#strife.text

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sometimes commissioners r so annoying. i say this as someone who takes & orders commissions. this person contacted me over discord, got thru the whole process of describing what they wanted, talked price & options. i send them a watermarked idea sketch. it has now been over a week since theyve responded. but the funny part is im IN a discord server with them & they are active in that server. they just havent answered me at all in almost 2 weeks when they were answering daily previously

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i am thinking abt the inferno line "i know i can be the man that i should be"

#strife.text #like. im sure its abt the whole galo arc he Technically goes thru #w trying to be his own person (arguable how well or how clearly this was executed) #but also. transgender

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also WHO made this dog. top right corner. who animated & drew this cartoon fucking dog

#strife.text #promare

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also.... how does lio's promare protect galo. after lio is functionally dead. like lio was absolutely dead in the parnasus at the big kiss scene, that's not deniable. so how... is the promare... connected with lio.. still working with lio's will while he is. dead

#strife.text #can galo actually connect somewhat with the promare? #does that specific promare have an individual will? #why would it want to keep galo from burning when they want to burn #hello???

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working on an oc design but he doesnt fit in my main oc universe so he needs a new one, so making a new universe. didnt want him to just be dnd universe either. he gets a whole universe. he gets the worst lot out of the entire universe but like. its his

#strife.text #one day ill get back into writing lol

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i know you can def pass this off as simply time constraints & its a movie so blah blah but also... it's interesting how immediately galo took lio's information on kray to heart. galo proclaims kray is his Hero repeatedly & looks up to him immensely... but this man hes only known as an arson terrorist says "hey this dude is evil man" & galo feels that SO HARD he goes straight to kray to ASK. this is his hero & inspiration, & someone decidedly well respected & admired. feels like galo MUST have had doubts about him for longer & lio's information was just the spark (lol)

#strife.text #im just thinkin abt it

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fic working title was originally "pulled me back from things divine" bc that was my og idea... but now im thinking of just "trial by fire" instead & im 🧐

#strife.text #we'll see when & if i get to posting

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gonna b different from first pmare fic but not fundamentally... i like writing abt certain things so they always show up :] this Should be imagery heavy & let me get this one description down finally

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fact checking things before remembering 1. making my own lore & 2. pmare is a hot mess with no genuine timeline. my city now

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in my head it's gal-lo not gah-lo

#gahlo sounds bad to me. wrong for character #strife.text

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i may have ordered a custom connie bunny plush 🥺😳

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also: we can assume a lot of these mutations are germline (occurring in sex cells, so they are present through all ur cells). super strength sounds Global (some difference in muscle fibers, epinephrine processing, etc) and would be unlikely to be somatic (as a change in a single/few cells seems unlikely to do that). galos hair is blue and so are his eyebrows... not like he just had a some cell zapped on his head & he has a blue streak. SO the promare radiation has provided Heritable genetic alterations, so even if you keep the canon ""promare leaving"" these mutations will stick around

#strife.text #they cant change the allelic frequencies unless they occur often enough or confer some advantage but #they wont Disappear

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posting here bc tiny blog lol but hi... thinkin about my Me. many times since uhh middle school ive thought like hmm i could b autistic, i feel like that fits many things abt me & then my next thought is always like but clearly i cant be bc then someone wouldve noticed or i wouldve had more noticeable issues or im just imitating something bc i read about it

#strife.text #just thinkin out loud hewwo #and clearly not saying the counterpoints r like. good?? #like obviously the idea that if i was autistic i wouldve had to have had difficulties/issues/problems/etc isnt sound #just what my brain goes to to say nah

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entirely unrelated but i was thinking abt france bc i had a dream abt being in france again & i was jusg all of a sudden smacked by the smell of monoprix. those stores. they all had such a distinct smell. not great but it was there! monoprix smell. none of my friends got it but trust me.

#strife.text #places have smells!!!! some are bad!! some stores i will avoid bc they smell!!!!

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WAIT my pmare fic is a year old now. wtffff

#strife.text #i can write better now 😮‍💨 but i cant rewrite it

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@matoitech that’s also a thing! it could def just be propaganda, since oooooh mutation scary wahh... then it just makes you go like ok well... what is it then. How are people... connecting... with fire aliens... that they don’t know exist. how do the promare suddenly just like Ignite a human person when they get mad at a phone

#strife.text #talky