#spilled lines

[abrighterspark]

i suppose one must wait for something creative to strike the mind / i suppose it doesn't always suddenly spring alive / we're all obsessed with becoming the best / shining brighter than all the rest / as if only once we're at the top / will we have the power to help those who are not.

#musings #writers #poets #on success #spilled poetry #spilled lines #verse #free form poetry #rhyme #thoughts #poets on tumblr #spilled thoughts #creators #creator economy

[muhtesemz]

I think I'm going through the most significant days of my entire life. Life is pushing me to take decisions, and all these decisions are coming all at once. After a long year of uncertainty, anxiety, and depression; I can see some light finally. But living away from my beloved family - it's just too painful to express even. Baba-maa will be so sad. One by one their children are going far away. Reality has started hitting them. I can't accept this reality. I don't want them to get old. I don't want us to grow up to such an extent that we need to go far away.

I want to go five years back. We are all younger kids, reciting Quran together after fajr. No change in the routine. We are always together. I don't want this life. I can't keep up with the pace. More hard decisions await. Life demands me to leave everything and settle down.

1:56AM thoughts

#spilled lines #don't know what i wrote here

[davidtennan-t]

the way the Doctor stopped himself when he got angry with Donna, walked away, put his hands up looking guilty af and apologised? Lives rent free in my head

#ten would have finished the ‘you spilled the coffee’ line and the argument more than likely would have escalated #at least that’s what I think #but look at this mature boi realising what he was saying was perhaps a little too mean #stepping away and apologising #AND THEN HE COMFORTS HER SECONDS LATER #david tennant #tenth doctor #doctor who #donna noble #fourteenth doctor #fourteen x donna

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[discoidal]

almost nothing !!

#zoe's notebook #poets on tumblr #spilled ink #poetsandwriters #poetscommunity #poets corner #car seat headrest ref in the last paragraph is on purpose #also i took the first lines of one of my old poems and repurposed it<33 hope i succeeded in breathing new life in the bastard

[yourmomsahira]

#i am still not over this #desiblr #desi tag #desi tumblr #desi shitposting #desi memes #love language #dark academia #girl blogging #desi pyaar #lovers #words #spilled words #franz kafka #letters to milena #lines #quotes #girl core

[izhaar-e-ishq]

In English we say:

“Out of all people you misunderstood me”

But in Urdu we say:

“Usay meri baatein ab samajh nahi aati,

Kabhi jo meri khamoshi ki tafseer likha karta tha.”

#urdu lines #dark academia #literature #spilled ink #urdu literature #poetry #writers on tumblr #two line shayari #light academia #izhaar e ishq #urdu poetry #desiblr #urdu aesthetic #artists on tumblr #urdu shayari

[andy-clutterbuck]

Years - The Ones Who Live - 1x01

#the Hot Suburban Dad at the Barbecue but he's a lil dorky #Rick Grimes #The Ones Who Live #towl spoilers #* #rg #nice gams grimes #as always #i'll still spill the potato salad and meet him in the garden shed #lacey shut up before you go off on a tangent #like he hasn't dated in a while™ and awkwardly offers to hang that wine rack you were talking about #but he's gotta go home and get his drill #*bad drilling joke* #*he blushes and coughs* #anyway i said shut up #bless all the lines on your face #they're beautiful and sacred #/ok going to bed more tomorrow

[waqtkibaatein]

#art #poems on tumblr #spilled ink #words #writers and poets #original poem #urdu lines #dark poetry #aesthetic #chaotic academia #dark academia #writerscommunity #memes

[peaceishim]

I found this on twitter.

(Not mine)

#love #poetry #my thougts #poem #poets on tumblr #original poem #spilled ink #prose poetry #deep thoughts #urdu stuff #urdu ghazal #urdu poetry #urdu shayari #urdu lines #urdu literature #hindi shayari #shayari #sher o shayari #desiblr #desi tumblr #desi tag #dark academia #light academia #urdu nazm #two line shayari #on love #heartbreak

[inkandpaperstuff]

Why is it “right person wrong time” and not “har ishq ka aik waqt hota hai, wo hamara waqt nhi tha lekin is ka matlab ye nhi ke wo ishq nhi tha.”

#spilled ink #authors #urdu lines #booklr #spilled poetry #urdu shayari #bookworm #urdu poetry #dark academia #urdu stuff #urdu literature #urdu quote

[muhtesemz]

If I ever leave tumblr, I will forever miss my mutuals here. You are my family. It is always a pleasure to be a part of your daily life <3

#spilled lines

[mssrell]

I was a kid but I wasn't clueless, Someone who loves you wouldn't do this.

Conan Gray

family issues // generational trauma

#web weaving #family issues #family trauma #lady bird #mother issues #father issues #family line #poetry #web weave #generational trauma #webweaving #class of 2013 #writing #spilled thoughts #spilled poetry #words words words #mitski #phoebe bridgers

[inkskinned]

"it's so embarrassing you like that popular thing" "oh ew that geeky/strange thing is so cringe lol" "oh it's kind of weird you get excited about that harmless shit"

dude i love how ironic and jaded you are and that's so cool and sexy of you. and i am so so glad to tell you - you won!! we all had a meeting and we decided that you won, and we are writing your name on the inside of a burger king crown. the marker smeared, sorry, but we knew any form of real effort is ugly to you. but anyway. congrats! you are officially the coolest, most ironic, most jaded person in-the-world-right-now. we would throw you a party but you would think it was totally boring - and besides, we're weird so we wouldn't have been coming. we would have brought our love of beetles and of baking and of little canapes. we would have brought our artsy videogames and pages of writing. we would have written a poem with you, our hands covered in ink, and spread out a canvas to dance on, the night so lurid and pink.

but do not worry. we will not throw the party. we will just get you a ringlight and that crown i mentioned. it is a nice crown, except for where one of us dropped it.

the vote was a really hard one because we had so many cool ironic people to pick off the shelves. all of you have hands that rot fruit, how strange is that - you can't look at something without destroying it for other people. you like it when you can squeeze a person into a pinpoint - all us small ones scampering our little feet around our ugly joys. the vote was also a hard one because we kept our voices down because you don't like it when we talk too loud. you were on your phone at the time, talking to people other than us. you are a ghoul of every moment - half in, half out, you resent us for being here without shame or embarrassment.

so good news! we have invented an island for people like you. you get to go there and speak into the air things like if you still like watching harmless twitch streamers in 2023 you're fucking boring. you will say things like liveplay podcasts are fucking ugly and it's kind of awkward they try to make everything gay. on the island we made you, all of your words will have weight. they will form in the air like icicles, large white behemoth letters that will crumple in anvils around your feet. maybe we will send someone there once in a while to sweep, but honestly you might be there for a while, alone, waiting. we are busy being outside looking for mushrooms and flapping our hands and humming. we are busy kicking our little heels while we watch cringey tv. we are busy - sorry! as an apology, we have pre-filled the island with every bland, mediocre, unscented thing we could find. the island has the texture of american cheese. the island has an ocean that never gets angry. the island is perfect for you, trust me. you will be so happy there - as happy as you can be, ironically.

we want to say we are sorry for doing harmless things that you find annoying, childish, or unappealing - but we are not sorry. we thought we could help you, because we don't mind laughing at ourselves, but it turns out you are allergic to color and noise and atmosphere, so this is the best that we can do for now. we are all making a big shirt that says i voted in the ironic monarchy. we got you one that is just a fast fashion buttondown. i am so excited for you and this island and the big life you have won. you have a cool jaded grey life and miles of irony to roam. i love you! be well.

now leave us alone.

#spilled ink #writeblr #slam poetry #i started this as a joke and ended up taking after #the poem about all the women in the world meeting in the bathroom #i can't find it to link it directly i've been googling for like 15 minutes if someone can remember #turns out frantically googling the only lines like ''women meeting in the bathroom'' #''secret womens meeting you always believed happened" is not useful for . to search??? help :( #also the reason this says harmless so many times is bc like #this is 100% about like #yeah man when ppl are mean about ppl enjoying things like. fuckin lady gaga #like this is so obviously about ppl who steal ur joy for no reason (i WILL steal ur joy if ur a bigot btw) #also yes it's bc someone was like ''liking the mcelroys in 2023 is cringe'' #and im like. dude what the fuck literally just let people like things it's LITERALLY not that deep. #like i dont like centipedes theyre one of like the 2 bugs im squicked out by ... but like. #if u really like centipedes. im like so happy for you. i hope you can put socks on ur centipedes #so they can speedclean ur floors. that would be fun and cool!!! #i love u i hope all of you have a weird passion i love you i hope that passion fills your life like soap bubbles

[ryllen]

jade who got heartstruck by someone who listens, and trey who generally takes interest on really listening to what people have to say, about things he doesn't know yet

#referring to outdoor wear trey's lines who said-- #People get to research whatever they want in the Science Club which means I get to hear about all sorts of fascinating stuff #Rook lectured me on proper hiking technique before we left. His tips have been pretty helpful—I haven't taken a spill yet #he listens #twisted wonderland #twst #treyjade #trey clover #jade leech #cater diamond #floyd leech #and also i just watched jade's outdoor wear vignette who mentored cater who wanted to run away already fshdshd #trey might do things minimally #but he seems to be packful of information about handling any possible situation or encounter against random things #that he obviously ; doesn't show #unless for desperate measure

[maihonhassan]

How hopeless a poet was when he wrote this line:

"Tum se bohat kuch kehna hai magar, kabhi tum nahi milte kabhi alfaaz nahi milte."

#urdu ghazal #urdu quote #aesthetic post #indian aesthetic #aesthetics #dark academia #light academia #artist on tumblr #writer community #writer on tumblr #poets on tumblr #lit #literature #fyp #urdu lines #sher o shayari #urdu sher #urdu shairi #desiblr #a03 writer #writer on wattpad #writer on ao3 #spilled in poetry #spilled ink #explorepage #explore #urdu poetry #urdu adab #urdu stuff #urdu