#stand at the precipice

[aficionadoenthusiast]

i sincerely hope that will's casting looks as much like walker as possible so that the 'not his type' jokes finally die and everybody realizes percy isn't his type not because of hair color or any other physical attribute but simply because nico has outgrown that part of his life and has to let go of it in order to move on. like. please recognize it for the literary symbolism it is. it is important to me that y'all realize this.

#the boy is literally standing between his past (percy) and his potential future (will) and looks at will and decides to let go #literally on a precipice and decides to jump because he doesn't want to be miserable anymore (decides to stay at camp) #stop demeaning lit devices! #this was such a big moment in percy and nico's relationship #AND in nico's life #this entire scene represented nico's inability to let go #it's a precursor to the cocoa puffs #i'm begging you stop diminishing it into some immature rivalry #pjo #percy jackson #nico di angelo #solangelo #pjo fandom #pjo hoo toa #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjotv #rcpjtv

[buckttommy]

recontextualizing this story through the lens of buck/eddie and what it means for them, is like. it's so interesting because recently, i got an anon that asked me (paraphrasing) if i thought 9-1-1 would actually "go there" with buck and eddie as individuals, and that three main characters discovering their queerness would be "too much" for the general audience. and, like, not withstanding that it's actually true to life — that queer people can and do naturally gravitate toward each other even when we aren't out / passing / aware of our sexualities at the time — it's also just like. the belief (or disbelief) that 911 wouldn't "go there" with their stories also comes with this inherent assumption that there's only one way to tell a queer discovery story.

like. when michael came out in season 1, he was already at the end of his journey. he had already walked through the self-hate and forced closeting and came out on the other side to self acceptance. when we meet michael, he is a queer man, a gay man (because the word is important), who has already stepped into self actualization and is ready to live his truth. this is not the story 911 is telling with buck.

and then with eddie, you have this character that is introduced with the idea of being perfect, as ryan said, of having it all together, only for the audience to realize he's not. only for the audience to realize that he's broken and cracked on the inside and that a lot of it stems from war. but most of it? most of it doesn't. most of it stems from his father, and from how he was raised. raised to shut it down, to swallow things whole even if they hurt, even if they make him bleed. he was told to keep it all quiet, repress repress repress. and so. i know this is an unpopular opinion, but to that end, i don't think an explicit queer discovery storyline is necessary for him, in the sense that, subtextually, i think it's already happened. season 5 was very much eddie's unrepression arc. we dug deep into the things that make eddie diaz, eddie diaz. and a lot of that was war. violence. chaos."warzones are my thing." but if that was all that his arc was meant to be, why have it end with a conversation with his father? they could have played that arc out in so many different ways.

for one, they could have had mills still be alive. they could have had her and eddie reconnect. they could have had her and eddie have a conversation where she shoulders some of the weight that eddie's been putting on himself and have him settle into the peace of the realization that he's not alone in this specific thing, that he never has been, that other people survived what he did and that he can find solace in them. but the writers didn't do that. they took it back to his childhood, to the root of where eddie diaz began and they said, this is where you need to go. this is what you need to address before you can heal and move on. so that conversation with his dad that culminated in him choosing wellness, in him choosing happiness, in him choosing safety in his body for himself has very much always read to me as queer acceptance even if not explicit (due to the assumed barriers that were placed on that story at the time).

eddie has always been with women, eddie has always liked being with women, so i'd be shocked if he's ever even thought about the nuances of his sexuality. but his unrepression in season 5, to me, has always made him open to the possibility of falling into whatever comes next, whatever that looks like.

this is also not the story they're telling with buck.

(as a side note, i'd just like to say that queer subtext is still queer existence. subtext is how our stories have been told for generations, well before we were able to take up space on the page, and subtext is still a wholly valid and beautiful way of telling a queer story. please don't forget that).

so then, finally, we get to buck, and he's so very new at this. so very green he may as well be a blade of grass on a country club golf course. and so, despite the fact that there have already been two queer storylines prior, this is the first time in 9-1-1 (and tv!) history, that we have ever gotten to see an unplanned queer character discover who he is at this intimate, detailed level. we get to see buck's story unfold in real time, we get to learn about who this actualized version of himself is, as he is realizing it, and we get to know and dissect the layers and nuances, the ebbs and flows of his sexuality as he's taking himself apart and seeing what's underneath.

friends. this is the story they've always needed to tell.

and so, when i think about buck and eddie, and i think about their progression toward a romantic relationship and what that would look like, realistically and in the eyes of the audience, buck has really always been the missing key. we've talked about it before — who he is, who he was, has in no way been ready for eddie on multiple levels. whether it was because of his insecurity, his lack of place in the world, etc, buck has always been (for lack of a better word) too immature for eddie. eddie is a single father. he doesn't have time to play games, and though he will always love and reassure buck when he needs it, he doesn't have time to heal buck for him. nor should he. so buck was the only one who canonically, canonically, needed to be yanked from point a to point z.

and. it's like everyone's said, even before the season began — buck has been on a hamster wheel, buck has been stuck in a rut, yadda yadda yadda, which means that, as far as the audience was concerned, what always was for buck (women) is what always would have been. and there was nothing in canon, nothing concrete to disprove them from believing so. so we needed him to fall into something, not just radical, but sometime new.

and when i think about buck, and when i think about eddie, and when i think about their stories both as individuals and together, buck has, realistically, been the only real stopping point. at least with eddie, when the time is right and buck/eddie go canon, we, the audience, can go back in time and we can look at the way he came into himself and settled into his identity as a person, as a man, and say, like, oh okay, this is the moment. you know? we don't need the writers to take our hands and guide us through the same processes buck is experiencing because eddie's already had his ah moment, he's already experienced the moment where he decides that his life and his needs and his joy and his liberation are just as beautiful and valuable and worthy like everyone else's.

so when people ask, like, "would 9-1-1 really go there with three queer discovery arcs?" it's just like. well yes. they already have. we've already there. in fact, we're well into the third and final act. buck, eddie, and the audience, are almost ready — as in, actively ready — for each other. and yes, sure, even after the meat of this arc has passed, there will still be some things buck and eddie need to learn — specifically, they will need to learn that, not only do they have feelings for each other, but that feelings for each other is actually an option — but. for all intents and purposes, this is the crescendo before the final chord. this is it. and the thought that we've been here, that we've witnessed these three beautiful queer storylines unfold with these three beautiful characters (two of which are gentle, loving, present men of color) makes me entirely too emotional for words. tbh.

#what 9-1-1 is doing ... what they have done — despite this long ass post — it goes beyond articulation. it really does. #to comprehend that we are standing on the precipice of something so uniquely raw and life-changing in the way queer stories are told — it #doesn't get much better...more surreal than this. i know it's been said but the level of care and intention that has gone into telling these #stories is in itself a rarity. and the fact that we get to witness it — that we get to spend this time together — with a cast and crew that #loves these stories and loves these characters as much if not more than we do? its powerful as hell. what a surreal experience this has been #thinking many thoughts and crying many tears #tv: 911 #jack.txt #meta #long post

[squirmy-little-worm]

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[onceandfuturewarlqck]

thinking about merlin's "I'm happy to be your servant, til the day I die" and merlin's immortality.

so this is the thing.

merlin never thought to outlive arthur. he never thought he'd see arthur die, he never thought he would be the one to burn arthur's body.

merlin was always scared of losing arthur. scared he wouldnt be there to save him. scared he wouldnt be fast enough quick enough powerful enough never enough never enough never enough am I enough this time what do i do this time it's not enough.

merlin was always fast enough.

he would be there to distract the enemies, to throw them away. he would be there, working in the shadows, protecting his king, his friend, his half.

he would be there, ready to sacrifice himself.

(and there is something about merlin and arthur's talking when they have to defeat the dorocha, there is something about both of them saying goodbye, about both of them ready to throw their life away, thinking: this is when i die. and merlin always had the upper hand. and then they don't die, neither of them, and merlin wasnt enough to save a friend but was enough to save arthur, again, again.)

merlin says: im happy to be your servant til the day I die

and merlin means: id stay by your side forever, I chose you, i choose you, I'll choose you, always and forever, until the rivers run dry and the stars fall down and the earth turns into dust.

merlin says "til the day I die" and merlin means "I'd gladly die for you" and never thinks "i'll watch you die a thousand million times".

because merlin was always fast enough.

merlin always thought he'd never have to watch arthur die.

and yet.

(and yet.)

arthur is in his arms and merlin thinks, it wasnt supposed to be like this, and merlin says, you're not going to say goodbye, and arthur says, thank you, and merlin says, stay with me, and merlin says, i cant lose him.

merlin says, i've failed?

and merlin thinks, i wasnt fast enough.

and there is a lifetime of merlin running after arthur, of merlin defeating beast after beast, of merlin reaching out just in time, of merlin making it, of arthur rolling his eyes at him.

a lifetime of merlin telling arthur, "together we will defeat the dorocha", of "if I need a servant in the next life..." "...don't ask me", of "i willingly give my life for arthur's", of merlin following arthur everywhere, at his side, always at his side, and behind his back at the same time, the shadow and the light.

a lifetime of "I'm happy to be your servant til the day I die".

because merlin never thought arthur would die before him.

because merlin always thought he'd die next to arthur, side by side, in a patrol gone wrong against ancient beasts surprised by assassins in a battle in war of old age, when the bones are tired and the eyes are heavy and the hearts are full and the secrets under the sun.

(he doesn't want to be without arthur. he wont allow it.)

so merlin says, ive failed?, but the dragon says, he will raise again, and merlin just understands.

merlin knows his pledge like the back of his hand, like the pulsing of his magic, like the voice of his mother, like his name in arthur's mouth.

merlin promised to be arthur's servant.

until the day he died.

so he roams the earth and walks the fields and crosses the seas and climbs the mountains, and he tells the story of a king so just and kind, a king that was courage, a king that loved his people and that was loved, so loved.

he tells the story of the king's quests and all the knights, he weaves tales about equality and love and freedom and ideals.

he calls him, the once and future king.

and he waits, and works, and waits, and spreads the word, and watches as arthur's life lights a fire in the losts, in the wanderers.

because merlin is arthur's servant.

until the rivers run dry and the stars fall down and the earth turns into dust.

(and, when the days are just on the brighter shade of gold, merlin thinks that arthur never died, because his memory lives, and merlin will carry it on, always and forever.

arthur lives in those that trust in justice and courage and equality and freedom.

arthur lives and is reborn when the wanderer gets back home, whenever someone holds their hand out to those in need, when the weak are protected, when the right is done.

arthur lives in the eyes of those that have faith.)

(on a distant shore of a distant lake, in a time when magic is both everywhere and nowhere, in a time so far and so close, merlin says, "if only they knew you were such a dollop-head" and he smiles and he waits.)

(how many lives you touched, arthur, he thinks. how many lives your dreams have reached.)

because arthur is the once and future king and merlin is loyal servant and he won't allow arthur to die before him.

#arthur is not dead because he is with us every time we remember to be brave #when we are scared and terrified he is the guiding hand that tells us that is okay that the right thing is scary #his the voice that holds us back from the precipice his the echo of you are brave #arthur lives everytime we look fear in the face and say: I'll do whats right even if it terrifies me #he lives when we do whats right when we protect the weak when we stand up for our beliefs #he lives on and on and on and on and in multitudes so many to count #arthur will never die as long as those that raise their voices to aid the other exist #merlin #merlin bbc #merthur #arthur pendragon #merlin and arthur #merlin emrys #i wrote this #merlin fanfic #merlin fanfiction #kinda #merlin ficlet #fanfic #bbc merlin #merlin x arthur

[halfyearsqueen]

she has nothing against daughters inheriting over sons and never has - but she knows the realities that she’s faced as a female attempting to fight for her position when there is a male claimant, and she’s the king’s daughter. with the backing of the king. it was a ? kind of an open secret that many believed she was an exception and not a standard to be set, and she was so incredibly visible and incredibly watched, she couldn’t outwardly express those ideals without worry of men Getting Scared and loosing their support entirely. because she does ? embody the potential for change even if she couldn’t push for it so much outwardly.

#she’s standing on a consistent precipice of honoring what is expected of her as a woman in her society and doing her duty to her father and #to the realm while #also proving that she could rule and rule well in her own right and not just as a avenue in which her husband could rule through her #it’s that sort of duality of vision in the sense of her very existence defies the norms of what is expected of women #and she’s consistently punished for it and like ? this is why she and laena tie her sons and her daughter’s claims together when they’re #toddlers #so rhaenys’ bloodline could sit the iron throne one day and laena’s could inherit driftmark #and like the two daughters who’s claims were passed over during the dance for their brothers is ? her worry over loosing support is so very #exacerbated by her debilitating mental health and mounting paranoia #and the decision very much does come back to bite her in the ass 😭 #and corlys basically tells her in that conversation what she already knew #she’s not a feminist by our standards by any means but that’s ? because she’s been between a rock and a hard place since she was nine years #old #and she wanted to be able to build the foundations for absolute primogeniture during her reign #to be implemented and passed into law during Jace’s

[social-mockingbird]

Valentine’s Day isn’t about romance it’s about eating chocolate and wearing red lipstick if you’re into that and wearing a super overdramatic outfit because it’s the sort of day where that kind of thing is acceptable and being glad you haven’t been beheaded yet and making silly cards with silly pickup lines for your friends and loved ones

#valentines day #it’s a little about romance #but more about Romance #everyone go touch some grass and stand on a precipice and wear dramatic clothes it’s what the Romantics wanted #and everyone keep your heads it’s what St. Valentine would have wanted

[juspeczyk]

big fan of ships where they make each other worse but in such a specific and enriching way that it like. cancels out. like instead of crashing into something they fall into orbit around each other. sure it's unhealthy and sure you're watching it like a car crash and sure you sometimes think you should tranquilize them and put them in little crates and then release them both into the wild on opposite ends of the earth. but then you remember what they're like when they're single and you're like yeah no that's not happening again

#piri.txt #ships #at the point in bg3 where amma is ready to jump off the cliff of blind devotion for her vampire bf and oooooooh it is fantastic #him: dangerously close to becoming his tormentor #her: standing on the precipice all by yourself beautiful? if i jump first will that make you less scared 🥰 #i'm about to make a whole fucking choose your own adventure thing and let my besties vote on the dialogue. intricate rituals etc etc

[hearts-hunger]

girl help i'm getting that “sense of impending doom” symptom again

#the dissociation is hitting hard today fellas #observing myself standing on the edge of some kind of precipice and being totally normal about it <3 #maddie.txt

[tennessoui]

I saw someone asking about "when the lighthouse is swallowed by the sea" and it just reminded how much i love that story. The end where obi wan falls asleep outside anakin’s door and then admits he didnt cry always gets me 😭😭😭

I think the thing I like most about the ending of that fic is that it’s a fic all about obi-wan grieving and it’s so obvious that he’s grieving but then he just latches onto the fact that he didn’t cry because in the moment he’s afraid that even his grief wasn’t enough for Anakin, that he didn’t do it right, that he doesn’t love Anakin right or enough.

But he can’t leave either and that’s why he finds himself outside the door to sleep because he needs to be as close as possible even if Anakin doesn’t want the way he grieves, the way he loves

#asks #also obi-wan snapping about Padmé to Anakin I feel is so understandable imo #he doesn’t mean to because they’re in this moment standing on this precipice it could have easily ended in Anakin kissing him #but obi-wan has just so many words he never thought he’d be able #to say to anakin and now he’s there in front of him again and he can’t control his mouth

[kelprot-old]

6 hours left of mother 3 and then i am DONE !!!!!! awesomeas hell game. to be honest

#feels like if i was any more Into It then i'd be rbing stuff left and right but i like where im at right now #currently a mix of casual interest and standing on that precipice of me getting super invested in a thing #anyway glad its nearly over bc i've had this on my Check This Thing Out backlog for like 4 years now #maybe one day i will finish more of that backlog. hold on pause the tags i can hear fireworks bye im gonna go look for them

[buckttommy]

Buck and Eddie are going to be pissed at each other/one of them is going to be pissed at the other, but not for the reasons you think.

Before anyone asks, I'm not being shady and I don't know how the season is going to unfold, but I do know that in all the years of Buck and Eddie being BuckandEddie, we've seen them survive a lawsuit (essentially: Buck at his most selfish), a kidnapping, a nervous breakdown (essentially: Eddie at his most destructive), a shooting, and so many other things that have yet to actually rock the core of their relationship. I think this—whatever this is—is going to strike at the heart of who they are together and that? That fascinates me.

#Buck and Eddie present probably the most stable and cohesive unit on the show second only to Bobby and Athena and I mean that quite #literally. Nothing either of them has done has ever been done *to* each other. Hen cheated on Karen. Maddie walked out on Chimney. While #there were extenuating circumstances surrounding both of those events that doesn't change the fact that they happened. With Buck and Eddie #hurting each other has always been a byproduct of something larger. In Season 3 Buck hurt Eddie... but it was only because he got caught in #the crossfire between him and Bobby. In Season 5 Eddie hurt Buck by leaving the 118 (and essentially “breaking up with him”)... but that is #only because he was struggling with PTSD. They've never launched direct hits at each other/their dynamic because they have always been — by #all accounts — assured of who they are when they're together even if that assurance doesn't always extend to knowing who they are #individually. So the idea that they might stand at the precipice of having to navigate something they did to each other? Or (as I suspect) #something Buck did to Eddie? That's going to be really interesting to witness. I want to see them test how strong they really are when one #of them pushes the bounds of the relationship. I want to see who they are when they're hurting each other borderline intentionally. #That would be nice. I'm seated and ready to go 🫡 #jack.txt #tv: 911

[chaoticgouda]

hoo boy, haven’t felt like this for a while

#anxious rant in the tags so uh. be warned lmao. sorry i just really need to get this out somehere: #v v anxious and feeling my brain soak in paranoia like dumpling in a stew #when i get like this i want to be irrational and lash out or test people indirectly? #but I know that’s toxic and unhealthy. so. i try to logic myself out of it instead and it works. for a little while #until it doesn’t. actually you know what i just need to go to bed I think #I just hope this is a temporary blip that will be all sorted in a few days #instead of being the first sickening lurch you feel when you’re standing on the precipice of another mental low #bc I swear to god if this is the start of another anxiety spiral and i have to pick up all the pieces AGAIN-

[troonwolf]

Well This Is Awkward

#I had to screenshot this #both because it was pretty #and because it was awkward #two guys standing at the precipice of a beautiful void #trying not to make it weird because they're not gay and one of them hates the other rn #guild wars 2 #guild wars #gw2 #braham eirsson #living world season 4 #also fuck you Braham for leaning forward at the lst second of this shot #but it does make my huge plant look huger #I might draw this lol

[tumbleweedtech]

I came here from AO3 because I went to re-read Standing on the Precipice for like the fifth time, and was horribly dismayed to see it wasn't there (I may have started crying). I get why you decided to hide some of your works though, people are just honestly being dicks. I mean yeah, technically people can write whatever they want in their bookmarks. But without you, the author, there wouldn't be anything to bookmark. And literally all you're asking is for people not to act like complete assholes. I'm sorry that not everyone appreciates the massive amount of work and heart you put into your writing. ❤️❤️❤️

Apologies, darling. It's not deleted. It's in a collection i created for a moment as I figure out if I can finish it. That post was... heart breaking, how many other authors experienced cruelty, but also just incredibly frustrating at how many people defended their right to BE cruel. But there are other personal things surrounding that fic that made it very, very hard to deal with. The hurt from that wasn't from that post, not specifically. I'm taking a break from writing at all, mostly knitting. Bit of cross stitch. Left the Witcher fandom. I'm feeling better. I'm still deciding if I will finish it, or mark it as complete with an apology and the rest of my outline. Thank you for your kindness. I do not want anyone to be unhappy at the fic being taken down- but it hasn't been forgotten. The next chapter has been half written for ... months, really. Please just give me a little more patience.

#min talks #standing on the precipice #I pour a lot of my heart into many of my fics #because love and kindness are such complicated topics

[adamprrishcycle]

Also a playlist to go alongside each chapter of greywaren? Wow sobbing

#I know we’re all as dramatic as each other #so does anyone feel as though they’re standing on a precipice #when a new book you care about a lot comes out and you’re waiting to read it? #yeah I feel nervous #makes me need the toilet #tmi? but I know you know #greywaren #tdt #the dreamer trilogy #ronan lynch #text

[noxtivagus]

shadowbringers!!!!

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #spoilers #particularly amaurot brainrot rn #with emet-selch. n full fathom five. neath dark waters. ykyk #THE TEMPEST #'The waters recede. The Tempest's floor is laid bare. In defiance of the blinding sky/ this place holds fast to its gloom.' #'The last refuge of he who denies the light with every fiber of his being.' #'You stand at the precipice/ hero. Journey unto the Heart of Darkness. Finish it.' #i remember that so well!!!! #the parts w amaurot n all are still among my fav parts of the whole ffxiv story #even the song. #i love water. the sea. ocean. n then yk with to the edge as well. the lyrics w angels n light n dark #remembrance as a core theme with emet. and they faced their end. while here we 'heroes' are to stop our end #hermes similarly is actually tied w emet now for my fav chara. but in a way that def i'd still choose emet always #bcs hermes w the. wings. bird. freedom. understanding. his loneliness. the stars. flowers. blue #emet w azem tho is smth that's really special to me #emet-selch always told the truth. he wanted us to understand. and remember. slave to sentiment; captive to love #n then the nier quests sob i'm still not over that. 'vestiges of paradise' n everything there is still stuck in my head #'Some days ago/ a light appeared in that endlesss darknesss.' :') opening lights like he's back home #n then w hyth. just a moment of weakness. how painful remembrance is. how painful it is to be alone for thousands of years #how it twisted him. n then w endwalker pls pls pls �� #he's such a fool for holding unto hopeless remembrance. but i would've done the same. i would have done the same #'And yet...I fancy I hear his words to us echoing throughout this ocean trench. He would have his story known.' my beloved ;;;;; #his heavy burdens. & 'Surely Emet-Selch has recognized the hint of “her” in you...?' PAIN #'The decision to press on lies with you. Just as it lies with each and every one of us...' HDFJELKDFJLKFJD #ffxiv shb hurt so much oh god i rmb crying so bad. the story-telling is so good.... #You wage a titanic battle not only against Hades/ but the hopes and dreams of Ascian-kind/ of which he is the keeper.' #'In the end however your own unwavering conviction brings the ancient being low. You have done a great & terrible thing.' ow