#still studies

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[chikkenhawke]

enraptured by the shape of this beast 🐣

get stickers etc -> here

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #owlbear #owlbear cub #dnd #dungeons and dragons #chicken scribbles #sorry for catfishing with bg3 art i still havent played the game kjasdjkads #i love his expression it reminds me of the face my dog pulls when she gets her picture taken 😭😭 #doing a run cycle for his animation and these were some studies :^)

[marzipanandminutiae]

quotes by Victorians about the 1920s view of their generation's women

"We are frequently told that the Victorian woman...generally behaved like a pampered and neurotic infant. This is all moonshine. I do not think that I ever saw a woman faint before I came to London in 1869, and not often after then...they enjoyed a hearty laugh, and a good many of them a contest of wits with any man." -Nineteenth Century, a Monthly Review, 1927 (written by a man born in 1850)

"What queer ideas the girl of 1929 has about the Victorian period- they are not a bit true...Marriage was by no means the end and aim of our existence. Oxford and Cambridge claimed quite a few of us after school days were over. We had great ideas about 'life' and what it all might mean to us." -St. Petersburg Times, 1929 (written by a woman born in 1853)

"True, debutantes were chaperoned at balls. But that fact did not prevent them from dancing as frequently as they chose with their favorite partners. The idea that girls in the Victorian era spent their days sewing seams and practicing scales is another fallacy." -Gettysburg Times, July 1, 1927 (quote from the Dowager Lady Raglan, Ethel Jemima Somerset, who lived from 1857 to 1940)

#history #when they were still alive to defend themselves #maybe- much as I rag on modern historical fiction -we've gotten a bit closer to the truth than our grandparents did #see this is one reason I love studying the Victorian era (besides hoarding their detritus like a dragon I mean what) #it just is One Of The Eras Of All Time in pop culture #and it means so much to so many people that getting to the real human bottom of it fascinates me #spoiler: it boils down to 'people were people and always have been'

[nikoco11]

MIDNIGHT COWBOY

#my art #digital art #illustration #drawing #artists on tumblr #clip studio paint #study #slowly breaking free from my cute fun pinterest art era while also still doing that sometimes #it feels good things are good #cowboy #yeehaw

[lochlot]

morgwen study

#morgana x gwen #merlin bbc #Merlin #morgwen felt like lovers to enemies and merthur was the opposite #probably a popular take #digital art #artists on tumblr #fanart #merlin fanart #Morgana #guinevere #morgwen art #morgwen #merlin art #morgana pendragon #morgana le fay #queen guinevere #guinevere pendragon #lesbians #wlw art #wlw #sapphic #procreate #merlin 2008 #I’m so sleepy it’s defeating me um #still haven’t finished this show goddamn #art #art study #goodnight

[attleboy]

Can you give some tutorials on how to/how you draw Pomni? I struggle with drawing her hat. XD

oh yeah of COURSE!!! :D i've waiting for this moment... literally! i've most of this sitting around for like, a month but, idk, i worried it'd be like, egotistical(????) to post a pomni tutorial unprompted..? but now i have been prompted so the floodgates shall open!!! >:D pomni be upon thee

(here's goose's pomni expression sheet in case you haven't seen it yet)

and if you're interested in how i draw her with sharp teeth, i've already made a tutorial on that!! check it out here :D

#hope you don't mind the mess... ^-^; #this is a mix of studies from canon plus a couple parts where i explain how i adapt things into my own style #i think i indicated the differences clearly enough but still be mindful of those discrepancies #the amazing digital circus #tadc #pomni #my art #my tutorials #ask response

[frenchublog]

70's....

#spuffy #btvs #btvs fanart #well technically #not really #but still tagging #spike #spike btvs #punk spike is special to me #studies from you know which episode #he's so moron coded #my art #please don't repost

[madootles]

looking back on a crime scene that he created

#edward elric #fullmetal alchemist #color study #photoshop #bro fuck photoshop and fuck my computer bc I don't run anything but the internet and ps on this rickety thing and it still can't handle it #fma03 #fma #fmab #I'm SORRY he always ends up cuter than I intend #he was supposed to look annoyed but he just looks small and sad sawree #fan art #art #this pose is not my fave at all but. whatever

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 207

Danny does not come out of the portal. 

In fact, he’s lost. Very lost. He just wants to go home and is getting scared of everything around him because he doesn’t know what’s going on. But! But he’s found an (admittedly also terrifying) castle or keep or whatever they’re called that all the ghosts avoid!

It never exactly enters his mind that they might have been avoiding such a place for a reason. 

In unrelated news, the first thing Fright Knight sees after his sword was (accidentally) knocked free from its prison is not a blob ghost- they’ve done it a few times over the eternities- but a ghostling. A newborn ghostling, who promptly bursts into tears to his genuine horror. What did he do?!

#Prompts #Danny Phantom #DP #Dad Fright Knight #He’s trying to calm the few-days dead ghostling #Danny is like the size of a small child compared to Fright #Danny being a Halfa didn’t get the instinctive information other ghostlings do #& thx to his parents’ study doesn’t know ghosts aren’t all bad #Fright (slightly panicking): Would you feel better if I gave you a blade?? #Danny does get a very big (for him) knife that Fright gently adjusts his grip on during their adventure #Fright: Is this the area you came from? #Danny: No :( #Fright: Would petting Nightmare make you feel better #Danny: Omg a horsie yay #Amity does still have to deal with the rest of the ghosts while this is going on #Then one day there’s this whole ass giant hell knight and tiny child standing there #Fright Knight: I have had this ghostling for (insert number of weeks) and if anything happened to him I would release Pariah to destroy eve #Fright Knight #Danny Fenton

[honehonn3honey]

#This is the year of Kirishima on this blog ladies and germs? #Color study and study to stop being afraid of Rendering #For some time I wanted to use that reference image My mind could only think Kirishima Kirishima Kirishima Kirishima Kirishima #But I wanted it to be the closest thing to reality and the time came #His tattoos are something I have in mind that he would have #And also would have on the neck??? But I did not know what to do with that #I still have a lot to learn and mold but I’m happy with the cute smiling sun #〔 honneydraws✩°˖🫐 ⋆｡˚꩜˙ 〕 #〔 theme: boku no hero academia 〕 #〔 ꒰ 💭 ꒱ thoughts: kirishima 〕 #digitalart #fanart #art #bnha kirishima #kirishima eijirou #kiribaku #kirishima x bakugou #eijirou kirishima #krbk #kirishima x midoriya #kirideku #mha #krdk #boku no hero acadamia #bnha #bnha fanart #my hero academia #mha fanart #drawing reference #digital art

[peanutseagle]

The part 2 of damian asking anya 's hand was so cute, thanks for taking my request

If u accept requests could u plz draw Loid secretly spying on Anya on her date with Damian seeing if he is a good bf or not

#i swear i wasnt planning on making this emotional #djdhdhd #loidy still sees her as his silly lil peanut girl who hates studying and wants a silenced pistol #over a decade has passed since then??? who cares???? #loid forger #anya forger #damian desmond #damianya #spy x family #i've been having a very yucky art block. and im still not quite over it but im tryingggg #please bear with me other 2 requests #my art

[sopuu]

different flavours of grain

#mcyt #grian #mcyt fanart #grian fanart #lil colour study #the last one is so watcher coded for absolutely no reason other than purple cool #his wings arent based on any bird in particular atm i still dont know if i want to go with the parrot route or something else hmm #expect them to be inconsistent lol #sopuuart #good soup

[maddie-w-draws]

💕!

#tim drake #dc robin #bernard dowd #dc comics #artists on tumblr #illustration #my art #timbern #like a month since td:r ended but i liked it a lot- so sad it got cancelled and rushed at the end but still enjoyed it #lots id like to draw but its been a busy summer #trying to get more practice with backgrounds- wanna do some proper studies later

[aregebidan]

i love you goncharov mythos, i love you innate human urge to make things up, i love you tumblr blorbos created By tumblr, i love you meta insight into current internet attitudes toward character archetypes that's inherent to this process of creation, i love you opportunity of witnessing yet another major event for very online people, and most of all i love you katya

#she sounds cool #goncharov #tbd #the more i think about it the more i realize that this is the single most interesting thing that's happened here since i made my account #like. sure nov 5th 2020 was wild but the goncharov renaissance developed completely independently of real world events #people aren't posting memes about geopolitical events anymore they're posting memes about a New Thing #with No real world equivalent and making up everything about it ON THE FLY #and it STILL retains some internal consistency because of the types of characters/traits that have grown into their popularity here #and i just think media studies people who write about the internet are having a fucking field day right now

[mobius-m-mobius]

#so unserious 😂💖

#owen wilson #tom hiddleston #loki #lokiedit #marveledit #and in doing so is actually the most serious of them all which is why he's a master at the craft 🥰 #the chimp documentary still has me on the floor though god i love owen so much #honestly need to study him under a microscope lmao there's no one in existence more fascinating and his choices elevate every scene #for my anon who wanted some panel gifs! apologies that the quality is obviously rough but this was my fav available moment 😂 #as usual their improv saves lives i'm never getting tired of them discussing how much they added to the show #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs

[mooncakebun]

Probably the last post for the week since this whole ordeal of falling back into TGCF hell made me lose a dangerous amount of sleep 😆

work in progress

#in the deepest hell of studying digital painting #tgcf book 4 #tgcf spoiler #tgcf fanart #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #tgcf art #tgcf #xie lian #work in progress #mxtx tgcf #jun wu #white clothed calamity #I'll never change #still loving the whole white clothed calamity arc #yes book 4 is my fav #I'm mental #tgcf book 4 spoilers #hell I forgot the signature again #blood tw #cw violence #bai wuxiang #white no face