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the-kitty-hell-system · 10 months

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♡✰ the kitty hell system

》 it/xe collectively (ask for alters pronouns) (BLACK EDIT, ART, AND STIMBOARD REQUESTS R OPEN!!) ♫ hii we are the kitty hell system! we are a c-did system. we are intersex and trans/nonbinary, along with being an arospec enbian lesbian we are bodily an adult, 18+, and are indigneous arab-blasian but are an italian immigrant! (on my black side i am nubian egyptian and maasai tribe. on my asian side i am chinese and indian.) we are sensorily, mentally/intelluctually, and physically disabled! please do note : our caregiver helps us type/talk EVERYTHING. we also use our aac device to help. she helps us understand things, if she isnt there for whatever reason, we may talk in ways people may not understand because on our own our communication is EXTREMELY bad due to our intelluctual disability and autism. we use a screenreader so we'd prefer if you put image ids. also PLEASE put a flash warning or bright color warning on shit. we have epilepsy. we r a furry and a lion therian with several fictionkins. ☾ we are a jazz studies major in university! on this blog we talk about yugioh, bendy and the ink machine/dark revival, amanda the adventurer, cookie run, disability, the lgbtq community, psychology, music/bands i like, poc/culture, team fortress 2, the lion king, coco by disney, inu yasha, five nights at freddies, art, undertale, welcome home, sanrio, webkinz, lps, animals, the muppets, sesame street, dolls/dollhouses, toys, puppets, hades, sparklecare hospital, aesthetics, etc. we are critical of our interests as well. we are emo and apart of cripplepunk. 🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾 dni if... radqueer, radinclus, radexclus, support bi/pan/omni/lesbians/gays (lesbians who say they like men or gays who say they like women), support endogenic systems, pro-contact, support male lesbians or female gays, against nonbinary lesbians, against butch lesbians, against he/him or they/them lesbians, believe able bodied people can be in cripplepunk, believe in narc abuse/cluster b abuse, demonize any conditions, baby any conditions, below 15 years old, fetishize any conditions/races/sexualities/genders, misogynistic, ableist, homophobic, anti-semitic, racist, terfs, proshippers/pro-fic, south park fans, any mihoyo fans, toilet bound hanako kun fans, vivzie pop/helluva boss/hazbin hotel fans, killing stalking fans, idv fans, dsmp fans, ranfren fans, okegom fans, danganronpa fans, harry potter fans, yarichin bitch club fans, homestuck fans, transphobic, shtwt/edtwt, hetalia fans, fakeclaim people, fake disorders in general, transid, anti-neopronouns, anti-xenogenders, anti-kin/therian, thinks blackwashing is real/against black edits, whitewasher, uses slurs they cannot reclaim, intersexist, trump supporter, conserative, bigot, anti-furry, anti-educated self diagnosis, basic dni whateva, etc (srry for the long ass dni list, i keep seeing ppl break it despite its basic ass shit) i reclaim slurs, i will not tag the word queer, i also dont want able bodied people calling me a cripple or non-deformed ppl calling me deformed. thankyou. otherkin side blog : @lesbianvampiriclion stimboard side blog @deerstims banner by inky-trash. icon by me header + icon image IDS below!!

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gammija · 3 years

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[Basic image ID in the alt text, more elaborate below the cut]

I do have some kind of justification for why Jon would show up weird on polaroids (as opposed to digital media, when in tma it’s often vice versa) but to be honest, the actual justification is “because it’s funnier”.

Bonus:

[Image ID: Jon is frowning, trying to grab the photo, which Martin has passed to his other hand. Martin is smiling, eyes closed. Jon: “I... I’m sorry it’s ruined. I’ll just, toss it-” Martin: “No, its - I want to keep it. I think it’s a good photo.” /End ID]

[Image ID: A digital comic drawn as black on white lineart, featuring Jon and Martin, consisting of 9 images, one panel per image. Throughout, Martin is a fat, white man, with short hair and freckles. He’s wearing an open jacket over a hoodie, and small round earrings. Jon is a smaller South Asian man with long, wavy hair, a beard, and glasses. He’s wearing a long coat. He’s covered in small scars. First image: Jon is leaning over a fence, holding out a handful of grass towards a long-haired cow. Martin is standing next to him, wearing a backpack, saying: “Oh! Jon, don’t move, I need to grab something.” Above Jon, gray, smaller text reads: “Yes, come here, here’s some fresh... grass?” Second image: Martin is kneeling while reaching into his backpack, saying: “I know I put it in here somewhere...” Jon is standing behind him, looking a bit confused, dropping the grass. Third image: Same composition as the previous. Martin is holding up a polaroid camera, saying “A-ha!” Jon, behind him, laughs. Martin: “What?” Jon: “Nothing, just- you would have a polaroid camera.” Fourth image: Martin is standing, holding the camera in two hands, smiling. “Yes, yes, ha ha - you know, I actually bought it years ago? But the refills are quite expensive, and I could never find anything to photograph that justified using it.” From off-screen: “Until now?” Martin: “Exactly.” Fifth image: Martin is holding up the camera in one hand, his other arm around Jon, who also has his arm around Martin. They’re leaning against the fence, behind them is the cow. Martin: “Now, say cheese!” A piece of paper is coming out of the camera. Sixth image: Laughing, Martin is keeping away a piece of paper from Jon, who is also smiling and reaching for it. Jon says: “You do know that shaking the photo doesn’t make it go faster, right?” Martin: “Jon, you are not going to take shaking the polaroid picture away from me.” The cow is still standing behind them. Seventh image: Same composition as previous. Martin has lowered the paper, Jon lowered his arm. Martin: “Okay, I think that should probably have been long enough? Let’s see what we’ve got.” Eighth image: We see the photo Martin took, his hand holding it, and Jon's hand, reaching for it. The photo shows everything the same as image five, except in Jon’s place is a big, black, staticy shape, with several realistic eyes placed in it. Ninth image: Jon, Martin, and the cow are all staring at the paper with baffled expressions, their eyes drawn as simple black circles with white centers. /End ID]

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k1nz · 5 years

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out of interest... how do u make ur edits... theyre rlly neat >_< !!

im glad u like thm!!!! my earlier editz were made using picsart n photomosh bt ive been using ibispaint 4 my later ones!! i still use photomosh sometimes? n for my glitter edits i use glitterphoto! ive used a few other things bt only like once or twice i cnt remember :/

in my earlier editz id use multiple images 2 layer thm & stuff but iv been doing tht less lately, finding better ways 2 make stuff look glitched out (im looking in2 datamoshing 4 this bc i like th look it has but i haven't gotten th energy 2 rlly try yet)

iv gone thru a lot of processes & itz kinda smthn i do in th moment! im often nt feeling too great when i make these, even if theyre nt vent ones chsnjg i jst recommend messing around w fx and saturation n brightness and hue! photomosh is a good place 2 start bc u cn jst randomize effects & learn wht u like to see in edits ig? srry this might nt be too helpful bt if u mention a specific edit i cld tell u how i made it!

#4skz

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koki-kin · 5 years

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h-hewwo! this is kinda a a uuuh strange rq! but do you have any aesthetic tips? i absolutely l-o-v-e-! how your acc/edits look! but i’m absolutely the worst @ making pretty things, a a A, srry again!! for such strange rq!! i’d juuust really like to know some tips to make pink themed aesthetic things a Aa a, and another q u i c k thing, i’m a mikan id, is it SO strange that i also rlly relate to kirigiri and maki? i’m unsure :( sorry again!! aaa and thanks if you’ll read! xoxo! 💗

Heya!! Mod Mikan here! The way I format my aesthetic boards is mainly like this

Or this

If you want it to appear, lighter/darker, use five white/black images in the X format shown. If you want it to be more of the color you have, then do it in the X format. As well, chose images that are close in value and hue.

It’s not visually appealing if there’s an X of bright white that, in one corner, has a grey-is white. Neither is it appealing to have a light pink Diamond (in the format) that suddenly has just a near-grey-pink.

I get my images from Pinterest, Sprites from the fandom wiki. For Pinterest, I just look up “________ aesthetic”. And example would be “dark pink aesthetic”, or if it’s for a character, I search (an example) “kokichi ouma aesthetic”. I might even add in a color or theme I want and find pictures based on the results, I’m assuming are shown from what other people have pinned to boards of similar names.

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Also, to answer your question! As being a Mikan ID myself, I have a Celestia/Kirigiri fusion kin (and also a kokichi kin). I don’t know/remember much of Maki, but I think it’s perfectly valid and okay to relate to/kin these characters!! -Mod Mikan (Kokichi Shift)

#mod mikan #mi-kin #answered💞#anon #long post #kokichi shift

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onlyceason · 4 years

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MySpace CSS Costumize Help

Hiya everyone,Im doing this ‘help’ cause I got a good panic a day ago ‘cause didn’t found any complete clean CSS code to my profile and had to go all by myself to get a code and costumize,and now I wanna help everyone to get at least what I learned and got.

Then I’m gonna show some things and how to fully costumize your profile layout in the throwback Windows93 MySpace.

First I want to thanks to some users that helped me to figure the things out Mannyman2004 and sskailyn (thanks for that girl for all the code <3) .

*CSS

An complete changed CSS is a thing that is really big since everything have an code,an color,and a form,also you gotta be careful to not mess everything just because of a dumb mistake for example put a information color in one that you didn’t wanted and got complete confused to how put in the old color back (that hapenned with me).

Here’s some codes that you can costumize if you like me isn’t all familiar with this stuff: https://myspace.windows93.net/blog.php?id=5778&b=2 (the second link,also if you wanna use all the theme with no modification credit her!!)

https://myspace.windows93.net/blog.php?id=3532&b=4 (same to him)

(If you find another feel free to say! I even add it here)

Now,one of the best helpers in confusing CSS stuff is the Ctrl + Shift + J,do this and a window gonna appear in the right side of the screen:

This shows a bunch of the page’s informations and things going on there,expand it with your mouse as much as it appear another window beside with other informations (horizontally),now as you can see there’s a cursor in a square button click on it:

(da boi over here)

!!! I recommend you do this only when you got confused with an color or a place that you wanted to change but didn’t found in any CSS code (in some cases I used the one that appeared in the white ballon when I passed with the cursor above that shows in purple and blue color),since it’s not everything that you want to change gonna appear in the right,most are only the ones with color that do this (don’t ya worry cause these are the reasons that the links for CSS’s are above!) !!! look:

(div#header X #header,the ‘div#’ one is best and easier to use in my opinion)

(did it with the header,it shows not only the background but also the color of the lyric and the border)

*SOME IMPORTANT THINGS IN THE CSS

In the links that I showed the localizations of what are what in the page are clear to understand in the CSS,but is not uncommon to forget or don’t know one or another,then so here’s what some codes means:

#name : Your name above you profile pic in the top

div#header : the top division that shows the site’s url and ‘logout’ and ‘email’

div#hSub : the one below that shows ‘all fwiends’ ‘home’ etc

.extended : the part that shows if you are in someone’s extended network

*THINGS THAT MAY NOT APPEAR BUT YOU WANNA CHANGE

I did this with mine’s cause didn’t had in the original CSS and it almost bugged me cause it wasn’t uncommon to change,get happy and then after seeing more sees that it screwed another different thing unrelated (putting another thing purple that was in a complete different color just cause you did it with another thing) It normally happens cause you didn’t specified exacly what thing only (or things) should be,I talked about this in the *CSS,so as an little helper I wanna show some full codes I put and worked with things that didn’t had in the original one (and other things also if you don’t find them in the one you got) !don’t copy the texts in italic! :

.player { padding: 4px; margin-top: 20px; margin-bottom: 20px; background: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; width: calc(100% - 10px ); border: 1px solid #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE ; }

.fwiendFace b {

overflow: hidden;

color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; } (friend’s names in your profile)

a:-webkit-any-link { color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; } (links to click such as ‘all’)

div#sMsg.boxButton{ font-size: 0px; color: rgb(255, 255, 255); } div#sMsg.boxButton::after{ font-size: 15px; color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; ; content: "message me!!!"; }

block {

background-image: url(insert image url); color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE ; }

div#block.boxButton{ font-size: 0px; color: rgb(255, 255, 255); }

div#block.boxButton::after{ font-size: 15px; color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; ; content: "block? :("; }

report {

background-image: url(insert image url); color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE ; }

div#report.boxButton{ font-size: 0px; color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE; }

div.topLeft.blogCard { color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE ; } (your informations in your blog,recommend to use if you get an dark background for your profile)

p { font-family: 13px arial; color: #THECOLORYOUWANTHERE ; } (another type for profiles with dark background! this one is for the low credits reaaally above the page plus the MySpace url above in the top)

!Reminder,the Color is for the lyric/font color while Background the “wallpaper” of what you wanna change! (you can also change the Background to just a plain color,just take off the “Background-image” if the code have both or replace it with “Background” and voilá,now if you want is a pic background instead a plain color one,you can just put the url code in the Background place with no changes.

*OPTIONAL AND DECORATIVE STUFF

Of course,you can do way more in to your space,here’s some things that you can put in your’s If you desire and again,not the italics:

Center text: div { text-align: center; } (,can be used even in the header,reminder that it ain’t gonna work in “about me” if you put directly in its text box,you have to put in the CSS one)

Different cursor: you can find them easily in all the internet and even do your own one if you would like (sadly I don’t know anything about doing one),I think everybody knows that already since well,you still can do that here in tumblr (remember also,put in the CSS part with a CSS working code)

Color’s HTML: In the reality this is more a important thing than just an optional so keep this in mind!!!! these bois are what gonna change your profile even if are only small things,everything there is with them,If you want to find easily go to https://htmlcolorcodes.com/ where you can choose one already or pick one

Icons in the contact box: You can easily change your icons (”block”,”add fwiend”) to another smoll one,such as cute or different ones! as always you can find them all the internet,you can find some places in already customized CSS urls.

Font: You can easily change you profile’s font thing just by the font-family like I showed in the ‘p’ code,add this to the one place you wanna change If it doesn’t have plus the name of the font you wanna use like this:

font-family: papyrus;

The main used as always is 13px arial one,didn’t changed in the one above to don’t cause any problems.Also in the common ones that I can change easily (the part “about you” for example) I find easier to use font changers online since that If you just get bored you can simply erase and put another only easy and fast.

Character in the right side of the page: this is basically the your MySpace page url (the box in the left part of the page above ur profile stuff) changed into a figure or a pic of something you like (even a gif!),all you have to do is to put these things on your CSS code:

div.url.box { background: url(PICYOUWANT) no-repeat; background-size: 140px; position: fixed; right: 0; bottom: 0px; color: #ffffff00; height: 104px; width: 150px; animation: shake 2s infinite; border: none; box-shadow: none; filter: drop-shadow(8px 9px 15px #00000044); z-index: 1000; }

.url a { color: #ffffff00!important; }

*Depending the pic or thing you get,the height and (or) width might be changed for a better perspective,the lower your height (like the one) lower gonna be the pic in your page as an example on how the px is also a changeable thing here.

Character/stuff on a side of the page + a “Welcome” pic when entering your profile: This one is If you wanna add a character or something like in the side of your profile page aaaaand a pic or something like a greeting that is gonna appear when you or someone enters to see your MySpace,I only know the both ‘url box and Clippy’ CSS,sorry,gonna try to see if there’s a method that only do the Clippy one like the character in url.box that I showed here above,here It is:

@keyframes bootAndClippy { from { background: url(PICYOUWANTHERETOAPPEARWHENENTERINGYOURPROFILE) #000; background-position: center; background-size: contain; background-repeat: no-repeat; position: fixed; right: 0; bottom: 0px; top: 0; left: 0; color: #ffffff00; border: none; box-shadow: none; filter: drop-shadow(8px 9px 15px #00000044); z-index: 1000; } to { background: url(PICYOUWANTTOAPPEARINTHESIDEOFYOURPROFILE); background-size: 140px; position: fixed; right: 0; bottom: 0px; color: #ffffff00; height: 131px; width: 150px; z-index: 100; animation: shake 2s infinite; border: none; box-shadow: none; filter: drop-shadow(8px 9px 15px #00000044); z-index: 1000; } } .url.box { animation: bootAndClippy 3s steps(1) none; animation-fill-mode: forwards; } .url.box a { display: none;

}

*The tip from the ‘Character in the right side of the page’ goes here too obviously.Also you can change the color of the background of the Clippy stuff! It can be whatever color you want not only black (it’s just there as an “default” color)

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I may be doing more research in other things that Im still not aware on how work (as different profile shape,character or someone in the screen’s right side) but as I understand I may put it all here,srry.

BONUS: utf-16 is a user that shared some of his CSS,them are pretty different ones,If you would like you can find him there (also remember credits!)

That’s it by now! Hope you all stil deep inside emo souls can rawr in peace ‘U’

#windows93 #myspace #css #Customization #MySpaceWindows93 #Help #CustomCSS #OLDMYSPACEISBACK

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btstrashxoxox · 6 years

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Fake Love pt.1

Jimin AU, 1.3K

Living in a strict environment wasn’t easy. Your parents keeping track of where you are, who you’re with constantly. Though they really didn’t have anything to worry about. You weren’t exactly one of the party types. With glasses too loose and always sliding down your face. “Why don’t you go adjust them?” often being asked. But how do you explain that you spent all the money you have on buying albums from the loves of your life and just didn’t have the money to spend on your glasses? Besides, who needs perfect glasses when you can have your group of Big Bang hotties singing their sweet, sinful melodies right into your ears, right?

Your outfits weren’t the most daring ones either; mostly consisting of a button down shirt and any pair of jeans you found in your closet that morning. Your days didn’t consist of much. Wake up early, complain about the too bright sun and the too loud, chirping birds for a few minutes while dragging yourself to the bathroom, get ready for school, spend hours going through your classes, spend time with your best friend Sun, and then finally make your way back home. Even after graduating there wasn’t much that you did. It’s just now you spent hours looking for a job. No, you weren’t the party type; you couldn’t be, with your parents on your back.

So the second you caught a job with just enough salary to provide you with your own little home with everything you need, you made a bolt for the door and escaped your parent’s house. At first it was hard. Having the constant support of your family to just disappear wasn’t something you were used to. But it didn’t matter. It’s not like you didn’t visit them every other weekend.

Having your own little apartment was great! You could leave your stuff around without having anyone mess around with it. None of your sisters there to grab one of your possessions with no promises of getting it back. Not to mention the fact that Sun who continued living with her less strict parents, was now able to come over whenever and stay for however long you wanted. Gossiping about little things, giggling through the night, and swooning over GDragon or Seungri etc. Life was great! Your gay boss was probably the coolest boss in the world. Understanding, caring, always ready to listen to your concerns, and so organized you honestly didn’t understand why he needed you as a secretary. But hey, just makes your job easier! Oh yes, life was great. And then you met him.

He was Sun’s childhood friend. Park Jimin. They were the literal corny stereotypes of childhood best friends. He was bullied and in came Sun playing his saviour. Six years old and already the bestest of friends. They grew up together, until the day Jimin’s dad got transferred back to Korea and his family had to move. The separation was heartbreaking. Friends being separated by thousands of miles after being together for years. But it was okay because they promised to keep in contact.

“We’ll skype every night! Right before we go to sleep!” and that, they did. You’ve heard tons about Jimin from Sun, though you never met him. You weren’t sure why, but you always had this image of a chubby and short kid for him. Boy, were you wrong.

It was a peaceful Sunday morning. Light shone in through the windows. Blankets sprawled on the ground where you slept. You sighed happily, looking to your left. 12 pm, perfect. Sitting up, you stretch your arms out in front of you letting out a groan of pleasure and getting rid of the knots in your back from sleeping on the floor.

“Sunnnnnnn, wake uppppp!” you reached for the girl, starting to shake her awake. “Get upp, we have a lunch reservation at 2 and we need to get to your house before then.”

She rolled over groaning, “Ughhh I hate mornings.“ You laughed and lay back down next to her.

“Trust me, I feel you.”

She sat up slowly, letting the blankets fall to her lap and rubbing her eyes awake.

“Remind me why we decided to sleep on the floor again?” She continued to groan.

You shrugged from your spot on the floor. “Something about the fun in sleeping on the ground like in camp.” You replied. “It was your idea and now my back’s ruined.”

She laughed, jumping up, gathering energy from who knows where. “That’s you and me both! OKAY, let’s go! You grab your shower and start getting dressed while I fix my shit to go back to my place, and then from there we’ll go to the resto. Come on, come on, hurry!”

You couldn’t help, but chuckle. Leave it to Sun to go from half dead to an over excited child.

You got up again giving her the thumbs up and slowly making your way to your room to take your shower; grabbing your glasses on the way.

Finally dressed and ready to leave, you both walk out your door, locking it behind you.

“Don’t take too long okay, or else we’ll end up late for the reservation.” You turned to her giving her a stern look.

“Yeah, yeah don’t worry. I won’t make us late again.”

You grinned and grabbed her arm. “Okay lass go!”

You started to make your way to Sun’s house talking about little things from here to there. The sun was shining bright and the birds were singing their songs. Little kids were running around in the fields, chasing after butterflies or their puppies. Couples walked around, hand in hand, for their lunch dates. It was a beautiful day.

Arriving at her house, Sun rang the doorbell. “Mooooommm open the dooooorrrr!” She rang it a few more times.

“Hm, you sure your parents are home?”

“They said they’d be! I didn’t even take a key with me! Mooomm, Daaad?! Hello?!”

Finally you heard footsteps coming from behind the door and then a pause. You looked at Sun confusedly, which she returned. Then the door swung open.

“SUNNY!” You heard a male voice; high pitched, but low at the same time. You whipped your head around and stared at the beauty you’ve never seen before. Orange locks sat on his head, with brown eyes twinkling like literal stars. His smile, gosh his smile. His smile went from one cheek to the other, reaching his eyes. He was on the shorter side, but still about two inches taller than you. He was gorgeous and you couldn’t help, but stare at the stranger.

“Oh my god… JIMIN!” Sun rushed towards him and pulled him into an embrace, laughing. “Oh my god, I can’t believe this, how long has it been?! Oh my god I missed you so much!”

“Too long sunny bunny, too long!”

As the two hugged, you couldn’t help, but stand there awkwardly; realizing that this is the Jimin Sun has always talked about. Nope, definitely not a short and chubby kid. Not knowing what to do, you debated either slowly walking back home, leaving the two to reunite properly, or announcing your presence. Luckily the decision was made for you.

Sun’s mother walked to the door grinning widely. “Now, now Sun, don’t forget about little (Y/N) standing there.” She took your hand in hers and smiled warmly.

“Good afternoon Mrs. Lee. How are you!” you smiled back a genuine smile. Sun’s mother had to be the sweetest woman you knew other than your own mother.

“Oh my gosh, oh my gosh. Jimin, this is (Y/N) and (Y/N) this is Jimin! You know the one I told you about!”

You looked up and made eye contact with those beautiful brown orbs and froze

“(Y/N)! Nice to meet you!” He smiled brightly, grabbing your hand for a shake.

Damn his hands were soft.

AN: Heyy!! So this is my first time writing a story! Like absolute first time and im srry if its absolute shit XD but I wanted to try writing so here I am posting this! I know this isn’t much and not much of the plot line was introduced, but this was more of an intro to the characters and ill start actually getting into the story in the next parts! Also my title sucks cuz i suck at coming up with titles :(( soo if anyone has any suggestions IM ALL EARS! As you can see im complete bts trash and jimin is my bias atm, but wen were talking about bts it changes all the time DX these boys kill me. Anywayss soo I hope you enjoy, once again im rlly sorry if its absolute crap lmaoo but like I said completely new at this so im hoping to improve as time passes! Im rlly excited to start writing and im excited for this AU which was inspired by a short dream I had hehe. Plz don’t hesitate to comment and giv me feedback! Id appreciate it a lot! THANK YOU <3

#jmin #bangtan #bts scenarios #bts fanfic #jimin x reader #series #bts fanfiction #bts #jimin scenario #fake love

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skymade · 7 years

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Willow Gone

A drabble from Willow’s best friend, Eryk’s, point of view. It’s long, I’m sorry. These are the texts pertaining to this.

“Errie, how about today?”

Eryk is lain across their bed, staring at the prune colored ceiling for the five-millionth morning in a row -- or so it feels. Little appears to be able to rouse them from their state.

Their mother, aquamarine with cavernous holes littering her face -- a Meldonian -- stands at the doorway. Her tight, bright green hair curls with the consistency of seaweed fall from the crown of her head. They are the same curls that pull at Eryk’s own blue head. Her mouth is nothing but a large slit in the center of her face, but Eryk can understand both her question and the implications deep beyond it.

They do not answer. Normally, Eryk’s love for their mother overrides all else, but now their love for someone else holds them, like chains, in their bed.

“We love you, Errie,” she says, for the five-millionth morning in a row, circular fins with holes reaching towards them. Her voice always sounds as if it comes from deep underwater. “Whenever you're ready, you know. Seconds will wait for you.” She touches them, once, on the leg, then retreats. The door clicks behind her gently.

Eryk closes their eyes and sees her. Not the mother they love -- their best friend. Dark curls, murky eyes, bright purple skin -- one of many things she was mocked for. Willow sky. She was their best friend, from the moment they met to the moment their mother told them she was gone.

In a flash, Eryk can see their entire friendship. The moment she, in a flurry of curls and laughs, sat down next to them during lunch, introducing herself though uninvited. Trekking the mountains of Amyr, them wheezing and her laughing. Her splashing purple water at them and sticking out her tongue when they protested. Her hanging upside down in their hiding place, the storage unit, singing out of tune and changing the lyrics to fit her mood. The last time they saw her -- late at night, under the velvet sky, with stars sprinkling above them, her winking playfully at their gaze.

Their eyes shut tightly at the images. Each memory is another chain that drags them down to their bed, leading with the terrifying crash of the moment Eryk woke up and saw their mother there. Their mother had never been allowed for extended stay upon planet -- Amyr rules -- and instantly, Eryk had felt sick.

Dad’s dead, was Eryk’s first thought. I did something wrong. I failed my tests for Seconds. Mother is dying.

But they had never expected the words that had come from their mother’s mouth, starting simply and gently.

“Errie… when was the last time you saw Willow?”

She was gone.

Eryk presses their hands against their eyelids. Why hadn’t they told anyone when they saw the bruises on Willow’s skin? Why hadn’t they reported their fear for her life? Why didn’t they try harder? What if she were dead, as dead as her mother must be? And the most terrifying thought of all: What if she went off to Travel?

She wouldn’t be able to survive. Not for a minute. Willow would have no idea what she’s doing. Though all evidence leads to her being upon another planet -- the loss of her mother’s tokens -- Eryk has been stubbornly refusing to believe it.

Even with the possibility of her escaping with Tallow -- what her father currently believes -- Tallow can not care for Willow. What if he abandons her? What if he hurts her? What if she feels trapped?

These thoughts have been circling in Eryk’s head for the eons it feels she’s been gone, but they haven’t abated, yet. Every day, Eryk wakes up to hear them repeat in perfect clarity.

They’re sure they’re going insane.

Eryk’s communicator chirps next to them. They never get messages. Curiosity wins over depression for the moment. They reach up, grabbing it off of the ivory table, and flip out the keyboard, making the screen light up.

the will of the sky. (in range) 1 NEW MESSAGE.

Eryk cannot stop the tears that immediately pour through their eyes as they select the message, quickly, shakily. They have always had what Willow called bleeding eyes, but they were sure the Terran expression was bleeding heart. And now, they are choking on it.

It is a message from Willow.

trvling mkes me ocean sick T_T ;-; ;(

The words are so uniquely Willow -- down to the very last mark (or lack thereof) that Eryk begins sobbing harder.

In a perfect world, they’d take time to control themselves. They’d wait until the feelings abated and let them breathe to reply. But they have not seen the words “in range” next to Willow’s name for a long time, so long they are afraid if they don’t reply immediately, she will disappear.

Fuck you

It’s all they can think to say.

The response is so fast.

aw!! ;( dont b meeeeeeeean!!!

Eryk is attempting to type a response, when another of Willow’s comes.

i knw. i knw.

Willow never left spell check on. Most Amyra didn’t. It came with switching languages -- it was easier to just type without having to change languages each time they wished to.

Eryk closes their eyes, pushes their head towards the screen. Willow hardly types as… seriously… as her last message was.

Eryk stares at the small, purple picture of Willow next to each message -- heart-shaped sunglasses, smiling at someone off-camera. Eryk took that picture for her. Eryk can still taste the air from that day, can still feel the grass beneath them. Of course, she’d taken the picture of the smoke that Eryk had always used as their picture. How many times had Eryk seen a message from Willow? Thousands. Millions. Almost constantly. Willow almost never stopped texting. But this message... these words... had such a new weight to them.

They hardly think as they reply.

Where are you

Because, of course, Eryk has to come get them. They’re already thinking to ask if they can borrow their mother’s ship when Willow replies, lightning fast as ever.

u knw y i cnt tell u that ;C

Just like you didnt tell me you were leaving, Eryk’s hands answer for them. They almost put a question mark -- they normally don’t because they feel it leaves the statement too hard -- but they choose not to in the last instance.

u knw y i had 2 do that 2.

Maybe I dont Willow, they reply. After hitting send, they add on in a new message, If you wanted to run away with someone you were dating, thats fine but you still could have told me first.

Eryk locks the screen, sits up in finality after the period. They brush their hands at their face when another message lights up.

?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????? the fck r u tlkin about???!?!?! Im not d8in ny1!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

Yeah. Like Id know that. Because you keep me so updated with whats going on in your life right

It feels right, now, to be angry. Eryk hasn’t been angry this entire time. Only scared -- only sad. This feels right.

At least there is some relief. Willow is not dating Tallow. Hopefully, he is not treating her the way others have treated her here.

skies i mssgd u cuz i missed u!!!!! >:( >;c wht is ur problm????!!

My problem is that my best friend left planet without saying anything and is now trying to pretend it isnt a big deal

i ddnt have to mssg u u knw!!! i culdve stayed quiet!!!!!!!!!!! D:<

Moments later, she’s back.

lol… yes i did. ;c of course i hd to mssg u. ur my best friend eryk. still.

And, in true Willow fashion, she launches into a tirade. They can just see her in their mind -- tongue out, concentration coursing through her body, bent over the screen as her fingers fly.

mr. doom && gloom is gttin on my fckin nerves. im so done with him. D:<

Officials think you ran off with Tallow, they reply.

off. r rite. but only bcuz he hs a staff. eryk the nly reason i ddnt tell u ws bcuz i knw ud rate me out

She means ‘rat me out’. Eryk feels more tears coming at just reading the words. They are trying to hold on to the good things: she’s alive. Tallow hasn’t abandoned her. She might be okay. They are trying not to think how far away she could still be -- trying not to wonder how close she may be to them for the first time in forever.

Holy skies Willow. I missed you

i miss u 2. ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;((((((((((((((((((( emoticons arnt strong enuf :(

I know what you mean, they type through their tears. They have to move their communicator far away enough to escape the downfall of water.

When are you coming home, they add.

There’s a pause.

……………………. eryk i cnt come bck 2 amyr. id be put to death for leavin

Please, they try. Eryk has never been overly selfish before, but they cannot stop it. How can they live without their best friend?

But when minutes pass and they get no response, they let out a breath of air and say, Are you happy

its better than being on amyr if thats what you mean lol

Her grammar improved. That means she had to think deeply about that reply. Eryk hesitates. Maybe she truly needs their help?

I guess that is what I mean, they try. They don’t know what to say -- she said it was better than on Amyr. Better than when she was with Eryk. Better than when they were close.

A long pause. Eryk doesn’t know what to say, but, as always, is saved by Willow.

i hv a confession 2 make

Okay

i ddnt mssg u bcuz i missed u. tho i do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dnt get me wrong!!!!!!!!! fckin FCK i miss u!!!!!!!! but i mssgd u… 2 say srry. ;C ;C 4 not saying gdbye. :c :c

Eryk sighs and closes their eyes. Willow has never been very good at saying sorry.

I dont know if I fully forgive you yet

i knw. dnt blame u t_t

They release a soft breath at the emotion -- runs their fingers over the image. If they had more Amyra in them, maybe they’d be blinking in and out from the intense feelings. They close their eyes and pray -- though praying was never something they did before Willow disappeared. Now, however, it seems to highlight their life. Almost every moment is spent in it. Willow believes so avidly in the sky -- it has to save her, doesn’t it?

Their phone chirps, calling them back.

mr. doom && gloom wnts 2 leave here soon.

Eryk knows what that means before Willow types it, and immediately responds, Please

im srry eryk

Please dont go. Not yet

pls dnt tell any1 i mssged u

I wont, they type back, oh skies I wont just promise you wont go

They will promise anything, now. Tears rolling down their face -- choking on them -- the volume of their sobs rising so much they hear their mother swaying up the stairs, coming to check on them.

im so srry. i cnt do nythin. gates up. i love you eryk.

She never types out ‘I love you’. Never. Never. Never.

I love you too Willow. Please dont leave me

bye

“Willow!” They’re screaming at their phone, shaking it. “Willow!”

Willow come back

Willow please!

Their fingers shake as the letters light up on the screen.

Please please please. I cant do this without you

WILLOW!

And then the dreaded three words light up next to Willow’s name -- out of range -- and Eryk collapses as their mother throws open the door and wraps her arms around them.

#( my best friend. still. ) eryk.#( drabble. )#( by these hands. )#[ sighs... this is 2 sad... i'm so sad... ]#willow gone

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