#spent months of savings on her bday gift and more on shipping it

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#god just how many things do i have to deal with today lmao #today last year i was celebrating my ex's birthday with her #i was so fucking happy lmao #spent months of savings on her bday gift and more on shipping it #and i was so so glad #and today im just...sitting here i guess #and despite the pain and trauma i went through with that relationship all i can find myself thinking about rn is #''i hope alot of people wished her a happy birthday today'' #''she deleted her twt so she doesn't have many online friends now...i hope she's not lonely...i hope she's not thinking about me...'' #''i hope she had a great day and most of all i hope she's not sad...i hope she's healing well and i hope she's surrounded by love today'' #i guess i just hate the fact that i remember what today is #my mind only forgets what it wants and it never forgets important dates #thats the thing about loosing someone tho whether they leave you or you leave them or they pass away #you never forget their birthdays or their favourite songs or their smiles #no matter how shit you think your memory is #(there is no point to this post its just a rant i need to get off my chest) #personal