April is shook and so am I
can we just talk about this scene for a minute?? so i went into this show with absolutely no idea that these two would get together at some point, so when April locked the door and turned around and that bass music started bumpin, i was understandably SHOOK.
bc wow, not only did they give a romantic storyline to one character who started the season losing her virginity to her long time boyfriend and another character who’s in a straight-straight alliance...
but i was also shook bc of APRIL’S FACE.
do you see the desperate longing and yearning on this child’s face, in her EYES?? someone sedate me i’m
this look doesn’t just come out of nowhere.
April’s been quite possibly waiting for this moment (believing full well it would never come) since the 5th fucking grade, when Sterling not so subtly gave her away. skip ahead 5 or 6 years, and Sterling finally wants her back. and not just back, but BACK.
Sterling is one of April’s Adeles who come back from Arizona!
but instead of feeling threatened by April’s intensity—like the actual Adele—Sterling always returned that same intensity head on (and is now returning it to the point where it matches April’s), so not only am i shook, April’s shook.
and by April’s own words, she is intense, and so she buried that shit so deep (not her sexuality but her feelings for Sterling) that the moment her feelings are reciprocated, like that VERY moment, April’s like “it’s on,” proceeds to lock the world out, and jumps Sterling’s bones, quite literally crashing their faces together without a moment’s hesitation.
i mean, she barely put any thought to it, leading me to believe she’s definitely imagined kissing Sterling countless times before.
Sterling—the girl who was supposed to be her, quote, mortal enemy, like, less than a week ago. Sterling—the girl who ditched her in elementary school when she got her first bf. Sterling—the girl she always seemed to compare her wins (and losses) to, even when Sterling had no idea.
Sterling, Sterling, Sterling.
April had been competing against Sterling for years to be the best, when in actuality, all she really wanted was to be seen by Sterling as the best.
but the poor baby gay had been suppressing those feelings for Sterling for so long that she confused a complicated crush with “i must crush her,” only for a kiss from said crush to wake her the hell up.*
like c’mon, look at these last two stills—if that’s not enlightenment, idk what is
*our gay modern day sleeping beauty, what did we do to deserve
LGBTQ+ representation on television
It just makes me feel better, OK?
It makes me feel like I belong in society.
It gives me a reason to laugh when people are being a******* about who I am.
It gives me hope that I will find love.
It makes me feel less alone.
It allows me to connect instantly with other lgbtq+ people.
It makes me cry because I actually empathize with the heartbreak.
It makes me angry because sometimes there is too much heartbreak.
It definitely enrages me when a show I love is cancelled.
It empowers me to want to write more lgbtq+ characters.
It makes my heart flutter when I see how I love on TV.
It inspires me TO LIVE.
Sterling: [runs to hug April]
April: [steps aside]
Sterling: Hey! Why did you move?
April: I thought you were going to attack me.
Sterling: I was going to hug you!
April: Why would you hug me?
Sterling: Why would I attack you!?
Finished Teenage Bounty Hunters last night.
This is a show I'd been heavily judging from afar. I can't help that it looks cheap and corny and all-around bad at first sight and for the first five, ten minutes. But then I decided to get over myself and *actually* try it, as in, watching a whole episode. And boy, am I happy I did.
I can't believe Netflix canceled TBH. It's creative, different (in the best possible way), whip-smart, much of the dialogue is purposefully dumb and honestly so funny it had me in tears a few times. The acting is impeccable (April's subtle face acting had me wanting to write a whole ass essay about it) and the character growth is *chef's kiss*. I'm also angry bc Sterling and April were endgame FOR SURE (and I'm usually very hesitant to say that about f/f pairings) and were left broken up 😩 not to mention the found family of it all, the great chemistry between the twins, the mom, BOWSER, how they satirized Evangelicals without straight up mocking, all the teen dumbness and quirks – it was all SO good.
Also, and again: the acting. The perfect acting.
So much wasted potential. Ugh.
the way april scrunched her face when sterling told her about wanting to hold her hand at the lock-in was so heartbreaking, bc she did want to hold her hand, she just can't. she's not ready yet.