I don't want to be your British babe.
Is that how you remember me this way?
Why do I love the steel ambrushions, the metallic taste on my tongue.
I dont know why love feels so impulsive.
You may be through with the past but its not through with you.
You slide through the doors.
Have madness overcome the delusions of death.
Thinking the shadows of darkness have followed me.
If love is toxic brutal and cruel doesn't mean that isn't beautiful.
Sometimes it's better that you have lost, cherished fought through the termuplustions journey.
How do you know when a star is born, it's something you wish for like greatness, power or prestige.
I don't want to be your babe, like it's just a word that says I'm an attractive object, that is so nice and pretty that never does more than is expected.
I can't help if I'm American or British, should I be proud or loud.
It's better than having nothing at all.
If my intellect annoys you, repluse you, I'm not your British babe, I'm not the object of your desire.
If everything has a price wouldn't it be nice, if after every misconspection you have seen or heard.
If I was meant to live with abuse tainted with a veil, it was always there like a stalker calling me.
Until it grabbed me said everything I thought was true, until I met you, you were injured but undetered from the visions that you had forseen.
If my eyes are wide open screaming in technicolour, I was dared to move was the truth that I was never loved, all it was just a means to end, I wish I never knew what I did now.
It chills me to bone what is home, family, love, honour and respect.
What is there to belief when if problems start from a child, psychology, confuseing emotions, messed up from the start, you see why I never feel safe.
So when I hear those wedding vows, how can you trust someone when all you ever known was toxic, battered abuse of power.
3/4/24
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Salutations !!
I haven't been here in a while, I probably will vanish once again. This Blog has been fixed to be a place for a series I have been working on. Much of it is all over the place but I am still planning on posting it here. So things may change, who knows.
If you guys want to see stuff this is fan works, redesigns from fandoms I like, or non-TFParty art it'll be on my other account named @kuma-xeno
For now here are possible logo ideas that will appear when I have time lol
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how terrible it is / to love something death can touch
1) anne carson, eros the bittersweet // 2) billy-ray belcourt, a history of my brief body // 3) the haunting of bly manor (2020) // 4) lee martens // 5) albert camus, state of siege // 6) death cab for cutie, i will follow you into the dark // 7) mary zimmerman, metamorphoses // 8) the last of us (2023) // 9) hozier, work song // 10) keaton henson, you // 11) madeline miller, the song of achilles // 12) achilles and the body of patroclus, nikolai ge (1855) // 13) emily brontë, wuthering heights // 14) a star is born, i’ll never love again // 15) halsey, graveyard // 16) evanescence, my immortal // 17) the haunting of hill house (2018) // 18) imagine dragons, wrecked // 19) hadestown, wait for me (intro) // 20) carl andreas august goost, orpheus and eurydice (1826) // 21) the mountain goats, no children // 22) fred elwell, the wedding dress (1911) // 23) p!nk, who knew // 24) shannon barry // 25) jamie anderson // 26) wandavision (2021) // 27) taylor swift, seven // 28) franchesca cox // 29) halsey, ya’aburnee // 30) the lovers of valdaro, found in mantua in 2007
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