83 or 47 for Holsom?
83. Build Me Up Buttercup — The Foundations
To you, I'm a toy, but I could be the boy you adore
If you'd just let me know (Ba-dah-dah)
When he stretches — sore, satisfied, pleased — when he stretches, reaches across the bed, for a moment Holster thinks Rans is still there. It’s something in the way Rans’ cocoa butter lingers on his pillows and something in the way Rans lingers like a hickey on Holster’s heart, something sorely won and already fading like the one from last week on his collarbone. Holster frowns into his own pillow.
It starts like this: a couple shots, a handful of wyd tonight texts, a car ride across the city instead of a climb into the top bunk. Lately it’s ended like this: Holster, falling asleep and trying not to, Rans playing with his hair to make him close his eyes, Rans gone when he wakes up.
For awhile this was enough. Months of at least I get to touch him. Years of at least I get to see him like this. A whole lifetime, really, of if this is all I get, I want everything. Holster stockpiled these moments and shoved them into his pantry and now, sliding out of bed, it’s nearly enough to sustain him. Nearly.
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Across the city, Ransom falls into bed. In his hand: his phone, Holster’s contact photo up top, a message neatly typed out. It says ask me on a date sometime. I’d say yes.
He deletes it in the morning.
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the difference in listening time jfc
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Spotify Wrapped 2021 #84
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in order: 2022, 2021, 2020.
hOW???? TF?!!??!!?!?
THREE YEARS IN A R O W??!!?!?!?
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Just bought Spotify premium. I feel special now, but was it worth the cost of $4.99 a month?
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the emo to kpop pipeline is real btw
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I don't think I posted this anywhere (obviously not on tumblr for obvious reasons) but I'm posting it here so everyone and especially me can cringe at my music taste from last year
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1EUMDoJuT8yJsl?si=YQekQCjkS8mlmd4mZn46SQ&utm_source=copy-link
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Heyya, hope you're doing okay!
For spotify wrapped: 14, 28, 42 and 53?
this has been in my inbox for MONTHS I'm so sorry omg. anyway
14. OK Overture - AJR
28. Ally - Danny Padilla
42. Joe - AJR
53. Forever Young - Lily Kershaw
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Shitty/Lardo and 35 for the Spotify wrapped game?
35. Gold Rush - Taylor Swift
But I don't like a gold rush, gold rush
I don't like anticipating my face in a red flush
I don't like that anyone would die to feel your touch
Everybody wants you
Everybody wonders what it would be like to love you
Moments like this — seen from across the party, across the ice, from the other side of the sidewalk, outside looking in, outside wanting in — this moment, when Shitty's loud and laughy and working the room the way he does, when he's got a crowd of bright eyes and lingering touches, when tub juice is in her blood and she can't stop herself from wanting—
These moments when she's beyond herself, stuck like it's a TV show she can't look away from. She'd turn this off, if she was watching. She'd say, god, do it or don't. She'd say, god, say it or don't.
What she doesn't want is this: to be crushed by the irreversible weight of acting on these feelings. What she doesn't is this: oh, Lards, I uh — we're bros, bro. She doesn't want to be one of his girls when she's his bro.
One of the girls pushes his hair behind his ears and that's — this is what makes Lardo leave. She'd done that three hours ago. This time, Shitty touches his ear as if to make sure it looks alright.
She downs her drink. Sets her cup on the counter. And she thinks — thinks, not believes, not knows, not trusts — she sees Shitty looking after her in the hazy reflection of the porch window right before everyone pulls him away from her.
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This is the 3rd year in a row Jubilee Line has been in my top 5 songs listened too.
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Spotify Wrapped 2021 #80
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