I always feel like an outcast because of certain things I like.. and one of them is being infatuated with my own smell.
I'm a 馃挬 lover and I always put myself down because of it.
If I'm honest, since I'm pretty open about a lot in my life. I'm always reluctant to admit these quirks but the smell of my used diaper is addictive. The mix between lavender baby powder, 馃挦, and 馃挬. It's a perfect combination that I adore.
And days where I'm not im not my best, this smell is calming.
I get judged a lot by the not just the ABDL community but from others looking in. Its OK to not like what I like and to say things that are hurtful. Because I've heard it all at this point. It doesn't get easier by any means. It just adds to the guilt I put on my shoulders.
My point being is I get asked a lot about the guilt that comes with being a ABDL Christian. I put off that I don't have any guilt or shame what so ever. But that's not true.
I do have guilt, shame, a heaviness on my shoulders. Because I enjoy something that society deems disgusting. I battle with this everyday. I continue doing my work as if I'm not struggling but I do.
I'm working on it but I thought sharing this would let people know we all struggle with something.