#stop defining everything

[oneweek]

modern media literacy is so cooked like what do you mean you gave saltburn a .5 star rating because it wasn’t the class consciousness film you wanted that’s not what the fucking movie is about… ‘they made it hard to keep rooting for him and identifying with him’ idk maybe don’t project onto every character in media you come across & then get scared when they act in a way you wouldn’t

#like not everything is superhero vs villian #not everything is defined as a good vs evil #morally grey characters exist and you guys just keep proving you cant handle them #like for the love of GOD!!!!!!! #watch the movie as it is and stop fucking trying to make everything something you want it to be #i could go on and on but #saltburn #rambles #random #movies

[kujakumai]

"Ishizu Ishtar had to bury her father's skinned corpse on her own after watching her little brother stab him to death and both her siblings disappearing overnight without so much of a note or any indication she'd see any of them ever again, all while thinking over and over about why didn't she see the goddamned door alarm" is something I think about a lot btw. Worst 24-48 hours of her entire life bar none.

#LIKE 14-15 YEARS OLD. i do not think she stopped crying like the entire duration. #no wonder the certainty the necklace offered was so tempting!!! her entire life is over!!! everything that defined it!!! in like ONE DAY!!!

[paellegere]

thinking... maybe there's something to be said about soul survivor and salvation. this would be the first time sam has actually saved dean in the show since faith. sam has protected dean several times by sacrificing himself, but every time sam has tried to save dean's life in the same way dean so often saves sam, he's failed. i didn't think about this at first, but curing dean of being a demon really should count as saving dean's life.

so that opens the door for the interpretation that by giving himself into codependency at the end of season 9, and through the role reversal that persists through seasons 9-10, sam is able to step into dean's shoes, which does involve saving his brother's life because that's what dean does. in that case, it's another way which the narrative rewards their codependent relationship: the more codependent they get, the more capable they are of keeping each other alive (the most important thing). it's not until sam wholeheartedly embraces a codependent relationship with dean that he finally sees success in his endeavors to revive dean and bring him home to him. by contrast, dean was able to bring sam back all those times because he was all in with their tangled-up, unhealthy relationship from the start.

insane show for insane people. seriously

#supernatural #wincest #i will never stop talking about 9.23-10.04 sorry #this show is so crazy for rewarding codependency and unhealthy attachment. i appreciate that #spn is like if you don't give up all of your independence and personhood you'll never be able to achieve what you really want #you are a failure unless you define yourself by your brother and he defines himself by you. unless you are two halves of one whole #unless there is no end to you and no beginning to your brother. unless everything about you is inextricable from him #.txt #the winchester gospel

[bonefall]

where’s that little horror piece about kits never growing up in Starclan? because I remember it so vividly but I can’t find it.

The one about Bright Stream?

Weird that it's so hard to find! It's probably because it's got such heavy tags lmao.

I really mean it though like, canon's permakitten system and the idea that Bright Stream is up there, forever taking care of fetus children who were filled by sudden knowledge and yet never grow past that point absolutely horrifies me. Jesus Christ. I don't know how anyone reads that final scene in Path of Stars and isn't filled with itching, white-hot existential dread, man.

Sometimes you just gotta write horror about it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#partner and i were joking the other day about how like #they are the one known as The Horror Blogger and im the funny cat guy #because it's literally the opposite irl. you have NO idea #They are the one who is squeamish and I am the one that is like #only scared if there's 17 different kinds of existential horror #Which tbf is important in my line of work #But let me tell YOU. One thing that gets me every time? Fucked up afterlives #Probably from all the religious trauma but. Still. #''turns out your whole life is actually teetering on the precipice of a steep drop into the jaws of unknowable gods-- #and their concept of omnibenevolent and omnimalevolent are self-defined'' #''in death your life only has meaning to those still living and yet you're conscious to experience it'' #''you will helplessly watch people you thought loved YOU reduce your memory into how you SERVED them'' #''Powerless to stop it you will find that you were only valued as a tool in someone else's life'' #''There is no peace in death just being tired and uncomfortable forever'' #EURGH #It's why my most feared monsters are actually ghosts and vampires and certain zombies #Because it's not really about the monster it's more about what that monster implies for the afterlife #Certain zombies especially. ngl. Night of the livin dead 2 has the scariest ones ever #Intelligent. Violent. Able to FEEL themselves rotting and the only relief is to consume everything you ever loved #BRR #they did eat a bunch of cops tho so... at least they have that going for them #BONES MCRAMBLES IN THE TAGS #bone babble

[eroticcannibal]

Still frustrates me that ppl dont know what trigger means (and if u agree with this post im probably talking about u)

#its actually a very broad term and includes everything u keep saying isnt being triggeref #because its not a strictly defined term and never has been #everyone has been grabbing at it to use it when convenient for decades #if u mean trauma trigger specifically then just say that #if u mean ptsd trigger then say that #and stop arguing about what counts and what doesnt #because youre wrong and wasting your time #word of god #and yes triggers can just be something that makes u angry

[mariautistic]

something that's been on my mind as of late is the way people see some characteristics (specifically a negative one) of themselves that originate from traumatic events in childhood as somehow interfering with their "true self", and wantning to get rid of it through methods of self help/therapy/etc., but that the attitude itself can easily be a manifiestation of self hatred. like how traumatized does one need to be for their self centeredness to be pathologic instead of simply an aspect of themselves. how wrong are you allowed to be as a person and who draws the line. why can other people be shy or rude or loud or selfish and still be normal while all these aspects are seen as pathological only thanks to a more clear point of origin. when does it become a sport of dehumanization against yourself

#.txt #was ruminating on it but that conversation in mister miracle where big barda and scott are talking about their trauma and how it shapes #their ideas of how to decorate the house #and barda wanting to reject the traits she's acquired from her trauma while scott doesnt #and in a way trauma defines you because everything that happens in life defines you you know? #like the constant state of unraveling of the self that doesnt stop and while its good to not let it exclusively define you its also like #at what point are you just rejecting yourself and fueling self hate and at which point is it healing #anyways

[soracities]

What do you think about the concepts of masculinity and femininity and everything and anything in between and beyond?

as concepts i think they're both Fake & we should consider blowing them up

#truly not a fan of either in this economy #i think everything and anything in between and beyond is something different & maybe more freeing but also not something to be externally #defined if that makes sense #they dont exist objectively and if we could stop acting like they do & just leave everyone alone that'd be Great #ask #anonymous

[youngestdaughtersyndrome]

Can i be a hater for a second. If i have to hear mother by meghan trainor again i am actually going to hunt her down for sport

#like ive spent my entire life trying to get men to stop defining me by my relation to them. i am an independent being from you. im NOT your #fucking mom learn how to do the dishes and your own laundry. i should not need to be related to you in some way for you to respect and honor #my opinion!!!!!! also like mansplaining is the tip of the iceberg when it comes to misogyny (hello femicide) and the issue is that a lot of #people are actually listening to men over women on literally everything so like. ugh #i hate capitalist feminism i hate the pathriarchy being downplayed as if it doesnt have a body count that continues to go up i hate it!!!!!! #and i hate that 'feminist music' now means songs like this instead of literally anything with an actual feminist message. dear lord #hollyws #brought 2 u by a man trying to use mother by meghan trainor in an argument. also the next man who calls me mommy will be hunted down.

[myrmica]

my reading of lifesteal season 4 is so personal and involved at this point that even if i was going to post more character analysis i would not know where to start. it would require footnotes to documents that don't exist. listen to luddites and lambs by everything everything and you'll get half of it though

#m #lifesteal #there is just such a compelling and clear thematic line between like. okay #first you need to just accept for me the idea that zam as a character is defined by being trapped running both towards and away from #the same object (mapicc) #and then you have to take mapicc as interchangeable with pain in general but specifically an inescapable normalcy of pain #which is caught up in something zam wants and knows he wants which is the “pure/natural” idyllic version of lifesteal #where every fight is fair competition #and what mapicc has done to hurt him more than the actual stalking and murder and all of that is that mapicc refused to fight him on even #ground (by literally invading and destroying his home so that everything becomes battlefield) in a way that offends his most deeply #held values. AND THEN he reads vitalasy's use of the exploits as trying to take that same thing he fundamentally values about lifesteal #away and he gets incredibly angry with vitalasy for hurting the server itself (pvp becomes functionally obsolete for a while there) #so he plays out the eclipse betrayal framing it in his own mind as another situation where he is the victim and vitalasy is the #manipulator/aggressor and falls back into the kind of jumpy paranoid behavior we as the viewer haven't actually seen from him in a very #long time now (late into eclipse when mapicc isn't an active threat anymore he really does stop jumping at shadows the way he used to) #and seems comforted by the familiarity of it if anything. because what vitalasy was asking of him that made him panic and reject it so #badly was to create a new pattern and step out onto unknown ground but he can't do it #and he retreats back to what he knows. so vitalasy isn't WRONG to read what zam does as victimizing himself #and forcing vitalasy into a villain role that is literally what he is doing #but vitalasy on the other end still has his own entire set of things he is not dealing with #and so the relationship created by these two people is doomed by their inability to look themselves in the eye more than any of the actual #facts of the relationship itself #and the thing zam wants lifesteal to be is not and has never been real. the thing vitalasy wants lifesteal to be is also antithetical to #its nature they are both wrong #but zam is wrong in that he wants to return to an idealized imagined past that does not actually exist #(see also vague historical allusions in his castle and his name and him trying after vi's death to cast off violence completely and return #to the land somehow. and the association created incidentally between stone tools and rudimentary technology) #and vitalasy is wrong in that he's trying to create something entirely new that nobody but him actually wants via the exploit #(see the way that once the exploit is 'out of the box' it can't be put back in and the course of the season is set in motion and any attemp #s to fight it and change that course are futile as allegorical to sudden technological advancement being met with violent opposition)

[alloutshirt]

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#fuck i can literally feel my heart breaking #ive been alone my whole life but i feel really alone in the world rn #he really came in when everything fell apart and now ive lost him too #im so sick of having no value to people when i was convinced i did #ive always refused to let bad experiences define me and become cold and closed off #but maybe that’s what you need to be #and i don’t know how to do that #how can you go from talking to someone all day everyday for months to saying hey i think we should completely stop #pls don’t reply to this i just need to get it out

[eribent]

you ever just.

ache.

#filled with longing and an unreachable desire on this fine thursday morning #they asked me to wingman for them and then pulled me so close the night i got back from the bar- #i brought up how comfortable my new band shirts are and they said they cant think if anything hotter than a future partner wearing their #band shirts - i just. #i brought up how important my music taste is to me and they said the most attractive quality in a partner is their taste in music #but. they know. i'm trying to not have feelings for them anymore they've explicitly said they don't have feelings for me in that way but. #it sure fucking feels like they do the way they talk to me and just. bring up relationships sometimes. #we established best friends and fuck buddies while i was out. and i'm genuinely okay with that #but honestly. i'm starting to actually doubt it if they keep bringing up how much they want the things we do and the things i bring up #in a relationship you know ?? #like. it stings. kind of a lot. #to be reminded that i loved them and we were in a relationship and now they want everything we defined our friendship and relationship by #with someone else #like #fucking ask me back out or stop. it's kind of too much right now #original post

[biohazard-inevitable]

Loooooveeeeee one piece’s take on justice

“Justice will prevail? Of course it does! The winner claims justice, it doesnt matter which side”

LIKE THATS SO RAW

#one piece #like yeah- whats defined as justice can be so grey actually #the pirates are fighting to save ace #and pirates are illegal so the navy is out to stop them #everything is so gray i love when the sides are so gray

[fembutchboygirl]

I remember that time i told my ex that if they were a bad person i would love them anyway. And then i did

#ohhh girl you didn't even know the truth of what you were saying... or maybe you knew it too well #it's hard to define “bad person''. but i can define ''harmful person''. and regardless of intentions that's what they were to me. #my posts #even after i broke up with them i kept loving them #fully DESPITE what they were and what they did. and it destroyed me. but love doesn't just stop like that #i think maybe i still love them a little bit even though i wouldn't touch them with a 6 foot pole #because everything i loved (love) about them is still there. it's just that everything else has become visible. #anyway cutting them off... freed me #which is weird to say because i don't think either of us knew how much that relationship stunted me socially #but oh my god i lost so much time. so many relationships i could have been a part of. i'll never not regret that #i could have been friends with so many people that i never had the time for #i don't think it's fully their fault. it's at least as much mine. but being with them regressed so much progress i had made around that. #i was so constantly anxious and stressed and terrified of other people #oh god this is getting long #well it feels nice to process that here #thanks for hearing me out

[tvrningout]

y'all remember when i said maybe cyrillo dies?? i take it back. he's faking his death and retiring to some village by the sea bc i said so uvu

#and actually i think that would be a more fulfilling end to his story for both cyrillo and readers #bc his thing is that he pretty much is living to help others and doesn't give himself that same care #he doesn't neglect his health or anything but the dude never goes on vacation #he throws himself into war when he swore he'd never do that again but it's like!! someone's gotta help the free army!! #so i really like the idea that maybe there's a situation in which it /appears/ cyrillo died #but nah he lived and he retired and became a no one like he was before everything happened #and he's happy he's finally living for himself and taking advantage of his second chance at life /for himself/ #for both cyrillo and rin i think a big character-defining trait of theirs is that despite what they've been through and will go through #they love life they love the world they're in they love people and so i think both of them are gonna have that choice #go rest or go back to work #and workaholic cyrillo chooses rest in the form of disappearing to a lil village #and rogue rin goes back to work bc she can't help it. she can't deny that people need her #and hers is a lil more serious bc sunna is like 'i don't gotta resurrect you again. you could die and be reborn anew' #but no rin loves her life despite everything. she's not ready to go yet #AAAHHH SORRY FOR THE RAMBLING I'M :' )))))) #i wanna try to write a lil more before bed so let me stop asdfg #headcanons | dórverold #headcanons | cyrillo #i don't wanna lose this just in case bc of the tags uvu

[macbringsitback]

Sorry bestie I can't talk right now I am once again having thoughts about FX's The Bear

#me whenever stories revolve around the love and losing of it all: gonna make this a part of me now #i cant stop thinking about how everything is about Michael for most of the characters and yet no one can talk about him #like its just so good. #his presences in the narrative is so defined by his absence and its just masterfully done i wont get over it #and the music??? fucks #the bear #the bear (hulu) #carmey berzatto #sydney adamu #richie jerimovich #i swear im gonna collect my thoughts on the way Carmey Tina Richie and Fak cant talk about/seperate Michael and The Beef #vs Syd and Marcus who didnt seem as connected or didnt know him and can embrace the changes readily #like theres something there but i need another rewatch

[saltedsolenoid]

my breathing has been really fucked up lately

#probably a side effect from catching covid #kinda sucks though. i already have everything else wrong with me. #and my circulation has been out of whack. i think that's exclusively just me #i can't talk for prolonged periods of time anymore. that kinda sucks. i love talking #need to make a defined symptom log that isn't tumblr #anyways moving on #i've been having more trouble standing and walking lately. like. which is surprising considering it was already hard enough #and i haven't stopped shaking for a long time #also. last thing i promise #my hand strength has been like. gone. for the past while #that's why i haven't been drawing nearly enough. i can barely hold that pencil and my hand straight up stops working ten minutes in #writing is also hard #i #eughhh #Anyways end post