#spend it on urself

[b4kuch1n]

and the storm he was driving/washed it away/in the eye there was a silence

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #rival hop #and! #professor hop #finally. finally the titus was born set can be done and out of my brain #one more item off the list! the very. very long list of things I wanna draw for these lads #its so. the moment I got into swsh I was like okay so titus was born is a leon song right #before you ask no I don't watch netflix shows. I just listen to young the giant like. casually #this set pushed my drawing water brain to the brink... my effect brain too #not as much as last year's october piece also for these two but still! pretty rough! #also Stuff Happened right before I could finish this lmao. we live in a society #but I got it done and it turned out so much nicer than I anticipated lmao I was NOT feeling hop's side until I darkened the bg #gods. I have never stopped being insane abt leon and hop. holds leon tenderly you have been set up to be such a dick #man who lies to himself everyday vs man who trusts until it ruins his whole world #I!! care them!!!! gods!!!! when will I be normal. when will I not spend two weeks drawing One (1) thing for them #a sad awooga for my kids everyone. #okay. I will lay down now. I have much to do tomorrow #have a good night lads! no reason to not shield urself from the rain remember!

[girls--complex]

this is an insanely dumb kind of thing to ask but um. Andrea (shaggy tormented girl) gets very upset at her friend’s specific kind of distortion of the truth. the (perceived) retroactive change of intention to absolve herself of being mean. or whatever. yeah um. is that a thing? is that a thing that people get? what is that associated with? cause i rarely get like that but i hate when i do because it will always be perceived as an overreaction (and a lot of the time it will be).

Being upset with someone for essentially being mean and then being dishonest about being mean, if that is what you are asking. It could be a misunderstanding sometimes, or it could be calculated. It's just one of those things I guess. If calculated, it is really upsetting to have someone... basically try to trick you out of confronting them with a problem. I don't think that being sensitive to it is necessarily "associated with" anything in particular because there are a lot of reasons why you could be sensitive. It depends on you.

Everyone on earth struggles with balancing self-respect and grace and honoring their perceptions and also leaving room 4 the ambiguity and complexity of other people's intentions and style of interacting with others. Emotional reactions like getting upset is sort of like... Ur fire alarm goes off. So U know there is a problem, but that indicator can't tell you how to diagnose the problem (burning food on stove? massive conflagration in living room? low battery?) or the process of responding 2 it, you have to use your creative mind to make a plan and your rational mind to evaluate and adjust. If U let the sound of the fire alarm make U crazy then U just end up smashing fire alarm and throwing it outside and then U lose ur security deposit and maybe dying in a fire... So I guess what I'm saying is this is a natural faculty of your mind but if it causes you problems it just requires some creative thought. Conflicts with people are opportunity to deepen the connection with the person and conflicts with ourselves are opportunities to learn self mastery and become more powerful in the world so the obstacle is very much the path. Gewd luck

#Also I wanna say I definitely also struggle with like reacting so strongly 2 percieved unfairness/manipulation/lies #But yah it's a matter of learning and creative problem solving I think you just have 2 spend time wid urself #What does it mean 2 be the bigger person

[aropride]

i don't think not using spotify is an important piece of leftist praxis, to be clear, but i do think it's insane that people pay $11 a month for spotify premium because they think piracy is stealing from artists. like, if you listen to 50,000 minutes of music, that's $37.50 that's being given to the artists you listened to- being split between all the artists you listened to in the entire year. you're giving them 132 dollars so they can give a third of that to the dozens, hundreds, maybe thousands of artists you listened to that year. i don't think the few cents an artist won't get anymore if you unsubscribe really matter that much to the more popular artists, and starting in 2024 the less popular artists won't even get paid anyway. i don't think piracy is that much worse, especially if you send smaller artists a couple dollars on patreon or bandcamp or something. and again, i use spotify sometimes, i pirate it but still, i don't think it's a moral failing or anything. just that it's a little hypocritical when people act like piracy is so much worse. but that's just my two cents (which is what like, seven streams on spotify is worth).

#text #note on how i got the 37.50 number: assumed each song was 4 minutes long and each stream was 0.003 #idk tldr i think its insane to spend $11 a month for years when they arent even paying artists #spend this year's spotify money on an mp3 player that u can keep forever and get spotX. free urself #like idk i listened to nearly 20k minutes of mychem on spotify & they got a good solid like... $17 max from that #five cents an hour... like. idk

[pearsfears]

Monsters creeping into my head Say I don’t deserve this Grew up so afraid of all these Bedtime stories Read them like a warning Forever wasn’t for me Til I met you

#andreil #andrew minyard #neil josten #aftg #tfc #the foxhole court #all for the game #art #i spend so much time on the scars #if u think they look like gum keep it to urself :') #i think this is my best tfc fanart yet :'o #also the lyrics work from both neils and andrews pov i think

[slowdesire]

i understand that concerts are more fun when you're not filming it on ur phone the whole time but there is definitely something to be said about at least filming the chorus/favorite part of ur favorite songs bc. lots of people like to claim you'll never look back on your shaky phone camera footage anyways, but i do. nothing makes me smile wider than knowing i personally filmed those performances and nothing makes me laugh harder than hearing my own singing and screaming along

#like i definitely spend maybe only 20% of the concert capturing the moment on my phone but that percentage is really meaningful #because human memory is so limited and like. when you're living in the moment you just experience how happy you are but you don't #witness urself experiencing the joy::... and ngl it hits different to hear yourself in that happy state #it's ridiculous and silly and ur singing is terrible and that's the best part #lumine.txt

[pathologising]

sorry but I could never look at my own kids and be like "you owe ME" like I think if you do that you're a shitty parent

#vaguing about my bfs mom bc i just gkt off the phone with my mom abt how im stressed abt moving #and she was like oh have you tried asking either of gavins oarents to help the move or his grandparents . #they literally refuse despite his grandma and father having funds...yet his mom has the gall to asl for 500 dollars a month #while she pays for his brothers schooling and takes basically nothing from his bum ass no life brother #like ok now im angry because what did gavin do to u....be born? youre the one who cant keep your spending under control #and you want HIM to pay for your mistakes because he owes you by virtue of being your son? yet you do not uphold the same concept on your #other bum son ? okay whatever like i #CANNOT STAND THESE PEOPLE ANYMOREEEEEEE I #and then of course his dad is like 'pull urself up by ur bootstraps' YOU ARE INSANE AND ALSO A CHEATER I WANT TO HEAR NONE OF IT BALD NIGGA

[straightfromthetorturedpoetsdept]

i think joe alwyn's defense lawyer is going to be sooooo mad when they hear this album because they spent all that time running their mouth and for what

#personal #taylor swift #ttpd leak #imagine u spend ur days calling taylor all sorts of names only for her to be like damn his only crime was that he didnt love me #i was actually emotionally cheating on him too for good measure #id be so embarrassed u call urself a swiftie? #yokes

[kendallroysmethpipe]

Im actually looking forward to my birthday this year for once

#who knew not isolating urself from everyone means people will want to do things with u and u wont have to spend it alone 🤯

[saetoru]

ppl who consider 30s to be old are wild to me bc realistically most people spend up until roughly 24-26 in college and so you’re basically saying you can rly only live your life for about 4-6 years freely before you’re considered “too old” to enjoy anything. wtf are ppl supposed to do for the next 30 years after that jackass ?? you tell me 🤨 are they supposed to just buy curtains and a new blender and be content with that 🤨

#like #if i’m in my youth rn #by your standards #this is a fucking stupid youth bc i spend every weekend writing papers #y’all are annoying #and i’m tired of seeing this on dash every other day stop telling women in their 30s they’re old !! #this reeks of misogyny too !! #what you’re really implying here is that 30s is the age where people (mainly women) start to show signs of aging physically #or are expected to be mothers by then and sell their souls to be the picture perfect mom and give up all happiness to put their kids first #and there we get into deeper issues with women in society and why we just never win no matter what we do #that or you think adulthood is all about work work work and taxes and bills and to that i say you are setting urself up for misery too #so rly #take ur internalized misogyny or just overall low iq #whichever it is #and let people exist as they please <3

[eebie]

how it feels

#my rambles #thats DIMPLE mob PSYCHO( on that one pin if you couldnt tell from the green blob with 1 single red dot on it #Btw. if you even care #pin i mean PATCH #I DIDNT SPEND HALF AN HOUR IRNONING THAT SHIT ON JTS 2 CALL IT A PIN !! come on now eeb get a hold a urself

[satellitefeed]

the performance of nostalgia on social media is smth id love to explore more like i just find it so unsettling that theres a niche of ppl on ig and tiktok that spend all their time talking abt what it was like to be a teen 15-20 years ago to the point that theyve made a career out of it like. babe i think at some point ur gonna have to get a real job and accept the fact ur in ur 30s im sorry

#i get the vibe that if u spend too long looking back u just delude urself into thinking that the past was better when it rlly wasny #like sometimes i get nostalgia for 2014 and thats bc theres a devil in my brain that makes me ignore the fact it was one of the worst years #of my life. and that happens to everyone else too #theres gotta be a middle ground basically #journal

[maletofujoshi]

I think the lgbt community could benefit from like. Seeing terms as having meanings. But then also just… allowing for blurriness instead of treating them like absolutes. like I think that’d kill shit like “how can you call urself a lesbian if you/your partner isn’t a woman” and “this term has no meaningful definition and only refers to people who call themselves by it”

Like. I was at a gsa meeting and someone from another program at my school was getting help setting up a display of many many pride flags with definitions under them. and like. people were talking in circles on how to define a lesbian. And like. If you try and create a definition that does not exclude anyone who lives as or identifies as a lesbian… you’re going to end up alienating anyone who doesn’t already “get” everything. this happens when people are thinking abstractly in words. Like. One facet of the definition of “Lesbian” is not being attracted to men. However, for example, I feel like most people would be able to understand a woman in front of them calling herself a lesbian even if she has like. A genderfluid or bigender partner. Terms exist to define groupings and patterns but it’s not like the experiences one has with love, attraction, and identity check themselves against a dictionary before happening. Beyond the term queer I think trying to capture all possible experiences one can have while under a label is. literally just not that important. I think the statements “lesbians are gay women, meaning they are women who are attracted to other women exclusively” and “that hypothetical lesbian who’s partner can be called a man is a lesbian” are both true. Definitions can just be approximated yknow? It’s like rounding down numbers. pi might not equal 3.14 but that’s the number you’ll use if you need to calculate area. the simpler definitions of lgbt are what you’ll want to use when explaining stuff to people who are unfamiliar. the fact that pi ≠ 3.14 and that definitions aren’t all encompassing are just. Important caveats to mention

#another thing is that they had like. 6 different synonyms for bisexual hung up and like #I think the average person would think ‘these must mean different things. what’s the difference here’ #and I think that fucking sucks #not in a ‘just call urself bi’ way. in a ‘now this person is going to spend a minute getting mad while trying to figure out- #-what the difference must be between likes all and likes the same and other’

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[ilmhist]

hasty and self-indulgent oc meme?  me?  absolutely (original under the cut)

#wayfarer if #wayfarer art #c: eirian #what's my art tag again? #i couldn't get the font lmao #for the comment #so we made do with the clip studio basics #yes i copypasted his pendant from his portrait i did NOT wanna spend. y'know. time. LMAO #i mostly just want this in his tag #but it's fine to reblog if u want my dumb oc meme on ur blog like #but like once again pls play wayfarer if u love urself #i'd have linked the og in the post but i feel like tumblr's still weird about ? links in posts ? i think? #so pics is what u get #meme redraw

[nyxi-pixie]

i dont trust a bitch that hates ronance

like wdym u like stedd1e(<3) or god forbid fucking h4rr1ngr0ve(😒) but you dont like ronance🤨🤨🤨🤨

like if u dnt ship it bc ur rooting for robin and vickie or ur a super yay jxncy person or smt sure whatever. but if u HATE ronance??? i do not trust you.

#anyone thats 100% insistent and totally sure that nance is straight gets my side eye tbh #bc like did u listen to murrays lil expose on her💀 'ur scared to be urself and instead rely on safety of conventional man' #yeahhh not queer coded at all #when we talk abt how mlm ships need 100x as much evidence as straight ships to be considered plausible??? #yeah that but x10000000 for wlw ones jfc #like steve can have a male friend that says hes got nice abs or smthn and everyones WOOF WOOF BARK GRR GAY PEOPLE!!! #sure okay have fun besties #but nancy is like 🥰robin ik i wanted nothing to do w u 5 seconds ago but ive actually decided ur my fav person🥰 #🥰we are gonna spend the rest of our time on this world saving mission glued together ok🥰 #anyway. do i believe it has any shot at endgame?? no! #but i do not like the way that people are like st3ddie<333❗❗❗ (i love it too dont get me wrong fruity four my loves) #and then totally ignore ronance. or worse. see them as side characters 💀 #i have so many thoughts on this but just. im usually a defender of why fandoms fixate on mlm ships bc women tend to have less development #(im a byler first. bc theyre the most obviously romantically coded in a Oh this one has Actual Potential way) #but robin and nancy are fairly well rounded characters. and they interact a fuck ton in s4. so. usual defenses are a no go #and now im ready to sword fight the haters #ronance #this is incomprehensible #but im right #only censoring ship names so i dnt end up in their tags i love stedd1e and jxncy dw

[cruelsister-moved2]

so many peoples allyship to trans women is just 99% calling them beautiful and then only supporting them when you find them attractive like you people are MISOGYNISTS anyway shout out to trans women who look average as hell and are just some girl

#there's several posts that go around here that will say things we would all recognise as misogynistic af if said abt a cis woman just saying #society if people remembered that transmisogyny is a form of misogyny as opposed to like some ancient dark art possibly involving demons #cuz I'll never forget the era when ppl were like u should never look at radf/ems blogs or learn anything abt what they believe bc they migh #convince you.... can you imagine if ppl were like don't look at r slash redpill they might convince you. #plus I would like people to be more aware of the time tax of beauty #like women have more important things to do w our time #shout out to all the other contributions trans women make to the world w their time #rather than spending it contributing to the male gaze + the at once patronising and envious and appraising cis female ally gaze #also regarding that glow up post I don't think u realise that a lot of ppl put off transition bc they r worried they look better as their a #and like. firstly beauty is subjective and I personally think you 'look better' when ur happier and more comfortable in urself #but also even if u DID get less conventionally attractive that would be irrelevant because u do not exist to be attractive #and u will certainly not become unlovable by becoming more of urself