way back when when i first started playing with beckham, i was doing so off-cam to build up his life skills and experiences. welllll, those life experiences came with... a pregnancy. 😩 i never planned to share it bc obviously, clearly, thankfully, they did not go through with having it. and i did contemplate on it for a second. but ultimately, that wasn't their path. i was only allowing him one pass though, so if it happened again, he would have to keep it. heaven wasn't even a blip in my universe at the time. beckham was intended for someone else, but then she met someone else, so he was just gonna be coasting through the world.
i never gave much thought about whether beckham told heaven this part of his past, but after this day's events occurred, i think it's clear that he has. no secrets, all truths. which is why when heaven saw her, finally, this happened.
this is also very telling to why sister scratchy can't let him go. i mean im sorry girl, but damn it, he's married now.
Well, woke up still feeling bad today. Have an emotional hangover this morning. Still very sad and very angry at this point. Mad at Disney, mad at Beau, especially mad at Rogue for the way she’s treated Gambit during their “talk”. I can’t believe they killed him off?!?! I watch TV and read fanfiction and comics to escape my adult life responsibilities. These things should not add to my emotional distress. I’m asking myself that if I’m so miserable, why am I continuing to watch it? I’m giving it to the end of the season, if Gambit is not back, I’m not watching this show anymore. In canon comics he is alive, well, and happily married to Rogue. That is where I’ll spend my energy on. 
I'm not suprised that public voted croatia especially ex yu countries cuz fucking Let 3 started in the 80s, these mfs have been on stage for more then 30 years
i’m going to scale the side of david jenkins house and gnaw my way through the siding into his attic like a squirrel and I will eat the flooring and slowly lower myself onto him like a spider from my new attic hole while he is asleep in bed and I’m gonna smack the absolute shit out of him
still feeling really demotivated in terms of my nightstar bodysuit (for obvious reasons i think) and yes i cried for 45 minutes when the thing didn't fit and i couldn't move on to the next stage (added beaded fringe instead of the feathers for more movement and fun and tying the costume thematically to circus and showgirl performance wear) but i am slowly coming to realize that i'm just doing it for the absolute love of the source material and the character and it's okay if i have to start over