#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Its been a little over four months since we got the news of mom’s cancer

It still doesnt feel real to me

#how the fuck cant i use her recent hospitalization as an excuse to not go to work #everything is exhausting #trying to figure out what songs or podcasts to put on when i bike to work but i only want to listen to my bf snore #unfortunately i dont have that in my spotify library #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

me:

the insect on my covid test tube: what if i climbed in and took a bath :)) what if i went for a swim :)))

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Ive had like five daddy long legs spiders in my bra today

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

I wonder if my best friend from when i was 6 to like 11 thinks the same about me as i do about her

If she asked to catch up over a cup of coffee id be overjoyed

But the risk of her having a way different pov about me is so scary

Like shit i just wanna see what you’re like now compared to back then!!

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

i cant even chew on my tits

Logging off

Dont hmu

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

It’s like I only remember what the reality of her cancer is at very specific moments

I look in her closet to borrow a pair of socks and realize i might not have to borrow them anymore

I’d get to keep every piece of clothing if i wanted to

And that breaks my heart more than anything

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Why tf does my tofu smell like c😼m

#like i get it you’re getting old but theres no need to nut inside the ziplock bag #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Am sad

#need to go pet a bunny or smth #working working working #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

I'm hungy

I'm sleep deprived

And I want to stick my hands into some dough

and feel alive

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

I suddenly

Feel like shit~☆

#ignore this pls #squid.rants #ill be fine #i need to eat

[squidtaxidermy]

I dreamt I was in a crowd of people and in the middle of them all stood Seth Everman and he was a giant

#seth everman #squid.rants #this dream was very long and full of details i dont remember

[squidtaxidermy]

Every single day I lose hope in humanity

#like #goddamn #are these people really the future #how the hell are they gonna even be able to understand a fraction of what needs to be done #i have a feeling they don't even want to know #if I didn't have the people in xr I'd be so fucking depressed and desperate for someone like me #and also what the fuck am i gonna work with in the future #I'm in a situation where i can actually still choose what career i want #but where does one even start??? #how the fuck am i gonna make a change? #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Ummb

#okay so basically im gay for kpop girls #thats all send message #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

Arrested for snacking in class crimes 😔🤟🏻

#i stg #my racist ass teacher #wants me to suffer #squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

There are an assortment of things on my bedroom floor rn:

1. A teal Nintendo 3DS with spirit tracks in it

2. A bag of whole spelt grains

3. Bunch of socks that aren't even mine

4. My ukulele that I keep tripping over, poor baby

5. And also, me

#squid.rants

[squidtaxidermy]

I just came out to my colleagues skgkgkgjh and now one of my classmates knows

#like #my boss took me by surprise by asking me if i was straight #what was i gonna say #no??? pshh nah #oh well now they know #squid.rants