Sometimes a good cry is what you need to release all the hurt you have built up inside.
“There’s so much admiration in the way you look at me. I do nothing special to receive that powerful look in your eyes, to have your gaze so heavily fallen on me. That’s how I know you’re the one the stars above have chosen for me to spend my eternity with.”
in my mind
flowers grow in my mind
when i think about him
the beautiful ones.. and smelling nice.
She has spent so many years hiding herself away and carefully cultivating a mask to conceal her true identity that nobody really knows her. She has spent so long building up her walls, making them airtight and virtually indestructible, that she is no longer able to let anyone in. Protecting her emotions by denying anybody access to her fragile heart has only succeeded in pushing everybody away, and, although she is now safe and in control of her feelings, she is also lonely. For nobody knows her; nobody can get close enough to. She has forgotten how to let down the barriers. She has forgotten how to be vulnerable without the sharp fear of being hurt. She is alone.
The history of Polio - YOU NEED TO KNOW!!
Without question the go-to “disease” to defend vaccines is polio. Coincidently it’s also the greatest lie and medical con job of all time. Toxins Causing “Polio” is well documented. Polio is the virus that never was.
1824: Metal workers had suffered for centuries from a paralysis similar to polio caused by the lead and arsenic in the metals they were working with. English scientist John Cooke observed: ‘The fumes from these metals, or the receptance of them in solution into the stomach, often causes paralysis.’
1890: Lead arsenate pesticide started to be sprayed in the US up to 12 times every summer to kill codling moth on apple crops.
1892: Polio outbreaks began to occur in Vermont, an apple growing region. In his report the Government Inspector Dr. Charles Caverly noted that parents reported that some children fell ill after eating fruit. He stated that 'infantile paralysis usually occurred in families with more than one child, and as no efforts were made at isolation it was very certain it was non-contagious’ (with only one child in the family having been struck).
1907: Calcium arsenate comes into use primarily on cotton crops.
1908: In a Massachusetts town with three cotton mills and apple orchards, 69 children suddenly fell ill with infantile paralysis.
1909: The UK bans apple imports from the States because of heavy lead arsenate residues.
1921: Franklin D. Roosevelt develops polio after swimming in Bay of Fundy, New Brunswick. Toxicity of water may have been due to pollution run-off.
1943: DDT is introduced, a neurotoxic pesticide. Over the next several years it comes into widespread use in American households. For example, wall paper impregnated with DDT was placed in children’s bedrooms.
1943: A polio epidemic in the UK town of Broadstairs, Kent is linked to a local dairy where cows were washed down with DDT.
1944: Albert Sabin reports that a major cause of sickness and death of American troops based in the Philippines was poliomyelitis. US military camps there were sprayed daily with DDT to kill mosquitoes. Neighboring Philippine settlements were not affected.
1944: NIH reports that DDT damages the same anterior horn cells that are damaged in infantile paralysis.
1946: Gebhaedt shows polio seasonality correlates with fruit harvest.
1949: Endocrinologist Dr Morton Biskind, a practitioner and medical researcher, found that DDT causes 'lesions in the spinal cord similar to human polio.’
1950: US Public Health Industrial Hygiene Medical Director, J.G. Townsend, notes the similarity between parathion poisoning and polio and believes that some polio might be caused by eating fruits or vegetables with parathion residues.
1951: Dr. Biskind treats his polio patients as poisoning victims, removing toxins from food and environment, especially DDT contaminated milk and butter. Dr. Biskind writes: 'Although young animals are more susceptible to the effects of DDT than adults, so far as the available literature is concerned, it does not appear that the effects of such concentrations on infants and children have even been considered.’
1949-1951: Other doctors report they are having success treating polio with anti toxins used to treat poisoning, dimercaprol and ascorbic acid. Example: Dr. F. R. Klenner reported: 'In the poliomyelitis epidemic in North Carolina in 1948 60 cases of this disease came under our care… The treatment was massive doses of vitamin C every two to four hours. Children up to four years received vitamin C injection intramuscularly… All patients were clinically well after 72 hours.’
1950: Dr. Biskind presents evidence to the US Congress that pesticides were the major cause of polio epidemics. He is joined by Dr. Ralph Scobey who reported he found clear evidence of poisoning when analyzing chemical traces in the blood of polio victims.
Comment: This was a no no. The viral causation theory was not something to be questioned. The careers of prominent virologists and health authorities were threatened. Biskind and Scobey’s ideas were subjected to ridicule.
1953: Clothes are moth-proofed by washing them in EQ-53, a formula containing DDT.
1953: Dr. Biskind writes: 'It was known by 1945 that DDT was stored in the body fat of mammals and appears in their milk… yet far from admitting a causal relationship between DDT and polio that is so obvious, which in any other field of biology would be instantly accepted, virtually the entire apparatus of communication, lay and scientific alike, has been devoted to denying, concealing, suppressing, distorting and attempts to convert into its opposite this overwhelming evidence. Libel, slander, and economic boycott have not been overlooked in this campaign.’
1954: Legislation recognizing the dangers of persistent pesticides is enacted, and a phase out of DDT in the US accelerates along with a shift of sales of DDT to third world countries.
(Note that DDT is phased out at the same time as widespread polio vaccinations begin. Saying that, polio cases sky rocket only in communities that accept the polio vaccine, as the polio vaccine is laced with heavy metals and other toxins, so the paralysis narrative starts all over again. As the polio vaccines cause huge spikes in polio, the misinformed public demand more polio vaccine and the cycle spirals skyward exponentially)
1956: the American Medical Association mandated that all licensed medical doctors could no longer classify polio as polio. All polio diagnosis would be rejected in favor of Guillian-Barre Syndrome, AFP (acute flaccid paralysis), Bell’s Palsy, Cerebral Palsy, ALS, (Lou-Gehrig’s Disease), MS, MD etc etc. This sleight of hand was fabricated with the sole intent of giving the public the impression that the polio vaccine was successful at decreasing polio or eradicating polio. The public bought this hook, line and sinker and to this very day, many pro vaccine arguments are ignited by the manufactured lie regarding the polio vaccine eradicating polio.
1956: A respiratory infection from monkey cells from contaminated polio vaccines given to chimps was renamed from “CCA” to “RSV”. It has continued to spread through live airborne amoebas since.
1962: Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring is published.
1968: DDT registration cancelled for the US.
2008: Acute Flaccid Paralysis (AFP) is still a raging in many parts of the world where pesticide use is high, and DDT is still used. AFP. MS, MD, Bell’s Palsy, cerebral palsy, ALS (Lou Gehrig’s Disease), Guillian-Barre are all catch basket diagnosis, all similar in symtpoms, tied to heavy metal poisoning and high toxic load.
2008: WHO states on its website: 'There is no cure for polio. Its effects are irreversible.’
Conclusion: Modern belief that polio is caused by a virus is an ongoing tragedy for the children of the world. Public funds are wasted on useless and dangerous vaccines when the children could be treated with antitoxins. A call into failing vaccine mythology is warranted, as is a complete investigation of the real agenda being executed against humanity involving science, chemicals, vaccines, the medical field in general, and the government.
My daddy issues tell me to hold on to love whenever and wherever I can get it but my mommy issues tell me they’re just gunna abandon me anyways…
Because, sometimes you need to take away pieces of yourself, bit by bit. You need to establish yourself as an individual again, who you were before, who you want to be now. You need to start being aware of your own strength and deny any other person to have power over you. You need to fight back with all that you have, no matter how long before you had given up, this is the changing moment, this is the time. Walk away, do better. Be a little selfish for once. Be a little more free for once. Be you, choose you. Because this life is yours, it’s about giving but not giving away of yourself.
- don’t give away too much of yourself no matter how good of a person you are
Most of the times, I can’t tell if my life is falling apart or actually falling into place.
In this tag (NPD) , I saw some posts in which first: they demonstrate that narcissists know what they are doing and cannot stop and, second, that they romanticize this type of “illness” or personality disorder, whatever they want to call it. But your attitudes cause victims and these victims have a voice, as I saw here some posts talking badly about empaths or victims who suffered at your hands, the other side of the coin ( us) those who fight against your kind of people also have to have a space to understand and recover from your abusive behavior. My blog has already taken hate and I don’t give two fucks about that. As much as you try to justify it does not give you the right to be abusive and manipulative, to destroy people’s lives and make a huge mental strain on people. So yes, we will not be silent and my community will be together and united to fight narcissism. Accept the consequences and grow the fuck up to try to understand who suffers in your hands. Even in this npd comunnity demonstrate a lack of empathy and a lack of understanding. Always demonstrating that we are right. Seriously grow the fuck up.
“I will cut my heart out from my chest if it means to not love you ever again.”
Keep living your lives by the standard of dick size over actually being loved and you will wind up on your back breathing room air in a hospice room where you will go to die HIV Positive and Septic… I have seen it firsthand and that death stare still haunts me to this day. I had to fucking witness that shit happen right in front of me and it fucked me up. Learn to love someone or you’ll die alone just like her.
Some people will like the fantasy of you, but not the reality of you.
Called mean words,
That hurt your feelings.
Leads to arguments
When all you wanted to do
Was to get to a peaceful home.
But no one seem to care,
TIRED, OVERWHELMED, and SLEEPY
‘This looks surreal’ I tell myself.
Something real might have helped.
I don’t know what to choose,
Whose side is wrong and which will loose.
Tongue in cheek, you speak in vain.
Break me down, so I can’t stay.
You think you know it all for sure
Though it’s the opposite, you know?