I've struggled with anxiety and BPD for most of my life. My adoptive mom also has MH flare-ups from time to time. Sometimes I wonder if I learned this behavior or if it’s always been a part of me? I’m 35 years old and I’m still battling anxiety and BPD. So often, I wish I could turn off my feelings and emotions. I get so worked up I lose track of myself and end up giving into my behaviors. I’ve tried self medicating & self-harm, neither helped, both caused more problems. I don’t want to continue to feel like this, overactive or like I’m “that person” in the room.
I’m currently on suboxone and in substance abuse recovery. I’m not sure if my medication adds fuel to the fire that is my anxiety and BPD behavior? I know, I feel my MH disorders holding me back from living the life I want to live, and being who I want to be. I want to be open, social, talkative (knowing whatf to say). I feel like if I don’t fix myself, I will never succeed in my job as an administrative assistant. I cannot be shy to talk on the phone when that’s my job. It’s things like that, that make it difficult to live with social anxiety and BPD. If you see someone acting “off” or not what you consider “normal behavior,” please show compassion, offer assistance, be Kind to one another. We’re all part of the human race and we have to help each other through this life together. May we find peace and healing, & rest for our souls. #RemoveTheStigma #mentalhealthawareness