s when it's curly wanting to have some of your hair out of your face. Sierra had worn the yellow silk shirt with classic leather black pants and a pair of boots, an outfit that fans loved, and Sierra killed it in that shirt. Crystal had worn a jean jacket with black pants with some boots, which you could say, SHE KILLED IT. Kaykay had gone with a red button up and some skinny jeans with some boots and let me tell you SHE ALSO KILLED ITTTTT. You all had killed it, it was perfect. You occasionally threw in the “i have no idea what we are doing?” for the video because you knew that had to be in there and the girls all laughed when you did it.

When you all got in for a picture together you literally posed like the guys and you were all getting quite excited for what's about to come. Minutes had passed by and the guys had come in and they were all kinda surprised with your outfits and they were slightly impressed, “hey, you look really good by the way good luck out there.” Calum said as he walked over to you with a hug as you hugged him back, giving him a kiss. Everyone was greeting their partner giving the last minute good luck before you left. You had recorded more stuff for the video diaries, of course you all were listening to Nickleback before going on the stage and you now understood how this helped with the nerves.

You then were all getting suited up as kay kay had walked out on stage while the lights were off and started playing some beats before you all went on. From what you guys could hear the fans were going crazy, this was going to be one fun night. The boys had headed up to the very front to see the show.  you and sierra created one of the most funniest moments in the diaries, “y/n, we should do the acoustic set moment!” sierra said as you giggled and nodded, “oh my gosh yes!” you said as the cameras were rolling and kay kay was still entertaining the fans out there, “..wait what are we doing? Are we gonna..?” sierra said as you looked back at her trying not to break character, “i think its an acoustic set.” you said as she walked over to you confused, “an acoustic set?....IT SOUNDS A BIT LOUD FOR AN ACOUSTIC SET Y/N!” she said as you just laughed not knowing what to do, that's when the backstage team had signaled you to all get out there running out and playing your chords for the intro as the fans at first were confused but when they noticed it was you girlies, they all began to scream and there was no end to the cheering. You looked over to the camera and looked over and said, “i still have no idea what we are doing.” you screamed as the fans were still cheering and you were so overwhelmed and excited, “fuck it” you screamed.

Then beat to Babylon had started and the fans went nuts as you were all playing as if you were a literal band, the fans cheering didn't stop until you started singing and they sang along with you. From the audience the boys were all cheering for you and none of the fans had even noticed they were there, that's how realistic this looked.

“Burn too bright, now the fire's gone, watch it all fall down!” you sang as the fans cheered you all and you began to giggle a little, you were able to even hear the guys cheering.

“So, holy cow, i don't know how the guys do this, but this is tiring, you gotta hand it to them.” Sierra said out of breath as you took a small break but made sure to hurry it up, “yeah they are pretty good at this, crystal, kay kay? How are you guys doing?” you asked as kaykay responded, “honestly great, i mean i get to sit down for most of this, but these girls are killing it.” she said as the fans cheered and all you could really do is giggled. “What about your crystal?” Sierra asked, “I'm doing fine, lots of head banging but it's there,” she said as you all laughed.

Then the beat to valentine had started and the fans were going crazy again, this was so new to you, all of you, you all liked this feeling, it was something you all had never got to feel, and it was one of those “i want to see what its” like moments, and you all enjoyed it. Whenever one of you would stop singing the fans continued on with the lyrics, which made you happy. You were all happy they are enjoying you guys.

“Valentine, valentine, valentine..” all of you sang as the beat continued to ghost of you, and yet again the fans screamed once again. Sierra started it off as the fans sang along waiting for your line, which from instagram you heard that it was one of their favorites because of the way cal would sing it, so yes you studied a little for this, “cleaning up today, i found that old zeppelin shirt, you wore when you ran away, and no one could feel your hurt, too young, too dumb, to know things like love, i know better now, better now.” you said as fans yelled waiting for the part where you all sang, “Dancing through our house with the ghost of you” you sang as fans were cheering on.

You then took a small break before heading onto the next 2 songs, “you guys are such a good audience we really thought you wouldn't like us.” Sierra laughed as you laughed, nodding as the fans yelled no. you saw a fan had yelled a question, “wheres duke?” she said very quietly but you heard her, “ did you ask where duke is?” you asked as you looked at the fan who asked and she nodded which made the girls laugh seeing you interact with the fans. “Duke's home with one of our friends I believe,” you spoke as all awed.

Then the beat to no shame had started and you were so excited for this one, it was your favorite song on the new album, “so we're gonna do like 2 more songs on the new album just for you guys.” you spoke as the cheered and sierra had started it, and for this one you didn't do much singing since in this one luke is the only one sining but there was also some added harmonies, but not much.

Sierra had killed this song completely shocking Luke, he had heard you guys sing this so many times, but hearing it live with fans singing it made it sound so good. You and Sierra had been the ones who took one for the team and sang one of their solos. You two didn't really mind and kay kay and crystal were not really up for it, but they had both said you two should do it and well here you were, no backing out now.

“Got no shame. I love the way you're screaming my name” she sang as the fans went wild and the beat to wildflower had started and you were getting ready to sing, “this is the last song we can sing for you guys, it's called wildflower, and out lovely y/n will be taking the lead here.'' Sierra said as the crowd went wild and you just smiled looking over at Cal who was just so proud, like we said before even if this was for a small joke, the talent you all carried was surreal. Seeing you sing this song made him feel many emotions, you were kinda hot singing this. All the boys thought their girls were hot right now, they had no idea how they were gonna continue the show with all these feelings they had that just wanted to come out.

“You're the only one who makes me. Every time we. Tell you what I like. My wildflower!” you sang finally as kaykay ended with the drums and you all had gone in the middle and bowed getting lots of cheering.

“That's all we have today fro you all, thanks for your cheering this was actually awesome.” Sierra said as you all nodded and you all left the stage as they were all cheering. Once you were all off you all got into a group hug and just celebrated this. You all enjoyed yourselves up there and honestly you were all down to do it again, but you were all happy with being able to do it once.

Before leaving to go see the guys, you had recreated a couple more of the diaries moments,

“Kaykay, my best friend, gonna be friends till the very end. Kaykay my best friend gonna be friends til the very end. Take it to the.. I love this gal, so damn much, i love this gal.” you said attempting to do the same movements as cal. As kaykay had kept playing the guitar and sierra walked up to you, “y/n my best friend, me and her until the very end, kaykay, is **********, i hate you so ******* much.'' Sierra said as you all continued to laugh, not being able to believe that you did this without laughing. You then all had gone down as well to see them and give them your support. Lucky fans didn't recognize you and you were able to enjoy the show.

After the show you all had headed to a hotel tired but full on energy at the same time. You had all gotten separate rooms to celebrate alone with your s/o the success of the beginning of the show and the start of the tour. The boys were definitely were wanting to see you guys preform again.

This is like some of the reactions fans would have.

@5SOSUPDATES:

THE FACT THAT THEY DRESSED EXACTLY LIKE THE GUYS IS SO CUTE.

@CALM5SOS:

So who wants to talk about how the girls took over the first set?!?!?

@Lukstannings:

Okay but Sierra was rocking the yellow silk button up.

@mikeycliffordstan:

NO ONE TOLD ME THEY CAN SING

@ghostofyou5sos:

NO ONE IS TALKING ABOUT HOW Y/N LITERALLY SANG CAL’S PART IN GHOST OF YOU THE SAME WAY HE DID.

@5SOSWILDFLOWER:

SIERRA SINGING NO SHAME AND Y/N SINGING WILDFLOWER IS LITERALLY ALL I NEED TO LIVE.

@c-swizzle:

Y/n’s spot on, her hair, her bass playing, she is literally calum in the making.

@cliffordhemmings:

Kaykay on the drums, is literally a dream of mine and it came true.

@y/nkaysierracrystalstan

They need to be a band idc what you say, you can't change my mind.

@5sosashsupdates:

Kaykay and Ashton are a couple goals.

@5sosmichealupdates:

Crystal wore michaels jean jacket. This is everything I need.

@ashiriwinsstan:

PLEASE THEY LITERALLY RECREATED SO MANY MOMENTS FROM THE DIARIES

@5SOS:

Looks like our ladies took over yesterday on the first set, might need to happen more often.

#calum hood imagine #calum hood #5sos calum #calum 5sauce #calum hood 5sos #calumthomashood #5sos fanfic #5sos imagine

[hoodharlow]

End Up Here

El Novio Quarantine Edition: Part 5

AN: Here’s part 5!!! I forgot to schedule this yesterday and throughout the day I was busy cleaning. Anyways this part is set a few hours after we found out that Claudia salío con nasu domingo siete lol. Enjoy :)

Requested? No

Warnings: angst with a not angsty ending, mentions of menstruation, more talk of the consequences of not using contraception and birth control

Word Count: 1.7k words

Calum stomach dropped reading the text that Claudia sent him. Apparently, she wasn't able to pick him up because something had come up, so Ashton was picking him up instead. He knew something was up. He just wasn't sure what. 

After checking in with customs, he made his way outside where Ashton was waiting for him. He spotted his raven haired friend and held his bag tighter around his shoulder. 

"How was the flight?" Ashton asked as he helped him put his bags on the trunk of his car. 

"Good, but exhausting as always." Calum nodded. He looked around, hoping Claudia was joking and she did come to get him. 

He didn't mind Ashton. He just wanted to see Claudia.

"She didn't tell me why she wanted me to pick you up. She just asked me." Ashton said as he climbed in his seat. 

"Have you seen her?" He asked. 

"No, but KayKay went out to eat with her." He said, quickly giving Calum a rundown about the lunch. He told him everything: from Sierra going to the restaurant on the opposite side of town and having to drive to where Claudia and KayKay were, making her almost an hour late. He even mentioned that Claudia ate pickles. 

Calum looked away from the window and sat up. "Claudia ate what?"

"Pickles. KayKay said that she took 'em out of her sandwich and ate them without a bother in the world.” Ashton said, reaching for his iced coffee. “Now that I think of it she did the same thing about two weeks ago with kumquats. I called her because I know your tree was ready for picking and so they don't go to waste since she doesn't like them. She goes off saying that the past few days she's been feeling nauseous and they help her with that."

Calum stayed quiet, processing what Ashton was telling him. He pulled out his phone and checked the period app Claudia uses. He synced it up from her phone, so he knew what days to buy extra ice cream and tea. He checked the calendar and the past few weeks were empty. He refreshed the app twice in case it wasn't synched up. Nothing.

He pocketed his phone and sighed in relief as Ashton pulled into his street. 

"You okay, mate?" Ashton asked him. 

"Yeah, jetlag just settled in." Calum mumbled. He faked a yawn. "Miss my bed."

"And the girl in it, who can't parallel park to save her life." Ashton nodded his head to Claudia who slid back in her car after seeing that she got on the sidewalk.

"Obviously." He chuckled.

Ashton hovered a few cars behind Claudia as slowly backed into the spot. He pulled up to Calum's driveway just as she got out of her car. 

Calum watched her drop off some shopping and grocery bags on the front door. She ran to him and jumped him, wrapping her legs tightly around his hips. He turned them around and backed her up against Ashton's car as he pulled her into a needy kiss. 

Claudia tightly gripped his curls, deepening their kiss. She moaned out as Calum kissed down her neck. 

"You rabbits couldn't wait until you got inside?" Ashton scolded, interrupting their kiss.

“No.” Claudia giggled before kissing Calum once more. 

She got down and awkwardly pulled down her tie dye biker shorts. One of the reasons why she hated the summer was the awkward tugging between her thighs wherever she would wear shorts or rompers. One thing she did like was how biker shorts looked on her. The ones she wore were from a PR box Aerie sent her.

She waved to Ashton before going inside the house. As she picked up the bags, she heard him and Calum plan on going back to the studio after Calum is done quarantining. She began putting away the groceries, starting with ice cream and other frozen foods. While at Target she found some frozen gnocchi. She pan seared the gnocchi and used the sauce they provided as a dipping sauce. 

She heard shower start in the guest room, so she continued putting away the groceries and the other things she bought. The water shut off just before she rinsed out some of the produce she bought. 

Duke took a minute to realize that his pops was back. He got on his hind legs and pawed at him. Calum picked him and hugged him. Cherry hopped off the couch and sniffed him before going to the kitchen. 

Calum set Duke back on his bed and made his way in the kitchen. Claudia smiled and poured them a glass of agua de guayaba. 

“I didn’t think I would be done with my errands so soon." She said, pulling out some snacks. "I had to go to my doctor because UCLA picked me to do the teaching job. Which is amazing. I’m getting my tuition waived and my parents don’t have to worry about that. But they needed me to get all these things done some immunizations, a physical and a —” 

"Claudia, are you pregnant?" he asked her, not caring that he interrupted her. 

"What...How?—I'm sorry what?" 

"Claudia, answer me." He said sternly. 

"I really don't like that tone of yours."

"Just answer my fucking question."

"I am! Happy?"

Calum cursed. He sat on a stool and ran his hand over his curls in frustration. 

"How did this happen?"

"What do you mean? We fucked! 'Just this one time' became just a few more times. The three weeks leading up to your trip we had sex at least once a day. Not once did you stop and think that maybe we should have used a condom?"

"Don't act like this is solely my fault, Claudia."

"Well it's not like I can fuck myself pregnant." She scoffed sarcastically. 

Calum sighed and rubbed his temples. "This isn't going to work out—"

"You're seriously breaking up with me right now?"

He gave her a confused look. "What? No, if you let me finish."

"I did let you finish. It's why we're in this mess in the first place."

“I’m going upstairs to sort this out. We’ll talk about this later.”

Calum went upstairs without another word, leaving Claudia awkwardly standing in the kitchen. She sighed and finished up putting away groceries. After she grabbed the frozen gnocchi and pan seared it while in a saucepan she made a brown butter and sage sauce. 

Once she was done cooking, she went upstairs. She lightly knocked and poked her head in the bedroom. Her eyes zoned in on a boxer clad Calum laying on the bed. 

"Cal, can I nap with you?" she asked quietly. 

"Sure." He said, moving away from the center of the bed to his side. 

Claudia came in and set her bag on the nightstand on her side. She turned back and slipped off her biker shorts and crawled to bed. She laid on her back, not sure what to do. She usually attached herself to Calum's side and slipped one of her legs in between his legs. 

Calum snorted a few minutes later. "That was pretty clever… What you said earlier. 'I did let you finish. It's why we're in this mess in the first place.'” he chuckled to himself.

"Thanks." Claudia said, quickly glancing over him before looking away. 

They fell into another awkward silence. They both looked up at the ceiling, trying to piece together what they wanted to say to the other. 

"I, um, lied earlier." Claudia said. She sat up and hugged her knees. "I didn't go see my doctor about the school stuff. I went to Planned Parenthood and got a pregnancy test. I'm roughly six weeks pregnant."

"Why didn't you say anything?" Calum asked quietly. 

"I didn't think much of it, my periods sometimes fluctuate. Until the past weeks I spent the better half of the night throwing up. Then KayKay pointed out the pickles thing. So last night I finally took a test, well several, and they all gave me the same results." Her voice cracked. "Cal, I'm so fucking scared."

Calum pulled her into his chest as she cried. He didn't know what else to do other than hold her in his arms. 

"I'm so sorry, Claudia." He whispered in her hair. A few tears escaped and rolled down his cheeks. He sniffled. "Whatever you decide, I'll support you. You that?" 

Claudia nodded. She wiped her mocos with her shirt sleeve. Calum propped up his knee so she could lean against it. She rested her head on his knee and circled her arm around his leg. She lazily ran her finger around around the hem of his boxers. 

Calum found her free hand and gently squeezed it. "I'm sorry for how I reacted earlier." He said intertwining their fingers together. 

"It's fine." Claudia shrugged him off. "That was on me. I practically blindsided you. How did you even figure it out though?"

"Ashton, he told me that KayKay told him that you ate pickles and how you had nausea so you would eat some kumquats for what. It didn't sit right with me that you were eating some of the foods you detested with your whole being. I checked your period app and saw that you haven't had your period in weeks. Everything fell into place once I saw that."

"Okay Fred Jones." Claudia teased. 

"I have my moments." He said, earning a sarcastic hum from her. 

Calum let go of her hand and rubbed her thigh. 

"I have pictures if you wanna see them. They're about the size of a pomegranate seed."

"Sure." 

Claudia reached over to her bag and pulled out an envelope. She handed it to him and sat next to him. 

Calum's hands shook as he opened the envelope. It revealed a long paper with five black and white images. On the side it said Claudia's name and general information. Below that was how far along she was. In the center was a small patch. 

"Is that our baby?" he asked her. 

Claudia softly smiled at his word choice and smiled. "Yeah, that's our baby."

Taglist: @f-mu @another-lonely-heart ​ @sunshinebabycal-deactivated2021​​   @calumscalm ​ @karajaynetoday ​ @cherryxwildflower ​ @myloverboyash ​  @idontneedanyone ​ @findingliam-o ​ @5-secondsofcolor ​ @mulletgate ​ @sexgodashton ​ @fckingpernico ​ @2fangirl4u ​ @calpops

#calum hood fluff #calum hood angst #calum hood one shot #calum hood imagine #calum hood fanfic #calum hood series #calum hood fic #calum hood oneshot #el novio series #el novio quarantine edition