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snowytruth · 4 years

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oh yes! to read the entire mxtx books is within my plan! but im still holding back because well, i need to prepare my heart haha. also, please do! i would love to read your recommendations! also, did you see tgcf update? they were truly beautiful!

Yes, I did! What a gift from dianxia! I mean, just look at this two...

For recs, these are the ones that I really, really like.There are more that I didn't add since the list will be too long. Anyway, I'll start with completed eng translations:

The Earth is Online

The premise is kinda like a survival game (this genre is called unlimited/infinity flow i just don't know how to explain it but they kinda play games in order to survive) so there's lot of action and horror/gore here. The romance is more of a subplot but the MC and ML's dynamic are just so good. They're a power couple like wangxian.

Seizing Dreams

To have the power to invade dreams is already amazing but using it to save people from their own demons just added more depth to it. That's what SD is all about. I love, love the MC and ML so much and even the side charas plus the plot is just mindblowing. I guess it's to be expected since it's by Fei Tian Ye Xiang (please try his works, it's all good!).

The Legendary Master’s Wife

This is one of the earliest danmei I read (yeah, i read this even before modao) and it's very long (700+ chapters). But this one's xianxia/cultivation so I guess you'll be more familiar with it.

God Level Summoner

This one's an e-sports/gaming novel. If you know The King's Avatar then GLS is like that except it's BL. I mean aside from the main cp there are lots of side cp/ships here. Also, this is the second of a three part series but you don't need to read the first or third book to understand since all three have different main charas (even games).

Little Mushroom

Okay, not gonna lie but this is probably the most...hmm, not exactly sad but depressing (??) book I've read. I can't explain it but the overall tone of the novel just gives you such desolate and hopeless feeling that it leaves you wondering if it'll really have a happy ending. But it is HE. I repeat, it's HE! Despite what I said, please do read it, it's really good!

Rebirth of a Supermodel

Another novel from one of my fav authors, Mo Chen Huan (The Earth is Online)! This is one a transmigration novel set in a modern (but parallel world) china specifically in the entertainment industry. MC is a model and ML is a designer. Anyway, this one is just a light read but I really like it.

Sha Po Lang

A work by Priest, a very popular author. This one is set in a ancient china but with steampunk! The plot is just amazing (except when some political stuff just fly over my head because i'm a dumdumb lol). Anyway, it's going to have a live action drama that will air next year (i think?). There's also an audio drama. (eng sub link: here)

Very Happy

A showbiz/entertainment novel. And just like it's title it's just light and full of fluff. Sometimes, it's nice to just read something fun and sweet.

Golden Stage

An enemies (?) to lovers trope set in ancient china. You would think it's slowburn but no, after getting married the cp just quickly settled in domestic bliss. But well, political intrigues just had to break their honeymoon (curse you emperor). At least, they'll have their HE after all that.

The Film Emperor’s Daily Live Cooking Broadcast

Okay, I may have rec this because of the food (and the accompanying pics doesn't help). It's a light read but it'll sure make you hungry.

The Seeing Eye Dog

One of the few novels that made me all teary-eyed. Halfway through the novel it's just angst with a little bit of sweet scattered in between. I never had this urge to root and hug a character so much. The MC deserves the best!

Guide on How to Fail at Online Dating

Another gaming novel though it's more casual and full of fluff & comedic misunderstandings aside from the short angst near the end but overall funny and romantic.

Next are with ongoing translations (also, i just noticed that i babbled too much so i'll keep it short):

The Husky and His White Cat Shizun - aka 2ha. Xianxia. Lots of drama (like i cried multiple times). Audio Drama with subs: here. Also, live action drama in production.

Card Room - Unlimited flow. Long w/ 500+ raw chapters (& still ongoing). Slow burn romance.

I’m Using the Interstellar Live Broadcast to Raise Cubs - Fluff. Cubs. Food. Slice of life. It's a feel good and warm novel.

Death Progress Bar - Modern. Family drama. Mafia. Transmigration. Cute system. Action pack.

Strong Offense and Defense - Modern. Basketball. (hello, knb fan here ofc imma rec this)

Superstar Aspirations - By Mo Chen Huan. Transmigration. Entertainment. Both MC and ML are actors.

You’ve Got Mail: A Cautionary Tale - Smut.Historical. Older MC, younger ML. Did I mention Smut?

Surprise! The Supposed Talent Show Was Actually–?! - Interstellar. A mix of survival games (except no deaths, yay) & reality show. Bunny (to strong) MC. OP ML.

The King’s Return - Same series/universe as God Level Summoner. Third book. Main charas are disciples of both MC and ML of second book.

Don’t Pick Up Boyfriends From the Trash Bin - System. Quick transmigration/world hopping. Face slapping scums is fun and cathartic.

Dinghai Fusheng Records - By Fei Tian. Historical. Fantasy. Action. Adventure. Manhua starts at the end of July.

Those Years In Quest Of Honour Mine - Historical. Political intrigue. Shameless MC.

Silent Reading - By Priest. Mystery. Psychological. Upcoming donghua airing this year.

Quickly Wear the Face of the Devil - A popular novel. Quick transmigration. System. OP MC & ML.

Heroic Death System - Quick transmigration. The arcs end in BE but there are redo arcs for it so overall HE.

Laws of the Other World - Alternate world. Sci-fi. Action. Adventure. Power couple MC & ML.

Deep in the Act - Modern. Main charas are actors. Pyschological. Smut.

Epiphanies of Rebirth - Modern. Rebirth. Slow burn.

Criminal Psychology - Modern. Mystery. Psychological. Pyschologist MC. Police officer ML. Slow burn.

To Rule in a Turbulent World - By Fei Tian. Historical. War. Political intrigue. Smut.

New Times, New Hell - Ghosts. Modern. Romcom. Genius IT programmer MC. Ghost king ML.

King of Classical Music - By Mo Chen Huan. Modern. Transmigration. Violinist. Genius pianist ML.

Beloved Marriage in High Society - Rebirth. Modern. Drama.

I'm still currently reading it but I'll add this, too: Imperfections/Can Ci Pin - By Priest. Sci-fi. Mecha. Action. Upcoming donghua soon.

#message #anon #took too long to reply since i got distracted #and i had to scour my list too #danmei recs

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famedroleplayarchive · 5 years

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XIAO YUANJUN is the MAKNAE, MAIN DANCER, AND LEAD RAPPER of CHARM under BC ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on DECEMBER 29, 1999. He looks a little like HUANG RENJUN OF NCT.

CHARACTER INFORMATION

faceclaim: huang renjun of nct

legal name: xiao yuanjun

stage name: n/a

pronouns: he/him

birth date: december 29th 1999

hometown: tianjin, china

position: maknae, main dancer and lead rapper of charm

claims: n/a

BIOGRAPHY

triggers: n/a

when xiao zhenghao and shen jingfei discovered they were expecting a child, all their dreams came true and before their firstborn’s tiny heart had even started beating, they had solemly promised they would give their baby all the stars in the sky and every night they prayed that their little miracle would be born happy and healthy.

the latter proved itself to be a problem.

xiao yuanjun was born on december 29th of 1999, 5 weeks prematurely, which resulted in a two week long stay in the NICU due to his weakened imune system and the heightened risk at infections. by the time his parents were finally allowed to take him home, one of the doctors warned them that the odds were it wouldn’t be the last of the health complications.

as the years went by, yuanjun found himself frequenting the doctors office more times than he could count, colds that didn’t seem to want to pass, ear infections, an ever growing list of allergies and so on. with every time he fell ill, his parents only grew more concerned, more protective over their baby boy and his fickle health. they wanted the best for him, and with that came a strict watch on his health but it heavily limited yuanjun in his freedom as a child, he was kept home from school trips, had to stick to a strict diet that lined up with his many allergies and was forbidden from a lot of the playing around and getting dirty that other boy’s his age were allowed to do.

on top of everything, at age 7, yuanjun was diagnosed with a severe case of asthma after a severe coughing fit that caused him to pass out while playing soccer with his friends after school, which only fueled his parents’ overprotective streak and yuanjun’s dismay. yet again, he was limited from even more things than he already had been, something that didn’t work well with the young boys naturally daring, adventurous, outgoing and curious personality.

the more he was forced to sit at home and do nothing while all his friends were playing outside, having fun together playing games and running around, the more it took a toll on his personality. yuanjun had always been a joyful, upbeat child but he slowly grew more moody, his temper more explosive as he was left with all this pent-up energy and frustration and no way to out it. when his parents took him to see a child pyschologist, the outcome that followed was simple but clear, they had to allow him to play, to be a child.

with some hesitance, they allowed him to pick up a sport outside of his school hours that he could channel his energy into. finding one they would allow him to play was a task in itself, with a bad pollen and gras allergy, his parents wanted to keep him away from field sports which caused yuanjun and his parents to eventually agree on letting him join a dance class.

there could be no harm in dancing right?

little did they know what fire they had started, yuanjun fell in love with the art and the older he grew, the more passionate and serious he became about dancing. and he was good, better than most kids that had been dancing much longer than him and his dance coaches caught up on it, encouraging to take his dancing to the next level, to showcase his talent. but his parents shut down every opportunity coming his way, that taking his dancing in a more professional direction would strain his health.

for years, he sat on the sidelines as his friends from dance class won competition after competition, his coach attempting to talk to his parents on an almost weekly basis to convince them to let yuanjun participate, that he’d take the team to the next level even if he was one of the youngest in the group. they kept refusing, no matter how much yuanjun protested against his parent’s decisions, his complaints fell on deaf ears.

and then one day, his dance coach came with an offer yuanjun couldn’t refuse, a spot at one of bc’s closed overseas auditions. a bc scout had asked him to recommend 3 of their best dancers and eventhough yuanjun wasn’t an official part of the team, he had been on top of the recommendations list. of course, his parents refused at first. what if he were to pass his audition? would they have to send their baby abroad to a foreign country all by himself to let him enter a business notorious for overworking their artists? with his frail health? there just was no chance.

but the minute yuanjun heard about it he was more determined than ever to prove himself. he was going to that audition and he was going to become a trainee under bc entertainment and no one could stop him from doing that, not even his parents and their overprotective nature. it took him weeks to convince his parents, the greenlight to go only given the day before the audition took place as they finally came to terms with just how unhappy yuanjun was under all their limitations, how trapped he felt being denied so many simple things a normal child should have had. as much as they wanted him to be healthy, they more so wanted him to be happy and finally, they began to see their tactics were doing the oposite.

so yuanjun auditioned and to no one’s surprise, got accepted into bc entertainment as a trainee.

moving to seoul all by himself at the age of 13 while speaking close to no korea should… not have gone as easily as it did for the young boy. of course, there were some bumps along the way, but in terms of skill he didn’t fall behind on the other boys and with his sociable personality, he managed to easily connect with the other trainees regardless of the language barrier. as expected, the biggest obstacle proved to be his health, while bc considered his asthma and breathing problems to some extend yuanjun was still pushed further than the limits he had been exposed to back home and on top of that, his own headstrong personality caused him to often over-exert himself, not wanting his condition to make him an outcast. he didn’t want to be the sick kid, he didn’t want adjustments to his training, what the other boys could do, he could do too.

much to everyone’s surprise, his own included, yuanjun proved to be a good vocalist. sure, he couldn’t meet the ranks of the main vocal potential kids that bc held but he was stable, definitely above average even, especially for a singer. as bc continued to put him through a combined mixture of both rap and vocal classes, yuanjun couldn’t help but be a little confused, but he never questioned it.

it was only after charm debuted that it slowly started making sense. his parts in the line distributions left much to be desired, most of the little parts he had considered rap parts more than anything else. directly after debut, he had blamed it on his still ever improving korean skills but as comebacks followed and time passed, yuanjun learned the truth behind why bc kept him away from singing (and using his voice in general) as much as possible.

it was too much of a risk to give him larger parts. his health was too unstable to allow him to take up important parts of charm’s music. all it would take was a bad cold, an allergic breakout, an asthma attack that would wreck his voice and make his voice come out raspy instead.

his own health had sabotaged him, again, had limited the heights he could reach, again and he couldn’t feel more powerless under it. yuanjun wasn’t upset because he always ended up at the bottom of line distributions, counting only a few seconds per song, it was the reason why, it was his damned health yet again keeping him tied down.

it was having to accept that yet again, he wasn’t normal, that he never would be quite normal.

and with that realization, he couldn’t quite come to terms. if anything, yuanjun became more hellbent than ever to proving he was just fine, a counterproductive process thought process that has caused him to grow more careless about his medication, purposedly forgetting his inhaler because he claims he doesn’t need it anyway (while in reality, he just doesn’t want to need it) and refusing to take a break even when his body desperately begs for one, often training so long and hard that by the end of it, he is laying on the practice room floor wheezing and coughing as he tries his best not to pass out.

it’s dumb at it’s best and nothing short of harmful at it’s worst but he refuses to see it, refuses to acknowledge that he’s only making things harder on himself than they have to be. yuanjun has always been too stubborn for his own good and any and all warnings and lectures fall on deaf ears and are met with large amounts of reactance. after all he’s fine, there is no problem and anyone that tries to tell him otherwise is just sticking their nose where it doesn’t belong. it’s nothing anyone can help him with until he comes to terms with it himself but he’ll learn… eventually. or well, hopefully he will.

#fmdfollow #bcentertainment #charm

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guy-jones-cycling · 6 years

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//PATIENCE//

The first characteristic I want to talk about is patience. I would say this is probably one of the most important characteristics someone could have. I feel like people want things right now but is this the best option? Getting something right now brings short term happiness and satisfaction but this can easily dissipate after a short time. Going after that long term success though will bring a greater sense of satisfaction and yes you will have to sacrifice short term but it is worth it.

Having patience is the key to falling in love with the process. Falling in love with the process is key to having success. You could be going for a job promotion, chasing your dream job or wanting to become an athlete. What ever the goal is you need to love the process of getting to that goal otherwise achieving it will be so much harder.

For me patience in cycling hasn't always been one of my strengths. I came to cycling after being successful in another sport and so when I started cycling (and I was rubbish) I had no patience. I thought I could just be successful because I've been successful before. It was becoming a big problem because I'd go into each race with increasing pressure on myself to do well because "I should be able to." This saw my performances decrease and so I started to work with a sports pyschologist to work on it. I started to see it was the long term objectives which were more important and so I started to fall in love with the process and therefore my performances improved.

Patience is so important in cycling as only one person can win each race. You could be racing in a field of 100+ riders so that's only a 1/100 chance of winning, even in a small field of 20 that's a 1/20 chance of winning. They're not the biggest odds. Having the ability to look beyond right now to what is coming is one of the most of the most amazing things to be able to do. By having a goal so big it drags you beyond the present moment allows you to be patient in the moment where maybe it hasn't gone to plan. That's all part of the process though. Everyone fails and failing is just a part of the process. Coming to learn to accept that is the biggest breakthrough I've had.

So let me know if you have any thoughts on this and what experiences you've had.

Thanks

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sanddancingwithanxiety · 6 years

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me at the start of this post: formal, coherent blog post

me at the end: dotpoint followed by fucking fuckity fuck, fuckity fuck fuck fuck

So here is my long overdue update on my life and thoughts

My coping mechanism with stuff has pretty much always been to just ignore it until I can’t not anymore, which for most things hasn’t turned out too badly. So I just haven’t been seeing Arthur, haven’t been thinking about him, haven’t been really engaging with anything to do with horses. I’ve been checking this less, just moving on. So I suppose that the last three months have been giving me a pretty good idea of what my life would be without horses.

Which is really what this post comes down to.

My head is fucked. I paid for some stupid sports psychology course which did nothing, I probably just need plain old therapy as if it was some PTSD thing. But I am incapable of talking about stuff, it’s taken me until it’s gotten this bad to be able to type anything let alone say stuff. And then while the first 5 sessons are government funded, I know I would need a lot more than that and I can’t afford it. And then I don’t see the point because frankly, it’s not just where it comes to horses. I have an anxious personality type, I’m scared of bloody everything. I don’t know if it’s possible to rewire my brain and frankly I’m just going to do the classic mental illness thing and say that yeah I’m too tired to try, I’m too lazy/fucked/whatever to work on whatever the pyschologist gives me, I’m too set in my ways, and I’m too scared of trying and failing. So frankly I don’t think my head is going to be fixed.

If you’re a new follower and a bit confused because you weren’t following me when I had Chanel then well done for you cos you missed the shitshow, but I’m not going to give you any context, so stalk my blog if you like.

I was confident when I first got Arthur. Well, for me. Like I was nervous but I wasn’t afraid to push him. I trusted he was a bit of a push over, that he would keep me safe, I trusted that he would listen when I gave an aid or a correction. Most of all, I trusted me, I trusted us. I trusted that my aids were correct enough that he would listen to them, and if he didn’t then I would back it up and he would then listen. Then the SI happened. The very first day he started pigrooting when I got him into canter, I got him through it, and I knew that that was that, because the Arthur I knew would never press an issue if I’d gotten him through it. So I felt no hesitation about coming out the next day by myself, about hopping on when there was no one on the property but me. And then when I hopped on, and we were walking, I would touch him with my leg and he would fling his head up and bare his ears. I asked him to trot and he reared and pigrooted, I gave him a minute and tried again and he did it again. I had been in this situation with Chanel and been incapable of handling it so why would I trust myself to do it this time, and with no one around, knowing that I’ve always been the type of person who was less brave with no one there, even on the safest horse.

And then after all of our rehabbing, even with him happy again, I couldn’t be the same. I didn’t trust him not to try it again, I didn’t trust him to listen to my aids, I didn’t trust myself to give a correct aid, I didn’t trust me to get him through it. No matter how safe he has been and happy he has gotten, I just can’t get over that association. I’ve had a long hard think about it and I feel that the only way I could not be in this situation with a horse is just when I haven’t seen what they’re capable of yet. I can’t erase it from my mind, even if logically I know Arthur wouldn’t do it again. I mean, he has done it again, but that was when his ulcers flared up and I treated it and it stopped. But in my head, I still don’t trust him like I did and again, most of all, I don’t trust me. Even if everything does go well and I start riding again, I don’t think I will ever ride by myself again. I have no faith in my ability, and I can’t get rid of that association with what Arthur did and that year of shit that I endured with Chanel.

Here is where I am probably going to get a bit incoherent so I’m switching to dot points for the million points tumbling around inside my head:

If Arthur does come back into work, I can’t use lunge lessons to get to know him or me or build my muscle again. By the end I was starting to reduce his lunging and the risk of injury is just too much, I can’t.

The vet keeps giving me a ‘walk up the driveway! It’s so easy!’ on my horse is totally fucking fresh and jumping out of his skin to lead (who i can’t lunge to get him sane again!) and then i am just terrified in general because i’m a POS, like the one time i did he’d barge into my left leg and i’d be like ‘move over’ and he’d ignore me and fucking brilliant, if it was justin i know he’d back up the aid for being disobedient but i’m too fucking scared to do that so basically what’s the fucking point? I’m going to have to pay someone to walk my goddamn horse. How fucking embarrassing, I should just off myself already

I got hit with an $1100 fine by the police so I am just totally fucking broke now, and if this fixes itself and he injures himself again then i literally am fucked and will have to sell him for like $100 bucks just to move him on so i might as well do it now. And the shoes are an added permanent cost, as is the pentozan, and justin just messaged me to say that agistment is going up which triggered this whole shitstorm of a post. And then i honestly would like to move out with scott and as soon as i actually have to pay an electricity bill i will be fucked and just have to sell him anyway, there is 0 chance of me affording a horse with the life i want to live.

Given I am pretty sure 99% of horses aren’t ever going to hit that threshold where they remind me of Chanel and fuck up my head, it would mean moving on

Then I am fucked because I have to pay justin to rehab him just so I can sell him

And I was a fucking douche who never filmed half of the shit Justin did on him so would again have to rehab him to sell which will then be fantastic because i’ve spent thousands on all that and just as he is ready to ride again he goes

And no one has a good fucking school horse. They are all dead to the leg and if it was my horse I could fix it but if it’s only once a week it will just be working on the same shit and putting me into awful position compromises just to achieve the fucking basics. Arthur is just so perfect in that regard.

And then there’s how difficult it’s going to be to find a home that I am happy with. I know one of justin’s students is looking but i am happy to be a cunt and tell her no because i’ve seen her beat her horse for not managing a 10m circle when she just swung the poor thing at it. So no, over my dead body. And then I have to find a home who is willing to listen to him… he’s so expressive when he’s unhappy or sore and he tries to tell you something but for the love of god i won’t let him go to someone who won’t listen to him. And how am i supposed to find someone who is a) kind and (b) good enough that they won’t be nagging with the legs or just awful like that because i can’t sentence him to that and (c) actually has the money i’m after, given that he’d come with a near new fucking saddle and all of his x rays and everything else i’ve done for him

The other thing is that I know that the only way I was ever able to manage Chanel is with Graham who knew how i worked, which is literally that when I’m scared he just made himself scarier than the horse. Which fucking worked, he knew I would never stop being worried, he could just redirect it. Which is why when !! my fucking horse is spooking and carrying on!! I ride !! better !! because i’m more worried about him shying that i just get on with the fucking job and ride him forward and through it !! and why graham used to threaten to just whip chanel up the arse and throw rocks at us until we’d do stuff because he knew she’d definitely buck instead of just *might* if i asked her to do it, so i’d actually do what i was asked! …….. But that is just so not justin. The only time he did accidentally scare me is when i was riding like crap and he went over and got some lead rope or something and i was so worried by whatever it is that he was going to do that I just started riding properly and he was like ???? wat ???? . but anyway, it’s just so not justin. I can’t ask him to change for me, to be the yelling type because he’s not. And i don’t like anyone else’s style and for the love of god the last person i’d want to take arthur to would be graham, cos he only worked for chanel because all she wanted to was carry herself deep so graham’s up thing worked. There’s nothing more that arthur would love than to carry himself with his nose in the air and a fucking underneck (which is how all of graham’s horses go, regardless of breeding or needs), so yeah nah.

But then i have the cons, against the affordability side of things. Nothing clears my mind or keeps me sane like horses. If arthur had never been injured, i would have put my life on hold for it. I had my plan to find a part time job and then stay at the pub a few nights a week and afford it that way. That plan has been so far out of my head until I was told I was first preference for this fulltime job the other week (speaking of it’s been nearly two weeks since they said i was first preference and they haven’t called me so now i’m worried) and it was only then i actually started thinking about it, and actually forgot my previous plan which had been so central to my life before that. But yeah. Ever since I have been deliberately removing horses from my mind I haven’t pulled myself to the gym because I only really went for my riding - it gave me a drive and a purpose, and now the only reason i think i have to go back is cos i see myself gaining weight and honestly feeling yuck and not strong. And the weight factor is another consideration too. The only reason i ever really got over my ED is cos my body was nice enough to maintain itself at a thin enough weight i could be happy after i started the pill. I still haven’t reached that point where my self worth and appreciation isn’t tied to what I see in the mirror. But now, when I’m not doing stuff I am actually more hungry than when I am active. I can’t push myself to go to the gym. I am starting to get (thankfully only minor) chronic pain in my back again since I’m not active. And my knees mean that I can’t be in any kind of sport with running, and I can’t swim. Cycling is fucking boring. I’m not flexible or strong enough for vaulting or gymnastics. The only other sport I was ever interested in was archery which won’t really help in the fitness department. And besides, no sport just clears my mind like riding. When i’m riding, i can’t think about anything else. If I have a problem and I ride, I can tackle it with a clear head once I’m done. My mood can totally change. My life just works when it has horses in it. It has direction, I have an identity. When people try to understand my degree I never really bother to explain cos I don’t really care. I don’t have some kind of identity point beyond riding. Even being around horses helps. And I’m sure Kathy would offer me to come just walk Robbie once a week but then there is still that drama factor and of course what if I fucked him up because again no faith in myself. And I would feel so silly coming over to just spend time with a horse (esp if it’s like a half hour drive just to hang out with one) even if i know it would be good for my head. Frankly my only thought has been to infect my children with the riding bug and hope that they turn out braver than me. I don’t think starting again would make a difference because my head will always be like this.

When something was wrong, i could distract myself with thinking about my ride or whatever. I won’t have that thing to turn to if it’s wrong. I’m coping now but i’m not happy, but i have to admit that i’m mostly unhappy because i think about how i am spending all this money when i frankly can’t get my head confident enough to make riding worth it. If i have a full time job, i can’t move him to a property with lights because it will mean being away from justin and i am not confident enough to ride away from him - i’m barely confident enough to ride with him. He will ride my horse 3-4 times a week and i will ride him two, and spend most of my time in traffic because i can’t move him closer.

I honestly don’t know how to motivate myself to be active without the drive of horses. I fucking suck at intrinsic motivation, as we’ve established with the whole have-to-have-someone-literally-scare-me-into-fucking-riding-my-horse thing.

I know i probably sound like i’ve made up my mind to sell arthur, but really i’m more over here trying to think through the inevitable (unless i have some mysterious long lost millionaire relative who dies tomorrow and leaves behind their entire inheritance in which case this would not be an issue - cos frankly if he injures himself again i will not afford it and then i will have no choice and no preparation). It might be a year, but since i do feel it’s inevitable, i don’t see the point in delaying it. Since it will probably take a year to find a home that i like for him.

So anyway, here you go. I have always been in a battle against my head, the head is just winning right now and here are my thoughts. I haven’t decided anything, this whole experience has just made it hit home because frankly i’ve spent so long not thinking about Arthur that I’ve started thinking how it would be if the experience were just … extended. If I were capable of riding on my own and moving to agistment which chewed less petrol and cost less money, I could probably keep him. These thoughts are 100% due to my own head and my timidness and lack of confidence in my own abilities, despite currently possessing one of the safest ponies I’ve ever met. Not seeing him makes it easier. Every time i see him i think how much i want to be around him, and if he were local, i always would be.

On the plus side though, he has been so happy - frankly ever since this injury came up, like the day it happened i was ! wow he’s so happy i can’t wait to ride ! - so maybe if i do do all the rehab and survive the expense, then maybe everything will just fix itself and i will feel okay to at least ride him on my own. I can’t move him without buying a horse float which is just .. not happening, so it really won’t solve that many issues. But anyway, i’m just going to try and end on that positive note before i start ripping that idea apart any further.

I’ve probably forgotten something since i spent about half an hour in the shower thinking of things after i received justin’s message but yeah. Again that this is me just spitting out my thoughts, not informing you all of some kind of decision.

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would you like to be a WAG?????

I’d like to be a sport journalist or sport pyschologist ;) But when it comes to being a WAG, I think that it’s not as fantastic as other people think. When you’re a WAG you are alone often, because your man travels a lot, you also have to keep your privacy and have to deal with many people, who wants to know every detail of your personal life. And I think it’s also a lot of hate and criticism, mainly from people who just follows you and don’t know you personally. On the other hand, obviously you have a stability - like you don’t have to worry about money or future, you become more popular, there are people who loves you because you’re in relationship with a footballer and what’s the most beautiful for me…you somehow become a part of football world. Of course, beaing a fan also makes you a part of it, but when you’re a WAG it’s easier for you to go for matches, travel with your team and just live this sport on every possible occassion. And of course, being the best support to your husband and living and experiencing his successes with him and his club also has to be wonderful. But still, it’s not a perfect life as many people think. So the answer is rather no, but you never knows what will happen in life. If one day I’d meet a perfect man and he’d also turn out be a footballer, then fantastic, but if no, then it’d be great too :) Greetings to you!

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made up fic title: Takin' care of business

Bucky Barnes is good at what he does, okay? He’s always been good at whatever he puts his mind to - it’s right there carved into perspex in the goddamned Smithsonian, can’t get more legit than that.

Except … Ever since T'Challa and his whizz-kid doctors fiddled around in Bucky’s mind and pulled all the bad bits out, he’s having trouble takin’ care of business. The Winter Soldier has, so to speak, lost his chill.

His trigger finger trembles on the pull, his shots veer wide. His leg twitches when he sits still too long and the fact of the matter is that he can’t face going back out into the world and shootin’ at it.

Steve’s making it worse with the comforting looks and the soft way he says “it’s okay, Buck, happens to us all at one point or another”. It’s not that common, it doesn’t happen to every sniper and Bucky’s takin’ it personal.

Enter Darcy Lewis, one-time unpaid intern turned sports pyschologist. She thinks that all Bucky needs is the same sort of techniques as she’s been employing with football stars and tennis players. Bucky thinks that Sam Wilson better shut up his laughing before he gets a punch in the mouth, because his trigger finger might be faulty but his fist sure ain’t.

Darcy might just be in over her head with this one, but she’s not about to back down. She might even be just as stubborn as one James Buchanan Barnes …

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jesseneufeld · 3 years

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Sports Psychologist Kanyali Ilako On How To Treat Athletes' Mental Health

Noel King speaks with sports pyschologist, Kanyali Ilako about why mental health is just as important as physical health for athletes and should be treated similarly.

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Sports Psychologist Kanyali Ilako On How To Treat Athletes' Mental Health

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Western Bulldogs coach Luke Beveridge accuses rumour mongerers of trying to tear club apart

Western Bulldogs coach Luke Beveridge has taken aim at those spreading rumours about his football club, suggesting that they have an “agenda trying to pull us apart.”

With his side’s premiership defence teetering precariously following four losses in five games, Beveridge has been forced to deal with two major public side issues this week. The first came when forward Jake Stringer took to Instagram to rebuff speculation about a falling out with teammate Jason Johannisen, related to Stringer’s former wife Abby Gilmore.

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Then on Thursday night the Bulldogs revealed that veteran Travis Cloke was taking indefinite leave from playing as he managed mental health issues. All that comes as the Bulldogs (6-6) try to turn around their on-field fortunes, starting with Saturday night’s game against North Melbourne at Etihad Stadium.

Speaking at the Whitten Oval on Friday, Beveridge conceded there was a risk of the peripheral issues becoming a distraction. “It’s there isn’t it?” Beveridge said.

Disappointed: Bulldogs coach Luke Beveridge says rumours are being spread by those aiming to break the club’s resolve. Photo: Robert Cianflone

“It’s up to us whether we let it in. That’s why we’ve got to take care of things we can control to influence good performance. Because in our memory banks in recent times we know what works, we’ve just got to really delve into that.”

While Beveridge said the club’s media chief had not been thrilled with Stringer’s decision to address the rumours, the coach said he understood why Stringer chose to do it. “Ordinarily we don’t encourage our players to go out and make statements or react to rumour, but I can understand why he did,” Beveridge said.

“If I put myself in the same position, I would probably want to react or respond, get the facts out there.”

Moreover Beveridge pointed the finger at those who had resorted to rumour-mongering. “For it to be beat up into a big issue is pretty disappointing, because it just shows that it’s someone with an agenda trying to pull us apart,” he said.

Jake Stringer addressed rumours via his Instagram page earlier this week. Photo: Getty Images

“We know that we’re not playing the best footy, but let’s just stick to that, rather than trying to find other things that aren’t there.”

Beveridge suggested that the proliferation of social media and mass-media coverage could amplify personal struggles, like those of Cloke, who followed former Collingwood teammate Alex Fasolo in going public with his mental health issues. Beveridge said it was important that the media knew where to draw the line. “We don’t want it to end up like a paparazzi. That’s not Australian,” he said.

Cloke, 30, has had indifferent form in his first season at the Bulldogs, playing six games as well as dealing with injury.

Beveridge said that Cloke had not been enjoying the game, although noted that his issues are not entirely to do with football. “The pressure of the game is one thing, but Travis has got other things going on in his life that are compounding the mental wellbeing side of things,” he said.

Beveridge said he was happy for Cloke to take time away from the club if need be, but that the forward would continue training with his teammates for now. “We’ll wrap our arms around him, and we’re really hopeful that he’s going to be OK, and re-engage on the field, and start to enjoy his football again, which is really important for his recovery,” he said.

“Travis is in that space now. He’s probably been dealing with a lot of pressure most of his career, we know he’s always been that talk around his goalkicking. I’ve always marvelled at the way he’s managed that.”

In better news, Beveridge confirmed that key forward Tom Boyd’s calf issue was not major, and that he could return next weekend, as could captain Bob Murphy, who hasn’t played since hurting his hamstring in round 10.

Beveridge also flagged the possibility that premiership ruckman Jordan Roughead could play in defence to help the undermanned Dogs backline tries to handle North’s tall forward line. Beveridge added that he resisted making wholesale change to the side that was heavily beaten by Melbourne because few players at VFL level had made compelling cases to be promoted.

AFL boss Gillon McLachlan spoke about Cloke’s struggles on 3AW on Friday morning. He said players should stay off social media, which some sport pyschologists had also recently suggested.

“Social media is a huge challenge. [There is] all-consuming commentary through social media [and] players go on there and are drawn into it,” McLachlan told 3AW.

“I’m not sure why players go on there, it’s obviously part of the younger generation’s lives [but] I think the easiest way home on that one is not to be on there.”

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