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holylulusworld · 1 year

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Barnes vs Barnes (7) - Zero

Summary: The unavoidable happened. What will Bucky do now?

Pairing: Mobster!Bucky Barnes x Wife/Ex-Wife Reader

Characters: Lloyd Hansen, Steve Rogers, Nick Fowler, Matt Murdoch

Warnings: angst, mentions of infertility, strong reader, mentions of past cheating, Lloyd being Lloyd

A/N: Please be aware this is an AU. Bucky is an ass and OOC in this story.

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<< Part 6

“Doll, I was worried about you. Where have you been?” Bucky jumps up from his seat. He’s about to hug you when Lloyd and Steve step in front of you. “Baby doll.”

“Sir. Mr. Barnes,” Matt clears his throat to draw Bucky’s attention toward him, “we came here to discuss your separation. No hugging my client. No touching my client. Not talking directly to my client.”

“She’s my wife,” your husband growls at Matt. It’s worse enough that his best friend seems to be on your side, and that he knew exactly where you are hiding from your husband. Suddenly, he is being told how to behave around his wife by some strangers. “If I want to talk to her, I’ll talk. If I wish to touch her, I will touch her.”

“No. You won’t,” Steve pats the gun hidden under his jacket. “Buck, don’t make this harder for Y/N. She has been through enough because of you, don’t you think?”

Bucky glances at you as he says, "We are still...I love her. Y/N let’s talk in private. I know I fucked up again, but I love you. Please.”

“There’s nothing left to say, James,” you use his first name on purpose. Another jab at his aching heart. “You knew this would break me beyond repair. Still, you went home with that woman and fucked her. You even wanted to raise her child with her. How could you? How?”

You blink a few times to push the tears away. “It was a moment of weakness, doll. Natasha means nothing to me. You know that. I hate myself for hurting you.”

“And weeks of lying to me,” you huff. “We could have it all, Bucky.” You step next to Steve to look your husband straight in the eyes. “It was you who decided that what we had didn’t matter. That I didn’t matter. The moment Natasha stepped back into your life you fell for her. Again. Just like you did back then.”

“Baby…I…” Bucky shakes his head. He can’t accept that he won’t have you in his life anymore.

“Save it, James,” you say, standing your ground against your husband. “I will not forgive you this time. After everything I gave up for you. I could’ve been happy with someone else. But you made me come back only to break me again.”

“I can still give you a baby. We can fix this,” he says as he paces the room like a caged animal. “I love you. You love me. We can save our marriage.”

“I don’t want to,” you shrug when Bucky snaps his head toward you. His face falls as the woman he knew doesn’t look back at him. It’s a different woman. A new one. Reborn through fire and pain. “And according to the rumors I heard, you can’t give me a baby. You are the failure here, Bucky. Not me.”

“What? No,” Bucky shakes his head, remembering the trauma he endured thanks to his brother. “The doctor said all is fine…they said…no…”

“Well, your parents lied,” you hold back a chuckle. You are not like this. “If only you had gone to the doctor as I suggested. It wasn’t my fault. I guess fate doesn't want us to have children.”

“How do you know?” he asks. “Only four people knew what happened back then. Two of them are dead, and the other one…”

Bucky’s eyes widen. “Guess the cats out,” Lloyd smirks darkly. “You’re lucky Steve was around when that asshat tried to grab Y/N. If not, both of you would be six feet under already.”

“Lloyd,” you warn.

“Sugar plum, let me stab him a little,” Lloyd grins as you roll your eyes. He won't stop bugging you. “Please. I got all these nice knives…”

“Nick is back in town." Bucky's legs are about to give in when he hears his brother is back in town. “He knows about you. I got to keep you safe.”

He holds out his hand. “She’s got me,” Steve shoves you behind his back. He makes sure Bucky knows that this time he won’t back down for his friend’s sake. “I gave up my chance on her for you once. I won’t do it again.”

“Gentlemen, the lady is right here,” Matt chastises. “We came here for a reason.”

Lloyd hums. He already imagines stabbing Bucky in the back, or ass. Whatever body part he can reach first.

“No stabbing, Lloyd,” you warn.

“Why did you tell me he’s back?” Bucky asks. "Using this to your advantage would have been a smart idea. If he kills me, everything I own will be yours.”

“I’m better than this,” you snap at Bucky. “Unlike you and your brother, I don’t take advantage of people. Whatever messed up shit is going on between you and Nick, I don’t want to get involved in this. I love you, so I see this as my way of saying goodbye. I don’t want you to die, but I don’t want you in my life either.”

“So, this is the end," Bucky swallows thickly.

He could never have imagined that you would turn your back on him forever. He knew what he did hurt you deeply, and you needed time to forgive him.

“This is the end, James,” you say as you hold his gaze. “I cannot trust you anymore. Not with my heart, and not with my life. You hid that you had a brother. If not for Steve, I would be in Nick’s hands. Held hostage or worse. All you did was lie. Our marriage is one big lie.”

“You should leave talking to the lawyers now,” Matt interjects. “I came here for a reason, Mr. Barnes. Let’s settle this now. You don’t want to make things more difficult for Y/N. Right?”

“I-Y/N, baby doll,” Bucky pleads one last time. “Please talk to me. We can still…”

“James don’t be ridiculous,” you sneer. “There is nothing worth saving. Our marriage is over. We are over. I have zero tolerance for your behavior. Matt will handle everything else. Lloyd will stay with him to make sure you act like a gentleman around my friend.”

“Doll…please.”

You turn around, not looking back as you walk out of the room. Steve follows you hot on your heels. Since your encounter with Nick, he has been by your side.

“That was…you were…I mean…”

“Can we just leave?" you ask. “I don’t know for how long I can keep myself from crying, Steve.”

“Of course, darling.”

Steve would like to wrap his arms around you. But he knows the last thing you need is another man fighting for your attention.

“Bucky looks awful.”

“He’s a mess without you,” Steve says softly.

“Good. I hope he regrets breaking my heart for the rest of his life.”

“What will we do about his brother now?” he looks at you. “Do you want me to take him down?”

“I don’t know yet,” you sigh. “He won’t give up so easily. Just like Bucky. He kept it together today. But I know my husband. He’ll try to get me back. No matter what.”

“No welcome back brother or a hug,” Nick smirks. He leans back in Bucky’s chair as his brother steps into his office.

“How did you get in here?” Bucky growls.

“Your men let me in. We still have the same face, remember? It was child’s play to get inside your home,” he dips his head to look Bucky up and down. “No wonder your wife ran for the hills. You lost weight and look like crap. I bet she will choose a real man. Someone who can give her a baby.”

“So, it’s true, you threatened my wife.”

Nick is unimpressed when his brother gets his gun out. Laughing about Bucky, he looks amused. “I did not threaten your sweet wife. I offered to look after her. I bet she didn’t get a good—”

A bullet hits the wall next to Nick’s head. “You will keep her out of this. I did enough damage to her heart.”

"I will do whatever I want to do with your sweet wife.”

Nick slowly gets up from the chair. He grabs the wedding portrait of you and Bucky, smirking as his brother fires another bullet into the wall.

“I will kill you if you try to get close to her again.”

“If you wanted to kill me, I’d be dead by now. We both know you cannot kill your own brother…”

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#bucky barnes x reader #mobster!bucky barnes x fem!reader #bucky barnes x female reader #lloyd hansen #matt murdock #steve rogers #Barnes vs Barnes (7) - Zero #nick fowler

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beanieman · 1 year

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Gashu’s breakdown here should be talked about more.

Throughout the game, he keeps a very composed aura. Even when killing Rio, a doll modeled after his adoptive son, he still seems calm.

Yet at this moment, he breaks. He’s faced with ending his life or ruining the sacred death game he’s given so much to continue. It’s the definition of “backed into a corner,” and he doesn’t handle it well.

Which I think is funny. We’ve seen the participants die over and over again, and every time they get to go out with some dignity.

Mishima spends his last moments pushing Nao away as he burns. Joe tells the group he thinks they’re good people and goes out with no bad blood between them. Kai shows his resistance, and Reko shows how much she’s changed when being stabbed by her old self. Alice dies while looking for his sister and showing his heart, while Nao tells everyone she’s glad she didn’t betray them. Kanna tells everyone to get along. Shin starts the Joe AI to help Sara, and Q-Taro comforts Gin as a doll.

Yet Gashu can’t hold himself together. He has a tempter tantrum before he dies, which has been true for every floormaster so far!

Gashu has his breakdown, Rio shouts at Tia for giving him a moment of positive emotions, and Midori falls apart completely. They don’t leave the Earth with any more dignity than they had when coming into it.

I think the comparison of how the participants go out vs the floormasters is an important one. Also, I’m going to say it, if Gashu was conventionally attractive this scene would be a big thing in the fandom. There would be so much fan art.

#YTTD #Your Turn To Die #Gashu Satou

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dreamsclock · 2 years

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hero c!tommy vs villain c!dream are vicious enemies, but civilian mode c!dream runs a cute little book shop with an apartment above it and civilian mode c!tommy is a kid he found living on the streets and decided to rent a spare room to for a dollar a month (bc he wouldn't accept it for free). the twist? c!tommy knows. c!dream does not. c!tommy will do whatever it takes to keep things that way.

For one of the most terrifyingly clever villains Tommy has ever faced, Dream is surprisingly dumb.

That’s what scares him at first. When he puts the clues together, when he adds two and two and finally makes four, his first, horrified thought is: Dream knows.

Because of course he had to. Dream, alias Nightmare, alias Green Bitch (Tommy’s choice — he’s proud of this one), is ten steps ahead of every other player in Manberg City. He’s intelligent, he’s cunning, he plays people like a game of chess, and he most certainly must have known Tommy’s secret hero identity when allowing him to stay in his (surprisingly nice) apartment.

Tommy waits on tenterhooks for three weeks, refusing to eat any food Dream provided, refusing to sleep without a knife under his pillow, and refusing to leave his room without checking extensively for traps first. Dream takes it onboard a little bemusedly—

“You’re so— paranoid,” he tells Tommy one day, brow wrinkling in confusion, “you act like— like you expect someone to come and murder you the minute your back is turned. Are you okay?”

TommyInnit, alias Golden Boy, alias Theseus, alias Most Fucking Poggers Hero Around (his own choice), does not squeak in terror when Dream speaks from behind him. He also does not pull out a knife, because he’s civilised and totally not traumatised, thanks, and can hold a normal conversation with his worst enemy while undercover perfectly fine, obviously.

“What the fuck?” Dream complains. “Where— Do you just constantly keep knives in your pockets? What is wrong with you?”

“What’s wrong with you, bitch?” Tommy demands viciously, heart slamming against his ribs. “You’re ugly and you’re stupid and you’re dumb and you’re a bitch and you’re green, man, who the fuck is green? You’re a green bitch and—”

…TommyInnit, alias Golden Boy, alias Theseus, is a calm, rational hero, capable of keeping secrets even from the worst people. Usually. He decides to chalk this slip up — revealing he’s aware of Dream’s villain identity via the green costume he always wore — down to a bad day and shit coffee. Gulping, swearing internally at his blunder and hoping his powers are charged enough to survive Dream’s wrath, Tommy prepares himself for the worst from Dream.

The man scoffs, sounding vaguely resigned. “Look. There’s nothing wrong with my cardigan. Green is— It’s a nice colour. A good colour, even. I don’t see why you’ve got a problem with it!”

Is Dream playing tricks on him? Is God merciful? Is the universe deciding to give him a break, for once in its very long and very merciless existence?

Tommy stops prepping his powers, and turns back to stare at Dream in undisguised shock. Dream blinks back, bemused. He doesn’t look evil, or villainous, or remotely insane, like he had when he’d been threatening Tommy with… what had it been? “Revival-and-then-death-and-then-revival-and-then-death-and-then-revival-and-then-death”? Something like that. No, Dream (with a Kiss The Cook apron on which he wears whenever he’s baking) is staring at him looking slightly concerned and slightly exasperated, hands on his hips and expression open.

And that’s when it hits him. Dream doesn’t know.

Tommy wants to laugh, or maybe cry. He chooses to do neither, and instead, very heroically, drops the knife on Dream’s foot, causing the older boy to squeak in pain.

“Have your knife back, bitch,” he declares, as suavely as he can, “you are so fuckin’ dumb.”

“Nice,” Dream grouses, but the utter relief on Tommy’s face seems to have softened something in him, “I’m so glad I let you stay, Tommy. Who else would stab knives into my feet if you weren’t here?”

Slightly hysterical, silently thanking whatever God or higher power that exists, Tommy snickers. “You should thank me by giving me lots of money, dickhead. And compliments.”

Dream offers him a rueful little grin. “How about you watch a movie with me tonight instead?” He offers, and Tommy grumbles an acceptance.

And things… shift. Just slightly. Because it’s easier to relax now that Dream doesn’t know, and it’s easier to mess around and argue now that Dream doesn’t know, and Tommy settles into life easier, with a silent breath of relief. He can use this to gather information, he tells himself that afternoon, lying in his bed and scribbling down thought after thought into his journal. He can find out Dream’s weaknesses and his vulnerabilities, his strengths and how to avoid them, his loved ones, his loved things. To defeat him in the end, it’s gonna take all the information he can gather.

But time passes, and Tommy finds himself… Wilbur would have said compromised, if he’d still been alive. Tied down by a begrudging friendship and a strange loyalty to the maskless version of this man who had shown him nothing but kindness and cheerfulness. And it’s sitting at their weekly movie night, half asleep on the couch listening to Dream’s complaints about the existence (or non-existence) of ghosts, that Tommy realizes with some horror that he’s not going to be able to use this as information. Because he’s comfortable now. He’s relaxed. The most heroic thing he’s done in months is save someone from a burning building, and he hadn’t even gone out since because Dream had seen his burns and scolded him and wrapped them up and looked after him until they’d healed.

He can’t use any of this against Dream because fuck it, Tommy actually cares about the bastard now. And that’s the most terrifying part.

Maybe, he tells himself, that’s okay. Because Dream hasn’t been out doing villain-y evil things for almost a month, too tied up in Tommy and the struggles of childcare — not that he’s a child, obviously — and Tommy hasn’t had need to fight him yet. Maybe this has changed things. Maybe they can be happy. Maybe—

And then a week later, he wakes up to hearing the door slam shut.

When he climbs out of bed, Dream is nowhere to be found, there are shrieking sirens on the street, and Tommy knows exactly where his brother friend enemy is.

(And his heart shatters.)

#> diskduo superrivals au #> that one clock guy #> mr plot armour innit #> writing !!

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sixramirez · 2 months

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Hey- been a while. I just want to ask for prayer rn, I’ve been going through the toughest few months of my life and I feel my relationship with God is not where it should be, it’s super hard staying consistent right now so I need a lot of prayer.

Especially with the Israel vs Palestine situation- being partly Israeli myself it’s been very hard hearing what’s going on both sides. Please pray for my family and all of Israel and for Gaza to be free from Hamas and for those kids to be set free.

I also ask for prayer for my dad’s foot, since it had broken and had torn ligaments. He may need a second surgery soon.

Lastly pray for my mental well being, I have been constantly spiraling into anxiety and had very very bad thoughts lately, I’ve been abandoned by a lot of people recently as well and it feels like my heart has been stabbed a million times over.. I really need help getting back on track with God but I cannot do it alone with how badly I’ve been fighting these battles lately. Everything hurts. I can’t catch a break from anything.. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do with myself.. it feels like I’m going crazy and I can’t even show it to anyone anymore because it feels like I have nobody anymore, the more days I don’t read the Bible the more I slip into sin and I can’t even feel anything anymore. The amount of numbness I feel scares me.. I wanted to be numb from the pain and the bad emotions but the exact opposite happened and I feel like it’s all my fault. I want to get back up. I don’t want to feel like this pathetic 16 year old that is bound to fail at everything. So please if you have time please pray for me. I’m in desperate need of deliverance.

Much love and blessings - Lazari Six Ramirez

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deathmetalunicorn1 · 1 year

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Charybdis Part 3: Kojiro vs. Poseidon

-Despair and guilt were the only emotions that Poseidon could feel, as well as anger at himself.

-You, his little daughter, was lost. You had found a new family, a new papa and mama in Adam and Eve, calling them such.

-You now had a massive family, between your new parents, the human fighters, the valkyries, and Hercules.

-You no longer needed him. You no longer wanted him.

-He wallowed in his own anguish, all of which was his own causing, hiding away in a private room that he trashed within moments of entering, then sat for what felt like hours.

-Poseidon was in a fog, unable to comprehend any thoughts other than you, what he did to you, and what he didn’t.

-As a king, he kept all emotions locked deep within him, hidden away from the eyes of others, from the eyes of those who look up to him and respect him, even if it is respect out of fear.

-But seeing you, his child, terrified of him and calling another man, a human man of all things, your papa.

-Poseidon longed for a second chance, to go back in time to that point where he walked away from you and your mother, to take you with him instead of abandoning you.

-He longed to be able to go back and defend you against Zeus; Poseidon clutched his chest over his heart as he could only remember your face when you told him that you were just so hungry, and for it, you were severely punished.

-When the first tear landed on his hand, his hands lifted to his face, finding himself crying. He couldn’t remember the last time he cried.

-When it came time for him to fight, none mentioned his bloodshot eyes, the skin rubbed raw around them as he had to regain his image.

-He entered first, hearing the cheers of many gods, but many who were terrified of him, of his notorious temper and ruthlessness.

-The same ruthlessness that drove you into the arms of another papa.

-Kojiro took a while to come out, as you had wrapped your arms around his knees, making him unable to walk as you sobbed, begging him not to fight Poseidon, or as you called him, The Mean God.

-You were being held back by Brunnhilde, her heart breaking as you were reaching out to Kojiro, calling out for him, sobbing loudly.

-Brunnhilde took you back to Adam, telling him to not let you watch this fight.

-Kojiro made no mention of Poseidon’s eyes, he could tell the god had been crying, but he knew of your past, he knew what Poseidon did to you and what he didn’t do.

-Kojiro respected Poseidon enough to acknowledge that he felt regret for his actions, but he also knew that he was in a fight for his life.

-Poseidon was fearsome, his anger turning on Kojiro, all of his negative emotions coming out all at once.

-It made him powerful, but it also made him very sloppy, reckless, within minutes Poseidon had lost an arm already and had a deep gash in his side, but Kojiro was worse off.

-The samurai had a deep gash in his stomach, as well as a stab wound in his shoulder, and was bleeding heavily from a deep slash in his chest.

-The two locked up and Poseidon glared harshly down at him, “I’m taking Charybdis- my daughter, back from you filthy humans!”

-Kojiro, in a rare show of rage, using his two swords, ran Poseidon through, “She’s not your daughter.”

-Kojiro knew he would never be able to forget the look of heartbreak in Poseidon’s eyes as the god fell back, dying as he hit the ground.

-Once backstage and once he was patched up, you were quickly in his arms, sobbing loudly on how worried you were, as you were upset that he had been so injured, not caring that he had won.

-Kojiro knew he had to do a lot of making up to do to make you happy again, but he was happy to do so, for your sake.

#record of ragnarok #ror x reader #ror poseidon #ror sasaki kojiro #ror adam

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katsune-nya · 1 year

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♡ Masterlist ♡

Requests: OPEN!

SMAU Masterlist.

Headcanons Masterlist.

One Shots Masterlist.

Fanarts.

TR Memes.

Drabbles Masterlist

SFW

Tetta Kisaki:

Stressed Tetta.

Shiba Siblings:

Taiju's lil babies are gay.

NSFW

Hakkai Shiba:

A beast in bed.

Incorrect Quotes:

"Mikey" Sano Manjiro:

Masochist Mikey.

Y/N fell.

Two straws, please.

Mikey is cute and small.

Draken loves Mikey.

Responsible adults.

Anatomy test.

Edgelords.

Little brother things.

Third raccoon battalion.

Step on me.

Difficult life.

Takemichi Hanagaki:

Dating advice.

Push and Pull.

"Draken" Ryuguji Ken:

Do you hear something?

Mikey's love advice.

Being that pretty must be tiring.

The clock is ticking. (Ft. Mikey)

Draken, to the front desk. (FT. Y/N and Mikey)

Edgelords. (Ft. Y/N)

Mikey's in trouble. (Ft. Y/N)

Matsuno Chifuyu:

Fuyu loves chaotic Y/N.

Fuyu is in love.

Dots.

Baji Keisuke:

Kei thinks. (Ft. Fuyu.)

Lying. (Ft. Y/N.)

Hanemiya Kazutora:

Y2K flavored baggage.

Kazu has a very normal crush.

Kawata Twins:

Kawata Twin vibes.

Hanma Shuji:

Lazy Shuji ain't getting any tonight.

Hanma is a Kisaki Simp.

Friends with benefits?

Pick-up lines.

Did it hurt when you fell?

Hanma's motto.

Sapiosexual Shuji.

Give Tetta a break.

Shuji has a crush ♡ (Hankisa).

In love. Ft. Tetta.

Tsundere Y/N. Ft. Tetta.

Kisaki Tetta:

Sapiosexual Shuji.

Stupid Hanma.

You should touch some tits.

Bottoming? (Ft. Hanma)

HanKisa?

"When I first met you-" (Ft. Hanma)

Shiba Yuzuha:

Bro, i had a dream...

Down with murder. (Ft. Emma)

Girls like flowers. (Ft. Taiju)

Don't break someone's heart.

Lets tell a secret.

Cannibalism.

Gay name.

Shiba Hakkai:

Tampons?

Dealing with haters.

Kurokawa Izana:

Adopted.

Sano Emma:

Mikey's grounded.

Emergency.

South:

Climber Y/N.

Mizo Middle Five:

Mizo Five after a fight.

Mizo Five VS big tiddie vampires.

Mizo Five and Joe Mamma jokes.

Mizo Five when Michi and Hina finally do it.

Mizo Mid and the shared braincell.

Mizo Mid under censorship.

Akkun's First Detention.

Mizo Five home alone without Mom Akkun.

Mizo Five playing hide and seek.

What do rainbows mean?

One shared braincell.

It's always Michi's fault.

Mold water.

Would they stab someone?

Platonic pick-up lines.

Friendship is ruined.

"Akkun" Sendo Atsushi:

I'm in love.

Yamamoto Takuya:

You get catcalled.

Suzuki Makoto:

Lolis.

Various:

Takemichi VS Draken when their gfs are cold.

Hina is the best wing woman (Drakemma + Takehina).

Girl Talk~ (Emma, Hina, Yuzuha, Senju).

Housewife Emma (Ft. Draken).

Team Park. (Baji, Fuyu, Ken, Mikey, Tora, Y/N)

Point of view. (Mikey, Fuyu, Baji, Ken)

in the works (please tell me if you want 'em so i have pressure to actually finish them):

SFW

Keisuke Baji Random Texts 2 and 3.

What the characters smell like (mean).

What the characters smell like (nice).

Akkun x Reader (Mizo Middle Five Six, reader is a fellow friend). Mutual pinning.

Shinichiro's First Kiss. (Shinichiro x GN!Reader. Various alternatives cuz i just have so many ideas.)

Mitsuya x GN!Reader. Slow Burn. Reader is in the home economics club. Mutual Pinning. Idiots in love.

Kokonoi x Male!Reader x Inui.

NSFW

Ran x Reader x Rindo (x South) Dom!Haitani Sub!Reader (Dom!Cuckhold!South).

Tetta Kisaki x Reader CNC.

Shuji Hanma x Kisaki!Reader (Tetta's older sister).

Sanzu x Haitani!Reader (Sanzu offers drugs to the youngest Haitani in exchange for sex ♡).

Shin-nii x LilSis!Reader (Shinichiro's slightly younger half sister).

Hanma Shuji x Hanma Reader (Yes, siblings again, leave me alone).

Detective!Naoto x Detective!Fem!Reader.

SoftDom!Takuya x GN!Reader.

Pegging Takuya. GN!Reader.

Sub!Mikey x Mommy!Reader.

SoftPleasureDom!Takashi x Reader.

Sanzu x Male!Reader CNC.

Shin x Imaushi!Reader (Waka's sibling).

#tokyo revengers fanfiction #masterlist #tokyo revengers masterlist #tokyo rev masterlist #tokyo rev fanfic

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worst-siblings-tournament · 13 days

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Round 1, Match 2

Scar and Mufasa (The Lion King) vs Jude and Taryn Duarte (The Folk of the Air)

(Jude and Taryn art by @eerna)

Propaganda under break. Spoilers for The Cruel Prince (Book 1 of The Folk of the Air trilogy)

Scar and Mufasa

Scar literally kills his brother, and makes his nephew carry the guilt around, to take his throne because he is jealous and can. Honestly anyone 90s or younger kids gotta know this in their heart.

Jude and Taryn Duarte

No propaganda submitted.

Poll Runner's Note: But from what I've read, they start off being quite close but, in part because of the faerie Locke staging a love triangle with them (for fun? The guy sounds like a real class act, I hope someone stabs him right in the neck), they became enemies. Taryn stood by and let Jude go through a long term relationship knowing it would end with him going "No I'm leaving you for your twin sister". That's messed up!

Also here's the full version of eerna's art

#worst siblings tournament #Round 1 #Poll #The Lion King #The Folk of the Air #Jude Duarte #Taryn Duarte #Scar Lion King #Mufasa #The Cruel Prince spoilers #poll tournament

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understandableparadox · 5 months

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Shafan Nishal

Shafan has been around since 2015, making friends in the tumblr ftc! They're a Brer Rabbit pastiche, a laid back traveling musician, trickster and occasional smuggler, and they love nothing better than sharing a smoke, swapping a story, and stealing from rich folks. A more or less homeless vagrant they wander from place to place, breaking hearts and singing songs. They make friends wherever they go, but they have a powerful fear of commitment that keeps them from getting too close to anyone. As soon as someone starts looking too attached, they skip town, and boy can they run! Shafan is faster on foot across open ground than just about any troll alive, at least according to them, and they're always happy to prove it with a race. So if you've got a story to tell, a song to share, or you just need someone to deal you weed for a (mostly) fair price, look for the white haired rusty playing banjo on the corner and come say hello!

Erizoh Stilde

Handle: pincushionsApex

Classpect: Knight of Rage

Pronouns: he/him

Erizoh is a jadeblood who rejected the role of his caste from an early age, faking his culling upon receiving invitation to come live in hiding with the heiress instead. He took up the hobby of plushmaking at the heiress's suggestion, and he also dabbles in cross-stitch and crochet. He's honestly pretty pretentious about his art, and is kind of an asshole, but in a certain "wet-cat" way that makes people like him regardless. He has a weird fixation with his grubhood self, specifically stabbing a plush version of it with pins. He was the first troll OC I made, and he came from a dream where he was trying to sell me a cow plushie and guilted me into buying it. I love Erizoh, he's such a loser.

More information here, as well as more art: https://toyhou.se/22085532.erizoh-stilde

#homestuck #polls #tumblr polls

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goodwhump-temp · 1 year

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Ichigo; Bleach Whump Zanpakto to Arrancar Finale Arcs

Arrancar Arc (S6-S8) Bount Arc (S4-S5) Shinigami Arc & Soul Society Arc (S1-S3)

The New Captain Shūsuke Amagai Arc

9x02 / Ep 169 New Development, the Dangerous Transfer Student Appears! - Pancaked 9x03 / Ep 170 Desperate Struggle Under the Moonlit Night, the Mysterious Assassin and Zanpakuto - Blinded/lost consciousness multiple times 9x06 / Ep 173 The Appearance of the Great Evil! The Darkness in the House of Kasumioji - Elbow to the head multiple times, piled on 9x07 / Ep 174 Break the Mirrors Boundary! Ichigos Captivity - Blinded unconscious, paralyzed 9x10 / Ep 177 The Reversal of Rukia! The Rampaging Blade - Blinded unconscious 9x11 / Ep 178 The Nightmare Which is Shown, Ichigos Inside the Mirror - Trauma, emotional pain, choked, hollowfied, knocked back 9x13 / Ep 180 The Princess's Decision, the Sorrowful Bride - Kicked off the roof, panik 9x14 / Ep 181 The 2nd Division Sorties! Ichigo is Surrounded - Stabbed, bleeding, punched multiple times, wanted 9x15 / Ep 182 Amagis True Strength, the Released Zanpakto - Soloing the new captain 9x21 / Ep 188 Duel! Amagai VS Ichigo - Thrown, fireballed to the ground twice, hollowfied/Rukia reaction, trapped by fire rods, pain, fall, mask sliced 9x22 / Ep 189 The Fallen Shinigamis Pride - Knocked back, hit with fireball, briefly unconscious, exhausted, collapse

Arrancar vs. Shinigami Arc

10x01 / Ep 190 Hueco Mundo Chapter, Restart! - Hollowfied, exhausted, shot, bloody, stabbed, dies (recap episode), stabbed, leg punched, knocked down 10x02 / Ep 191 The Frightening Banquet, Szayelaporro Theater - Exhausted, headbutted, knocked down 10x03 / Ep 192 Nels Secret, A Busty Beauty Joins the Battle!? - Kicked, knocked back multiple times, weak, punched multiple times, arm slowly broken, extreme pain, carried, squeezed unconscious 10x06 / Ep 195 The Ultimate Union! Pesche's Seriousness - Knocked down, unconscious, back stomped on, limp, knocked down multiple times, painfully squeezed, passes out, thrown against a wall, head squeezed, arm snapped 10x07 / Ep 196 Joining the Battle! The Strongest Soul Reaper Army Appears - Weak, kicked in the gut, kicked in the face multiple times, almost passes out 10x10 / Ep 199 Holy Birth, The Resurrected Szayel Aporro - Weak 10x12 / Ep 201 Nnoitra Released! Multiplying Arms - Hand electrocuted 10x14 / Ep 203 Karakura Town Gathers! Aizen VS the Shinigami - Thrown

Arrancar: Decisive Battle of Karakura Arc 12x14 / Ep 226 Fierce Fighting Concludes? Towards a New Battle - Knocked down, sliced

Zanpakutō Unknown Tales Arc 13x03 / Ep 232 Sode no Shirayuki VS Rukia! Confused Heart - Knocked down, half frozen, pain, bleeding forehead 13x04 / Ep 233 Zangetsu Becomes an Enemy - Thrown around, pinned, soul taken out of body, pain, knocked against a wall, blasted, weak, hollowfied, sliced multiple times, convulsing, tearing himself from the inside, exhausted, passes out 13x05 / Ep 234 Renji Surprised?! The Two Zabimarus - Unconscious, paralyzed, arms pulled outside of him, extreme pain, collapses unconscious 13x06 / Ep 235 Clash! Hisagi VS Kazeshini - Hollow form restrained/pain 13x09 / Ep 238 Friendship? Hatred? Haineko & Tobiume - Knocked down, briefly restrained 13x10 / Ep 239 The Awakening Hyorinmaru! Hitsugaya's Fierce Fight - Trapped 13x11 / Ep 240 Byakuya's Betrayal - Restrained, betrayed 13x16 / Ep 245 Pursue Byakuya! The Confused Gotei Divisions - Inhales toxin, collapses unconscious, panic of treatment, still sick, restrained 13x17 / Ep 246 Special Mission! Rescue Captain Commander Yamamoto! - Chained/restrained, burned hand 13x18 / Ep 247 Decieved Shinigami! The World Collapse Crisis - Plot to trap Ichigo/In danger, exhausted, trapped by fire 13x19 / Ep 248 Dragon of Ice and Dragon of Flame! The Strongest Showdown - Trapped by fire, attacked by the fire multiple times, caught on fire, pain, trapped in fireball 13x24 / Ep 253 Muramasa's True Identity Revealed - Entrapped 13x25 / Ep 254 Byakuya and Renji, the 6th Division Returns - Trapped 13x26 / Ep 255 Final Chapter: Zanpakuto The Alternate Tale - Trapped, unconscious, restrained, knocked down multiple times, bloody forehead

Arrancar: Downfall Arc 14x02 / Ep 267 Connected Hearts! The Left Fist of Certain Death - Hit by powerful blast 14x03 / Ep 268 Hatred and Jealousy, Orihime's Dilemma - Hit by powerful blast 14x04 / Ep 269 Ichigo and Uryū, Bonded Back to Back - Knocked down, sliced, collapse, bleeding 14x05 / Ep 270 Beginning of Despair… Ichigo, the Unreachable Blade - Huge explosion, mask shatters, weak, absolutely beaten up, thrown/kicked/punched multiple times, choked unconscious, shot through the chest 14x06 / Ep 271 Ichigo Dies! Orihime, the Cry of Sorrow - Shot through the chest, dies, true hollow form, Orihime + Uryu reactions, badass oh my GOD 14x07 / Ep 272 Ichigo vs. Ulquiorra, Conclusion - Rukia/Chad/Renji reactions, horn sliced, mask breaks, collapse 14x21 / Ep 286 Ichigo's Return! Protect Karakura Town - Mask evaporates, squeezed, falls, Kenpachi panic, scared of Kurotsuchi 14x27 / Ep 292 All Out War! Aizen vs. Shinigami - Getting absolutely disrespected by Aizen 14x31 / Ep 296 The Shocking Truth…The Mysterious Power Within Ichigo! - Hollow shocked right out of him, headbutted, kicked off the roof, smothered 14x32 / Ep 297 The Extending Blade?! Ichigo vs. Gin! - Knocked back, sliced 14x36 / Ep 301 Ichigo Loses His Fighting Spirit!? Gin's Expectation! - Face sliced, mask knocked off, weak, bullied x3, headbutted, depressed 14x37 / Ep 302 The Final Getsuga Tenshō!? Ichigo's Training! - Drowning, thrown, sliced, knocked down, stabbed, hollow ripped out of him, pain, blood 14x41 / Ep 306 For the Sake of Protecting! Ichigo vs. Tensa Zangetsu! - Knocked down, bleeding in real life 14x43 / Ep 308 Goodbye…Rangiku - Holy badass im freaking 0ut 14x44 / Ep 309 Fierce Fighting Conclusion! Release, the Final Getsuga Tenshō! - Caught in nuclear-explosion, burned arm, choked, sword broken, knocked back, bleeding, thrown, weak, stabbed in the chest, makes Zangetsu cry, sacrifices his powers, collapse 14x45 / Ep 310 Ichigo's Resolution! The Price of the Fierce Battle - Sad, collapses unconscious, extreme pain, wakes from 10-day coma

#bleach #bleach whump #bleach anime #anime whump #whump #whump list #whumplist #emotional whump #ichigo whump list #ichigo whump

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whumpofalltime · 8 months

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WHUMP OF ALL TIME: Quarterfinals are here!

Find links and propaganda under the cut. Quarterfinalist match-ups are untagged, so your votes and reblogs matter!

Once Upon A Time:

(gifset 1, gifset 2)

"There's blood, wounds, captivity, bondage, a slow-dipping-mechanism, a big rescue, and excellent acting by Colin O'Donoghue - who delivers the tiniest whimper and the most delectable of trembles for our whump-loving eyes to devour!" ~ @killian-whump

All the respect to the Hawaii 5 0 one scene because I haven't watched it and can't judge it, but. Killian was BROKEN. Absolutely and heart-wrenchingly devastated. He was tortured within an inch of his life (… or death, I guess) and practically left to slowly drop into a pit of eternal despair.

Killian was not easy to break. He would get injured and get back up with a sneer and an "I'm alright love you should see the other guy".

But to reach that point? The point of telling Emma she should have kept herself safe instead of saving him from this torment, to hold on to her like she was his lifeline, to SMILE that small smile from the first bit of hope he'd gotten since he ended up there?

The relief upon watching this episode for the first time was visceral. For two episodes we knew Hook was being tortured, we saw him try and fail to limp to safety, we saw his resolve and defiance desperately hold on, we saw him accept his fate, we saw him preferring to be tortured further than hurt his friends… And then he got saved! And he had no witty comeback, no effort to hide his pain. He just fucking collapsed in the arms of his beloved, of his saviour, and held on for a moment to realize that it was real, she was there, he was finally safe.

Add to that some amazing, jaw-dropping, emotional acting by Colin O'Donoghue, how can you get any better than that?

Anyway vote for ouat. Because this whole torture mini arc existing is probably what caused a chain reaction of me understanding and accepting I love whump, so. I wouldn't be here torturing blorbos if it weren't for it 🤣" @piracytheorist

Buffy:

(gifset 1, gifset 2, YT clip, YT clip #2, YT clip #3) thanks to @iamthegodofhalefire for the links!

"It was my first whump and it’s never been beaten! He’s kidnapped, tied up, mandhandled, gagged, thrown on the floor, slapped, tied up differently, tortured with holy water, then is exhausted and woozy from it all - then gets tied up somewhere else and stabbed through the hand to drain his energy. Then collapses at the end! It’s SO good!"

"Angel is kidnapped to give his blood to Drusilla in a ritual to make her better - she’s sick and was turned into a vampire by Angelus (Angel’s evil alter ego) many years ago. He killed her family as part of turning her and she went insane because of it. As Angel is a vampire too, holy water burns him, so she tortured him by pouring this over his skin even 😬 he’s then stabbed through the hand in the ritual and is rescued and collapses to the floor. Amongst other things!"

~ @Iamthegodofhalefire

#propaganda game strong on this one #quarterfinals

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sapphicwiles · 1 year

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5 thoughts after watching 3x1 for the second time

1. How is the 4-4-2 formation, specifically “they’ll know where to be and what to do at all times” going to come into play throughout the season as a plot device? Will the team actually struggle with the formation? Will the team somehow fuck it up so royally and still stick it with, leading Nate to, at some point in his journey, help Richmond do something else? Is it a metaphor for personal growth (i.e. we have to STOP doing the formation) or is it a metaphor for finding your place (i.e. they do really well with the formation and work together)?

2. Rupert having Nate come up to his office to watch his car get towed was a total set up, and I didn’t even notice the first time! “Mr. Mannion wants to speak with you now” but we’re supposed to believe it’s just to talk about Richmond? Come on, Nate. Which brings me to my next point

3. “Accidents have consequences.” That’s going to come back to Nate in spades. Rupert is setting up the downfall of Nate at West Ham; he’ll throw Nate under the bus as needed. This accident’s consequence was a reward, but see how easily it could have been a punishment? Coming into this season, i believed that Nate would probably stab Rupert in the back in an attempt to “even” the score between him and Ted, but now I think it’s more of a prodigal son situation.

4. Two pretty big changes happened in the off season: Keeley and Roy break up while Ted has a crisis of faith and no longer wants to be in London. While I feel Keeley and Roy were set up for the break at the end of S2, Ted’s attitude feels very sudden? I wonder if throughout the season, they’ll continue to tell the story backwards (like how in the sewer, Ted talks about one of the first things he and Henry did during his visit; and how Keeley said ‘if I cancel again he will actually kill me’ coupled with the LOOK Roy gave her and the ‘we’re taking a break’ vs ‘we broke up’ semantics). We have the end results, but we’re missing the pieces that put everything together and I’m curious to see if we’ll keep getting them a little bit at a time.

5. Looking at all the gifs of the different trailers and seeing Roy and Keeley holding hands in Jamie’s childhood bedroom; Jamie showing up Keeley’s house and them hugging; Jamie and Roy having what appears to be a heart-to-heart in the park. All of these things combined have me firmly of the opinion that he’s going to parent trap them. (Do I wish they would all just grow up and kiss each other about it??? Yeah. They have six hands between them, but I digress)

#ted lasso #ted lasso season 3 #ted lasso apple tv #roy kent #keeley jones #jamie tartt #ted lasso spoilers #tl spoilers #Ted Lasso Season three Spoilers #i just have A LOT OF THOUGHTS

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obscuredilfoff · 9 months

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Propaganda below the cut! (Note: there are "massive" spoilers for the Caligula Effect 2!)

Bluffman

He is an actual single Father who is doing everything he does out of love for his beautiful daughter, who he refuses to have a proper conversation with. He is canonically autistic. He is an Epic Divorce Man. He commits plagiarism in order to catfish his twink coworker. There is something so wrong with him (affectionate) and his theme music goes so hard.

Where do I start with him. He’s an (accidentally) absentee dad trying to make it up to his daughter. He learns that she likes Vocaloid and comes up with the grand idea to hijack a virtual reality to make her a “Vocaloid” goddess. This plan involves him breaking into a composer’s house to steal their work and impersonate them btw. He sees nothing wrong with this because it’s in the name of familial love. As for his daughter, she initially goes along with it but gets overwhelmed by her followers. He does not compute her worries because this stunt should guarantee her happiness, right? (They don’t know how to communicate.) Finally, a coworker is led on by Bluffman’s impersonation of his favorite artist, making heart-eyes at him while the dilf is oblivious. This ends up backfiring massively as Bluffman gets stabbed to death by the coworker when realizing he’s been lied to. Love wins 💖 (Ultimately the appeal is of Bluffman is him having good intents but going about it in the most ridiculous and single-minded way without fathoming how this will affect other people.)

The Foe/Duffoure

Leader of an occult mob that trades in stolen lifespans. He's hunting down his kid because they stole 77 years from him. You (playing as his kid) can ascend to immortality by being so pissed at him that you fight forever.

#bluffman #the caligula effect 2 #the foe #cultist simulator #polls #round 1

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hellcheer-heaven · 11 months

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Thoughts on Hellcheer:

What I love about Hellcheer is that while technically it is a “good girl/bad boy” relationship, there was a chance for the show to break away from that formula. The “bad boy” is a huge dork with a good heart. The “good girl” has complexities to her.

What I will share here centers on the small amount of canon from the show. As well as headcanons and my opinions. Please feel free to check it out and agree/disagree as well. I’m open to listening to what you have to say as well.

Eddie Munson

When I went back and watched the forest scene between Eddie and Chrissy, he doesn’t try to demean or manipulate her.

He doesn’t try to make a whole speech explaining that he hurts her because he loves/wants to protect her.

Instead Eddie fake stabs himself in the heart and acts like a doofus on purpose because that’s who he is; and it makes Chrissy laugh.

An actual genuine laugh that she probably hasn’t made in quite a while; she smiles to the point where her nose and eyes crinkle up.

When Chrissy admits that she doesn’t remember who he is, Eddie plays around and is on a role with his comedic timing.

He never insults her or makes her feel bad for not recalling who he is (he redirects to himself, “I wouldn’t remember me either Chrissy!”).

When she does remember, the boy is absolutely ecstatic and she’s just as excited.

Even when he says, “You’re a freak,” it’s in a humorous manner.

I also like to think that if Vecna never went after Chrissy and she tried out the substance, Eddie would have stayed beside at her side the whole night.

Speaking to her about what was going to happen and holding her hand as it started to kick in.

While I don’t know how she would have reacted to the ketamine, I have a feeling Eddie would have never taken advantage of her in such a vulnerable state.

While he’s familiar with the effects, I think he would be really scared of how she’d react to the drug during and after it’s over.

He’d help her get better and regret what he’s done.

Even though she did ask for something stronger, Eddie would wish that he never gave anything to her.

Chrissy Cunningham

Regarding Chrissy’s “good girl” status, the show is really able to give us an idea as to who she is and what her life is like based on the hallucination scenes.

She’s someone that has experienced terrible trauma at the hands of her mother.

Constantly being demeaned and called awful names because her mother is controlling and she forces Chrissy to fit into a box based on harmful standards of beauty and femininity.

If the show gave Chrissy more time, we could have seen the way she acts around Laura: Standing up straight, being reminded to look into her eyes, ordered to speak louder, and constantly being reminded that as the eldest sibling she needs to set an example for her brother.

Yet as soon as guests arrive at the Cunningham home, Laura is completely different person: Warm, inviting, and welcoming to everyone.

Laura would be the kind of person that knows exactly which mask to put on when people are around vs. being surrounded by her family.

Assuming her mother is starkly religious, Chrissy could have also have religious trauma (maybe not to the point of what Margaret White does to Carrie, but still just as terrifying).

Chrissy was taught and forced from a young age to be a “good girl” based on her mother’s beliefs and to also avoid being abused.

She learned to listen and obey, to never raise her voice in anger or frustration, and to never stray away from the assigned path that has been laid out for her since childhood.

Chrissy’s smile is a mask that she wears to hide her pain, pain that she feels guilty for because her mother would gaslight her into believing that she’s selfish.

“You don’t know what real pain is Christine. You should be lucky that you have a roof over your head, clean clothes on your body, and food in the fridge.”

Chrissy’s whole perceived self isn’t just, “good” for the sake of “being good”, she’s someone who has to play that part for the sake of survival.

If given the chance we could have learned more about who she is, watch her make mistakes, learn from those mistakes, and see her grow.

I’d like to believe that she could have had a scene where she stands up to her mom and rightfully tell her to stop treating her so horribly.

That all her life she’s been made to feel awful for simply existing and that she’s had enough.

And perhaps even tell her dad that he was never there to stop the abuse.

When they’re together

They would still be a bit shy around each other, but those feelings would start to dissipate as they slowly become a little more comfortable.

There could have been scenes where they reminisce/wince over middle school.

There would definitely be more moments of “You’re not what I thought you’d be like” as they start to open up about themselves (at least what they’re comfortable talking about).

Typical things such as glancing at each other from down the hall, leaving notes in the other’s locker, and yes getting paired up for a project would have happened.

Eddie would have given his guitar pick necklace to her.

Chrissy would have given her green scrunchie to him.

He would start to open up about himself, telling her about his childhood and how difficult things were for him growing up.

She would talk about her life as well, which would surprise and anger Eddie that she’s been treated so cruelly.

He believed that coming from money meant having material possessions which in turn should have made her happy (it’s the 80s, remember “Greed is good.”).

All of the money in the world doesn’t mean much to her, sure the financial security is important, but there isn’t much love going on in that house.

Then you look at Eddie and how he doesn’t have much himself financially, but he’s rich in life thanks to Uncle Wayne, his friends, D&D, Hellfire Club, music, and his guitar.

Now having Chrissy in his life makes the world much more brighter.

Still that won’t pay the bills for the trailer, and who knows if Corroded Coffin will ever get discovered.

In a sense these two characters would be able to connect because they’re openly talking about their childhoods and their struggles.

In doing so they learn to truly see past what’s on the surface.

A friendship would blossom and perhaps something more.

Also Murray would have a blast shipping them together: “Hey I get it, couple of young high school sweethearts against the world.”

Chrissy and Eddie would fumble their words as they tell him that they’re not together.

The gears in Murray’s head would be turning faster: “Oh I see, Basketball Star Ken (Jason) is out of the picture. Looks like Cheerleader Barbie found herself a new boy toy: Trailer Trash Ken!”

Closing thoughts

Stranger Things could have really taken the “good girl/bad boy” couple and given us something really meaningful. We could have seen two characters that fit into their retrospective groups and watch as they break away from the mold of the “mean and scary” cheerleader and metal head. As much as I like to believe that they would have be a wonderful couple, they would have had their moments of anger and misunderstandings with each like most couples do. They would both learn to unlearn their preconceived notions about themselves, each other, and their affiliating groups. In the end, they would have been voted Hawkins’ most unlikely couple that actually made it work out.

#hellcheer #eddissy #munningham #eddie munson #chrissy x eddie #eddie x chrissy #chrissy cunningham #thoughts on hellcheer

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elvensorceress · 1 year

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Sunday snippet 💕

since it’s Sunday and the lovely and amazing @fleurdebeton @dickley-buddie @gaydisasterdiaz @lostinabuddiehaze @spotsandsocks @fatedbuck @rogerzsteven @ajunerose @eddiediazisascorpio @monsterrae1 @prettyboybuckley @megslovesbooks @shortsighted-owl @ashavahishta @kananjarus @swiftiebuckleys @sibylsleaves @hetrez @masterminddiaz all tagged me in some things (omgosh I love you all) but I was finishing up Eddie vs Feelings and didn’t post anything, I figured we make up for it today?

How would we feel about some Love Spell? 💕😘

Eddie opens his jar of crystals and looks through them. When he moves a few to one side, he touches a rose quartz and it mocks him by shutting off and turning dark. No love for you, cursed one. He can’t even touch it any longer.

He should give away all of those. He’ll never be able to use them again. He has maybe five or six in varying shapes and sizes. He could give them to his parents and sisters, Abuela and Tía Pepa, too. If they wanted to keep them. The last of Eddie’s love should belong to them.

One by one he picks out the rose quartz and sets them on the bad end table by the broken couch. A couple raw pieces, one smooth and tumbled, a little tower. It all turns dark when he touches it, but clears and becomes light and pink and glowy again when he lets go. But the last one, he holds onto, even as it turns black. It fits neatly in his palm — it’s carved into a smooth, round heart.

Tía Pepa had given it him. To remind him of softness, sweetness, gentleness, of love that is unconditional and comes in all kinds, sizes, and mysterious ways.

If he thinks of her, can he still feel it? If he tries hard enough, can he remember having love?

The crystal is still smooth and carries something soothing. It’s just out of reach. But it’s there.

It’s there, love exists. It’s just. Not his.

The steps down to the basement creak with the weight of someone bigger than a six year old. Eddie closes the stone in his hand as if Tía Pepa herself might shield him from whatever is coming. Either it’s his mother coming to shine happiness in his face because he’s getting rid of all magic. Or it’s his father coming to talk because his mother is upset.

At this point, Eddie doesn’t know which would be worse. He only looks up when his father stops a few feet away from him.

Eddie goes back to tucking the rest of his crystals safely into his hide box. He slips the heart quartz into his pants pocket.

“I’ve had a talk with your mother,” is how his father starts, and nausea creeps into Eddie’s stomach.

So, they’ve reached the lecture part of the program where Eddie is a horrible, inconsiderate son who made his mother cry because of his life choices, in which he always chooses the wrong thing or fails in some way because he’s never good enough.

His empty chest already has stabs of pain through it, but he breathes slowly and doesn’t look up. He'd argued because it’s stupid and won’t work. Magic is in everything. But if she wants him to pretend like he can't feel it. If she would feel better thinking that magic is the only thing that might break Eddie, then so be it. But he’d been angry. And so had she.

He gathers a large bundle of dried herbs kept in zip top plastic bags and tucks them into his box to hide away. “What about?”

His father rests a hand on Eddie’s box, his items to hide and keep box, and Eddie freezes.

He should have done this first. He should have been quicker. Those are all of his favorite crystals, his personal spell jars, his tools, amulets he made, a wand Abuela crafted for him with dried lavender and indigo blue ribbon, pressed leaves that hold dreams, his never-ending candle carved with wishes, his own tarot deck. It’s not one he uses as much as his father has used his own, but it’s his. It’s special. Hell, his first communion rosary is in there because his mother gave it to him and he never could give it away even when he couldn’t use it for its intended purpose anymore. But he kept it with his most precious possessions.

He should have packed and hidden all his favorite items before he did anything else. Why didn’t he do that? What if he has to give those things away?

His father looks at him with a heavy, stern gaze. “Are you honestly giving up magic for good?”

Eddie looks around as if there is something that will tell him the right answer. His father knows magic. His father should understand. At least a little. His mother has never been against magic before. She’s just worried. She’s been upset since Eddie cursed himself. He knows that.

But Eddie’s empty chest is pounding. He can’t help but look at his box. He has to keep those things. He can’t give up everything. He won’t even use them anymore. He’ll just lock them away and he won’t practice, but they can’t be thrown out and discarded like they’re trash. They’re hopes and dreams and happiness and calmness and gifts and healing and secrets and longing, and everything he has left of his heart.

His throat is tight and he doesn’t know what to say. So he shrugs. “Mom is worried. She asked me to. I don’t want to hurt her.”

His father frowns and seems displeased, and Eddie just doesn’t want there to be yelling. He can’t take the yelling. He knows he’s a disappointment and a failure and nothing he ever does will be the way his father wants him to do it, but hearing it, feeling the words, the anger, the guilt — it’s too much. Eddie is glass right now. He’ll do something awful and stupid like break or maybe cry. He can’t do that.

He’s not glass. He’s not. He’s ice, he’s stone, he’s iron, he’s steel, he’s impervious.

His hands grow cold and start turning, changing, even without him consciously trying to manifest it. His skin, his muscles, the nerves, bones, blood vessels of his fingers, hands, forearms start turning to frozen metal.

It’s an illusion. It’s temporary. He thinks. He’s pretty sure? But it is also exhausting turning himself cold and inanimate. In a moment, he’ll likely become dizzy, probably more nauseated if the past is any precedent. He might even pass out again.

He shivers but can’t move. It started at his hands but travels further until it’s engulfing his shoulders and swallowing down his chest, and it’s cold but there’s also nothing. There’s nothing. Nothing.

He’s nothing.

He’s weak, and dizzy, and his eyes are so heavy. He could succumb. Plunge into darkness. Finally sleep. Finally rest and never worry about being incomplete or fucked up.

“Eddie. Eddie. Stop.” His father grips his arms and fire bursts through aching bones and muscles. It makes them normal, it makes them warm. It’s nice being warm. It’s nice being touched, protected, cared about.

Eddie sways and tries to keep steady but the back and forth is whiplash, and expending his own energy without any magical aids is exhausting. It would be even if he weren’t damaged. “I’m sorry,” he quickly says, and some of the ice stops growing. He can make it recede. It’s not real. He’s in complete control.

Except he’s in control of nothing and now everything hurts. Is he on fire? Is he frozen? Is he tethered, is he lost? Is he still standing and surviving without pieces of his soul? Or is he shattered and dying? “I wasn’t trying…” he tells his father but doesn’t know what to say. He was trying to be strong and unbothered. He was trying to shove it away, lock it down, move on, get over it.

The ice metal taking over his body is stronger. It grows even where his father is gripping him. It’s growing blizzard windstorm stinging and changing his skin. It’s stabbing and each one is deeper, chipping away at him, burrowing deeper into his flesh and turning it into something else.

It’s one more thing Eddie has done wrong, hasn’t been able to do right, and he wants to cry and beg forgiveness. But he can’t. He can’t. He can’t breathe. The air is too thin. His chest and stomach are turning hard, solid in a different way. Iron and ice and stone and steel.

He conjured impervious. He conjured lifeless. And he doesn’t have any power to stop it.

He tries to make his fingers move, at least enough to clutch his father before he falls. His throat is thin, his mouth his dry, but he rasps out a plea for forgiveness, even if this is all he’ll ever do. “I didn’t mean to.”

“I know.” His father is curt, angry, there’s still anger like fire pulsing against Eddie’s skin, but not part of him.

Not any longer.

Eddie had fire once. He doesn’t anymore. There’s whistling like wind and the smell of metallic frost. It’s filling his lungs with sharp stinging when he tries to breathe.

He’s the whistling. His breath is nothing but thin, reedy gasps. It’s leaving him. It might leave him for good.

His father holds tightly and takes them over to the lopsided sofa. He directs Eddie to lie on the lumpy cushions while he kneels beside him and rests a hand on Eddie’s forehead.

Whatever he does, it makes the freezing whirlwind lessen. The pain in Eddie’s hands and arms recedes. It almost feels… it’s almost soft and warm and being tucked in bed and kissed goodnight.

It’s the one Christmas morning when his father said he had to work but then showed up to be with them anyway. It’s almost the elusive, out of reach, shining thing simmering in the crystal he tucked away and tried to keep.

It’s warm and right there in his pocket. It’s his. It’s supposed to be. Eddie’s arms hurt to move. They’re stiff and cold, weak, trapped, but he has to reach. He has to find it. He needs it.

Eddie pulls the stone from his pocket and clutches it to his chest. It’s almost there. The warmth, the softness, the blanket that falls over loneliness and makes it disappear, the laughter, the loyalty and companionship, the arms around him, the inner peace, the affectionate lovemaking, the belonging, being known inside and out and still accepted. It’s love of every kind.

It’s kind of his. It’s so close. It just doesn’t fit inside his soul anymore.

He whimpers like he’s splintering. Everything is blurry and all the daylight is fading.

His father strokes his head and touches Eddie’s hand. “Give me the crystal.”

Eddie’s hand trembles and tears prickle his eyes. Not his Tía Pepa stone. Anything but that. He’ll give up everything else, but not this one.

But he’s weak. He can’t argue, he can’t even hold on to it. His hand goes limp, numb and tingly. His fingers are rigid, purple, frostbitten. His eyes flutter closed, but he tries to keep them open as long as he can.

His father takes the crystal, wraps it in his own palm, and touches it to Eddie’s chest above his heart, but with the barrier of his own fingers. It can’t change the way rose quartz always does when Eddie touches it. The power it has can’t be blocked. It radiates warmth and protection.

His father whispers something, words Eddie can’t decipher, but there’s love in them. There’s love. He can feel it. The unreachable, untouchable thing that never can belong to him again. It’s still there.

His father loves him.

It’s so much and Eddie can’t bear it. But the pain he brought upon himself fades. It’s melting. No more ice, no more metal and stone. His father’s love is bright and unyielding and it swirls through Eddie’s chest and spirals warmth between all his broken pieces. It’s strong enough to drive away his manifestations of frozen death.

How is he loved? How is he accepted and cherished and not a failure? He grips his dad’s hand and tears burst out of him. He can’t help it. Not when it feels like this. Not when he was sure he would never earn it.

His father’s thumb strokes over his forehead and he leans closer until his head touches Eddie’s. There are still whispers, incantations Eddie can’t hear, but it pours back into him until he can breathe.

For a moment, he has love of his own again. His missing, broken heart can’t kill him if he’s still loved.

He’s still loved.

His father loves him.

#seven sentence sunday #we'll pretend this is seven sentences #I suppose?#fic: love spell #jenwyn wip

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