it’s just sooooo fucking annoying that im stuck with these ppl who make me feel like crap, mentally drain the hell out of me, and who dont do the work that they should and drag the whole program down. its. god
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I may be the meanest pettiest person on the whole entire planet (I am) but the concept of Catholic speed dating is the absolute worst thing I can think of and the whole "date while staying true to your values" vibe like. How do YOU know what my values are? I can't stand 99% of Catholics (and Christians broadly tbh. *Mr incredible voice: I'm not affiliated with you) and i would fistfight them in a heartbeat. The type of person drawn to the "marriage discernment" event is the exact type of person I want to AVOID at all costs.
Like yeah romance sounds nice and all, and I'm very good at just sitting here vaguely wishing for things, but I can barely form long term friendships with a significant intimate foundation. Even if I WERE to be in a relationship, the other party would almost certainly be non Catholic or be a bad Catholic like me and have to get cool with a lot of stuff real quick
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for the past couple of months I’ve found myself to be so like anxious and depressed whenever I log on here and I couldn’t figure out why??? like when I was getting a lot of interaction and attention it stressed me out and now that I don’t get as much it fucks w my mental but then I realized. I’m simply just pmsing. and what SUCKS is that I pms for a full like two weeks so half of the month I’m like “why do I even bother on here. what’s the point. I’m talking to the void constantly. I need attention but I can’t ASK????” and it’s simply. the PMDD. the Prozac hasn’t kicked in yet, I fear.
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oversharing era was funny tho, go gurl obliterate that twink
unfortunately it was extremely funny 😭 im back to thinking hey it would be REALLY funny to date him. also so i have access to his white suburban mother so i have someone to talk about pride and prejudice with. i just have to keep reminding myself that it's 'fucked up' and 'kinda autistic' to view your life as a series of episodes you script and make your friends have character arcs cos you feel like they need character development. he IS a twink too and bisexual but i think hes just going through a phase ngl :/ i think he just wants to get pegged
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got told another Delightful Bit of Hidden Trauma Context today
once again, gonna have to file it away under "probably never getting closure bc it doesn't matter, it's in the past - mum, even tho i think back to that event regularly and it permanently altered how i view certain family members and my own self-worth"
so that's nice
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i’m sorry but if you cannot express disagreement/discontent without resorting to death threats and vicious name calling, then you don’t deserve to interact with others on the internet. anonymity has made people so violent without thinking of the consequences and i hate it so much.
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When everyone around me vent about something, it is always about other people.
My relationships with others are either ok or don't cause me suffering, I rarely ever complain about other people on an individual level. (I do complain 24/7 about people on a collective level - their rudeness, their stupidity etc. but not about my own relationships with them as I keep these in check myself)
All of my problems are, well, about things - my inability to hold a normal regime, my inability to do something in moderation - it's always all or nothing for me and that is unhealthy for me etc.
And I feel so fucking stupid when I need to vent as other people's problems are other people and their own feelings, whereas my problems are my own shortcomings. It's so fucking stupid, suffering because of things that are supposedly under my own control.
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