do you guys ever think about how the SU movie ended with such an air of melancholy. do you ever think about how at the end of the big adventure instead of cheering and celebrating Steven just looks solemnly off into the distance at his once again destroyed home and quietly accepts that he will never truly have a happily ever after. he will never know the peace of having nothing left to fear or fight. the lesson he’s learned at the end of the day is that he was wrong for trying to be comfortable and safe. because after all:
a drawing from 2020 that I completed while contemplating the relationships and flower symbolism in Steven Universe.
Image Description: At the top of the drawing, Pink Diamond clutches a bunch of pink hibiscus flowers. She looks distraught with her eyes closed. She’s colored in dark pinks and purples. The flowers she holds are light pink, and there are blue forget-me-nots and also butterflies. Petals and butterflies seem to fall from the bouquet Pink Diamond holds. Beneath Pink’s arms, Spinel and Pearl are seen, in their first forms, looking with troubled expressions into space. Pearl is illuminated in yellow light and holds the hibiscus that Pink gifted her in her hair. Spinel is in purple shadow, with the orange alien butterfly from the garden perched in her hair. Petals are reflected in both Pearl’s and Spinel’s eyes. The heads of flowers, butterflies, and petals are falling around them. Beneath them, to the left, is fully grown Cactus Steven. His back is turned, with just a portion of one of his faces showing. He is frowning. He is in blue shadow, but covered in cactus blossoms that seem illuminated in pink and yellow shades. On the bottom right side of the drawing are butterflies in orange and yellow light among the pink flower petals. At the bottom center of the drawing is Steven, appearing as he did at the end of “Prickly Pear”, holding the cactus blossom given to him by Cactus Steven. He is looking sadly thoughtful at the blossom. He is illuminated in yellow light.
There was this fanfic where Connie wanted to out-propose Steven. (I can't remember what it is or where I read it... I'll edit it here when it's found!*) And there was this one night where she considered dropping the stress of constantly being worried about how to do it and about Steven proposing to her first because she couldn't decide fast enough; and just ask it if Steven wakes up and sees her holding the ring. That wasn't how it went however and she did eventually propose to him more dramatically, tears and smaltz and all. It was pretty nice and sweet. (I just can't remember if she was the one who asked first...)
It'd be pretty funny tho, if she makes it all anticlimatic and did ask him that night.
*This is the fic in reference, and man, I really misrecollected some parts. ^^;
ya know, when I first finished SU Future, I didn’t think that I liked that Steven leaves Beach City at the end. I worried that it was too soon in his recovery. I wondered if it was healthy to venture out on his own, putting some distance between himself and the gems + his dad
….until I came to a place in my own trauma recovery where I moved out of my moms house and went to another city to live alone (but nearby some supportive friends). I was still a mess. I was still struggling a lot. But it was the absolute best thing I could have done for myself and it ended up being a great and invaluable recovery milestone
sometimes you need to get away from the places where you were harmed. sometimes you need to get away from the people who have harmed you — even if they are still your loved ones and part of your support system. sometimes you need that room to breathe and feel freedom and focus completely on yourself.
sometimes, you dream of going somewhere else. and that doesn’t mean you’re leaving everything behind. it means you’re moving forward and continuing to grow