#stu my beloved i want to think abt her more

[taketheringtolohac]

what are your thoughts on stu trololol? (and tilly <33 if u want)

I think that Stu and Axel’s relationship is something so interesting and also so tragic... like your older brother that you grew up with who you LOVED and ADMIRED and you have nothing but fond memories with him and he just becomes so consumed with blaseball and like his entire life’s goal is to BECOME a car... and I think in many ways she would see that as a betrayal of HER and wanting to get rid of what makes him HUMAN and his past to get away from the everything about blaseball and she thinks that that’s his way of leaving her behind. He was just a regular guy! He liked beer! He liked playing blaseball! And then he sort of just... lost it in those early seasons and when he went in for surgery to install the arm cannon I don’t think she visited him in the hospital because she was just ANGRY. I think she probably regrets that now that she’s a lot older and she’s been through so much but like... she definitely blames the game for taking her brother from her. They never had a great relationship but they CARED about each other because NO ONE ELSE DID and that’s all that mattered to them and they weren’t as nice to each other as they should’ve been, but they showed up when it counted and that’s what really mattered. When she was mad at the world and questioning and so lost in her own feelings that she felt like there was no end the person who was ALWAYS there for her was Axel. He was the first person she came out to! And he took it SO well and he always supported her and he even came out to her after she did it and that’s a moment she holds close to her heart.

When Tillman shows up on the thieves he reminds her SO much of herself, but also of Axel and everything that their relationship wasn’t. She sees how much he fucking hates himself and how he’s just physically incapable of processing his emotions and how he deflects by just being an ass and she recognizes how hes feeling because SHE remembers being like that when she was in high school and scared and alone, but she had Axel to help her when he decided to be a good brother and so she decides that it’s finally her turn. She’s gonna force that boy to start thinking about the consequences of his actions or so fucking help her. And it’s hard at first! She has to tell him a lot of hard truths! And they fight a lot, but Tillman always knows that she’s right at the end of the day and he doesn’t always listen but her words do just live in his head all the time and she KNOWS that and that’s a win for her. Deep down she loves the kid, and she knows she’s hard on him but she just doesn’t want him to make the same mistakes she did and get lost in that downward spiral of hatred and feeling the need to be awful to just feel ANYTHING when you get attention. When she takes him to pride for the first time after finally getting him to admit he’s gay, she’s reminded of her first pride with Axel, and she smiles.

#so anyways i miss my car boy :( #haha did you know that axel was a season one– *is immediately shot on site* #ty caz icon ily this was fun but you did make me think abt tilly which :/ i know we broke the streak already today but still 😔 #stu my beloved i want to think abt her more #stu trololol #axel trololol #tillman henderson #blaseball #proxy roxy asks