(995) we think in polaroids
i'm a poet, we think in polaroids
snapshots of this here this now
artificially and chemically aged
composed of candid framing
i haven't lived a snapshot in awhile
or maybe it's why i don't remember dreams anymore
i used to dream of snapshots
these pearls on a string where i'm present in myself
an unmistakeable situation
instead of day in day out just people rubbing themselves on my last raw nerve
once, the rickety staircase and the sea of trees twelve years before in sleep to presence
a black dog labrador slinking under the chainlink fence
that's all in the past now so
does that mean i'm where i'm supposed to be
are there more polaroids to come
aging yellow and black a chiaroscuro in 50mm
the feel of a you gripping my shirt in your trembling fist too stoic to cry
the lines of our apres vu fading away even before you open your mouth
is this a dream i want to dream or is this a dream where i'm supposed to be
you doubletake when you see my university license picture with all the lines faded
i gave that t-shirt away or it's piled holey in the landfill
i was half my weight now but it's all the invisible burdens like punches and my stomach paunch
i used to live more in daydreams than in the screams embedded in the drywall
but i closed my eyes and gave myself up to overstimulation instead to sleep at night
did my snapshots die or did i kill them myself
trying to cut apart polaroids with dull scissors they rend jagged and don't split clean
i used to garden ideas like resettling dead land
they flowered in places until i choked on them
i knew going in that as i got older i got more rigid
more the camera, less the polaroid
more the hardware, less the art
less creative less imaginative less less less
was that written in the stars or did i do it to myself
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Having fun in the Winter Wonderland! ❄️
🎄Merry Christmas🎄
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Right next to the Pacific to be specific... #staygolden I shot this handheld with my canon 1V HS. #iykyk I'm also pretty sure that pixie stole my necklace. #film #kodak #filmisnotdead #analogue #pixie #sunset #analoguephotography #teamcanon #portrait #portraitmood #uncoverme #portraitstream #portraitGames #portraitVision #couple #worldofportraits #eyes #pursuitofportraits #pacific #denverphotographer #coloradophotographer #californiaphotographer #portraitpage #portrait_vision #discoverportrait #canonphotography #portraits_vision #portraitphotography @portraitmood @portraitstream @portraitvision @pursuitofportraits @justgoshoot @portraitpage @portrait_vision @noisybokeh @portraits_mf (at Santa Barbara, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CpbMUYEuDkT/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Stay golden Tumblr!
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A day like today in 1985 The Golden Girls premiered in NBC. And 37 years later we are still in love with these girls like day one ❤️ right? #goldengirls #thegoldengirls #bettywhite #rosenylund #blanchedevereaux #beaarthur #dorothyzbornak #estellegetty #ruemcclanahan #thankyouforbeingafriend #s #sophiapetrillo #goldengirlsforever #staygolden #cheesecake #pictureitsicily #sophiapatrillo #shadypinesma #AlejandroMogolloArt https://www.instagram.com/p/Cifh7W8Mcft/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Country roads, take me home... #countryroadstakemehome #sierrafoothills #goldenhourlight #staygolden (at O'Neals, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CiymwkprSMZXZ73HuX026_jNDN8I8LVpFf2Gz40/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Happiness fits funny, like
Bathwater that makes your forehead sweat
Even as it holds you
Still, even as it makes you feel
Good and safe and warm, it
Still makes you squirm
And wish you could wash yourself clean. But
You know there’s nowhere
You’d feel any cleaner.
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madsillustrated // "Stay golden."
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(1003) grey
next to the delight
of sun-drenched afternoons
running around with friends, rough-housing
always welcome no matter how far i came from,
warm smile and bright laughter:
i just wanted a bright and happy home.
i used to imagine a gate
the lovingly maintained thin wooden one,
a silver lock with icicles dripping on it, the gate swinging in winter winds.
the garden, white-crystallized, there the flower beds, hibernating
leading to a half-ajar front door
golden light pouring through from inside, a warm-wood staircase,
a cracked-open light to laughter and love and friendship.
where I would look at the door and I would shut the gate;
they wouldn't want it to swing open.
and trudge on into the winter, lose myself in it.
i look at the me that is me
and i feel like, almost, my life is washed stone
grey and with bits of moss breaking through it
every now and then a white flower.
I care about my friends. I like my life.
I've made my own house now, built it out of the snow.
on good days they are bright memories.
but these are grey days that only ever end
when i lose myself in work and worry and weight
and even then it's not like they end, i just stop noticing them
i read and i imagine what it is like to laugh and love and be loved
rough-house with friends, play in sun-drenched afternoons
i never had that. i'll never have that.
sometimes i miss what i never had with a fierce hollow passion
and everything else is passionately grey.
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Commission work for @/KaneNorbury on Twitter 🗒️
Drew his OC Guv.
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#straightfacts #deadfacts #flatfact #real #reallife #realtalk #onpoint #life #lifelessons #liveandlearn #live #and #learn #beyoutiful #staygold #staygolden #golden #gold #shine #shinebright #bright #stayreal #staytrue #staytruetoyourself https://www.instagram.com/p/CqJXbbxOsYT/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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🏆 Simple, Yet Eefective. You know your Golden, let the world know! Get it now on Etsy. Link in Bio. #staygolden #sticker #decal #etsy #gogetit https://www.instagram.com/p/CpYfg95r8gL/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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